Chapter 183
Max
If hell was a day it would have been what happened yesterday. There are different stages of hell, and it doesn't matter what stage of hell you are in or going through , the levels come with a different challenges . All good things come on threes and so do all bad things too .
Hell ; purgatory and Paradise. I didn't study Dante at school but I'm pretty sure inferno doesn't last forever , the space inbetween purgatory and Paradise is always a working progress.
I'm good at pretending I don't love Ellie, and truth is ; I love her enough to pretend that I don't love her. If this plan; has any chance of succeeding I can't tell her what's going on. I miss my baby love and our baby boy. I love Axel
and Ellie. I just need to keep the act long enough to get a confession out of Sandra and prove that she was behind everything. Right now Ellie
Chapter 184EllieThere are times when I feel like I have no friends and the friends I have are just too busy or wrapped up in their own lives to care about what's going on . I wish ... I wish I could say that; yesterday's was a dream , that I woke up next to Max this morning and we made sweet love . That's just wishful thinking.My alarm clock named Axel woke me up this morning and as much as I appreciated Daniel letting me and my son crash in his house. It's quite a comfortable crash and I'm thankful . Daniel has always been a great friend ,and maybe now that Maxwell decided to end things with me I might consider giving us one more shot at this relationship thing, and if it still doesn't work at least I would have gained every good friend in the process.They all came clean to me this morning when I was having breakfast but what was really going on I found it har
Chapter 185MaxI looked at Ellie and I could see that she was still hurt , but it was for the good of our son and her . I couldn't fathom the thought of either of them , or worse both of them getting hurt. My lunch with Sandra got cut short and I ended up eating alone and watching my girlfriend have lunch with a guy I for the longest of times considered a threat to my relationship with Ellie . Carlo was Italian and he was well built, he was my exes ex and by that I mean; he used to go out with Amy before I went out with her. I didn't know he knew Ellie but it was as clear as daylight that he knew her well."I don't know how to explain to you that what I'm doing is dangerous.""I don't believe it for one bit. See you when they told me that you lied so that you could protect Axel and me I thought that was a lie within itself . Is my selfish self-centered son of a very res
Chapter 186EllieI'm too nice ... Nope , nice is not a nice word so maybe I'm too lenient, yes that's the word , I'm too lenient but I the one thing I'm not is an easy lay. If Max ever wants me back he's got to show me and not tell me that I am worth the fight . Romano never liked Sandra. I guess he knew all along what she wanted to do to me. At some point when I moved away from home he helped me get started with finding a job and with living as far away from my family as possible.I guess I'm too forgiving and I even named my son after my grandfather... I never forget where I come from and who helped me when I had nothing , so I added Romano to Axel's name. My grandfather is manipulative he will make you believe that something is when it isn't and bend the situation to suit his needs .He has been calling me for the past couple of days and I've been ignoring him and Sandra because they have never wan
Chapter 187MaxWe are all human and therefore we are all at some point fallible. You can only pretend for so long and you can only keep keep secrets for a while until the cracks star showing. I am learning the Hardee's lesson I have ever had to learn and it's killing me that it's coming at the cost of my family . A family that I have worked so hard to keep together .Part of me always feels like I am hardwired to mess up everything good that I have going on in my life . I would not change anything that ; Ellie and I have been through , because it has made us stronger as a unit but my lack of trust has made me weaker. I knew that Ellie was traveling to her mother's house with Daniel and Axel and she would be in transit. Before she went on her road trip she sent me a text telling me that she will call me as soon as they arrive . I saw the text on Saturday morning and since Friday was hectic enough emot
Chapter 188EleanorThe one thing I don't ever want to do is live with regret. I believe everyone ... in this case ; Dan and Max , deserve a fair chance . I'm not torn between the two men , I just need to hear Daniel out and hopefully you can experience to me what the nature of our relationship is because sometimes I feel like we are more than just friends and other times I feel like; okay we are friends but something changed during the time we decided to hook up and have fun with each other.Another blueprint of his body like the back of my hand and he knows the blueprint of my body and the back of his hand. I don't want to answer now I know what turns them off I know what he likes what he doesn't like and I know how he likes it. I think in a perfect world who would be married and have babies together. I know that he is reliable guy honey as a no-nonsense type of guy but my hear
Chapter 189Max" Ellie ... "I should have known that she would see right through my act. I thought I'd try convincing job and telling her that I don't ever want to be with her but to my surprise she's way too smart and 10 steps ahead of me."What the hell is the matter with you. You know I'd get tired of putting on an act not once but twice if you don't come clean right now I think we have a much bigger problem than you seeing someone about your trust issues.""I don't have trust issues. I know I haven't been forthcoming and I've been trying to get you to leave me which is what they all want me to do but I'm not going to do it.""You just tried and I stopped you . Who are they? "" Abraham found out that I put on a night when you came along and what are the time we had it just grew up in smoke.They let Dexter and my fa
Chapter 190MaxI never knew that there was a tunnel system under my own house. I knew that Ellie use that a lot of times either when I made her mad or she just wanted to get away from me. If trustworthy was a person it would be Daniel. He has been the most supportive friend any guy can ask for he is a guy's guy and ladies guy. Any girl Whitby lucky so have her and any guy would want to have him as a friend.I felt like I was walking forever until we reached what seems like the kitchen of Daniel's SMS about my bags down Daniel pick them up and told me that we weren't staying for long. He had told me that my sister had her a game on and that meant that we needed to be a couple of steps ahead of her. I kept wondering who the common denominator could be. I can't suspect Daniel because he husband left corner right and centre every step of the way whenever there is a problem, he is there to help
Chapter 191EllieI always worry when someone says that they are on their way and they don't show up . As soon as Max hung up Daniel texted me and told me that he was bringing my baby love home to me . I had thought about asking Dan to fly Max up to my mother's house so that I could spend some much needed time with him and our son. I couldn't get why Billie was hell bent on making sure that Max and I are broken up . I know that her behaviour changed and she keeps on saying that it's someone we all know that's is the master puppeteer.I started playing detective in my head while I was in my cabin. The cabin was cosy and big and it wasn't too far from the main house ,where my mother was with my son. Daniel was staying in the guest cabin and as much as I wanted him near me , I just wanted to keep my distance from him , because he had declared and put up his hand . I don'