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Chapter 18
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There is a sense of freedom in surrender and safety in vulnerability. Surrendering or submitting to what has held you hostage for a long time ; gives way to some sort of healing ,and balance .If there is one thing I have learned about suffering in silence ; it is that you can be your own worst enemy and tormenter if you don't speak up and ask for help. Help is always there if you ask, just make sure your pride doesn't get in the way. Everyone has a dark place and it also exists within are spaces of light . There cannot be light without darkness and darkness without light. Whether you feed into the darkness that consumes you and later makes way for light , or the light that illuminates everything that makes you want to hide in the dark, you need to find a level where both can exist and work as a team. An analogy I can use can be waves crashing on rocks in the sea. People don't build ships to wreck , your mind and body were not built to wreck .
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EllieI said my full name. I cannot believe I said my full name to a stranger. What is wrong with me ? Andrea is an angel . I am Eleanor. Something about the guy she came with felt safe ; secure and it felt like home . Andrea looked at both of us and smiled . We both smiled back and she said;"I need more tea, be right back ."I looked at the guy again and without hesitation he kissed me . My body knew him because against everything inside me saying run , my heart told me to stay and get to know Maxwell . He was crying when he pulled back ."Oh I believe in miracles.""Me too. Are you okay?""Hmm .""Should I know you? I was involved in an accident and I have no recollection of who I was."" I do . You are my girlfriend ."I took a deep breath and sat down" I am your what now?"My heart was strangely calm ." Girlfriend."I looked at him" Prove
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