**The Feds are here.**
“He's still unconscious…” is the first Russian sentence that travels into my ears as I twirl around the bed. It’s more like the person is on a call, I guess because I can’t hear another husky voice spilling responses to that very sentence that went straight to my ears. As I toss around the soft, tiny bed, I try to flutter my eyes open and take in my surroundings. I don’t remember what literally brought me here and on this seemingly tiny bed. Trying to lift an eye open seems difficult as it’s accompanied by a bright, agonizing light and strings of banging in my head. Shit! I cuss under my breath, immediately pulling my eye close. Taking two gulping breaths, I give it a try the second time. Slowly, I begin to pry my eyes open. First, I let my eyes mildly adjust to the intense brightness which I belatedly find out is the sunlight streaming in through a window. Then, I survey my surrounding. It’s only then that I figured I’m in a hospital. On that note, my mind begin to process all the events that led to my being here in a hospital bed, wrapped up with Band-aid and an IV. The unforeseen events of last night begin to filter through my mind. Out of reflex, I gaze down to my aching side, only to figure out it’s wrapped in a Band-aid too. Then my left arm. It’s a surprise to me that I wasn’t able to feel the pains in my arm yesterday because my entire focus was channeled on my pierced ribs. The sounds of footfalls resound in the room, pulling me from my musings and I heft my head only to behold Akim barreling toward me with a smile etched onto his face. Settling down on the side of the bed he asked, “How do you feel, pakhan?” He manages to speak his English correctly although that’s not what I’m most concerned about at the moment. Either way, I gave him a nod while sucking in a series of air to ease my constricted lungs which aches like the son of a bitch. It's in the process of sucking in the air that I take cognizance of the dryness of my throat. Peering my eyes around the room, I find a water dispenser and gesture for Akim to get a cup for me to down. Quickly, he does my bidding and nestles next to me again. I can see his Glock seating in his holster and the dry blood on his face. When I empty the glass which was initially filled with water, I drop it on the nightstand next to me. Now, I've got a semblance of coherence both in my thoughts and in my physical appearance. Good. I give Akim my full attention to tackle our current situation because I know by now the Feds will be out there looking for me. Those bunch of fools will only assume I stomped into the States to cause chaos. I don’t want to engage in any problem with them which was why I lay low at first but right now, I guess I’m having a second thought. I need to figure out something and until I do, I can’t determine when I’ll exit the states. That coward that decided to launch an attack on me will get the attack in spades the second I find out who was behind it. “Where’s Leonid?” I asked in my thickly accented voice and Akim gives me responses without delay. “He was shot too. He’s receiving treatment in the room opposite yours, Pakhan.” He said, gauging my reactions but I give a nod. “Stalin called a while ago.” Akim powers on and my interest peaks. Stalin must be worried sick about the situation of things here in the States. Stalin, a friend turned brother, has always been on the lookout for me. He's a guy whose IQ is second to none. When it comes to technology, Stalin is the wizard. I can’t believe we survived the horrible streets of Russia to become what we are today. Just like me, Stalin lost what was closest to a family he had and was left to wander the streets of Moscow. We met the fucking night some drunk fool was trying to force themselves on me as little as I was then. Shackled in the alley, away from the streetlights, I was nearly assaulted but to my reliving shock someone heard my outcry and that was Stalin. According to him, he was only roaming around in search of a place to lay his head but the instant he heard cries streaming from the alleyway, he took a sneak peek. Seeing the assaulting hands of the drunk, he rushed forward, hands gripping a long spiked club he picked by the roadside, then he surreptitiously lunged forward and stabbed both drunks from behind their fucking backs. I was shocked beyond control that he killed two people but he told me it wasn’t his first kill. To survive in the streets of Russia one must be cold, fierce, and heartless. He made the kill seem like a norm which I found out later that in the streets of Russia, killing is a norm if you have the vision to survive. From that very frosty night, Stalin and I stuck together as one. He watches out for me and I watch out for him. He tried to nurture me on how to be fierce and heartless and fortunately, I learnt it in the streets. Our struggle to survive was our main goal until the last event which propelled me into the corridors of power. The last event that brought out the darkness deep within me Now, I don’t believe in societal moral. I don’t believe in redemption. I don’t believe there’s a being greater than I am. I’m feared by all. And I can’t begin to tell you how much I love seeing those fears in people’s eyes. Wherever my name is mentioned in the underworld, people’s blood coagulate. Pakhan Dima Kozlov is not one to be messed with which brings me back to the very first question roaming through my mind. Who the hell launched an onslaught against me? “He tried t speak with you last night but I narrated the whole ordeal to him. He’s shocked. He assured me he'll tap into the satellite video of the club and see if there are initial movements that led to such a sizzling attack on you.” Akim's words interrupted my train of thought. I’m glad by Stalin’s uncompromised effort to sleuth Benson’s club and find out the remote causes of such an event. As I said, I'd love to capture the ingrates that did this with my bare hands. I'd love to kill them and in the process smell their filthy blood and hear their hoarse screams as death clouds over them. I erected from the bed and sauntered into the closet when I feel my full bladder. As I release the contents into the lavatory seat, my mind suddenly rivets back to the kiss I had last night. Heck! It takes about twenty minutes to recognize the familiar scent of the girl with a Slavic face still lingering on me. I clearly remember the damn softness of her lips. That fear and fascination in the depth of her eyes. Fuck! What the fuck am I doing? I howl inwardly as my mind begins to filter images of the strange girl’s face. As I held my cock, pissing into the toilet, I feel it hardening because of the girl I kissed just to quell my rage because I couldn’t see Benson’s daughter. Hell! I shook my head thrice to erase thoughts about her lips from my mind. I have better things to do than linger on the thoughts of my kiss with a stranger. Besides, I’m never one to think about a woman. I howl at the thought of thinking about someone with a pussy rather than my business as a Bratva. I blow out some breath of air. Thrice actually, so I can find some semblance of coherence in my fogged mind. Fruitless, I ball my free hand into a fist, gnash my teeth as my cock turns stiff in the palm of my hand, and my fucked up mind flickers images of that familiar face in slides like a fucking reel. Thankfully, the door to the closet flutters open with a damn loud thud. I tug my head backward and glance at Leonid whose face shriveled, his free hand held tightly his Glock while the other hand is wrapped in a sling. Veering, I jerk my cock into my briefs and throw Leonid a quizzical look. “The Feds are here in the hospital. About eight of them surround the hospital.” Leonid said and I hear Akim cussing and cussing. I cuss too. I don’t want the Feds coming for me at this moment. Benson should have covered this up for me! Damn! My face mirrors perceptible terror which made Leonid to be on high alert. I throw them a glance and gushed. “The last thing we need now is to add the Feds shit to the shit we already have. I can’t have them capture me. We should escape.” Squaring their shoulders, they nod their heads. Quickly, Akim rush back into the room and bolted the door to give us time to come up with an escape plan. Stepping into the room, I pull off the hospital gown and Leonid hands me my shirt which is still soaked with my blood. I gave no shit about the dried blood as I pull the shirt on and buckle the buttons. “What do we do now?” Akim mutters in rabid Russian while I search for a solution In the recess of my mind. An idea clicks in. “We need to disguise,” I say as I weigh their reactions. Good, they both seem to agree with my thoughts so I power on. “We've got to get someone who will show us another exit from the hospital while we live incognito.” As if fate has us in mind, a knock resounds at the door. Leonid gestures for me to hide inside the closet for cover while Akim hides under the bed with his Glock facing the door pointedly, ready to shoot in case the person happens to be who we less expect. In three slow strides, Leonid answers the door and a janitor assembles in. The look he wear on his face when he saw Leonid was that of terror as Leonid drag him into the room and shut the door. “Sir…” “Shh…” Leonid gestures and the cowering janitor obeys. “I need you to go and get some of your colleagues outside this hallway. Two of them. Now.” Leonid orders with his dagger pressed against the janitor's neck. Visibly shaken, the janitor slips out as Leonid watches his movement. Pulling his head back, he gestures to me that the hallway is empty which is a relief. Within ten minutes, the janitor returns with two of his colleagues who held their mopping equipment. Swiftly, we all exchange our clothes with theirs and silence them with a check of ten grand. Well, not without threatening their lives. An act I’ll carry out in a twinkle of an eye if I find out they snitch on us. In our disguise, we follow the instructions of the first janitor and exit the hospital stealthily. But as we make a run for it down the street thoughts about the girl with a Slavic face rivets back in my mind. I want to scratch it off but I can’t. Fuck! I shouldn’t have kissed her to quell my anger because it didn’t only quell the anger it stirred another strange feelings inside me. Now, I want to find the girl and I want to find out why I can't scratch thoughts about her off my mind.
*What she's hiding.* Distant voices reverberates in my ears as I rise from the couch. Oh, my body aches so effing bad, I have to recoil back on the couch.God, who could have thought I’d make out of the stampede last night?The events of last night gives me more reason not to be a social person. This is New York, and shits happen. Though, not as bad as what happened last night. I thought I’d die there.I just don’t get it. I can’t seem to wrap my head around the fact that all that happens in my wake is disaster. I’m still sulking for my late father, and consequently my friends suggested that hitting a club with them on the crack of dawn of a new year will help ease the pain. The sorrow. However, things went south and now I’m not only going through emotional trauma, but also physical pains. My feet got blisters as I ran for my life last night.“Solntse!!”A seemingly raging voice spears through my eardrums from a distant, but it seems the voice is coming from speaker. I endeavor to str
*what it'll feel like to have sex*** I stand frozen for about five minutes, my mind trying to process Mae’s blunt comment. However, no matter how much I try to piece things together, I fail woefully but all my instinct tells me is that, something’s up with Mae.Why was I dressed exactly as Mae last night? I mean, not like it’s a horrible idea but hell, we haven’t so much as use the same body cream to even consider fitting in the same type of dress, hairstyle, and…stilettos?Omigod.I can’t ignore this gnawing feeling that this isn’t what it looks likes. It's more than meets the eye. Besides, my instinct whispered something about the bartender being unnerving, right?I mean, the whole way he served me was as if he lay in wait for my arrival. Did someone alert him or something?He just offered me champagne as though he already knows without a doubt that is what I’ll order. For all I can remember, champagne is the only alcohol I can down and my friends knows about that. But the bartender
**Stole my first kiss.** The frosty winter air gnaws my skin when I exit the elevator and lobby of the hotel Mae lodged in. The street is already buzzy, with pedestrians trailing up and down the sidewalk while cars lines up in traffic. The sun is barely radiating from the sky which adds to the intense chill spreading through my body.I take the sidewalk to my left and skitter down the road, at the intersection, I cross the road to the other side and begin making a beeline to the direction of the club where disaster rained upon all of us that gathered there.While hitting down the road, I still harbor thoughts about the stranger from last night. The way his eyes dilated when he looked at me is suspicious. Though we shared a kiss, which I seriously wish I can get more, it was like he was trying to hide his surprise or disgust I don’t know.I feel the conversation he incepted was just to buy time for something, I don’t know. I feel the conversation he initiated was forced. Like, he lite
**X-rated Image.** “Easy, Pakhan. You've wounds remember?” Leonid's voice booms into my ears as I pummel my right fist into the punch bag while he pummels the punch bag too from the other side with one of his hands.Beads of sweat drizzle down my skin as I channel all my focus on the exercise I’m carrying out. After our flight from the hospital two days ago, my mind has been entirely brimmed with different thoughts, starting from the mastermind of the attack and the girl whose Slavic face has stuck to my head like an X-rated image.Fuck. Fuck.I can’t douse the curiosity ricocheting through me about finding out who the girl is but I haven’t so much as slip out of this hideout I and my men were able to secure after we fled from the hospital.After our arrival in the States, we lodged in an upscale bed and breakfast in Brooklyn but following the clusterfuck at the club and the Feds implacable efforts in laying their fucking hands on me, I had second thoughts about spending a damn night
**Be on your fours** “I can help ease your pains in some other ways, you know.” The little ginger nurse I hired croons under her breath while wrapping a new, clean band-aid around my side. The graze of her fingers against my skin makes me feel aroused.Her eyes hold a sharp glint as she tucks her lips between her teeth. I begin to scrutinize her skin, her deft fingers, and her small, pink lips. I’ve no doubt as small her she is she has been fucked by at least five different men because her gestures are that of a professional whore.Ah, how can I forget? Nurses are the real deal when it comes to sex. Funny enough, I can only attest to this because I fucked three different nurses back in Russia.They give good head and their pussy is always wet and ready. Those creatures can send a man to heaven by just catching a glimpse of their dribbling pussy.One of my caregivers in Russia is also a nurse and I’ve had her countless times. As I watch the ginger girl graze her fingers down my torso w
**I own New York.*** As Benson stand-up in front of me, I hear my men and his click their triggers. The sounds making me seethe. I don’t know his agenda. I don’t even wish to know at this moment because my men and I are still recuperating from the attack meted against us at his club.So if he’s here for his own crossfire because of the chaos, I’ll say we ain’t ready, and besides, his men outnumbers mine.Yes, I promised to lie low and cause no pandemonium, but whatever happened at that club wasn’t my fault.But…wait a minute.Is Benson here with the FBI who must be scouring everywhere for me?Shit!I hope not.As that dizzying thought flashes through my mind I swivel my head back and study the men I regarded as Benson’s lackeys, initially. I failed to glimpse at them more accurately before, but now I do.The six hulk, muscled men are in dark sunnies, dark suits and earpieces.I don’t see anything that hints about the FBI on them. At that thought, my racing heart cools, but the curiosi
**Run!** “Yeah, I’ll be there soon.” I spout into the phone as Lily’s words rush into my ears. Lilly is my roommate and classmate in school and she has called to inform me about the instructions given for our forthcoming practical chemistry.I’ve always wanted to study Medicine as my major in school but I never knew it could be more than stressful. Either ways, it’s the zeal that keeps me going if not I might have call it quits.Oh, plus the fact that I don’t want the stress of writing another SAT exams. The one I wrote before being admitted in the school was beyond stressful. I literally burn out during my lessons. So calling it quits now is never my plan.I quickly shoot up from the bed, my hair cascading down my temples while I throw my head back and yearn. I really appreciate Lilly's relentless effort on watching my back for me because my side job sometimes make me unavailable in school which I abhor but what choice do I have?Literally, no choice.My father like I said before nev
***devil's queen.*** Call me a paranoia, call me a fool, still, I won’t give a dime. My life is precious to me so I can’t have the people that shot the strange Kozlov and bartender find me. I know I shouldn’t have pried. I shouldn’t have gone to the club in search of someone who merely stole my first kiss. To him, it might have been just a kiss. A kiss he initiated just for fun. Or rather, a kiss he initiated to wish me good luck ahead because it’s a new year. Well, I wonder why I’m acting childish. Sharing kisses on a new year is common in the States and certainly, there are others like me who got kissed by strangers on that night even if it’s not at the club. So why in hell did I suddenly feel the need to look for the stranger? A stranger that looks nothing less than dangerous. His cologne smells like danger. His thick leather cologne hammers red light in my ears. So after the red flag, I actually went in search of him? Now I know that was so stupid of me to do and in my bid to
*****Epilogue.******Six months later.**The sounds of my laughter file through the air as Yulia fills me in on Dasha’s tantrums. Something the toddler lately developed. I laugh while shoving the food down my throat, feeling more happy and safe than I’ve felt in the past year. All my paranoia vanished and now I’m even adding more weight. Jeez. I never knew I had it in me. However, I’m not eating much as the doctor advised so it'll not make my baby fat in the belly, hence difficulty in giving birth. So, that means what’s making me add weight is happiness. Wow, I never knew it’s possible until I found myself in the position. The last six months have been a water shed in my life. I thought I’d lose my pregnancy after all the torture I went through but no. I got lucky that the doctors staunched the bleeding and saved my child. Now, my belly is out and my child is growing peacefully. Dima has never stopped fussing over me and the baby. Jeez, I never knew the man
>>>>The End.>>>>I’ve been sweeping in and out of consciousness since their last bout of torture. God, my body is nothing but a house of pain. The laser they zap my body with has roped tight my muscles. I whimper, feeling the wetness gathering on my thighs. What is happening? Am I bleeding? With fear, I start to wring on the seat so my shorts will hitch up mid-thigh to reveal the wetness that has pooled in my thighs. While in my struggling process, I hear heavy footsteps edging closer to me and I peer up. There he is, waddling closer to me with a harsh gleam in his eyes. He pauses before me and I stare up at him not wanting him to smell even a string of my fear and despair. Oleg leans closer and cradles my jaw with brute force, rage gleaming in his eyes. I shudder and my inside recoils as his eyes find their way into mine. “Your knight in shining armor is out to get you.” He chuckles darkly. His thumb flicks over my parched lips. I curse him for laying his filthy
****FBI Blacksite.*****It’s hard to take in. My mind has been boggled ever since Mae revealed the truth to me. I still have some doubts. How in hell had Benson been my father without my knowing? It’s strange. It's so difficult to believe but the string of evidence Mae pulled together is foolproof. It wasn’t something she made up. No. It’s real. It’s the truth. Benson is my father. Benson is Oleg Arkadi Kozlov. The man behind my mother’s sufferings. Shit!! I can’t wait to send him into the depths of pain and let death embrace him. Not only had he caused the woman I loved pains by raping her. No, he went as far as to make her life at Vladimir’s estate a living hell. Even when she had found peace during the time Vladimir locked Benson in Volsk, he shortened her moments of happiness with the assassination. He murdered her just to be sure he never see her live a life of fulfillment. How heartless could he be? He not only hurt my mother he also hurt me. He ruined my chi
****Take me as hostage.*****I never once thought something would ever make me anxious in my life. Not even when my mother was shot dead before my eyes. No. All I felt when I saw my mama lying in the pool of her own blood was raw anger. I wanted so much to exert revenge on Vladimir because I tagged him as the cause of our plight. I was never anxious. But…too bad I am now. I’ve been anxious since I figured Faustina is evil. I’ve been anxious since I found out she was behind it all. She threw my rypka to the wolves to devour. My woman is out there pregnant with my seed and without protection. Fuck! I grit my teeth at the gaping realization and shove my fingers through my hair. My mind has been overloaded with the possibility of the conditions she might have been subjected to by now. Shit, I can’t take this. I can’t bring myself to imagine my rypka being tortured. I can’t envision the pain she'd be feeling. I swear to avenge her and my child. But most of all, I pray this very
>>>>>You're Dima's father.>>>>Whispering voices fill the air around me as I wake from my deep slumber. I wheeze a breath but I figure my throat is dry. Totally dry. I try to wet my throat with my saliva but hell, I can barely muster enough to wet my dry throat. Where am I? How long have I been unconscious? All these questions fill my head but I can’t find any answer to it. I try to peer around but darkness falls into my vision. Hell, where is this? It’s more like I have a hood over my head. I try to jerk my hands but I can’t budge. I’m tied. At that, full-blown panic sets in and I begin to whimper, budging the restraints on my hands. “Hmmm…” I hum, seeking answers while I wrack my head for answers on what literally went down.How in hell did I end up here, manacled? With the fierce intensity which I wrack my mind, things start falling into place. The golden mask festival. My flight from Dima’s house to Moscow international airport. My landing in the U.S.
>>>>It's about you and Dawn. I never knew fury can form balls and lodge into one's chest but now I do. I fucking do because the balls keeps rotating in my chest as I punish my Byki more. “Ahhh, Pakhan please!” Russell hoots in excruciating pains as I cut his finger. He was supposed to guard the entrance but the fucker left it open and was smoking pot with some of the soldiers, giving Dawn the opportunity to escape. I fucking never knew she had plans of escape. How in hell was she able to fucking do that? I fist his hair, my jaw sets as I smack Russell hard across the face again. For the past three days, I’ve been teetering on the edge of insanity knowing my woman is out there and can get in the clutches of the wolves. I’ve not in the least bit cleared my head nor closed my eyes because if I do, only images of Dawn with her bloating belly crash into my mind. How could she do this to me? How? The woman has my child with her yet she chose to flee from me. The night of
*****Freedom.******The day slips by in a blur. I can’t tell what got me engaged until it’s time for the festival to begin. My nerves are jumpy while my mind is in a state of unrest about what will happen in hours to come. All day, I just lock myself in the room, thinking the best possible way to escape from this estate. I know Dima’s men are everywhere . His soldiers are stationed at every corner of this fucking place which will only make my escape hard. Hell, if care is not taken they might catch me and bring me back to their boss and only God knows what Dima will do. I all but wrack my mind for a solution. The perimeter alarm might give me away or the drones that keep flying around the estate every twenty hours. God, as much as this sounds good, I mean my ticket to freedom sounds good, it’s risky. It’s only someone that’s versatile about Dima’s property that can make an easy escape. It’s making me doubt whether I'll continue with this escape plan. If perhaps I’
>>>>>Ticket to freedom.>>>>>The soft knock on the door has me stirring from my sleep. I’m not able to concede the person’s visit as the door flutters open and three of Dima’s servants strut into the room bearing a dresser. I scrunch my nose knowing what the cloth they are herding into the room is for. For the past two days, I have been fitting into different dress for the so-called golden mask festival. Fucking don’t see the need for that. Dima alongside Yulia had called on the best fashion designer they have here in Russia and about three of these people brought the best of their dresses, forcing me to wear them to see the one that would suit the occasion but in the end, Dima would end up disliking it. Just yesterday, the last of the fashion designer came and took my measurements, promising to make a unique dress for me that'll suit the occasion. That should be the dress the servants are wheeling into the room. And for them to bring it here, it only means Dima approves
>>>>An Email.>>>>I pin my back to the door immediately I exit my room…Dawn’s room. My heart rolls with bitterness against my chest. She hates me. When I kissed her I felt her hunger for me. For my touch but something made her remember just the amount of hatred she has for me. It breaks me to know I’m the reason for this severed ties between us. I am the fucking reason. But should I fault myself? I can’t fault myself at all. All my life I’m wired to hate one man and that is Vladimir and by extension, his household. So, the rage I felt when I found out the mark that signifies Dawn as his printsessa can’t be vaporized. I almost acted on impulse at the hospital that night. Hell, I almost shot her. Had it been I wasn’t on the run, in my hands would her blood swim. But if I had killed her I’d have killed my child too…something that I’ve desired to have all my life. I want to have a baby with Dawn and now she’s pregnant, only I can’t get close to her because she hates