Desiderium : An ardent desire or longing.COLE I THINK I underestimated my princess. And now I was paying for it. It was already taking a fucking toll on me to sleep in a sitting position outside her apartment and today of all day was the worst. There was a raging headache I had woken up with and my back was fucked up along with the muscles in my neck. And it wasn’t only that, I could deal with the pain but I think it was my body trying to tell me to stop before it gets any worse than it already was. I was clammy and was having a hard time to keep my eyes open, I was pretty sure I was running a fever but I didn’t let it show in front of my princess while I sat there and enjoyed the pasta she made. It was a bit salty and my tongue might still be complaining about the spiciness of it but all that mattered was that she made it. At least at the end of our, not expected brunch— courtesy of Daisy, I definitely owe her one, I got to explain a little bit about myself albeit the fact that she
It’s too fucking hard to unlove someone. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETI Staggered back with Cole’s weight against me as he was unceremoniously pushed in my direction. My arms automatically tightened around him even before he murmured the words, “Princess, please, don’t let go.”Wide eyed and with a sense of panic, I stared at my empty doorway where that stranger with a mask and a cap was not a moment ago. If I didn’t know better I’d think he was just a figment of my imagination who pushed— no, more like threw Cole in my arms and then disappeared in a blink of an eye. What a prick!I focused back on the man in my arms I was barely holding on to, if not for me leaning against the sofa at my back we would both be on the floor at this moment. He was heavy. “Cole...” I said his name, softly, my arms tight around him even though his wet clothes were soaking mine too.“Mm..hmm.” He hummed into my neck, his warm breath making goosebumps dot my skin and the fact that he was burning up didn’t escape my
I still want you, I do. But with every beat my heart reminds me of the pain you caused it. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETTHE Doctor looked at Cole, who had somehow turned paler than before and turned to me as he said, “He needs to get out of these wet clothes.”Eyes wide, I looked at the doctor then turned to Mad who shrugged at me and said, “I guess fever and wet clothes doesn’t pair together.” I licked my dry lips and blinked at him. He nudged me toward my bed and said, “The doctor will help you. I’ll take out the soup Bree sent for him.” And then he left me.The doctor looked at me expectantly and I swallowed before giving a determined nod to myself. Of course, I can do it. I have seen him nakéd before. It wasn’t like I didn't know how mouth-watering his body was. Shît. Vi, get a grip. You can’t lust after a man who’s lying sick in your bed. He is in my bed! I closed my eyes, I think I will need another appointment with my therapist and ask her if it was really necessary to talk to myself be
Regrets and Guilt are a part of Love. But they are very small parts, they should never be bigger than the love itself. ~ A. GuptaVIOLETFeeling a little bit trepid I was hesitant as I returned back to my room. I didn’t realise how tense I was until my hunched shoulders relaxed when I found him laying there, unmoving with his eyes closed and breathing deep and even. He had fallen asleep. But then within a few seconds my relief evaporated when I realised that it wasn’t for the best as I had to make him eat and give him the medicines. So I returned back to the kitchen grabbed the lidded bowl of still hot soup that Bree had sent with a spoon and a bottle of water. There was a container with sandwiches inside it too which she probably sent to make sure I had something to eat as well.When I came back to my bedroom, I couldn't help but be aware of him naked in my bed and even though I tried to not dwell on it, it became difficult when I touched his bare shoulder to wake him up. His eyes fl
The heart is not commanded.VIOLETI Woke up in the bed, tucked under the covers and it took me a minute or two to realize what was odd about it and why it didn’t feel right to be alone in my own bed. Because someone else was supposed to be here. For a few seconds panic gripped me hard and made my chest constrict as old hurt rushed back with a vengeance, thrusting me back to that day two years ago.I gasped in a lungful of air to calm myself when I heard the shower in the bathroom and when the memories from last night came rushing back. He was here. He wasn’t gone. I looked at the small alarm clock to see it was only three in the morning, stifling a yawn I climbed out of the bed and walked the small distance to my bathroom. As the door was already half open, I didn’t think twice before pushing it wide and stepping inside. I should’ve thought about it, though, I realised belatedly when I came face to face with his nakéd back and then he turned around in all his sculpted, muscled, glory
A lie is a lie no matter the reason behind it.I knew she lied but who was I to say anything when I lied too. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETEVEN Before I opened my eyes I knew it was late. And that someone was watching me. Correction, not someone but Cole. I could feel the weight of his gaze, warm with a sense of being like I was something to be admired. I used to feel that way before he left, I shook that thought away before it could pull me down into the well of melancholy.Slowly, I took note of myself and the man I was pressed to. My one leg was on top of him, almost around his waist, my head was on his arm and my face was pressed to his bared chest. But it wasn’t just that that had every nerve and cell in my body tingling and alert. No. It was that I could feel his nakedness against my stomach, the feel of his hardness against my soft flesh only separated by the thin camisole I was wearing. And it didn’t end there, his other hand was on my chest or more specifically loosely curled around m
It's strange how you could spend years with someone and think that you know everything about them, but there'll come a time or something will happen to make you question if you truly knew them at all. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLET“Damn. Is it just me or did he really get hotter than before?” Daisy nudged my side as we came out of the small play school where she was a teacher and I weekly volunteered for the recreational activities for the kids.I followed her gaze to find Cole standing across the street leaning against a car I haven't seen before with his hands in the pockets of his black slacks and a black button down shirt like he had just stepped out of his skyscraper office for lunch. I blinked the image of him sitting in a chair behind a desk and commanding every one in sight, I didn't know how and why that thought entered my mind but it was one that had me feeling oddly warm. I couldn't see his eyes as they were hiding behind the dark sunglasses he was wearing but I felt the weight of h
His world was different than mine. But for him, I'll leave the safety of mine if it meant having him. ~ A. GuptaVIOLETHALF An hour later after trying dozens of dresses that I liked but pushed in the rejected pile because of the price tags on them despite the way the woman glared at me like I was insulting her by just standing in the store, I settled on a deep purple dress with its lace sleeves that had soft ruffles on the hem which ended below my knees. When I came out to where Cole was waiting, he was looking at the handbags that one of the girls behind the counter was showing him but I could see most of her attention was on him not the bags. “I think this one...” I heard him say as I got closer. He must’ve heard my footsteps as he turned around and looked at me. His sherry eyes brightened in the overhead lights or maybe because he liked what he saw. I’d like to think it was the latter. “Gorgeous.”I looked down, nervously caressing my palms down my dress. God. This was... strange