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Getting Ready with Joanna
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His Soul & His Shame His Betrayal
I and Joanna sat in awe inside the lavish limousine with big eyes and mouth agape because of its smell and richness. We took two glasses of champagne which tasted sweet and bitter. I hesitantly took the glass when Joanna poured it for me. I don't know if we are supposed to touch anything. “I think one glass is enough Joanna and I don't think we can finish the entire bottle from someone’s car without their permission,” I said, putting my glass aside.“ Why are you so bored? Fay this is not someone’s car and this is not a car but a freaking limousine so we have to have champagne.” she gulped the entire contents of her glass before going for some more.“I think that is enough joanna for now and we have to be on our best behavior so we can't embarrass Ezra in front of everyone.'' I gave her a look saying it's final.“Okay mom whatever you say.” she mocked me before sulking and pouting. She sometimes behaves like a child and she looks so funny. We sat in silence until we reached the place
Dernière mise à jour : 2022-06-08His Soul & His Shame First Kiss
I can't see them all lovey-dovey with each other on the stage. I placed my plate on the table and stood up to run away from there, from them and this damn town. I never knew this hurt this much. I am embarrassed because of his lie. I look like a fool in front of Joanna. She always warned me about him, about him making me a fool every time but I never listened. I am a damn fool." Fay! Are you alright?" Joanna enquired seeing me sitting still."Y...yes...s…" I choked out before running from the hall without looking behind and I can hear Joanna calling me but It feels like I am being choked there and I can't breathe properly. I have to get away from them. I heard footsteps following me but I ignored them and ran faster to get away. I can't stay there for more than a second. It is choking the life out of me.How can I be a fool, how can I be played by Ezra? It is so embarrassing thinking that I had a chance with him and making my hopes high. I am just his friend nothing more and just a
Dernière mise à jour : 2022-06-08His Soul & His Shame Waiting For Him
I know this is stupid but I still waited for him, my doom. Yes, he is my doom because nothing gets to my head when it comes to Ezra. I don't know when he became my life or a reason to breathe but he became everything to me. Some may say it is insanity to think like this or some may think that I am obsessed with Ezra but I don't heed to those words or thinking. I changed my clothes into PJs and hid that dress and chain at the last corner of my wardrobe so I can not see it and get reminded of my humiliation. I am not crying for him, no I am not that weak to very for someone. I am much stronger than that. I lay on my bed thinking about today's event and how they were both looking like a happy couple and how I didn't see an ounce of guilt on Ezra's face when he kissed me. Ugh, that Damn kiss! I am trying to push that thought from my head but I am unable to do that. Why did God choose every single bad thing and bad luck for me? I received a text from Joanna that she has reached home s
Dernière mise à jour : 2022-06-08His Soul & His Shame Making Love With Ezra
We were still standing kissing the hell out of each other. Ezra's hands were all over my body squeezing and pulling me closer to his body. I have never felt this good and the main reason behind me feeling more intensity is because of Ezra. I always dreamed of us together, I am his first and he will be mine but he didn't wait for me as I waited for him. My heart broke when he told me about how he lost his virginity to his then-girlfriend. " You feel so good, baby girl," Ezra murmured between kisses and pulled me from the sad thoughts. Ezra slowly pulled my t-shirt and tossed it somewhere in the room. I am not wearing a bra but only standing in my panties in front of him. I covered myself with my hands feeling self-conscious and shy standing in front of my best Friend practically naked. " Don't cover yourself, Fay, not in front of me. You are so beautiful and I love to see you like this every day." He huskily whispered before removing my hands which are covering my boobs from his
Dernière mise à jour : 2022-06-08His Soul & His Shame Heaven On Earth
I am bobbing my head up and down tasting his sweet and salty precum and my saliva. He became a moaning mess too, I am on my knees giving him my all taking him to hell and heaven at the same time. It's my first time doing this but I have seen many videos so I know one or two things about how to make your man a puddy in your hands.Seeing Ezra's Expressions and his groans coming out of his mouth made me throb so painfully for him to fill me up. I clenched my thighs to make some friction between my legs desperate to feel that orgasm which he has given me before." Yes, baby girl don't stop." Ezra moaned out while guiding my head deep, making me choke. He didn't let me finish before pulling me up and made me fall on the bed." No, baby girl, I want to finish inside you." He said making eye contact with me, I can see his desire shining through his eyes. I bit my lip feeling so turned on by his words that my hand moved down on its own wanting to play with my happy button and relieve myself.
Dernière mise à jour : 2022-06-09His Soul & His Shame Regretting
I woke up feeling sore and happy at the same time, a smile on my face and warmth spreading throughout my body. I opened my eyes to blinding sunlight creeping into my room. The curtains were opened, indicating someone opened them. The place beside mine was cold, making me confused because Ezra will never leave without saying goodbye, especially when we shared a bed last night. I checked the clock for time, making my eyes go wide, it was already noon, and no one woke me up! Maybe Ezra is in the kitchen making breakfast for me. I got up from the bed butt naked and dashed to the bathroom to take a long warm shower to soothe my muscles. After taking a bath I took out jeans and a hoodie to keep me warm in the chilly weather and applied a thin layer of makeup before going downstairs. I didn't hear anything in the kitchen making me halt in my steps, what if Ezra left me way before I thought! Is he in guilt? Did he regret it? Every kind of thought entered my head making me feel dirty in my
Dernière mise à jour : 2022-06-09His Soul & His Shame Joanna & I
I drove my car at a speed I have never driven, my eyes are blurred due to the tears. I can't see the road properly but I felt choked standing there in the parking lot after seeing Ezra and Mitchell making out. How can he do this to me? Why? He just discarded me after taking my virginity. He didn't deserve any of my love, my body, and my soul. Ezra Irwin successfully broke me completely today. I will never forgive him for what he did just after sleeping with me. I was a fool always forgiving him and submitting to him but now it's time to show him that he can't control me anymore. He ruined our friendship, I know he is not entirely to blame but he nerve told me off when I always showed him that I love him more than a friend, he never accepted my feelings nor rejected them. I wiped my tears hastily not wanting to cry for the asshole who didn't deserve my tears. I can see I am approaching my home but I don't want to be seen by my parents being a mess and I know where I can go. I took
Dernière mise à jour : 2022-06-09His Soul & His Shame Mitchell
It's time for me to go home and I don't want to do that but I don't have another choice other than to go home. I have to answer the questions my parents will ask because I have never behaved like this before and most importantly I have never avoided Ezra as I did yesterday. I need to come up with a good excuse and a lie." If you need me just give me a call and I will be there." Joanna hugged me tightly letting me know that she is serious. I know that she is serious about it and I am grateful. " I know Joanna and I will give you a call if I need you." I hugged her one last time and stepped inside their garage to get to my car. My phone is still in my car and I don't even know how many times my parents have called or texted but Joanna has talked to them so I am relieved but I am afraid of turning on the phone because of Ezra and I am sure he will leave voicemails and texts. I hopped in my car and reversed it and left the garage waving at Joanna and started driving towards my house. M
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It's been a blissfully happy month since Ezra and I got engaged and I swear I never felt this happy and content in my life. Ezra was dying to hold a engagement party to celebrate our love and union but i held him back saying we first need to spend some time in the sheets as well as doing the things normal couple does like going on dates, shopping and other stuff and so far we have done pretty much everything and tomorrow is our engagement party." What are you fussing about now! Fay?" Joanna asked, sitting beside me on the bed while i'm folding my clothes." Nothing! I just feel everything is too good to be true!" I heaved a sigh, knowing my negative mind is going to ruin everything by over-thinking things." Ugh! Why do you overthink too much! Nothing is too good to be true! Stop, Fay!" Joanna rolled her eyes at me and I know she is right and I just have to push that stupid voice out of my head but still I feel like something is not right and my happiness will be snatched away any se
His Soul & His Shame She Said YES!
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" Come on, get up!" I put the bag on the couch and turned towards Joanna. She has her head still in the television and did not heard me at all making me sigh in annoyance. " Joanna! I am talking to you!" I gritted out the words. Sometimes she behaves like this and sometimes I wanted to kill her for being a psychopath and ignoring me." Don't you think you are rushing!" Came out of her mouth making me roll my eyes. She is such a lazy bum." No, if we don't go now then we won't get an appointment for my hair and nails. So move your ass." I turned around to go back to my room and get ready for the salon so I can style my hair and get nails done for the evening." I'm not talking about salon, Fay! I was talking about you and Ezra and your whole thing of giving him another chance and starting a new chapter." She looked me in the eye with a blank face and waited for my answer which I don't have because I don't know. I just love him so much that I think too much." I am not rushing anythin
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" Is that really Ezra in our apartment?" Joanna still has a shocked face since she opened the door and saw Ezra and Alex with me." Yes, Joanna! He is really our Ezra." I went back to making coffee after answering her." Our Ezra? When did he become our Ezra! You were lecturing me and saying something about toxic cycle and all!" I know, i did say all those things but when it comes to Ezra i forget everything but it doesn't mean i'm going to let him control me again, this time it will be me who leads everything." I want to give him another chance and this time it will be on my terms." I poured coffee in the mugs and turned around to go back to the living room before they punched each other's faces." I hope you don't get hurt again, Fay!" I know her concern is probably that I am going to get hurt again but I just don't want to give up on Ezra this early because we were each others Worlds since we were kids and I don't want to give up on all those memories, smile and tears." Here you
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" Is he still outside?" I asked Joanna who is entering our new apartment. She came with me when I left the next morning after the gala. My heart couldn't bare to be in the same place as Ezra and not be with him. " Yeah! As usual. Why don't you go and talk to him, Fay!" I know, I should talk to him and tell him to go back home and stop waiting for me as it's impossible to ignore him and see him waiting for me outside our apartment every single day since four months back.I know he is trying and repenting, he never chased me but still waits outside my apartment and walks with me to the subway and back to the apartment.My heart aches seeing him trying to get me back but the hurt we both gave to myself stops me from approaching him and forgiving him." It's not the best idea when I'm not sure if I can forgive him. If I go and talk to him then I will repeat the same toxic cycle." Joanna nodded her head in understanding and went to her room to freshen up.Izzy and I broke ties with each o
