Obviously I'd had sex before, but I'd never been intimate with another woman like I was being with her. Every kiss, every touch, every thrust was filled with love the likes of which I didn't know I was capable of. In many ways, she was my first and I couldn't get enough.
"Scott," she moaned, sweaty, vulnerable and dizzy with pleasure beneath me.
"I'm here, Stace. Anything you want," I said, still burying myself deep inside her as she raised her hips to meet every thrust.
"You better not pull any weird shit this time," she said with a short laugh, before her pussy walls strangled my dick.
Her orgasm rocked us both. I slowed down so I wouldn't miss a single change in expression. When I kissed her breast, she swatted me away.
"Too sensitive," she said, her body still quaking beneath me.
"Sorry," I said with a cheeky grin, flipping one of her nipples with the tip of my tongue to tease her. "That's what you get for going first," I said, slowly picking up speed again.
I wasn't far behind though. My head was too filled with her to even pretend I could hold out any longer. Just as she was coming down from her high, I exploded into her. She watched me with the same fascination that I had watched her, still hugging me with her whole body. I loved her eyes on me so much, I swear it made the orgasm last longer.
We stayed like that, not a word passing between us until my dick softened completely and slid out of her. I kissed her forehead and got out of bed, then walked my naked ass to the bathroom. I cleaned up as quickly as I could, trying to ward off the post nut clarity. This wasn't over yet. There would be time to overthink it later.
Thinking of her, I prepared a wash cloth and basin of warm water and walked back to my room.
She was still there, confirming that it hadn't been a dream. She held her shins up to her chest, hastily wiping away tears.
Rushing to her side, I set the basin and wash cloth down on the bedside table and sat down next to her.
"Hey, what's wrong?" I asked softly.
My first instinct was not to go near her, in case her post nut clarity was already kicking in and she regretted everything. But when I sat down and she saw me, she only cried harder. Feeling like I had no choice, I took her into my arms.
"You can't do that," she yelled through her sniffles. "You can't just fuck someone and walk out like that."
"I'm sorry?" I said stupidly, rubbing her back. "I just went to get some water so we could get you cleaned up. See?"
She looked up and took in the water and wash cloth and somehow she was even more shocked now than when I'd first reentered the room.
"You were gone for a while," she said accusingly, lowering her forehead to my chest. "I thought you were, I thought you were—"
"Yeah, because I stopped to clean up a bit first and I wanted the water to be a good temperature for you. Look, I'm sorry. I'm an idiot, but I would never leave you, Stace. Certainly not like this. Not after what we just did," I said, cursing myself a moment later in my head for saying that to her.
And cue the post nut clarity. I didn't want to put any pressure on her just because we did it once. Did I? The worst part was the words tumbled out of me so naturally because I meant them. Sex with Stacy may well have ruined our friendship, but I felt tied to her in ways I hadn't before. Not out of guilt or because I regretted it. I genuinely never wanted to leave her side. This was a possibility I had not anticipated as an outcome, as it had never happened to me before.
"This is so stupid. I'm overreacting," she said, wiping away her tears and shooting me a forced smile.
"Lie back," I said, gently withdrawing from her.
Something suspiciously like desire flashed in her eyes.
"What?" she said, dumbfounded.
"Don't worry. Men have recovery periods. You're safe," I said with a smirk.
Even as I said the words, I felt my dick twitch.
"Lie back for me," I said, fluffing the pillow behind her.
She did as she was told, her cheeks turning light pink. I got the wash cloth wet and wrung out the excess water. As I brought the wash cloth between her thighs, she bolted upright with a huff.
"You know what? This isn't necessary," she said, suddenly covering her breasts with her arms and squeezing her legs closed as though embarrassed or ashamed to be naked before me.
"You're going to mess up the sheets," I admonished her with an affectionate smile. "This is happening. Get over it."
And she did, or at least she resigned herself to her fate, opening up her legs for me and lying back down. I went to work, wiping her down gently. Apparently not gently enough. She went rigid, fighting every instinct in her body to react to my touch. My brain wasn't doing much better. Touching her was almost as intoxicating as being touched by her. Still I pushed myself through it, wanting to take care of her.
"All done," I said, watching her immediately latch onto the sheets to cover up.
Well what the fuck now? She crawled onto the other side of the bed and turned her back on me. She didn't seem interested in being near me, but last time I left the room, she went ballistic. I picked up the basin and returned it and the wash cloth to the bathroom, trying to buy some time to think. When I got back, she was still turned away from me. My heart hurt. Had I really fucked us up beyond repair just to get laid?
Stacy was in a vulnerable place after seeing her family and what did I do? I fucked her. What the fuck was wrong with me?
"Stace," I said, sitting down on the bed. "Please look at me."
She didn't move, didn't speak and maybe the thing to do was what I should have done all along: leave her alone. But I'm a selfish ass and all I wanted was to hold her.
"Just tell me what to do. I'll give you anything you want," I said, crawling up behind her back. "Please just say something. I can't do the silent treatment again. Please Stace," I said, lying down behind her.
My pulse raged in my ears as I waited for her to throw me out of my own room. Say something. Tell me I was the worst. That I had taken advantage of her. Fuck it, I had been in a vulnerable place too. Going no contact with her was debilitating. We weren't doing that again. I wanted to tell her we could forget it ever happened, even though I knew I never would. Her moans, her skin beneath my fingertips, kissing every inch of her naked body, being deep inside her, her climax. Every look, every kiss. The way she moaned my name. Coming inside her. All of it would stay with me forever. I would have said anything just to hear her speak though.
At the risk of making things worse, I reached out to her arm and trailed a finger down it. She shivered, then finally turned to me, still clutching onto the covers for dear life.
"Hi Scottie," she said, uncertainty in her voice.
"Hi," I said, slipping my hand under the sheet.
I couldn't stop myself from reaching out to her if I tried. My hand found her hip and I drew closer. I wanted her swollen lips on mine so badly and this time I knew it wasn't because I was sex crazed.
"I'm a huge cuddler," I said, sending her into a fit of giggles. I laughed with her. "May I?"
She tumbled into my arms and I accepted her presence readily, the sheet all but forgotten.
"Just stay a while," she mumbled into my chest. "That's all I want."
"...amazing you still have a job," Kenny said as Scott entered the kitchen. I didn't catch the rest of it because my brain stopped working for a moment there when I saw Scott enter the room."Good morning to you too, Ken," said Scott, stifling a yawn. "Yes, I called work and told them I had an emergency. It's all good."Yup, the emergency being getting me off. Scott's gaze fell on me. He looked tired. Did he have trouble sleeping too last night? All I could see when I looked at him now was him between my legs doing unspeakable things to me in the gentlest way any man had ever treated me. He was the perfect combination of gentle and assertive, making the experience surprisingly hot. No, stop thinking that. I looked away from Scott and gulped. Calm down, calm down, I chanted to myself. "Good morning, Stace," said Scott, briefly laying his hand on my shoulder in passing.I reflexively shrugged my shoulder out of his grasp, then cringed. A little too late to run from his touch now. A
And that was when I knew exactly what I wanted. I didn't want to get past anything. I wanted more. "Sure," I said anyway, watching him enter the room. I was undressing him with my eyes, so I looked down. He sat down on the bed, gingerly getting in next to me. "You sure this is okay?" he asked, turning his head to me. The last time he asked me that, I let him stick it to me. Fuck, my head was dirty. "Yup. Totally fine," I said, his scent now hitting my nostrils harder. What would he think if I told him I was wet for him? And getting more so by the second. Like the first night, he turned his back on me. "Goodnight, Stace," he said, turning the lamp on his side off. I licked my lips, rubbing my thighs together to create friction."Goodnight Scottie," I said, willing myself to fall asleep. When we woke up the next morning, I was wrapped tightly in his arms. I almost jumped out of my skin when I realized that he was already awake. He was watching me sleep."Going to tell me why it
"Hell, Stace," he said, breathing hard, as I dropped to my knees. He watched me intently as I pulled the towel apart and let it drop. "I thought you were mad at me," he said, his head falling back against the door as I licked the tip of his dick. "I will be if you don't fuck me silly," I said, feeding inch after inch into my mouth. He stood there helplessly, watching me suck his dick. "This is such a bad idea," he said, but he was already wrapping my hair around his fingers and turning it into a fist. "Shit that feels so good though," he said, guiding my head up and down his shaft. This was not the Scott who took me to bed just a few days ago. He was rough and demanding, taking an active role in fucking my face. "Do you know how hard it is to concentrate on anything when I see you everywhere?" he almost yelled at me, holding my head in place as he forced his dick down my throat. "I think about how I should have fucked you while you were on your hands and knees. That's why we ba
"Jason Segel kills in this role," said Kenny with a chuckle, truly the biggest fan since Segel's How I Met Your Mother days. "Of course, we all know the greatest actor on Shrinking is—" Marlene began. Kenny jumped out of his seat next to her and said with a goofy smile, "The icon, the legend—" Marlene lit up when we all collectively chimed in, "Harrison Ford."It was one of those moments where nothing funny really happened, but you laughed anyway. Nice, Marlene. Getting up to speed on a show to meet the friends equals mega girlfriend points. The doorbell rang and Kenny rose to his feet again, clearly a nervous ball of energy. "Food. I'll get it," he said, speeding out of the living room. "I better go and help," said Marlene, following him out. It's been a month since the wake. I haven't really thought about Jenny or my mom much, on account of all the sneaking around Scott and I have been doing. I had this theory that surely by now Kenny must know and it wasn't necessary anymor
Chinese is here," said Kenny, setting the food down on the table. Scott and I reached for the bag at the same time. My hand brushed up against his and we looked at each other. "Hey Stacy, I forgot to tell you. There's a bachelor apartment available two floors up, in case you're interested. You and Scott must be falling all over each other in his room," said Kenny, reaching for the bag when neither Scott nor I moved to open it. "You have no idea," I mumbled under my breath. Scott heard me and I watched him suppress a grin. "What was that?" Kenny asked, offering everyone their food."Don't be ridiculous. Couples should live together. I'm sure they're making it work," said Marlene, raising her chopsticks to an oblivious Kenny's mouth. Did she just lowkey ask him to move in together after dating for only a month? Not sure if I respected that or was suddenly wary of this chick. Then again, how was I any better? I moved in with a guy who takes me out all the time, just the two of us,
"No," said Kenny, looking at Scott and I.By now I was leaning against Scott and he was kissing my forehead. "No, because I would know. I live with them," said Kenny, trying to laugh it off. "They're not—" Kenny turned to Marlene, seeking confirmation. She nodded her head at him. Then he turned back to us, bewildered, seeking confirmation once again. "See you at home, Ken," said Scott, taking my hand and rushing me out of the restaurant. We made it out into the parking lot and back to the car without a word passing between us. Scott opened the door of the backseat and finally said, "Get in."The tension of the questions I had asked him lingered between us. I felt too much like crying to argue and just went with it. He got in next to me and closed the door. "You're not moving out," he said pointedly. "Why the hell not?" I asked. "I came to New York for a normal life. What we're doing isn't normal, Scott.""I'm going to sound like an asshole, but I don't want you to be my girlfrie
There's this joke that goes, "I asked God for a bike, but I know God doesn’t work that way. So I stole a bike and asked for forgiveness."If daddy was God, then Scott was my bike. And every single time I went back home was me asking for forgiveness for knowing him. Waking up in Scott's arms was bad for my resolve. I tried so hard to tell him last night that I was leaving, this time for good. But when I looked into his warm brown eyes and his goofy smile revealed his dimples, I lost my nerve. Now here I was, lying in his bed next to him, gently brushing his dark curls with my fingers, thinking about how much time we had left before my flight tonight. "You've accomplished absolutely nothing in the last seven years. It's time to come home," daddy had decreed. I couldn't exactly say he was wrong. With my father uprooting me every couple of months to come home and "Take care of business", I still hadn't declared a major. If I had, NYU likely would have academically excluded me by now. M
Kenny always says that I'm girlfriend goals for Scott, because we never argue. Well we were about to debunk that myth on the side walk of a busy New York road. "I have to go," I said, making my way to the door of the bakery. Conflicting thoughts went through my head. I knew, with absolute certainty, that the door to me coming back to New York or having any sort of life outside of being Luca's wife would close when I got on that plane. But what choice did I have now that I'd exposed Scott's existence to the entire mafia?"Stacy, wait," I heard Scott call out to me. I couldn't see his face, but I was so caught up in my own feelings that it wouldn't have mattered what he looked like anyway. Behind the fear and the paranoia, I was just exhausted. Trying to run from being Don Angelo's daughter had drained me. Something in me snapped and I exclaimed, "You're not going to change my mind. This wedding is happening." Even as I said the words, briskly walking to keep Scott from catching u
"No," said Kenny, looking at Scott and I.By now I was leaning against Scott and he was kissing my forehead. "No, because I would know. I live with them," said Kenny, trying to laugh it off. "They're not—" Kenny turned to Marlene, seeking confirmation. She nodded her head at him. Then he turned back to us, bewildered, seeking confirmation once again. "See you at home, Ken," said Scott, taking my hand and rushing me out of the restaurant. We made it out into the parking lot and back to the car without a word passing between us. Scott opened the door of the backseat and finally said, "Get in."The tension of the questions I had asked him lingered between us. I felt too much like crying to argue and just went with it. He got in next to me and closed the door. "You're not moving out," he said pointedly. "Why the hell not?" I asked. "I came to New York for a normal life. What we're doing isn't normal, Scott.""I'm going to sound like an asshole, but I don't want you to be my girlfrie
Chinese is here," said Kenny, setting the food down on the table. Scott and I reached for the bag at the same time. My hand brushed up against his and we looked at each other. "Hey Stacy, I forgot to tell you. There's a bachelor apartment available two floors up, in case you're interested. You and Scott must be falling all over each other in his room," said Kenny, reaching for the bag when neither Scott nor I moved to open it. "You have no idea," I mumbled under my breath. Scott heard me and I watched him suppress a grin. "What was that?" Kenny asked, offering everyone their food."Don't be ridiculous. Couples should live together. I'm sure they're making it work," said Marlene, raising her chopsticks to an oblivious Kenny's mouth. Did she just lowkey ask him to move in together after dating for only a month? Not sure if I respected that or was suddenly wary of this chick. Then again, how was I any better? I moved in with a guy who takes me out all the time, just the two of us,
"Jason Segel kills in this role," said Kenny with a chuckle, truly the biggest fan since Segel's How I Met Your Mother days. "Of course, we all know the greatest actor on Shrinking is—" Marlene began. Kenny jumped out of his seat next to her and said with a goofy smile, "The icon, the legend—" Marlene lit up when we all collectively chimed in, "Harrison Ford."It was one of those moments where nothing funny really happened, but you laughed anyway. Nice, Marlene. Getting up to speed on a show to meet the friends equals mega girlfriend points. The doorbell rang and Kenny rose to his feet again, clearly a nervous ball of energy. "Food. I'll get it," he said, speeding out of the living room. "I better go and help," said Marlene, following him out. It's been a month since the wake. I haven't really thought about Jenny or my mom much, on account of all the sneaking around Scott and I have been doing. I had this theory that surely by now Kenny must know and it wasn't necessary anymor
"Hell, Stace," he said, breathing hard, as I dropped to my knees. He watched me intently as I pulled the towel apart and let it drop. "I thought you were mad at me," he said, his head falling back against the door as I licked the tip of his dick. "I will be if you don't fuck me silly," I said, feeding inch after inch into my mouth. He stood there helplessly, watching me suck his dick. "This is such a bad idea," he said, but he was already wrapping my hair around his fingers and turning it into a fist. "Shit that feels so good though," he said, guiding my head up and down his shaft. This was not the Scott who took me to bed just a few days ago. He was rough and demanding, taking an active role in fucking my face. "Do you know how hard it is to concentrate on anything when I see you everywhere?" he almost yelled at me, holding my head in place as he forced his dick down my throat. "I think about how I should have fucked you while you were on your hands and knees. That's why we ba
And that was when I knew exactly what I wanted. I didn't want to get past anything. I wanted more. "Sure," I said anyway, watching him enter the room. I was undressing him with my eyes, so I looked down. He sat down on the bed, gingerly getting in next to me. "You sure this is okay?" he asked, turning his head to me. The last time he asked me that, I let him stick it to me. Fuck, my head was dirty. "Yup. Totally fine," I said, his scent now hitting my nostrils harder. What would he think if I told him I was wet for him? And getting more so by the second. Like the first night, he turned his back on me. "Goodnight, Stace," he said, turning the lamp on his side off. I licked my lips, rubbing my thighs together to create friction."Goodnight Scottie," I said, willing myself to fall asleep. When we woke up the next morning, I was wrapped tightly in his arms. I almost jumped out of my skin when I realized that he was already awake. He was watching me sleep."Going to tell me why it
"...amazing you still have a job," Kenny said as Scott entered the kitchen. I didn't catch the rest of it because my brain stopped working for a moment there when I saw Scott enter the room."Good morning to you too, Ken," said Scott, stifling a yawn. "Yes, I called work and told them I had an emergency. It's all good."Yup, the emergency being getting me off. Scott's gaze fell on me. He looked tired. Did he have trouble sleeping too last night? All I could see when I looked at him now was him between my legs doing unspeakable things to me in the gentlest way any man had ever treated me. He was the perfect combination of gentle and assertive, making the experience surprisingly hot. No, stop thinking that. I looked away from Scott and gulped. Calm down, calm down, I chanted to myself. "Good morning, Stace," said Scott, briefly laying his hand on my shoulder in passing.I reflexively shrugged my shoulder out of his grasp, then cringed. A little too late to run from his touch now. A
Obviously I'd had sex before, but I'd never been intimate with another woman like I was being with her. Every kiss, every touch, every thrust was filled with love the likes of which I didn't know I was capable of. In many ways, she was my first and I couldn't get enough. "Scott," she moaned, sweaty, vulnerable and dizzy with pleasure beneath me."I'm here, Stace. Anything you want," I said, still burying myself deep inside her as she raised her hips to meet every thrust. "You better not pull any weird shit this time," she said with a short laugh, before her pussy walls strangled my dick.Her orgasm rocked us both. I slowed down so I wouldn't miss a single change in expression. When I kissed her breast, she swatted me away. "Too sensitive," she said, her body still quaking beneath me. "Sorry," I said with a cheeky grin, flipping one of her nipples with the tip of my tongue to tease her. "That's what you get for going first," I said, slowly picking up speed again. I wasn't far behi
She was so wound up by now I actually felt her shiver. "I wasn't, I didn't… Urgh. Jackass," she complained, squirming beneath me, just as my fingers landed on her panties and I started rubbing her folds in gentle circles. "Freak," I said, looking up at her as my lips landed between her breasts, my fingers still working between us. I snuck a look up at her and the faces of perfect pleasure she was making, pleasure I was giving her. "Scott, for fuck's sake," she said, looking down at me, gaping with pleading eyes. Her hand reached out for me and I kissed her palm. She cupped my cheek with one hand, the other grabbing onto the sheets and I slipped my hand into her panties, stopping to stroke her folds and touch her wet core, before I returned to her clit, increasing the tempo. "Scottie, please," she begged. "Yes, Stace?" I asked tauntingly, encircling one of her nipples with the tip of my tongue, before sucking it into my mouth. "What do you need, baby?" I was hovering over her n
Every nerve ending in me seemed to come alive as I kissed her. It was like what I had always imagined a first kiss was supposed to feel like. A surreal, out of body experience. Her soft lips fit so perfectly against mine. My hands roamed all over her neck, shoulders, breasts, tummy and hips. I wanted to touch her everywhere all at once. When the kisses had deepened to the point where the tip of my tongue was swiping against her lips, she welcomed me in. Nudging her thighs apart with my knee, I positioned myself in between them, eagerly tilting my head this way and that to explore every bit of her mouth. She wrapped her limbs around me, pulling me in even closer as her tongue competed with mine for dominance. My hands slid up her thighs and came to rest on her hips. I had never been so caught up in something as simple as a kiss. There was barely enough thought going into breathing, on both our parts. I felt like I was sixteen again and this was my first time making out with someone an