Over the next month, Lucas and I worked on building our relationship. It wasn’t alwasy easy but we managed to figure out what worked for us. I spent every weekend with him at his house and he would spend a couple of nights a week at mine. The more time I spent with him the more I noticed how much he would have to take private calls and sometimes how those calls would send him away for hours at a time.
Lucas tried to keep the illegal aspect of his life separate from our personal relationship but it always seemed to leak in. I never knew exactly what was going on but I knew it wasn’t the club sending him out in the early hours of the morning. He would occasionally get calls from the club but they hardly ever required him to actually leave. His other calls however seemed to always require his immediate attention.
I still struggled sometimes with things, I became aware of my guards when I was out without Lucas. I paid more attention to the stares we received wh
Lucas had only been out of town three days and I was missing him like crazy. He had called every night but it wasn’t the same as having him here. I hadn’t realized how attached I had become to him until he was gone. Jack had given me the week off and instead of being excited like I should have been, I found myself wishing I had it to distract me.I was actually ready to go to my parents for Thanksgiving just to get away. My bags were already packed by the door ready to go for in the morning. As of last night, Lucas didn’t think he would be able to be home before Saturday so I was glad I had decided to spend the night with my parents. They at least would keep my mind off of things even if they did drive me crazy. I wondered if Cody would be there. Mom had made the comment when I talked to her Monday that he had started coming around again.Laying down in my bed I looked down at my phone seeing it was close to 11. Lucas had usually called by now and I w
I didn’t want to go back to my apartment but I had nowhere else to go. I couldn’t face my parents right now and I sure as hell didn’t want to hear Cody’s mouth. I had turned my phone off tired of everyone calling me. I had my parents, Lucas, and even my stupid ass brother all blowing up my phone and I didn’t want to talk to a single one of them. I wanted to be alone, I wanted to yell and scream and remind myself that this was the exact reason I hadn’t wanted to be with him in the first place.Once at my apartment I parked and made my way quickly to the elevator. I knew there was no possible way that Lucas could be back in town yet but he had eyes and ears on me constantly. I didn't feel safe until I unlocked my apartment door and stepped in locking it behind me. Leaning against the door I let my tears flow again.I don't know what exactly made me notice the shadow of the man sitting at my bar. But the moment I did I let out a y
Time wouldn’t move fast enough, if I had anywhere else to go I would have left my apartment. I knew I could always go to my parents but I just couldn’t, I wasn’t ready. They would have questions, they would want answers and I couldn’t give them anything. And what about Cody? He would only remind me about how stupid I had been as if he was innocent in all of this.It was two before I heard the knock at my door. I didn’t bother getting up, I knew it was Lucas and I knew he could let himself in. I remained sitting on the couch staring out the windows at the city in front of me. Lucas was quiet as he walked in. I refused to look at him as he sat down in the chair that sat close to me. From my peripheral vision, I could see him put his head in his hands as he leaned down resting his elbows on his knees.“Taylor...” he sighed sitting up running his hand through his hair looking over at me. He looked up a the ceiling letting out a dee
It had been close to three months since I had seen or heard from Lucas. Christmas had come and gone and now February was almost over. My mom was worried about me after I had refused to come home for Christmas. As much as I knew it upset her I couldn’t talk about Lucas yet and I didn’t want to face Cody. He had tried to call me once but I didn’t answer sending him straight to voicemail. In some ways, I blamed him for my falling out with Lucas. After all, if it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t have ever met Lucas.Jack had seemed to take me under his wing, he had made sure I ate lunch every day, he kept me busy, and most important of all he never asked me about Lucas even though I knew he must know. As much as I hated to admit it I laid awake most nights staring at my phone wishing Lucas would call, wishing he would make an effort, but it never happened. I had decided to stay in the apartment, mostly because I didn’t know what to do with it if I was
“Taylor look at me,” his tone demanded my obedience but even so I slowly lifted my gaze back to his. Once our eyes connected he arched his brow, “I asked you a question, Taylor. What do you want?”My eyes went back to the ground as I suddenly felt overheated. Realizing I had never taken my jacket off I shrugged out of it throwing it over one of my arms. Hearing Lucas let out an aggravated breath I looked up seeing he was still waiting on me to answer his question. I looked back down moving my weight from one foot to the other, “I just wanted to know why Lucas?”He snorted, “why? Why now Taylor?”I took a breath feeling as if my jacket suddenly weighed a ton. Laying it down on the back of the chair in front of me I pulled my purse off and sat it in the seat. Looking back up I saw Lucas watching me looking unamused at my stalling. I shrugged refusing to keep eye contact with him, “because I need to hear it from
Looking up at Lucas I shook my head, “I don’t think that’s such a good idea.” Lucas shrugged before taking the couple of steps to me. I stood still refusing to back down to him again.“Are you afraid of me Taylor?” Lucas asked as he looked down at me.I nodded in answer as I looked down. I was afraid that he was still lying to me. I was afraid that if I allowed myself this moment of weakness I’d never be able to walk away from him again. I was afraid I wouldn’t want to.Lucas sighed shaking his head as he leaned down grabbing my chin and pulled it up to meet his lips. Even knowing it was coming I wasn’t ready. As he stood back up straight I looked up at him. His eyes watched me carefully, “you didn’t miss me?”Shaking my head I shrugged, “of course I missed you but that’s beside the point. I don’t know if I can trust you, Lucas. How do I know you're not still lying t
The next morning I opened my eyes laying still waiting to wake up from this dream. Things were too perfect, the bed underneath me was like a cloud, the covers silky smooth, and the light streaming in through the window made the room glow. When nothing changed I rolled over seeing the other side of the bed was empty. Looking up at the ceiling I sighed wondering what I was supposed to do now. Nothing had been resolved and no questions had been answered. We had fucked that's it.Getting out of the bed I walked to the bathroom turning on the shower before taking care of my business. As I grabbed a towel I was surprised to find that my things I had left were still in the cabinet. Stepping into the shower I looked and saw that even my shampoo and conditioner were in the corner. I felt a little better knowing he hadn’t just thrown my things out. I had started to throw his things away at my house but they only made it into a box that I had shoved in my closet. Maybe he di
As I sat drinking my coffee the thought occurred to me that if Lucas had called off his hit on Cody once, he wouldn’t be lying when he said that he would do it again. If I could get Cody to stand down maybe I could get the two of them to come to some type of agreement. I didn’t know how Lucas would feel about me reaching out to Cody. Actually, I knew exactly how he would feel. But he had technically told me to stay away from him, he didn’t say anything about me talking to him.As I hit my brother's name on my phone I knew without a doubt that Lucas would be pissed if he knew what I was doing. I had to try though, maybe I could help fix this mess. As the phone began ringing I began to second guess my decision. Cody was hot headed and he was just as stubborn as Lucas. After two rings I was ready to hand up but I heard the click of him picking up and my stomach fell.“Are you in trouble?” Cody’s voice came through sharply, “or did you just want to tell me you were back fuck
It had been a month since Chloe came into our lives. Lucas had done good on his promise and had been spending a majority of time home with us. He would still make an appearance once a week at the club. David was helping out with the Dom situation so Lucas had been working a lot from home.I couldn’t ask for Chloe to be a better baby, she hardly ever cried and if she did she was just letting you know a she was hungry, or because she was wet. She even slept for a good stretch of time at night. That little girl had her daddy wrapped around her tiny little fingers. I loved watching him with her. His whole demeanor changed when he held her.Things were still the same with my parents. I had given up on them ever coming around. I knew they blamed Lucas for Cody’s disappearance. Even if I straight up confessed to murdering Cody they would turn it around on him. I wished things could have been different. I wished that mom and dad would be understanding for the sake
Taylor POVOpening my eyes I realized I must have fallen asleep in the recliner. Looking at my watch I saw it was just after midnight. Going to get up I felt horrible and debated on how bad I really needed to pee. Lucas was at the club and wouldn’t be home till sometime early in the morning. Closing my eyes I grabbed onto the arms of the chair to help host me up when I felt a sharp contraction hit. Oh shit I thought, I was only 36 weeks and at my appointment earlier in the week I wasn’t even dilated.Shaking my head I forced myself up thinking maybe I was tripping, maybe it was something I ate. Getting up I wobbled my way to the bathroom flipping on the lights before I quickly did my business and washed my hands. Heading back to the living room I grabbed my phone before going upstairs to the baby’s room to make sure the diaper bag and overnight bag wasn't still on the floor. I had told Lucas to put them in the trunk of his car and I guess he finally l
Lucas POVClosing my eyes I leaned back in my chair trying to drown my thoughts with scotch. I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders and no matter how much I shoved back at it, it just came down harder. I had a huge weakness now, a weakness that my enemies were determined to try and use against me. Taylor, Taylor and our baby to be exact.I knew she was probably upstairs still semi mad at me but I couldn’t focus on that right now. I was determined to strike back at every person who threatened us. To show them I hadn’t grown soft. If anything I had become more cold hearted. Taylor had no idea what I was up to when I left her, she had no clue the things I had done the last couple of months. She had no idea that even now I had the cop that snuck into our house tied up in one of my safe houses.Sighing I took a sip of my drink wishing David would hurry up and call. I had a clean up crew out tonight taking care of some loose ends. Normally I would
I sat with my arms crossed glaring at Lucas. He had found out pretty quickly that the two guys from earlier had indeed been cops but that one just happened to be a dirty cop. I had sat and listened as he spat orders out about bringing this guy in but not killing him he wanted answers. Well damn it I wanted answers too. I was more than a little put out at him and he didn’t seem to be noticing.It seemed like hours later before our house was silent again. The house had been bugged, the alarm system had been hacked, everything brought back my question of how. How had Lucas let this happen? He had enemies and right now I wasn’t sure if I could even trust his men. Everyone was a suspect in my eyes.“You hungry?” Lucas asked looking up from his phone. I shrugged which brought an automatic sigh from him, “Taylor baby you need to eat. I can go get something, or we can go out.”I rolled my eyes at him, “you can do what you want b
Sitting at the bar I looked up angrily at the clock on the stove. It was after 10 and I had yet to hear a word back from Lucas. Both my calls and my text remained unanswered. Part of me feared he had gone missing again but the other half of me knew he was still dealing with whoever had rushed him out of the house.I had finally gotten hungry enough to cook but was lazy so I settled for a grilled cheese sandwich. Taking a bite I dropped it back down aggravated at the whole situation. Was this what my life would become, a lot of nights left wondering where he was or what he was doing? I knew I couldn’t really complain, I knew who he was, I knew what he was. Hell, I willingly stepped into this new lifestyle.Even though I had known better I tried to call my Mom, the phone went straight to voicemail. I left a brief message telling her I heard Cody was still missing and if she needed anything to call. Part of me knew she wouldn’t but at least I had tried. I got
I sat on the edge of the bed watching an angry Lucas slide into a fresh white button-up shirt. We had just made it in the doors when David called him back telling him there had been some “changes.” I didn’t know what the change were but I knew it had pissed him the hell off. Any and all plans of messing around before he left went out the window.Looking up at him I sighed, “how long do you think you’ll be gone?”Lucas shrugged not answering me. Frowning up at him I shook my head, “why can’t this meeting wait? We just got home.”Turning to look at me Lucas sighed, “Taylor you know I don’t want to go but this is important. I have to get things set up so I can lay low when Chloe gets here for a few months without things falling all apart.I rolled my eyes, “I thought that’s what David is for.”Lucas shot me a look, “Taylor.”I knew I was aggravating
As we left the cottage I couldn’t help but be sad. I loved our new house but there was just something about the small cottage that just seemed...I don’t know cozy. It was like me and Lucas actually got to know each other better. We bonded and not just in sex. We had laid in the bed doing nothing but talking one night. He had told me things I had never known about him, things that opened my eyes as to why Lucas Blake was Lucas Blake.As much as I wanted to hide in our cottage Lucas had things to deal with back in the city. The police had been to the nightclub looking for him and although they hadn’t called he knew from experience it was better to go to them first. His carefree demeanor had already changed, it changed the minute we pulled out of the cottage’s driveway.I still had no idea what being his wife would entail. He had already set up appointments to add me to several of his bank accounts and holdings. I had told him he didn’t have
Looking out of the limousine window I wondered where in the world Lucas was taking us. I couldn’t believe that I was now Mrs. Lucas Blake. We only stuck around after the ceremony long enough to take pictures. David, Jack, and Taliah had been the only ones allowed to visit with us before we left.Ever since David had been shot something had been off about him. Today however was a total change. He gave Lucas a hard time about being tied down and joked with me about how it wasn’t too late to change my mind.Feeling Lucas grab my hand I looked over at him and smiled. “So are you going to tell me where we are going now?”Lucas shrugged, “somewhere off the beaten path. Nowhere as nice as I would want to take you but I didn’t want to risk flying with you so far along.”I rolled my eyes, “I can fly, you act like I’m due tomorrow.” Laughing I squeezed his hand, “I’m sure it will be amazing.&rd
As I looked at my reflection in the mirror I felt anything but excited and happy. Today was my wedding day and I felt alone. I hadn’t seen Lucas since last night and now here I was dressed in my beautiful wedding gown alone waiting for our ceremony to begin. Sure I had my stylist do my hair and makeup and she talked to me the entire time but it wasn’t like I had my family here. I had reached out to my aunts and cousins but they had all made up some excuse as to why they couldn’t come. I’m sure they didn’t want to make my mom or Dad mad but I still had hoped someone would be able to make it.Rubbing my belly I sighed, I would have preferred to have waited till after the baby was born to get married but Lucas was dead set on us being married before Chloe arrived. Hearing a knock on the door I jumped, we still had almost 20 minutes before the ceremony started and I was already completely dressed. Maybe it was the wedding planner checking to make sur