How did I get myself here? Is this what they call a broken heart? I laid myself out there to a woman that I most definitely fell in love with. Every day over and over again, I could feel myself feeling a bit more for her than the day before. Every day over and over she was playing me for a fool. I have an enemy under my roof and she is going to stay here until I know who the one is that is behind this.
The question is, do I tell Devan and Matson. And do I carry on to let her believe that I am absolutely in love with her.
Sex complicates things. Especially if you trying to avoid getting feelings involved. But what if the feelings have already become involved and now you want them to become uninvolved. Sex is still going to complicate things. But what if it has gone from just messing around to mind blowing sex, well then you are just plain well fucked. There is going to be feelings and you are going to want that sex, there is no running away from them.I firmly want to believe that the woman that is lying next to me is the real Summer. The way her voice changed from that little girl to that of a woman, the way she asked me to fuck her, just the way her body reacted, she did not s
A week that is all I have, in this week I can really make her mine or in this week I will become hers, her target lying flat on my face on the floor. My heart and that great desire to live lean towards the first. How do I make her fall in love with me just long enough that she can see what she means to me? Whether she is fake or she is real, she needs to know that I equally love her the same still.I am about to drop it down on her.
I have said this before and I will say it again, the things that men will do for love. Is it just plain stupidity or is there truly a purpose behind it. Why do you drag your ass into danger just to prove something to yourself that you already know? There must be a word for me but I am sure they have not created it yet.This time walking in knowing it is not her father is much easier but who the hell is the new cousin.
They say there is no cure for stupidity. Does getting engage to a woman you hardly know fall under stupidity or is it blind love. I honestly would like to believe it is the latter but the common sense which I apparently also lack would tell me otherwise. If stupidity is what got me into this, I am sure that it can get me out.They call him The Butcher, the way he carved up Mansini even after he was dead is nothing near to terrifying insanity and my insane ass decided to punch him. This leaves me to wonder what this beautiful creature next to me is capable of but that quickly slips my mind as she stirs.Aaron ~”Morning sleepyhead.”Summer ~”If that means you gorgeous then hey Mr sleepy head yourself.”Aaron ~”Did you sleep well? You were tossing and turning quite a bit last night.”
In which parallel universe does a man allow another man touch his woman? Only in mine, in my fucked up world I have a hot as fuck fiancé that is being touched by another man, her boyfriend.And I am going to grill him.Devan ~”Where the fuck do you think you are going?”
I have four days to live.How am I spending my fourth last day? That is a stupid question. I am spending it with her.She is not next to me when I wake up. I do not hear in the shower. She must be down in the kitchen. I slip a pair of shorts on and go downstairs to go find her.
I am a man who plans every step that he takes. I would like to see where I am going and how I am going to get there. Some say live life on a daily basis, I say there is no room for surprises and unexpected things. But lately all my best laid plans have begun to falter. My life has become full of unpredictability, around every corner there are new twists and turns. The truth is that life really doesn't give a shit about you plans.One of the most dangerous men in the business has just shown up on my doorstep. He does not show up on doorsteps, in fact he hardly ever leaves his house and when he does it is to do a job he wants to do himself. What is even more frig
I am woken up by a pounding on my door, almost just as hard as the pounding in my head. Please do remind me why I drank so much again, she is as hot as hell and sleeping in the other room.Aaron ~”Someone better be dying out there.”Devan ~”Just get your ass downstairs and s
Summer is gone.I am torturing myself with so many what if's. What if she has left me? What if someone took her? What if she has gone back to Sammy? What if she has gone after my mom?What if. What if. What if.
So it has come to this, the end, the end of the game, the end of my life. They say that at the end of a game there has to be a winner and a loser. And that every story has to come to an end. Is this my end? Is my game up? Has my life come to an end? But then there is that cliché saying that with every end there is a new beginning. Whichever way you look at it, whether you live or eventually die things will always come to an end.Summer ~”AARON …AARON ARE YOU OKAY? ...BABY WAKE UP…AARON.”&nb
Fate is what takes you down that road you ever so often avoid to take. Take for instance landing up down a deserted road at a diner. At the time I had no idea that it was where I was supposed to be with who I am meant to be, doing what I should be doing...falling in love.I wish I could have blamed gravity but the truth was I fell in love. I fell deeper and deeper until I reached the deepest point. In the middle of all my chaos, there she was. You can call it destiny or you can call it fate, the point is you will fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time.
Sometimes the smallest turn in the wrong direction ends up being the biggest turn of your life.If you asked me a month ago where I would be today, this would have been my last possible answer.The road of life will take you down an unexpected place but in the end it is exactly the place you should be.
Summer ~”GUYS!!! GET YOUR FUCKING ASSES TO THE FRONTDOOR!!! NOW!!!”We grab our guns off the kitchen counter and head to the front door. In less than thirty-seconds we are standing weapons ready behind Summer.Who ever said that things don't fall out of the sky surely spoke a load of shit, because this surely did. We are completely dumb struck, not one of us can utter a word.
Today my life will change. I am about to give up everything for two woman that will matter the most in my life. The one I will protect with my own life and the other, well I won't rest until I find her. If you ask me tomorrow to choose again, then I will definitely choose the same.Lovers on the run that is what I would like to call us now. I can't care if we are on the run as long as I am on the run with her. We might have been apart for a week but hell I love this woman still. No matter how much I say I love her, I will always love her more than that.
There comes a point in a man's life when he realizes that he is making bad choices, especially when it comes to matters if the heart. Take for instance Caitlin, a beautiful girl, laying completely naked in my arms. Was it a bad choice, she is not a bad girl, rash decision, most definitely it was. Even though I could not keep my hands to myself, I could not get myself to have sex with her. I have been officially been ruined for love.I slide out from underneath her arms and slip on a pair of sweats. I softly close the door as I make my way down to the kitchen. I make myself a cup of coffee and go stand outside in the cold crisp morning, I need to clear my head.
I am finding myself at a place I do not want to be, I am at a crossroads with a broken heart. Do I turn right and put what has happened behind me, turn everyone away and start a new life? Or do I turn left, hope that this will somehow work out and that she will take me back? Or, I can also go forward, learn from my broken heart and embrace who and what is next for me to come? Whichever way I go, which ever choice I make, it will define who I will become once again.We have a group of beautiful women sitting at our table but I cannot help but notice her standing at the bar. Do I get up and to talk to her or do I keep my ass firmly glued onto this chair? That thi
I am woken up by a pounding on my door, almost just as hard as the pounding in my head. Please do remind me why I drank so much again, she is as hot as hell and sleeping in the other room.Aaron ~”Someone better be dying out there.”Devan ~”Just get your ass downstairs and s