Chapter 285 Max There is a part of me that always feels as if I'm hardwired to mess up everything good that I have. No matter how hard I try or no matter how good my intentions are I end up messing up the best thing that could ever happen to me. I have to say that ; I don't think I deserve my girlfriend . She has always been my number one supporter and today out of all days when she won't let me not go to the press conference I defied her and went to the press conference. In my defence everything was going well during the question-and-answer session and I answered all the questions to the best of my ability but there was one reporter who kept on poking and poking and poking and wouldn't stop. The questions that the reporter was asking were irrelevant and intrusive. When he asked about Ellie being my boss I answered the question professionally and then when he brought up my son ; I told him not to ask me anything about my son because it h
chapter 286Ellie"Ok let's get one thing straight it's not lying."" Fine, call it what you want but you omitted information you kept from me that I needed to know to make a proper decision. If I had known, don't you think that I wouldn't have taken a different decision either than to call off our engagement? "" I kept parts of the truth from you to protect you. You are already going through a lot right now and so is Axel . I'm trying to protect you."" No you're not. You are trying to protect yourself. If I didn't know better I'd say that you look it went to the press conference to get back at me after I told you not to go. I tried to talk to you and tell you that it would be a bad idea. I'm dealing with your unruly behaviour during the press conference. You are lucky that you are still playing tonight. "" Oh I bet you talked to Jerry to include me in the squad even after my little stunt. That's how you
Chapter 287Ellie I don't know if it's the energy I'm attracting ; or the fact that I feel like history is repeating itself where my relationships are concerned, but I feel like Maxwell is displaying signs that he doesn't want to be with me anymore. I can tell it in the way he's acting and the way he's treating me cuz I've never expected in a million years to be treated the way he just treated me didn't even run out to me to apologize which is a clear indication that I think that he's fallen out of love with me and doesn't want to be with me. I've always been strong when it comes to emotions when he was the first cat and the first cat is not the deepest but it's the most painful. There's a reason why people always say the first love is never really over and it's true because you are always tormented by what if syndrome. What if syndrome bears something that happens when you are stuck on your last goodbye, and you keep on going back and forth in your head
Chapter 288 Ellie " Oh yes I do know what I'm talking about. You used your position to influence the board to make a decision to get me to work and the junior division of the club and then you got your buddy brand the gig as head doctor and it still won't get that I wanted but I didn't get it because hey experience was against me. "" Experience wasn't against you. I've worked with Brent before and I know that he has more experience and that's what the club needed at that moment. If you want the position again, apply for it when it becomes available, but it was available and he was the only one who knew how the club operated." " Oh I bet that Maxwell would love to hear about your little collaboration with him. "I shook my head and looked at Paulina and spoke calmly;" You tend to forget that I've worked with Brent before and I'm also trying to save money with regards to cost-cutting measures in the club I'm qualified for a positio
Chapter 289MaxI get worried anytime I see my agent. There's always been a time when I could trust whatever came out of Jimmy's mouth but now I can't trust anything because of what I suspect he's doing and if he is doing what he's doing then I owe my girlfriend an apology for behaving the way I did and for not believing her when she told me that I shouldn't buy anything that Jimmy is selling me . No I meant out because I don't know who to trust and who has my best interests at heart. What I do know is that my girlfriend loves me enough to bend the rules for me. It's not like I'm using her to get access information. I just need to know the truth and I asked her if I could have my financial breakdown at everything that I get and everything that goes out of my account with regards to the club.I knew I had messed up with regards to my incident with the reporter earlier on and I wanted to more than make up for it so before the game I had a chance to speak wi
Chapter 290"The last thing I need is to be humiliated publicly and your new best friend Paulina alerted me to the fact that you don't want to be with me where son so I will make it easier for you I will leave you and I won't disturb you anymore. I'm sorry that all I've done is just bring drama to your life. " I was having a mini heart attack and I couldn't understand what was going on or what Ellie was talking about . " Ellie , I don't know what you talking about all I've done was just take my phone because I needed to put on the playlist that I put on when I need to get psyched up for a match which I am but I saw you and I decided to switch that part of me of its pay attention to you because you're leaving instead of staying what's going on what did are People saying ? "A shuttle stood by where I was standing with Ellie . I cursed my bad timing and when Ellie opened the door I closed it ."Maxwell, don't you think you've done e
Chapter 291 Ellie The last thing I expected while waiting for a shuttle to go to the hotel or a cab just to get me to where I need to go was to leave as the team bus was coming through into the parking lot and not far from where I was standing and waiting for my transport. The last person I wanted to see also came running my way trying to understand what the hell's going on. I don't get how you want to understand what's going on when you know what you did and then pretend like you did nothing wrong. Maxwell made his bed and he needs to learn that how you make your bed is how you lie on it so he made a messy bed he will lie in a messy bed I'm not going to try to remedy the situation by making excuses for him or trying to understand where he came from with what he said the message was loud and clear I can't get over what he said and how he said it. It's also cold and calculated and deliberate, for someone who is very private he sure has a knack for publicly doing things
Chapter 292MaxThe moments that you wish you could live over and over again and I think that today is one of those moments where I am over the moon that we perform just the way we did. No man is an island when it comes to football and it takes a team to make a player. I'm so thankful for a supportive team and a partner in crime that I can depend on both domestically and when we go on national duty. Toby is a true trooper. I don't know what happened with Benjamin but I'm happy what happened because if what happened didn't happen I wouldn't be where I am right now.I received the man-of-the-match award and if anything that happened today is anything to go by I think I'm going to enjoy this season or football more and more. I wanted to celebrate this moment with my girlfriend but I knew in my heart that she had left and she wasn't coming back to the stadium. I really do love Ellie and a baby boy but what he said to me before the game confused the hell out of me and even t
Chapter 374 Ellie I locked eyes with him, placed my spoon down, I placed both the palms of my hands on either side of his jaw and kissed him. "I have always had the fear of you leaving me and us not getting back together again. We almost lost it all but we fought to get to every year and I don't want us to not be with each other and have each other's backs when we're down. I know that sometimes our Lives can get hectic and thank you for forgiving me for what I did with Matteo. We both don't want to risk losing the people we loved and it seems as if Paulina is in love with you." "That may be true but my heart belongs to you I love you and I will never stop loving you you went when I was with other people I could think about was you so we also have something that we did together in that binds us so nice and I will never forget the day that we had our binding rooms done together at the same tattoo parlor. That was one of the best days of my life because you admitted strawberry ice cr
Chapter 373 Ellie I've been in pain before both emotionally and physically but combined it's a different kind of pain. Pain has levels that transcends by either triggers or events that trigger the same sensation that you felt before. It's like seasonal trauma but on a bigger scale because you feel it physically and you also feel that emotionally and no matter how hard you try not to feel like you always end up feeling it because it's meant to be felt. I always said that if you have torrents for paying you can tolerate anything, any blow that hits you or any fall that you suffer. I didn't expect what would happen. It wasn't supposed to happen if I had just said that I wasn't pregnant and just kept quiet and walked away instead of letting my ego get the better of me. I had to help my territory. Paulina needed to know that what she was doing was wrong. I already admitted to wrongdoing by trying to stop her friendship with my fiance from blooming because I was afraid of losing him
Chapter 372 Max By the time we made it to the hospital we had to enter another section of the hospital which was in the main entrance. I was a betting man. I'd say that these people have sections of hospitals everywhere they have wings .even when I traveled abroad with Daniel he had to go see a friend of his who was involved in a shooting that he wasn't supposed to be involved in and the level of security clearance was out of this world I had never seen security clearance like that and me being a football player which of course I'd need to get back to playing football our security clearance is nothing compared to the security clearance these guys have to get you have to be identified you have to know that you will be searched and the people that are searching you have to know that you're coming so for me to be tagging along with Fabio was a miracle. As soon as we walked in we were offered something to eat and drink but I don't have the first to drink anything in all the appetite
Chapter 371 Max have you ever been connected to someone so much so that you know that when something is wrong you can feel it in your blood bones and everything including your soul and you wonder if it might be something good or might be something bad or maybe it's just your mind playing tricks on you but I believe that when you are connected with someone and you've created love with someone you can feel when something is a bit off or something is wrong and in my case I did feel that something was off when I got taken away all of the sudden when I organised a meeting between Romano and Claudio. however understand reason why it happened but what I don't understand is the way I'm feeling right now because if you deserve the right has been pulled out from under me and I don't know how to react how to respond or 38 I don't know how you feel because I cannot comprehend how I feel everything was going ok I knew that the person that I loved and my loved ones are ok but all of the sudden t
Chapter 370MaxwellI don't like being hurt preferably I would love to do the hair thing because I know that I I'm getting something out of it I'm getting cathartic experience but the only thing I like getting as a punching bag which of course I love hurting because it doesn't fight back and it's just there for me to take out my frustration but when somebody takes out their frustration when you turn extent it's called abuse if you allow it to happen on a constant basis but in this case it wasn't to be my best friend who I really appreciate right now and I am happy and Proud to call a friend.I have to say that he pulled a number on me I'm in pain and I'm recovering from The Blues that he told me to make it look like I was involved in an attack this guy's a professional at what he does and I didn't have any makeup so he made it look like it was very young and I have been coming for a little while I don't know how he does it but he's a genius and I'm thinking that Daniel bought the fact
Chapter 369 Ellie The worst thing about setting up a meeting is if the person who set up the meeting doesn't pitch for the meeting and were civil and swine you know that the meeting is very important to both parties because it has to do with me marrying someone who requested for a meeting that I so wanted and now he's not here to eat the fruits of his labor. I'm still confused as to why Maxwell decided to have cold feet and not come to the party he's not the type of guy to chicken out of something that he said that he would do he's always been dependable and he's always been directed deliberate and intentional so for him to do what he did at a very important time of my life and at a time when I needed him the most is sort of out of character because it's not the guy that I've come to know and it's not the man that I thought and mind you thought being the operative word I was going to marry. I had to focus on the positives if I was still confused at how things had turned out and if
Chapter 368Max I'd like to believe that I'm not a skeptic but that would be lying. I know for a fact that I am a skeptical person because sometimes people don't always tell the truth, sometimes they just do and they sometimes make it into something that they want you to believe. There are always three sides to a story. I will say that there's always four sides to every story, there's the part that you hear, there's the part that the other person has to tell, the part that people believe is their own opinion of the truth and then the one that balances all is the real truth. When somebody says something it is always right to ask the person that they are talking about if what you heard was true if you don't it means that you choose to believe the truth that the other person who's lying told you and then you have to either verify the truth or believe the truth or someone else's version of the truth instead of hearing it from the horse's mouth. Deep down I knew for a fact that Matteo Ma
Chapter 367 Ellie If there's one thing that I don't want and one thing I don't want to go through again is the same hurt that I felt when Maxwell left me. You can love someone and give your all in a relationship but if the trust is not there then there's something that's missing people often say they trust is like a plate once you break it you can't put it back together but I beg to differ because once you break a plate it's up to you if you sweep up the pieces burn them making your plate it's ceramic for crying out loud so why would you not want to fix what was once broken and see if this person is capable of changing because everyone is capable of change if they want to change and if they are changing for the right person because if someone refuses to change they can actually limit the growth I always say a person who doesn't want to change as like a stagnant water , if doesn't move it can harbor filth. Water like blood is a life force. It's constantly moving and it's constantly
Chapter 366Maxyou know very well when you're about to go play a match whatever you have is enough to get you through the performance, whatever you wear and what every feeling you have means. I normally work through the nerves and of the times that I've been nervous my go-to thought all my go to safe place has always been the person that I want to marry and it turned out to be the person that I am engaged to right now. I've had nerves and I've had instances where I don't feel confident about the game I'm going to play but the only way to beat that is to have safe thoughts recently it has been only my son and my fiance but now I've got more things to think about than the usual soccer game and a performance that I have to put on. This is one of those days when I am not supposed to put on a performance because if I couldn't performance they are going to pick it up and if I act all weird they are still going to pick it up so the only thing to do is to act normal around both men who are