Ellie
This was just too good to be true. Maxwell hasn't changed. I knew he had a reputation ; but he never, not once cheated on me or kissed some one else , when we were together. If this was to get back at me for what happened years ago then he had succeeded.
I always knew that he had a vengeance streak. I was innocent in all that happened. My cousin who is married by now to my ex fiancé ,who cheated on me and then got her pregnant. Oh and to top it all off he told me that I wasn't parent material.
I didn't want to tell Max what happened with his father before his mother did . Billie and Blake had also already been through hell. If Dan and Salvatore didn't come in when they did I would've been in the inbetween wondering how the fudge sticks did I ended up there. I was going to check up on the twins because I had come home for the weekend . Bill and Blake needed laptops; but I got t
MaxIt's my birthday . Happy birthday to me but it's not a happy one. I shouldn't have reacted the way I did when Ellie said I should give her time. I just don't have the patience to give someone time when I know I can help remedy whatever they are going through. I was peeved and Mia came at the wrong time ... Just as the alcohol was kicking in and I really couldn't counter any attack.Even being straddled and kissed in public and my girlfriend seeing it . I usually have self-control ; I would never , and I mean ever cheat on Ellie or sleep with someone else just to get back at her. She broke up with me. She gave me the same look she gave me when I broke her heart and ran away with Betty. I don't recall what happened last night; but all I know is that I owe Eleanor an apology and I have some begging to do.My birthday fell on a Sunday and I didn't have anything planned. I knew I wanted to spend it with the
EllieThe past twenty four hours have been the most; stressful, and eventful. I have gone from being madly in love with Maxwell, to being angry to the point of wanting nothing to do with him, finding out that I was pregnant with his child , and having a kid I loved end up in hospital . I was with the on duty nurse when it happened . He just fell out of the blue and at first I thought he was playing a game we always play to get me to come out and play tag , but when he didn't get up we got worried. I ran to where he was and he wasn't breathing when I got to him . I couldn't pick him up and the nurse came through too help me . I was talking to Max when it happened. He wanted us to un-breakup . I didn't answer him .I was sitting in the waiting room when he ran in and gave me a hug. With all that was happening I couldn't hold back the tears and I started crying on his shoulder. I was inconsolable for a couple of minutes and all he d
MaxThe hardest goodbyes are the ones we never see coming. You are never ready to say goodbye.When the doctor told us about Ralph Ellie cried again on my shoulder .We were not told the cause of death,because we were not his legal guardians. A week later when we went to the funeral Ellie wasn't herself. We were both dealing with loss, and I didn't want us to go through it alone. I've made the mistake of holding back with Ellie before and I don't want to make the same mistake again. We were also a couple of days away from tournament .Ellie stayed behind after the funeral. The words she spoke hit home in more ways than one. I am a man who is always in control of his emotions , and Ellie always sees right through me . She said;" When loss happens ; we feel everything and nothing at the same time. You want to numb the bad feelings, but you can't do that without affecting the
EllieIt’s been a couple of weeks since Raphael’s funeral and, Max and I have been going to bereavement counseling . We are both dealing with our loss together and we had an event execute before the end of November… After Black Friday to be exact.We don’t celebrate Thanks Giving in South Africa we have enough holidays. If you count the amount of public holidays we have, we would all have one Friday off at the end of each month. We have twelve public holidays in total . We also adopted the Black Friday custom. I tend to stay clear of any shops … especially in the mornings. Just last year alone we had reports of injuries majority of them surprisingly weren’t at the alcohol outlets who also had discounts. The line was long , (lottery line long) but they were well behaved . Since I found out I was pregnant I decided not to participate in anything crazy. We studied consumer behavi
MaxI haven't been to Ellie's apartment . She has only ever been in mine which was across the road from hers. I gave her my key and she gave me hers the other morning. I've been traveling with the team and I am only two games away from mu suspension being served . Ellie's apartment is gorgeous. It looks like a proper bachelorette pad that reflects her personality. The kitchen was my favorite room, besides the bedroom . Ellie's kitchen was organized; her fridge too . I knew she loved food but she stored it in such a way that even a chef would go into the pantry and plan a meal for a week . She had recipes for days on the tablet by the pantry. I wanted to make her dinner and surprise her with date night. She wasn't much of a meat eater ; so I had to go out to the store to go get some . I knew she was picky, and she'd ask me where the meat came from and was it sourced responsibly .Just the other day I treated her to steak and chips with
WChapter 16EllieI have never been so shook in my whole life. My taste in men isn't bad ; but I don't know what was wrong with my radar when I fell for Dex. He legit slapped me across my face and tried to choke me when he got into the elevator. The elevator door opened unexpectedly and Sam who was on his way to my office from legal , saw the altercation and got help from the guys in the officeI had a meeting with him to sort out some of the logistics ,and he had come through to the legal department to get something approved . He came to my rescue and long story short I ended up typing my resignation and sent to HR . Within seconds Damien responded and asked me to reconsider . Dexter was then called upstairs from where security kept him but he ended up holding Damien hostage . As far as I knew Sandra was out of the country . I cleared my desk and just as I was taking down some of my photos Max called. I wasn't in
MaxEver since the explosion and the whole Dexter incident at the office Ellie hasn't been okay. She had renovated the lake house and moved back to our home town. I on the other hand haven't been around. When I arrived at the Club thinking that I was going to work with Ellie , I was surprised that I was going to work with Sam. He and I are good friends, and I didn't mind. I knew that Ellie was contracted to travel with us , but with the baby on the way I don't think that's a good idea .I was also starting to get worried because she hadn't been answering my calls or text. I wasn't fully back on the team but my first official game after serving my suspension was at home and it was this weekend . I had to work on my match fitness and that meant I'd be away from Ellie for a couple of weeks. I had put the hours and I was given time off to recover . So the day before the game I would be going through drills and the game plan . I arrived back home late Saturday e
ElliThere is a sense of freedom in surrender and safety in vulnerability. Surrendering or submitting to what has held you hostage for a long time ; gives way to some sort of healing ,and balance .If there is one thing I have learned about suffering in silence ; it is that you can be your own worst enemy and tormenter if you don't speak up and ask for help. Help is always there if you ask, just make sure your pride doesn't get in the way. Everyone has a dark place and it also exists within are spaces of light . There cannot be light without darkness and darkness without light. Whether you feed into the darkness that consumes you and later makes way for light , or the light that illuminates everything that makes you want to hide in the dark, you need to find a level where both can exist and work as a team. An analogy I can use can be waves crashing on rocks in the sea. People don't build ships to wreck , your mind and body were not built to wreck .