When I arrived at the hospital, nearly an hour after Ben called, I found him and Daniel at the front desk. As soon as they saw me, the two came towards me at the same time and hugged me tightly. I noticed the reddened eyes of Ben, who had certainly been crying and the expression of sadness on Daniel's face.- How is she? Tell me it's okay.- It is not alright. Daniel pressed his lips together, trying not to make them quiver like when he started the sentence.- Any news? Is Maria Luna born yet?- We're just told to wait, wait and wait… – Daniel continued distressed.I looked at Ben, who wiped away the stubborn tear that was trying to fall. I went to him and pressed him against my body:- You can cry if you want. Don't hold it to yourself. I'll be here and you can use my shoulder.- She'll make it. I know it will. She did everything right... Everything. - He said.- I thought the same thing. Of course God wouldn't leave a newborn baby without a mother, would He? Who will sing “ You are
As soon as my performance was over, I got off the glass stage and went to the dressing room. My heart was pounding and I knew it wasn't from fatigue or adrenaline from the night. It was fear and anxiety that I felt at that moment.I should be removing my makeup and getting ready to leave. But not that night.Some of the dancers were talking and I stood there, staring at myself in the mirror. There was a time when I didn't like being a redhead. Today I accepted myself and I knew that just because I was a redhead, I caught the attention of some men. Even freckles didn't bother me anymore and my green eyes have been compared to emeralds.But I didn't want to get all the men's attention anymore. I only wanted the attention of one: Heitor Casanova. The thing is, the bastard never looked in my direction. Inside Babylon, he only had eyes for Cindy and no one else.- Do you think she made “macumba” for him, Salma?- Hey? I looked in the direction of the girls, who were cleaning the makeup off
- She just needs this: love and affection. And medical follow-up. I would like to continue following her development.- Maria Lua is a warrior, like her mother. - I spoke.- I still haven't called the father. He doesn't know what happened."He's not the father," I said. – He was Salma's boyfriend.- I see... So... Are you familiar?- Friend.- Where are her relatives?- Far away. And they don't have the financial or emotional capacity to take care of the baby.- So I think we have a problem here.- Like this? I arched an eyebrow, confused.- Say goodbye to the baby and let's talk a minute outside. - She said.- It's all right. I nodded, still trying to understand what she meant.The doctor left and the nurse remained there, sitting, making some notes.I looked at the perfect girl snuggled up to me and a mixture of feelings took over my entire being. It was the sense of loss with the euphoria of a child's arrival. I wanted to scream, cry and at the same time smile to myself.- I'll tak
Ben was attended to, medicated, had his hand bandaged and taken home by Daniel. Although I wanted to stay with me, I didn't allow it. He needed sleep and rest. I was very emotionally shaken. If I was shaken? God, she was completely wrecked inside. But he knew how to deal with loss, with horrible pain that seemed to have no end, and with a body that could barely stand. I was an expert in life's tricks. I watched Maria Lua through the glass until my legs could no longer support the weight of my body. So I went into the Maternity reception room and sat down, leaning my head back and closing my eyes. I was thinking about so many things at once that I couldn't focus on just one. Those sensual green eyes kept wandering through my mind, almost driving me crazy. I didn't want to, but I could see Salma and Hector in bed, having sex. His hands, warm, running over her body, anxious. I could hear my friend's moans beneath his body as he felt her hot cum flowing through her intimacy. I stood up
My chest contracted even more in pain that fucked up my mind as much as my body. I went back to the maternity glass, looking at those two kilos of flesh with a mouth and a name, squirming, so fragile, so beautiful, so dependent on me. The pediatrician watched me carefully and beckoned me with her finger. The nurse went to the door and authorized my entry.I sat in an armchair, watching another baby go to the room, as the mother had already returned from the delivery room. Maria Lua was brought to me, placed on my chest. I stared into those pale eyes that opened in my direction, looking unfocused, the skin wrinkled , peeling slightly.Yes, she was worth anything. It was a love I couldn't explain in a thousand years.Ah, Hector, I give you up while accepting your daughter as mine. How ironic. I want to hate him for what he's done, but I can't see his eyes in hers.Aside from her pale green eyes, which certainly could still change color, she looked totally like Salma.- We will show you
I looked at Ben:- I knew this wouldn't work. - I sighed, resigned.Sebastian came to me and pulled back the thin blanket, which covered part of Maria Lua's face:- What the fuck are you doing?- I'll take care of her. Salma asked. - I said, trying to justify myself.- Fuck!- Don't talk loud, it will wake her up. - I asked.He ran his hands through his hair, his face reddened.- Who is this child's father?- Hector. - I confessed, my voice almost inaudible, lowering my head, embarrassed.- No! - he screamed. - Is not true!- Don't fucking scream! – I walked with Maria Lua, stunned, taking her out of the room.Sebastian followed me:- What's on your mind, Babi? Because brain I'm sure it's not.Ben took him by the arm and looked at him steadily:- Wait, Sebastian. Let's explain everything. Take a break.- No time. Either tell me now what's going on or I'll cancel this fucking certificate. You've both gone crazy together, you can only... - He ran a hand hard over his face, going up to h
The first bottle that Ben and I prepared was something to talk about. We didn't get the temperature right and with every drop of milk she slurped, we were afraid she would drown.The diaper that Ben changed leaked the first time, being put on the opposite side. Baking ointment? What is it for? How many times a day do we use it? Should she sleep on her side, on her stomach, or on her back? Is it normal for her to sleep so much? What time does she open her eyes?- Let's leave the cell phone to wake up every three hours. Each one gets up once to prepare the milk. - He suggested.- OK. But she sleeps in my room until we buy a crib.- That's not fair. Why not mine?- Salma asked “me” to take care of her.- But “I” bought all the clothes she has. And “I” went with her to the hospital, because she wanted it to be that way.- But it demanded “I” during childbirth.- Because you had more time than you knew her. If I had known her twenty years, I would have been the chosen one.- It is register
- Okay, thank you for answering in the name of God. By the way, I think you're still my god... Only Greek. When I'm by your side, it's like nothing else exists, just you and me.He placed his finger on a panel on the door, causing it to automatically open.- Okay, should I cut your finger when I need to get in? That's it? - I started to laugh.- I'm God! He yelled, opening his arms as he entered and the lights automatically turned on.I stood just as the door closed, taking in everything around me, trying not to marvel at the view. The place was just gigantic. A living room with L-shaped sofas and white carpet (yes, who, in their normal state, would put white carpets in the living room, for others to step on with their shoes?). As the space was large, the room, even in enormous size, seemed to dance on the light gray floor, which looked more like a mirror.Behind, all you could see was glass and blackout curtains, open, showing the whole city. A glass staircase (yes, I said glass stai