It doesn’t matter how much time has passed, every time I think about it that makes me cry. It hurts my heart so much, takes me back to the time when I felt helpless and so broken. How do I move past it? How do I trust him again? I couldn’t. And if I did, wouldn’t it be the betrayal to the girl I see in the mirror now, who had learned to smile once again even when tears shine in her eyes. ~ A. Gupta..VIOLETI am going to kill Daisy. The thought was constant in my mind as I sat there stabbing at the tomato on my plate. She sat only for a few minutes, shovelled most of the pasta in her mouth and then declared that she had to go somewhere very important. Liar. Now, I was sitting here trying hard not to run away like a scared little girl. I don’t know why I was feeling this way, but sitting here alone with food between us— the food that I made, the flowers he brought me on the other side, it was feeling too intimate.“It’s delicious.” His deep voice had me pausing, my heart stalled and
Desiderium : An ardent desire or longing.COLE I THINK I underestimated my princess. And now I was paying for it. It was already taking a fucking toll on me to sleep in a sitting position outside her apartment and today of all day was the worst. There was a raging headache I had woken up with and my back was fucked up along with the muscles in my neck. And it wasn’t only that, I could deal with the pain but I think it was my body trying to tell me to stop before it gets any worse than it already was. I was clammy and was having a hard time to keep my eyes open, I was pretty sure I was running a fever but I didn’t let it show in front of my princess while I sat there and enjoyed the pasta she made. It was a bit salty and my tongue might still be complaining about the spiciness of it but all that mattered was that she made it. At least at the end of our, not expected brunch— courtesy of Daisy, I definitely owe her one, I got to explain a little bit about myself albeit the fact that she
It’s too fucking hard to unlove someone. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETI Staggered back with Cole’s weight against me as he was unceremoniously pushed in my direction. My arms automatically tightened around him even before he murmured the words, “Princess, please, don’t let go.”Wide eyed and with a sense of panic, I stared at my empty doorway where that stranger with a mask and a cap was not a moment ago. If I didn’t know better I’d think he was just a figment of my imagination who pushed— no, more like threw Cole in my arms and then disappeared in a blink of an eye. What a prick!I focused back on the man in my arms I was barely holding on to, if not for me leaning against the sofa at my back we would both be on the floor at this moment. He was heavy. “Cole...” I said his name, softly, my arms tight around him even though his wet clothes were soaking mine too.“Mm..hmm.” He hummed into my neck, his warm breath making goosebumps dot my skin and the fact that he was burning up didn’t escape my
I still want you, I do. But with every beat my heart reminds me of the pain you caused it. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETTHE Doctor looked at Cole, who had somehow turned paler than before and turned to me as he said, “He needs to get out of these wet clothes.”Eyes wide, I looked at the doctor then turned to Mad who shrugged at me and said, “I guess fever and wet clothes doesn’t pair together.” I licked my dry lips and blinked at him. He nudged me toward my bed and said, “The doctor will help you. I’ll take out the soup Bree sent for him.” And then he left me.The doctor looked at me expectantly and I swallowed before giving a determined nod to myself. Of course, I can do it. I have seen him nakéd before. It wasn’t like I didn't know how mouth-watering his body was. Shît. Vi, get a grip. You can’t lust after a man who’s lying sick in your bed. He is in my bed! I closed my eyes, I think I will need another appointment with my therapist and ask her if it was really necessary to talk to myself be
Regrets and Guilt are a part of Love. But they are very small parts, they should never be bigger than the love itself. ~ A. GuptaVIOLETFeeling a little bit trepid I was hesitant as I returned back to my room. I didn’t realise how tense I was until my hunched shoulders relaxed when I found him laying there, unmoving with his eyes closed and breathing deep and even. He had fallen asleep. But then within a few seconds my relief evaporated when I realised that it wasn’t for the best as I had to make him eat and give him the medicines. So I returned back to the kitchen grabbed the lidded bowl of still hot soup that Bree had sent with a spoon and a bottle of water. There was a container with sandwiches inside it too which she probably sent to make sure I had something to eat as well.When I came back to my bedroom, I couldn't help but be aware of him naked in my bed and even though I tried to not dwell on it, it became difficult when I touched his bare shoulder to wake him up. His eyes fl
The heart is not commanded.VIOLETI Woke up in the bed, tucked under the covers and it took me a minute or two to realize what was odd about it and why it didn’t feel right to be alone in my own bed. Because someone else was supposed to be here. For a few seconds panic gripped me hard and made my chest constrict as old hurt rushed back with a vengeance, thrusting me back to that day two years ago.I gasped in a lungful of air to calm myself when I heard the shower in the bathroom and when the memories from last night came rushing back. He was here. He wasn’t gone. I looked at the small alarm clock to see it was only three in the morning, stifling a yawn I climbed out of the bed and walked the small distance to my bathroom. As the door was already half open, I didn’t think twice before pushing it wide and stepping inside. I should’ve thought about it, though, I realised belatedly when I came face to face with his nakéd back and then he turned around in all his sculpted, muscled, glory
A lie is a lie no matter the reason behind it.I knew she lied but who was I to say anything when I lied too. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETEVEN Before I opened my eyes I knew it was late. And that someone was watching me. Correction, not someone but Cole. I could feel the weight of his gaze, warm with a sense of being like I was something to be admired. I used to feel that way before he left, I shook that thought away before it could pull me down into the well of melancholy.Slowly, I took note of myself and the man I was pressed to. My one leg was on top of him, almost around his waist, my head was on his arm and my face was pressed to his bared chest. But it wasn’t just that that had every nerve and cell in my body tingling and alert. No. It was that I could feel his nakedness against my stomach, the feel of his hardness against my soft flesh only separated by the thin camisole I was wearing. And it didn’t end there, his other hand was on my chest or more specifically loosely curled around m
It's strange how you could spend years with someone and think that you know everything about them, but there'll come a time or something will happen to make you question if you truly knew them at all. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLET“Damn. Is it just me or did he really get hotter than before?” Daisy nudged my side as we came out of the small play school where she was a teacher and I weekly volunteered for the recreational activities for the kids.I followed her gaze to find Cole standing across the street leaning against a car I haven't seen before with his hands in the pockets of his black slacks and a black button down shirt like he had just stepped out of his skyscraper office for lunch. I blinked the image of him sitting in a chair behind a desk and commanding every one in sight, I didn't know how and why that thought entered my mind but it was one that had me feeling oddly warm. I couldn't see his eyes as they were hiding behind the dark sunglasses he was wearing but I felt the weight of h
TWISTED MARRIAGE: MMF Dark Mafia Romance Novel. .INNESSA“Nina!” I ignored my little sister, Mila's, call as I rushed out of the ballroom where the party for my eighteenth birthday was going on. Or, should I say the celebration for my upcoming nuptials. Even the thought of that made me want to vomit. Since the moment the Capo of the major crime family: Rossi, had died my father had lost all his privileges and power in the underworld. He had been trying all these years to get back the power and position he once had, but the current Capo: Antonio Rossi didn’t seem inclined to get cosy with anyone his father once associated with. Rumor even has it that he was the one who actually kîlled his own father when he was just a child himself. Sometimes, I wonder if he could teach me a thing or two about it because if I knew how to get out of it I’d commit patricîde in my next breath. What? Don’t look at me like that. My father deserves it, if you knew him you’d say the same thing. He is the
Bonus chapterCOLEI stood by the glass doors and watched as my princess introduced our son, Romeo, to everyone in the Carter family. Our son. Now every time I look at him, I feel what I know Violet must’ve felt that first time when she’d seen him. It has been four months since he became a part of our family. Four months since we became parents. And only three months since Romeo started to call me Papa and started treating me as his father. I wasn’t too proud to lie and say that I didn’t hug my wife and cried happy tears in her arms the first time I heard the word papa from Romeo. The little boy was ruling not only mine and my wife’s heart, but everyone else’s in the family. Even Uncle Nico was doting on him more than he ever did on me. Surprisingly he didn’t take as much time with uncle Nico as he did with me to get comfortable with. It was my beautiful wife, my princess, who built his trust in me day after day and taught me how to earn his trust. The first two weeks were hard. Ro
EPILOGUE IIA YEAR LATER....VIOLET“Are you ready to go?” I looked at my husband and gave him a reluctant nod. We were at the shelter that the church ran. The buildings were joined together by a backdoor. And since last year when I had come here for the first time on our first Christmas together as husband and wife, I had liked it so much here that every time we came back from New York we came visit the kids. Now, this church and the shelter was part of our life as much as it was Nicolai’s, even though it was the first time that he hadn’t been able to come here on Christmas. The sisters specifically asked for him and showed their disappointment at learning that he wasn’t joining us. It was kind of crazy to think that a man who I had once witness covered in blôod from head to toe, that still gives me flashbacks every time I see him, was so revered by these people of God. “Come on, princess. It’s getting late. The children need to go to their beds.” My husband was right, but in all
I have died every day waiting for youDarling, don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years. I'll love you for a thousand more.~ A Thousand years..A MONTH LATER....VIOLETI woke up to an empty bed but a little note waited on my husband’s pillow. I picked it up and as I read his scrawled message, a smile lit up my face. ‘Good morning, princess. Come downstairs whenever you're ready. The twins are already making a racket. I had to go down before they set the house on fire. I love you.’Today’s going to be another good day, or maybe a better one because my husband wasn’t the only one who was stuffing our closet with presents he didn't think I knew anything about. I slipped out of the bed and made my way to the bathroom, deciding to get ready before going downstairs because by what Cole had shared, between the twins and his mother, maybe I won’t get another chance to get dressed up for tonight’s dinner. Our very first Christmas dinner as husband and wife.When I got downsta
COLEViolet removed the makeshift blindfold and as soon as I opened my eyes I came face to face with... My own reflection. But no, that would be too tame a comparison to what I look like in a mirror. It actually was how my princess saw me. The painting dominated the white wall. And as I looked at it, I was amazed and in awe. With each stroke of the brush, my princess had captured a side of me that I didn’t even know existed. I remembered the moment when she must’ve gotten the inspiration for this one. I was in the pool, looking up at her as she laid there on the chaise. My arms were folded beneath my chin, my eyes squinting a little because of the sun high up in the sky shining down on us.And the way she had captured me, my features in exquisite detail, it didn’t hide the fact that I was in love with the person I was looking at. I never thought that I could be someone’s muse, that I’ll ever be able to inspire such breath-taking artwork in someone. But my princess, not only fell in l
VIOLETI was happy.No. That’s not right. We were happy. Impossibly so.More than I ever thought I could be, with the man that I loved with my whole heart. The man who loved me like I was the sole purpose of his life. Three weeks has passed and we were still in Italy, and to be honest, I didn’t want to leave. It was everything I could ever dream about. Turns out, I was dreaming for something I already had in my grasp. Living with Cole in Italy, in the bungalow at the corner of the city it felt like we were in our own separate heaven away from the world and it’s expectations, also away from the things that made me think that I was missing something from my life when I was already whole with him. It became our sanctuary, a place where time seemed to stand still and the worries of the world faded away.We had spent our days roaming around the city, taking pleasure in each other’s company and the sights we visited. Rome was really beautiful, alive with its energy. It’s ancient monuments
VIOLETI stared at my husband as he pulled on his suit jacket while standing in front of the floor length mirror. I was on the bed, lacing my heels but the picture my handsome husband painted was way to appealing to miss for anything. He looked edible enough to eat in the black shirt and black slacks. We were getting ready to go for dinner in the city with his uncle and as much as I wanted to rest and sleep for a bit to get rid of the jetlag I wanted to go out into the city more. “My eyes are up here, princess.”With a smile curving my lips, I looked up to meet his sherry eyes as he turned around to face me. I pursed my lips and with a teasing tone replied, “But that tushie is too impressive to not appreciate it.”“Is it, now?” He murmured as he walked toward me. I nodded and smiled when he brushed a kiss on my cheek and then crouched down in front of me to tie the laces of my heels.When he looked up, I cupped his cheeks and kissed him slowly. We hadn’t had séx for obvious medical r
VIOLETWe landed in Italy and was welcomed by the warm embrace of the Mediterranean sun, its golden rays casted a luminous glow upon everything it touched. I watched my beautiful husband as he talked to the man who had approached us as soon as we had stepped down out on the tarmac. I held a bouquet of exotic flowers, courtesy of my husband’s uncle, a welcome to his country. But even those beautiful flowers didn’t hold my attention as my gaze went back to my husband as he made his way toward us and I saw the sun glittering in his brown eyes, reminding me all the time he had been the light in my darkness. I took notice of the way his shoulders were relaxed and the pleasant smile that curved his lips and I knew that coming here was the best decision. As he drew closer, he held up the keys. “I guess my uncle decided to ignore our wish to refuse his gifts.”I arched a brow. “What's that?” He grabbed my hand and said, “Let’s see.” We walked off the runway. The man following us with our
VIOLETA nervous energy hummed beneath my skin. It was the first time I was going to fly in a plane. And not just any ordinary plane. We were going to Italy in one of his Uncle’s jet and it appeared bigger than the usual one. I had heard him talking to his uncle on a video call. Cole had denied his uncle’s offer and mentioned that we could fly business class but his uncle had pushed. Cole had said, “But, seriously, I’d rather not have my wife in that jet where you spent your days partying and doing God knows what not.”“I haven’t touched that thing in so long.” Came his uncle’s accented reply.“Seriously? How long was that?” My husband had asked sceptically. “Four months?”I had almost laughed out loud at that but then I'd silently nodded at Cole to agree, as since our loss his uncle has been trying to cheer us up by doing things in his own way. He sent us a custom made Aston Martin and a Ferrari, for god sake. Apparently his uncle has so much money that a few hundred millions were p