My chest contracted even more in pain that fucked up my mind as much as my body. I went back to the maternity glass, looking at those two kilos of flesh with a mouth and a name, squirming, so fragile, so beautiful, so dependent on me. The pediatrician watched me carefully and beckoned me with her finger. The nurse went to the door and authorized my entry.I sat in an armchair, watching another baby go to the room, as the mother had already returned from the delivery room. Maria Lua was brought to me, placed on my chest. I stared into those pale eyes that opened in my direction, looking unfocused, the skin wrinkled , peeling slightly.Yes, she was worth anything. It was a love I couldn't explain in a thousand years.Ah, Hector, I give you up while accepting your daughter as mine. How ironic. I want to hate him for what he's done, but I can't see his eyes in hers.Aside from her pale green eyes, which certainly could still change color, she looked totally like Salma.- We will show you
I looked at Ben:- I knew this wouldn't work. - I sighed, resigned.Sebastian came to me and pulled back the thin blanket, which covered part of Maria Lua's face:- What the fuck are you doing?- I'll take care of her. Salma asked. - I said, trying to justify myself.- Fuck!- Don't talk loud, it will wake her up. - I asked.He ran his hands through his hair, his face reddened.- Who is this child's father?- Hector. - I confessed, my voice almost inaudible, lowering my head, embarrassed.- No! - he screamed. - Is not true!- Don't fucking scream! – I walked with Maria Lua, stunned, taking her out of the room.Sebastian followed me:- What's on your mind, Babi? Because brain I'm sure it's not.Ben took him by the arm and looked at him steadily:- Wait, Sebastian. Let's explain everything. Take a break.- No time. Either tell me now what's going on or I'll cancel this fucking certificate. You've both gone crazy together, you can only... - He ran a hand hard over his face, going up to h
The first bottle that Ben and I prepared was something to talk about. We didn't get the temperature right and with every drop of milk she slurped, we were afraid she would drown.The diaper that Ben changed leaked the first time, being put on the opposite side. Baking ointment? What is it for? How many times a day do we use it? Should she sleep on her side, on her stomach, or on her back? Is it normal for her to sleep so much? What time does she open her eyes?- Let's leave the cell phone to wake up every three hours. Each one gets up once to prepare the milk. - He suggested.- OK. But she sleeps in my room until we buy a crib.- That's not fair. Why not mine?- Salma asked “me” to take care of her.- But “I” bought all the clothes she has. And “I” went with her to the hospital, because she wanted it to be that way.- But it demanded “I” during childbirth.- Because you had more time than you knew her. If I had known her twenty years, I would have been the chosen one.- It is register
- Okay, thank you for answering in the name of God. By the way, I think you're still my god... Only Greek. When I'm by your side, it's like nothing else exists, just you and me.He placed his finger on a panel on the door, causing it to automatically open.- Okay, should I cut your finger when I need to get in? That's it? - I started to laugh.- I'm God! He yelled, opening his arms as he entered and the lights automatically turned on.I stood just as the door closed, taking in everything around me, trying not to marvel at the view. The place was just gigantic. A living room with L-shaped sofas and white carpet (yes, who, in their normal state, would put white carpets in the living room, for others to step on with their shoes?). As the space was large, the room, even in enormous size, seemed to dance on the light gray floor, which looked more like a mirror.Behind, all you could see was glass and blackout curtains, open, showing the whole city. A glass staircase (yes, I said glass stai
Hector opened his eyes and looked at me, taking his time, making each minute seem like an hour:"You can..." he said in a weak voice.I approached him, slowly, knowing that maybe it would be the last kiss, the last time, as our encounters always were: an unknown, a mixture of emotions and feelings always on the edge... So every second needed to be put to good use.I knelt down and touched his neck, feeling him shudder under my touch. I smiled and brought my lips to his, closing my eyes and letting the moment take me to heaven, which was how I felt when I was next to him.Hector's lips encircled mine, gently sucking them. I felt his hands running down my back, slick with foam, and I was completely turned on.That kiss felt like a punishment, without me being able to feel his tongue, as if he wanted to test how much I could bear while that touch didn't get as intimate as I wanted.From his neck, my hands went to his shoulders, which I smoothed down to his chest. Then his tongue entered
I felt my body soften:- I need a spoon - I said, without meaning to.- I have several ... But my hands can do that too - he looked at me. – Remove your panties and melt in my arms, Bárbara Novaes.- Wait... Fourth question... - I said, with difficulty.- There were three.- I don't do agreements.- And I don't know this? - Laughed.- You are drunk?- Not much... - He confessed.I pushed him towards the bed, while he fell into a sitting position.- The answers weren't exactly what I expected ... But they seemed sincere.- I was honest, even with your questions being the craziest I've ever been asked in my life.- I'll dance for you... In my panties... On the pole of the pole dance. – he said, putting the music back on.His eyes didn't leave mine as I danced to the beat singing while looking into his eyes, " Words don't come easy to me, how can I find a way, for you to see that I love you, words don't come easy."- Do you want to finish me, disqualified? he asked, not moving from where
I gathered my clothes, feeling sad and angry at the same time.- I gave a chance to what I was feeling and you destroyed everything - he said - This fucking love doesn't exist. I wrote what I really felt in that message.- I have no doubts... Since the part that I was just another one that passed by your bed. - I laughed, bitterly, while putting on the blouse.I went to get the panties, which he ran his hand over them quickly, before I did. I stared at him, with my hand towards him:- Give me back!- No way. It's the fifth. He arched his brow playfully.- Are you going to burn it or throw it away with the others? I tried to take it, but he raised his arm with it in his possession, not giving me the chance.- You don't need my fucking panties. I screamed furiously, jumping with my hands trying to reach as he laughed, playing with my pain.- I won't deliver. - He spoke firmly.I wasn't going to beg for worthless panties. I went to the bathroom, washed my hands and splashed water on my f
- Do you not understand? In addition to all my confusion about everything that's going on, you're bringing me more trouble when you're really supposed to help? Ah, I don't want you in this house anymore, or in my daughter's life.He laughed, scornfully:- "His daughter?- Mine... Yes, mine. I'm the one who takes care of her. Salma is gone and you know very well the relationship we had.- Yet she will never be “yours”.I felt a tear trickle down my right eye, wiping it hard:- Of everything you can say to get to me, touching her name is the worst way. If you knew how I feel about this child, you would never hurt me this way.- Enough of being nice to you, Babi.- Did you ever go?- Believe me, I did.He turned his back and left. I closed the door and stood there for a while, letting the tears flow. How many times would I still hear in my life that Maria Lua was not my daughter? It was like a stab to my heart. What I felt for that girl was greater than anything I'd ever felt in my life.