You are my sunshine

I wish I could talk to Anon more, but my head has never been so confused in my life. It was a mix between wanting to go and at the same time staying that I couldn't explain. Strong feelings that came to ache inside me at the same time as fear haunted me in a way I've never seen before.

If Hector continued to be that debauched and characterless man I saw a few months ago, it would be easy to say goodbye. But the new Hector I was getting to know was so sweet and kind that it made me want to throw myself at his feet, doing exactly what he wanted.

Why had life been so cruel to me? Why did Jardel appear so many years ago? What is his purpose in my life? Show me how horrible a man could be and destroy the good part of me that still existed?

I often thought he had come to make me grow. But now he doubted it. Jardel came to finish me off and ruin even my future.

My heart said: Play, Barbara! Hector is the love of your life. You stayed with him when the man had two wives and now that he's will