Chapter 4

“Princess are you ok?” Niel, Dash’s brother, asked me. What happened to these guys?

They are the blessings that came into my life.

Even though I’m stubborn, they never left me.

“Princess baby did you check your self to a doctor? Or I’ll call one?” Drake, Trevor’s brother, asked me one after another, hahaha.

“Baby? Are you ok?” Trevor also asked.

“Do you have wounds?” Ice asked coldly. What do I expect? His name is already cold.

“Damn! I’ll punch that fucking Ferrer fuck his ass!” Ace said, he’s the most brutal of the six because of me when we were kids, that’s why they became so close. They would cry if one of them wasn’t included and they cared for me like a diamond, that’s why they’re still close and so caring towards me until now, how sweet right?

“Hey cousins, I’m ok. Haahah your faces were all damn priceless, you didn’t even get to punch me,” I said laughing.

“FUCK! HOW CAN YOU EVEN LAUGH ASHIANNIE?” They all shouted.

Of all the people who can understand me, I know it’s them. They were there when I was broken.

“Ashiannie, are you trying to force yourself on that guy again?” My dad asked me without looking. Everyone in this house is so serious, what’s with that?

My dad is one of the people who supported me back then. He also had a misunderstanding with Cyrus’s dad when they found out that Cyrus didn’t remember me and that he had a girlfriend. My dad was furious, he almost got jailed.

It’s not possible to suddenly make Cyrus remember everything. He might get hurt if we force him to remember.

I barely ate during those times. It’s like I was mourning for someone who’s still alive. I couldn’t handle the thought of them being together.

I know it’s wrong, but why not me?

“No!” I answered him firmly. I looked at him and it was obvious that he was furious.

“Then why did that happen yesterday?” My dad asked again, angrily. He even dropped the spoon he was holding.

“You know he doesn’t remember you. Just let him be, you won’t gain anything if you continue doing that. There are many other guys out there, you won’t run out of them.” He added, but in a lower voice.

Mom just listened quietly to our conversation. They know that when Dad speaks, no one has the right to interfere, especially Mom. Because if they both lecture me, they’ll end up fighting with each other.

“Cause it happened, Dad. What do you want me to do? He just appeared in front of me then he flipped the table and kicked my chair. What do you want me to do? Cry? Fuckkk no freaking way!” I said to them, trying to hold back my anger. I remembered what he did again.

I don’t even know if he remembered me then or if he was just pretending not to remember. Bwesit.

“I’m not at fault, talk to him about what his problem is with me!” I added.

I stood up and walked away. I heard them call my name, but I didn’t listen. I was lucky that my motorcycle, which got hit by that drunk guy’s car, was already fixed. I used it and drove around.

My brothers taught me how to ride a motorcycle. They also taught me the self-defense moves I know. Mom kept calling me, maybe she thought I was going to kill myself, but sorry to tell her, I’m not yet.

I’m just going to let my anger out in a faraway place. I don’t want to see them while I’m feeling this way. It’s hard, I might say hurtful or unpleasant words.

There’s no school today because of the meeting of the faculties, directors, and investors of that school, so they’re having a happy happy party party, the rich people. That’s probably what it’s like to be rich.

Here I am now, in the park, lying on the grass under a mango tree. I’m looking at the twinkling stars and the bright moon. Sometimes when I look at the moon, I think that it’s not bad to be alone. You can also grow without anyone. I spent a few more hours watching until I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

I woke up because I felt someone kiss me, so when I opened my eyes, I saw something I didn’t expect to see. Is this real? I see him in front of me, kissing my cheek while he’s asleep.

Is it true or it’s just a dream?

~Ylluscion