×Jamie×
"Catpig!" my young sister, Darcy, screamed as she jumped on top of me.
I flinched at the impact and sat up quickly as I pushed her off of me. Hearing her fall to the floor with a loud thud, I laughed. "Good morning to you too, spider monkey."
She stood up and pouted stubbornly. "You're so mean. I just came to wake you up."
I stretched my arms above my head and got out of bed. I was only wearing my pajama trousers and I thought of how lucky Darcy was to wake me up on one of the rare mornings that I didn't sleep in anything but my underwear.
"Jumping on an unsuspecting sleeping person is called attempted murder," I said, making her scoff.
"Whatever, you lazy asshole. Just come down for breakfast before Mom leaves for work."
I shook my head slowly as I feigned heavy disappointment. "That's another dollar in the swear jar for you, young lady. Damn, you're already filthy rich," I teased, to which my younger sister rolled her eyes. "And be knocking before you enter. I'm older than you and you're a dweeb."
"What's there to hide in the morning though?"
I pulled a creepy face as I wiggled my fingers. "Are you sure that you want to know?"
She pulled slightly disgusted face and made her way to the door. "No, thanks."
I laughed as she left and headed into my en suite bathroom to freshen up. Today was the beginning of a new semester after the evaluation and I was nervous, considering that this was my first year.
I brushed my teeth and washed my face. Looking at my reflection in the mirror, I patted both of my cheeks at the same time as I willed myself to gain all the confidence that I could find within me.
"Get a grip of yourself, Jamie. This year won't be as bleak as the others," I said to myself confidently, hoping that I was not talking bullshit yet again.
I then relieved myself of last night's orange juice and washed my hands. I walked back into my room and pulled on black stylishly ripped jeans and a white, long sleeved shirt. I quickly rushed a comb through my long blonde hair and tucked the few strands that fell over my eyes behind my ear.
Giving myself a smile for the day, I quickly put on my shoes and grabbed my backpack before making my way downstairs.
"Good morning, Jamie," my mother greeted with a warm smile when I walked into the kitchen.
I returned her smile. "Morning, Mom." I looked at Marcela, Darcy's twin sister, and scoffed. "Good morning to you too, peanut butterfly."
She looked up from her bowl of cereal and grinned.
I know, we had weird nicknames for each other but that made our lives a little more funnier and mine, a little happier.
"Toast or coco pops?" Mom asked.
"Uhm, coco pops," I answered as I took my seat and put my backpack on top of the table.
She handed a black ceramic bowl to me and I received it after uttering my thanks. I grabbed the box from the other side of the table and poured the cereal into the bowl.
"Pass me the milk, spider monkey," I yelled at Darcy, who was eating an apple by the fridge.
"Come and get it yourself," she replied.
"Come on," I pleaded. Seeing that she was not going to pass the milk to me, I groaned and stood up to do it myself.
"It's almost seven," Mom said to me. "Kate is going to come and get you soon."
I got the milk and returned to my seat. "Got it."
Before I could eat much of my breakfast, a car horn hooted at the front of the house and I figured that it must have been Kate, my childhood friend.
I stood up and scuffed down the remaining coco pops. After I was done, I gave my family soft kisses on their cheeks before grabbing my bag pack from the counter top and rushing out of the house.
"Took you long enough," Kate said, her arms folded in front of her chest.
She stood in front of her dark blue Ford, wearing a short sleeveless white dress with a dark, cropped denim coat over it. Her brunette hair was in a messy bun and she didn't look impressed by my lax attitude.
"Sorry, did you wait long?" I asked.
"No, but we are going to be late for our first class if you walk any slower." She got into the driver's seat and I slid into the passenger's.
I put on the seatbelt. "Hurry up."
"I'm your ride. Don't tell me what to do," she said angrily though her lips were in a teasing smile.
I laughed. "Sorry, Ms. Bossypants."
She turned the key and the car roared to life. "Let's pray that the cops aren't near."
"Wha-" Before I could finish my sentence, Kate stepped on the gas and the car sped down the road at a threatening speed.
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Soon after, we were parked in the school's parking lot and got out of the car. Luckily, we didn't bump into any policemen on the way and I was glad because Kate was driving like she had the devil at her heels.
We rushed into the hall. It was crowded and filled with murmurs from students gathering around something or someone. We had already had our orientation so, I wondered what all the bustle was about.
"What's going on?" I asked, more to myself.
"Looks like some people are giving out flyers," Kate answered as she tried to look through the crowd.
A short woman with red hair and green eyes suddenly popped up in front of us.
"Hey, are you guys first years?" She asked, making us flinch in surprise before looking at her.
Kate and I looked at each other as if we were unsure then we both nodded.
She smiled. "Good. My name is Natalia, I'm a second year student. Us, second years, are throwing a party to welcome you to our school. It's our tradition so attendance is mandatory." She held out two flyers and we took them. "Read this for more information."
She then walked away from us before approaching another group of people.
Kate smiled as her eyes scanned the contents on her flyer. "Isn't this great? Free liquor."
I neatly folded mine and put it into the front pocket of my jeans without giving it a second glance. "Sounds like your type of thing."
She rolled her eyes. "Come on, Jamie. What better way to start college than with a party?" She gently nudged my shoulder with her own. "You might meet a pretty girl and get laid."
I chuckled. "You know that I really want to go but my mom won't let me. What if she relapses?" I asked, concerned.
She frowned, also looking concerned. "We will think of something. Look, it's this Friday."
Before I could reply, I remembered that my class was in ten minutes so, I waved Kate goodbye with out giving her an answer and rushed to my class before she came up with more ways to convince me.
I had already memorized the map of the school so it didn't take long to reach my class. I found a seat at the front, near the window and sat down.
The class slowly filled up and I looked out the window at the school's magnificent lawn with the greenest grass that I've ever seen. A few people were outside while some left their cars to enter the building.
My mind wandered to the flyers that Natalia was giving out. After Mom came back from the hospital, she has never allowed me to have friends or interact with people that she didn't know. Going to a party literally had friendship written all over it with a red permanent marker and she would obviously refuse.
I sighed. I really wanted to go though.
×Jamie×I stood by Kate's car as I waited for her to arrive. Her classes ended ten minutes ago and I wondered what caught her up.Knowing Kate, she was probably socializing with her classmates and as much as that was great, I was in a hurry to go home. Unlike Kate, I was not free to socialize. It was frustrating but if it made things easier for my mom, I was willing to hold myself back.I looked around at the wide parking lot that had a large number of students talking to each other by their cars. I watched in admiration at a specific group of students that looked more lively than the others and wished that I was like that. Free to mingle about and have fun with people who aren't only Kate.I scoffed internally. Willing to hold myself back, my ass."Jamie!" Kate called and I looked in her direction. "Sorry, I was having a talk with some guy.""What were you talking about?" I asked, watching her unlock th
×Jamie×"How did it go?" Kate asked the following morning, as I got into her car."Well," I began and closed the door to the passenger seat, "she said that since I'm eighteen, I am old enough to go to a party to have fun and meet new people."Her lips stretched into a hopeful smile. "Really?"I gave her a sarcastic look and her smile faltered. I thought that Kate knew better than to think that my mother thought of me as more than that little smudge of Lord-knows-what on the ultrasound screen. That little flower bud that had to be carefully watched and tended.No matter how many times I tried, Mom would never let me go out with people that she didn't know. It sucked but that was the reality and I had to swallow it than let it choke me."Oh," She said as she looked to the front and started the car before maneuvering her way out of the driveway. Her smile was completely gone now and she had a serious expres
×Jamie×I looked at myself in the mirror as I nervously swallowed. My slender body looked ungracefully slim in the black t-shirt I wore that was tucked into loose black pants. I topped it off with white shoes that sported black laces.Since I was practically leaving the house under a lie, I slid on a black baggy hoodie to make my look more casual. I ran a hand through my hair, trying to ruffle it up more even though it was already ruffled beyond hair gel salvation.Satisfied with my look, I went to my bed and got my bag that had some spare clothes, underwear and a toothbrush inside. I gave myself one last look before leaving my room.I walked down the stairs and rolled my eyes at the lick of conversation that I heard between my mother and Kate."But school is so hard," Kate argued, sounding dramatically in despair. "Despite just starting, there is so much work and Jamie would be so tired. It's not like it
×Jamie×I rolled to the side of the bed that I was lying on. Curling myself under the warm grey duvet, I closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep. I looked up at the clock on the nightstand next to the bed, whose digital glowing green numbers read 05:41am.Despite barely getting enough sleep, I was wide awake. It irritated me that such an experience would rob me of sleep but I knew that the fatigue would catch up to me later in the day.After running away from that guy at the party, I met Kate downstairs and insisted that we go home. She looked slightly annoyed but got guilty when I pretended to be super mad at her for ditching me. I did fall asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow but I woke up too early.I sighed.I couldn't stop thinking about it. The kiss. The way his lips felt on mine and how comfortable his hold on me was. I felt myself blush and buried my head deeper into the duvet, only leaving my
×Higan×I parked my car in the crowded parking lot and turned off the ignition. Leaning back into the seat, I let out a soft sigh as the warm rays of the morning sun touched my skin through the closed window.Today's classes were beginning at ten and I was grateful after spending my late night on COD and nachos. I was sleepy and the comfort of the car seat was calling out to my sleep.Looking at the time, I saw that I had twenty-one minutes until ten so, a short nap wouldn't hurt. I decided against it and got out of the black Audi, pulling out my backpack, before locking it and making my way to the large doors that led to the hallway.Halfway through the lot, I noticed Jamie standing next to a short brunette just beside the doors. His blonde hair was in a short ponytail and he wore a baggy yellow jumper that hid his hands with denim shorts that ended a little bit above his knees.He looked breathtaking, t
×Jamie×After a busy day at school, Kate gave me a ride home as usual. She parked her car in the driveway of my house when we arrived and we both sat quietly as the roaring of the car died, none of us moving.She wasn't even looking at me yet I felt like she had something to say. After finding out about Higan, I was expecting her to impale me with questions as soon as I found her but she didn't.Maybe she just didn't care or think too much about it. I was not ready for that conversation and I had an inkling about what she was about to say - words that were probably true but not something that I would like to hear. I grabbed my bag as I prepared to leave."Higan, huh?" She suddenly asked, breaking the silence just as I was about to reach out to the door.I turned my head to look at her. Her gaze was forward but I noticed how she was trying her best to hold in a grin."We are just friends," I d
×Jamie×Saturday came and I woke up unexpectedly early to get ready for the day. I had already received Higan's address before I went to bed last night and to be honest, I was more than excited.This would be the first time since middle school that I've gone to another friend's house. A friend who isn't Kate. I made my look as laid back as possible to avoid looking too eager.A smile played at my lips when I remembered my conversation with Higan the previous night. He cheered me up and his voice sounded husky on phone, like he was whispering in my ear. I felt a shiver ran down my spine and I blushed."I'm straight," I declared, giving myself a mental slap. I like girls. Guys should not think that way about other guys even if the other guy is a messily sexy creation sculpted by the gods with great patience.I zipped up the zipper of my black pants and run my hands down my army green shirt. I got my b
×Higan×"Here," I said as I handed Jamie a plate with two chicken mayonnaise sandwiches on it.He took it without taking his eyes off of the TV and set it on the space on his left. "Thanks."I sat down next to him and looked at the screen to see his progress. Jamie watched the screen with intense concentration as he led his player through the field. His skills at COD weren't that good but I felt a weird sense of pride at watching him try his best.Books?They were abandoned after two hours and a half of studying. It started with me rolling a pencil towards him and him rolling it back. Before we knew it, our studies were forgotten and I offered a game.I taught him a few basics and how some controls work and Jamie was trying his hardest to kill the enemy. He did not strike me as the type of guy to indulge in such things but I could tell that he was having fun even after dying numerous times.
×Jamie×Click!I smiled in satisfaction at how beautiful all of the pictures that I took came out. Because of the large windows that occupied one side of the room, there was plenty of light.I had finished unpacking before ten and now that I was done taking pictures of the apartment, I got a little bored. Higan left around eight to go to work and I didn't have classes today so, I had a lot of time on my hands.After sending all the pictures that I took to everyone back home, I went to make a late breakfast for myself. It would be great if I could send Mom the pictures as well but she was not allowed to have a phone. Anyway, I could always show her during another visit. Pouring myself a cup of coffee, I sat on one of the stools around the island and put it next to my plate of chocolate donuts.I hadn't even spent 24 hours here, but if felt like home. I loved waking up next to Higan and I could leave the room without worrying about bumping into Thomas. Knowing that we were in a place w
2 years later...×Jamie×"Is that everything?" Higan asked and stood up straight before stretching his arms over his head. "Not really," I answered as I turned to look at him.A year after my mom was admitted to a mental asylum, my dad moved in with us and I got a little used to having him around. I would be lying if I said that I didn't hold a grudge against him, but I wasn't going to be ignorant about his efforts. Apparently, his job wasn't too far from us and he spoiled my sisters and I plenty.It took more than half a year for us to get used to living without Mom. We made sure to visit her a lot and I loved how much Darcy and Marcela looked forward to such days. The only person who I felt bad for was Dad since he wasn't allowed to see her and it will probably take a while until he can. Right now, I was in the middle of packing my stuff with some help from Darcy and Higan. I trusted that my dad would take care of my sisters in my absence, so I chose to move in with Higan . It was
×Jamie×"Wake up, babe," Higan said softly as he gently shook me awake. I groaned and pushed away his hands. "I'm still tired.""Hey, we have to join the others for breakfast after vanishing on them yesterday.""I am physically incapable of doing so because someone got too excited last night and now my waist is broken," I complained and rolled onto my stomach. He chuckled. "Don't talk like you weren't enjoying it.""Either way, I don't feel like walking right now.""I will help you down the hall. It's already nine, you know?""Damn and I have class soon." While I was in the middle of my mental debate, I flinched and immediately turned when I felt slide his hand up my ass. "What are you doing?""I was thinking of giving you an anal massage.""I'm getting up," I said, as he burst into laughter, and sat up. "But you're going to be my arms and legs."Higan nodded and proceeded to dress me up. When he was done, he gently pulled me out of bed and helped me down the stairs with his arm aro
×Jamie×"Tired?" Higan asked as he leaned against the counter next to the sink. "Not really," I answered with a yawn and wiped the last plate dry with a kitchen cloth before putting it away with the other dry dishes."We had a long day. It's okay if you want to take a nap.""We arrived not too long ago. I can't sleep yet." After bringing the conversation home, Higan suggested that we have an early dinner so, we did. Marcela and Darcy stuck to Dad by the hip as he told them different stories about the places that he visited and the funny things that he experienced. I thought that he might have come back because he was having money problems but he seemed to be well settled. He had a cool job that paid well and even owned two cars. Although the stories that he shared sounded pretty interesting, I spent most of my time on the table ignoring him.Everything was cute and the air was much lighter, but I still couldn't forgive him. Despite that, I was sincerely glad that the others were ge
×Jamie×The table was thrown into a trance like silence as Higan and I stared at my dad in shock. My grip around the cup tightened and I frowned at his downcast face as I grasped onto every word that he had said - still failing to believe his words."What?" I asked, the word barely slipping through my clenched teeth. "I'm sorry. I know that no amount of reason can justify the way that I-""You left us because of that!?" I yelled and he flinched at the bitterness in my voice. "Jamie-" Hig cut in, putting his arm around my shoulder but I pushed it away. "No! That was a jerk move. If you knew how hard it was when the both of you were trying to support us, how do you think she'd handle it by herself?""I'm sorry," Dad muttered with an utterly sorrowful voice and tears of frustration and anger filled my eyes at the sight. This man didn't have the right to be sad. How dare he mess things up and expect us to throw ourselves in his arms!?"You're a fucking coward! Do you know how long Mom
×Higan×"I want to go straight to bed," Jamie said as we entered his house. "I'm exhausted.""I bet you are, but you have to have dinner first.""I'm not hungry.""What do you mean you're not hungry?" Kate asked as she walked out of the kitchen. "The girls and I have just finished adding some extras to the pizza that we ordered.""I didn't expect you guys to arrive earlier than us," I said to Kate and glanced at the large red stain on her shirt. "Were you cooking or commiting a murder?""I didn't carry the gravy properly so, some spelt on me. Nevertheless, there is still enough for everyone.""Thanks," Jamie said before entering the kitchen."How are they?" I asked Kate."They have stopped crying and they didn't argue while we were cooking so, they must be feeling better." She sighed. "I know that everyone has their own share of hardships to go through but isn't this too much?""It's overwhelming.""And we aren't even in their shoes." She looked thoughtful for a moment before asking.
×Higan×My eyes quickly darted around the full parking lot, searching for a space, as I impatiently tapped my fingers on the steering wheel. I had just arrived at the hospital after receiving a distressed call from Jamie and I was trying to have positive thoughts on my way here. Finally finding a parking space, I parked my car and quickly made my way inside the building. I rushed down the hallway to the area that he mentioned over the phone and sighed in relief when I spotted him and his sisters. He was seated in between them and had them in his embrace. My relief died instantly when I noticed the state that he was in. His hair hang over his eyes and he seemed exhausted. Even though I couldn't see his face properly, I could already tell that something awful must have happened.I walked closer and gently ruffled his hair when I was in front of him. He lazily looked up at me but before I could say anything, Kate rushed towards us while breathing heavily. "Sorry for being late," she p
×Jamie×The loud and consistent ringing of my phone had me groaning as I pulled the covers over my head. Despite my many attempts to ignore it, the calls persisted and I had no choice but to see who it was. Reaching out, I grabbed my phone, which was on the nightstand, and looked at the screen with squinted eyes. Kate's name was on the screen and after rolling my eyes, I ended the call. No sooner had I cut the call, than a message from her popped up. "We are downstairs," it read and I couldn't be more confused. Looking at the top of the screen, I saw that it was past ten in the morning and I immediately stood up as all the sleep left me. I pulled on a pair of sweatpants and splashed some water on my face before rushing down. I paused at the bottom of the stairs when the sound of laughter streamed into the hall. Seeing that the joy was coming from the kitchen, I went there and was greeted with a sight of Kate, Natalia and my sisters. They all sat around the granite island, talking
×Jamie×It has been ten years since I last saw Christian Martin. Ten years of no calls, messages or visits. Ten years of being absent on every birthday, school activitiy and holiday. Ten years of watching my mom break down and lose hope each passing day as she waited for him to return. It was weird seeing him here tonight. The face that I could vaguely remember was now vivid and I didn't know what to do. Many thoughts swirled about in my mind as the hours flew by and sleep didn't have the chance to linger. My head was pounding while I struggled to put my heart together. I wish his face would completely vanish from my memory, maybe then today wouldn't have been so painful. For a moment, II clutched the front of Higan's shirt as I moved even closer to him. My head rested on his chest and his arm was over my waist while we cuddled on my bed. He was silent the whole time, so I looked up at him. His eyes were closed and his breathing was gentle."Higan," I called softly, "Are you aslee