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Cara - 18♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡TWO YEARS AGODANE"Recruitment into the Greenwood Defense Academy is open!"Cara screams out the news happily and jumps up to her feet beside me, not caring that her pretty legs are so dangerously close to the blazing bonfire right in the middle of our small circle of friends.Pretty legs that I helplessly, always fucking dream of having them wrapped around me as I thrust up into—"Damn, when is the date?" Alex whistles in surprise, his sudden voice instantly cutting off my eyes from his sister's legs. Like a looming warning.I gulp down a mouthful of whiskey from my cup, relishing in the punishing burn of it as it sinks down my throat.Dear goddess…. I should not be fantasizing and dreaming about sinful ways of fucking my bestfriend's sister, my alpha's only daughter."Fourteenth of this month." Cara responds, giggling in pure joy as she sits back down beside me.Her arm brushes lightly against my skin as she adjusts herself on her seat, the soft touch sending pleasurable sparks rushing through me.And it feels so fucking good—"Shit, that is barely two weeks from today." Rhia laughs, her voice dragging me out of my head.Focus, Dane.I take another shot of my drink to calm down my thoughts and nerves. Rhiannon Gahill is Beta Edward's daughter and his only child. The man loves her more than life itself.She takes a sip of the vodka drink in her red cup. "I can't fucking wait to get recruited and finally have the official chance to kick Al's butt right on the training field."She sighs out happily and chuckles with a mischievous glint shining in her honey brown eyes as she stares at Alex. A glint that we all definitely know is up to no good."We will see about that." Alex retorts with a smirky smile, his oceanic blue eyes not leaving her face for a second. He relaxes back into his chair and crosses his leg over the other."I am sure my mum already has my recommendation letter waiting for me on my desk." Killian mutters quietly. "I will miss her so much."Killian is the son of Imogen Creed, the only High Emissary of Greenwood pack. My pack. And today is his nineteenth birthday.He wanted to celebrate it tonight quietly with just the four of us by this bonfire near the pack lake."Hey, you won't miss her that much." Cara smiles comfortingly at him. "Besides, she is the high emissary and can come visit you all the time if she wants." She concludes with a funny wink at him.A stab of jealousy hits me instantly like a hurtful punch in the stomach. Did she just fucking wink at Killian!?'It is just a fucking wink Dane.' Storm, my wolf scoffs.'Well, she shouldn't have.''Stop being so possessive. Your emotions are going to kill us both if you do not find a way of—''Bye Storm.'I shut him out immediately and take in a fast, quiet, deep breath.Storm is my twin. My signet wolf. The inner voice in my head. And just like his name, he reflects the core of my being.Of who I really am.I tend to fuck up delicate, beautiful things, whether it is my fault or not. Just like I am on the verge of fucking up the best thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life.Cara Griffin. My Caramel.Storm was going to tell me to control my feelings for her, my emotions, just like he always does.He was also going to ask me if I will do what we discussed earlier before coming here. My heart squeezes painfully just at the thought alone.But I know he only means well.Besides, Cara and I can't keep messing around with each other forever. Yes, we make out and explore and play dirty sometimes.But we never, ever, cross the ‘fucking’ line.That is the one decision I vowed, and keep reminding myself again and again, never to forget. Never to cross that line with her. No matter the multiple times her innocent sinful body has silently begged me to.But lately, I am beginning to lose my control around her. Storm is also fighting hard not to bond to Sky, Cara's wolf.Cara's soft whimpers whenever we are together only makes me want to bend her over any surface and claim her just like she is fucking with my head every single time. But as always, my fear of the truth never fails to rear up its ugly head to the surface like a poisonous snake, promising to destroy—"Dane?"All my raging, unstable thoughts come to an abrupt halt at the instant sound of Cara's soft voice calling out my name, replacing the terror and fear flooding inside me with soft, blissful waves of peace.Dane…. the way she utters that one syllabic word of my name out of her lips is just—"Dane?" She calls me again, tapping my arm this time.I flinch a bit and look up from my black boots, only to find everyone gone.Except her."Where is everyone?""They all went for a swim in the lake." She says cheerfully, but the smile on her face wanes off the instant she sees my face."Oh.” I mutter, looking away from her and focusing down on the cup in my hand. My mind registers splashing water and faint giggles. "Is everything alright? You have not said anything since I announced the recruitment news in front of everyone. And you look…lost." She says quietly, resting her hand on my lap. Her touch sends sparks rushing through me once again. I can't stop it. I can't fight my feelings for her.But then, I remember who she is, and the terror and brutal fear returns instantly.She is my best friend's sister. My alpha's daughter. The blonde, fearless descendant of a powerful alpha bloodline.Me, I am just the Gamma's son. The disobedient boy who simply watched a group of rogues murder his father in the woods just because he could not fucking adhere to a simple instruction.The Gamma Mantle of leadership passed on to my mother afterwards. For years, she isolated herself from me and buried herself in the ocean of pack duties.Even though she has never said it, I can feel the anger and the hatred she has for me whenever she barely even spares me a look, or whenever we barely even talk.We do not even talk much anymore.Breathing out and releasing myself out of my thoughts, I take Cara's hand off my lap and place it back gently on hers.Something rips open inside me like a sore wound when I see the hand I placed back curling into a tight fist on her lap, the sight nearly tearing me apart.Dear goddess….DANEI muster a little bit of courage. My hands tremble slightly as I clutch them harder around my cup, making the plastic shake as I speak."Cara, can we… can we talk?"I can't even speak properly, or bear to even look her in the eyes right now, which I know will probably be looking worried because of me.Guilt and shame envelopes me like an icy, cold, unforgiving blanket. Damn me."Ye-yeah… " she stutters slowly, quietly. "I also need to tell you something." She continues. "We can talk over there."She sounds serious. Cara rarely sounds serious.That catches my attention more, and I lift up my eyes to see her pointing at the newly renovated wooden cabin house just a bit far from where we are.Back at the lake, Rhia and Alex are absently busy splashing water at Killian and fighting to dip his head into the lake. They seem to be lost in their enjoyment. I am sure they won't even notice Cara and I when we are gone."Alright."After a few minutes later, Cara and I arrive at the back of
DANE I am in pain. And utterly helpless.To me, this girl standing before my eyes is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my entire life. I see her every fucking day, but I always get knocked over every time I lay my eyes on her.Another tear drops from one of her eyes. My eyes follow the transparent liquid as it trails down to the dotted birthmark right at the top of her upper lip.My eyes linger on her mouth, and the desperate urge to kiss away the anguish she is going through begins to twist deep inside me."Dane… " I watch her enticing lips whisper my name quietly, like a plea for me to fucking say or do something.Not able to deny the urge any longer, I lean down, pressing my mouth to hers in a passionate kiss that instantly erupts pleasurable sparks inside me.Goddess…. the taste and softness of her lips against mine is fucking more than exquisite. Always more than exquisite.The instant she fully parts her lips and begins to kiss me back, I lose all control.This is ever
PRESENT DAYCARAInduction Day is always worth the stress. Worth the sacrifice of brain cells. Worth the sleepless nights filled with rigorous training drills and marathon exam preparations.For two solid years, I and my brother Al, together with our friends, Rhia and Killian, stood by one another through the thick and thin of the Greenwood Defense Academy.And today, all our efforts and hardwork will be worth it.The large auditorium is opulently decorated. The vast space is bathed in a soft, golden glow emanating from the ornate chandeliers suspended from the high vaulted ceiling.The rays of the morning sun radiates into the auditorium through the tall glass windows, adding to the glow of the chandeliers. Rich tapestries line the high interior walls. Rows and rows of polished oak pews stretch the entire space all the way to the exit, each one cushioned with plush burgundy velvet.Delicate floral arrangements, bursting with vibrant hues of crimson, gold, and emerald, adorn the seve
CARADear Selene….I think I am hearing auditory illusions all of a sudden. My ears must be playing games with me.Dane!?…. Dane can't possibly be here. He can't possibly be back. There is no way he is even an inductee in this ceremony!Silence settles all over the atmosphere once again, and steady footsteps begin to echo down one of the aisles leading to the podium.The central aisle….Rhia turns around, and before I can stop myself from joining her, I am already staring wide-eyed…. at Dane.He is here.He is really here.And he is walking down majestically towards the podium to receive his warrior mark.All the air in my lungs evaporates. I struggle to breathe properly, and my heart thunders for all the wrong reasons.All the pent up emotions rush back up my throat like bitter bile, and I fight with everything I have not to puke out the delicious cereal I had for breakfast this morning.Every cell in my body ignites to life as I continue watching Dane wordlessly and breathlessly as
CARAOf course I am not alright.I feel like I am about to experience a full blown panic attack.How can I be alright when there are plenty chances of me stumbling into Dane in here of all fucking people and of all fucking places!?But I do not want to trouble Rhia with my anxiety. So, she does not need to know the truth.“I am fine. I just need to use the restroom.” I smile, being careful not to make my fake expression look exaggerated. Rhia has this invisible dexterity of sniffing out exaggerations.“Alright. Take your time. Meanwhile….” she suddenly appears to my front, winking mischievously at me. “Don’t fuck around in there.”I laugh. Rhia's brazen mouth never lacks the nastiest statements. I am still surprised that her V card still exists after all these years.“I am coming.” I turn around, heading straight for the exit. The restroom is the least place I want to be in right now….I need to go somewhere far away from here. Somewhere I do not want to see him.Why the hell is he ba
DANEHell.Hell is staying away from her. Hell is not being able to touch her again. Hell is not being able to finally hold her in my arms after all these years that I have lived like an exiled, untamed animal without her.She stood before me. I felt her breaths on my face. I felt the heat of her supple skin merely inches apart from mine.And yet, I could not bring myself to risk even a slight graze. Not even a touch.The stunning sunset bathes the garden in sultry, soft colourful hues around me.But my eyes only linger at the long, wavy golden blonde locks of Cara's hair shimmering in the sunset as she walks away from me.Every step she takes as she drifts farther away steals that divine sight of her hair from me. Bit by bit…Until there is nothing left but an empty garden pathway staring back at me.Unable to bear the pain and pretense any longer, I drop down to my knees on the ground, and succumb to the agony that has shrouded my soul in its complete darkness for two whole years.A
DANENow back home, I ignore the tension hanging in the air of my mother's study office, which is almost suffocating.The warrior stands with her back to the bookshelf, arms folded. Her pixie hair cut is dyed green black, a colour I think suits her gloomy, heartless demeanor very well.She even has a large eagle wing tat on her right arm now, adding to the collection of the rest of her tats existing on almost half of her back and stomach.Carmden Morgan never loved tats. But after dad's death, she began swimming in tons of them.I relax comfortably into the plush soft sofa facing her desk, playing with the plain silver ring around my index finger and not caring that fire embers are shooting from her eyes directed at me.Why is she still silent!? Can we get on with this conversation already?“Julian told me you want to be allocated to the packhouse.” She finally spits out the words like they are bitter medicine she needs to get rid off her tongue.“You are acting like I didn't tell you
CARAThe Martial Base is bigger than any establishment I have ever seen in Greenwood.I have been here with my dad. Countless times since I was a kid. But every new time I step my feet onto these grounds, I feel like I am being sucked up into its harsh but mesmerizing beauty.I slowly drive my car forward towards the giant gates guarding the entrance of the base. Their onyx colour is a darker sync to the deep ash color of the high, barbed wired four walls guarding the base perimeter.As I approach the gates, I lower my car window and poke out my head just in time to hear a familiar baritone voice ringing out from the left watchtower stationed on the left high side of the gates.That's fucking Jasper. I can recognize his aquaman voice anywhere.“Cara!” He looks down at me with a smile.I give him a bright one in return. “Open the damn gates Jasper.”“Easy princess.” He drawls out with a smirk, and disappears back into the watchtower.Seconds later, the gates open wide, and I drive thro
DANECara is my addiction.Right now, my mind is completely consumed only with thoughts of her, her lips, and the intoxicating sensation of how fucking good and perfect her soft ass feels in my hand….I give it a soft squeeze before moving up to explore her back. My tongue slides against the plump of her lips, coaxing and seeking permission into her mouth.She moans, her lips parting to grant me the access I’m craving into her mouth, and I grab the opportunity and slide my tongue in.This is….I can't even form the words now.She tastes warm and wet and perfect. Like sunrise and bliss and freedom. She is everything I know I should not crave for, but I still can't stop myself from wanting more.Despite needing to stop, especially considering this high temperature of intoxication between us, I grip her hips and pull her closer to my body as I move to relax back on the headboard.She follows me, her hips moving with me, our mouths still exploring each other. Her thighs straddle my sides as
CARAI stay mute, saying nothing to that.I feel like I am trying to play a guessing game here with Dane. A guessing game that I may never know its outcome.But something inside me wants me to push. And push, and push.Maybe I will stop if I somehow manage to settle this longing that is now growing inside me and making my heart thump so fast in my chest. A longing that is also ringing an alarm of dread inside my head.An alarm of dread to warn me that I may just end up with no answers and more confusions and questions…..“Cara?” he whispers, drawing me out of my thoughts, his eyes searching my face. When I don't respond, his hand leaves the space between us and brushes over my fingers holding tight onto my pillow, like he is trying to check if I am still fully present with him.The simple touch alone sends tingles rushing up my arm. I clutch tighter to my pillow. He notices and pulls his hand away.But I don't want him to….“Are you alright?” he asks.“Yeah I am.” I exhale, adjusting m
CARAA soft, sleepy groan near my ear wakes me up.I yawn, my hand covering my mouth as my eyes peel open next. Dane's sleeping face comes into view…..And I feel like my entire lungs just stopped functioning.He is lying on his side, facing me, eyes closed, his long eyelashes nestled on top of his cheeks as he continues sleeping soundly. Peacefully.Like nothing chaotic ever happened to him last night.This sight of him feels surreal and so beautiful that it causes my body to relax more into the bed.Suddenly, I am glad that I stayed back. That I didn't leave him here all alone after what happened.I continue watching him, unable to take my eyes off him. My face tingles every time he exhales, his hot breaths fanning all over my eyes and cheeks. My fingers holding onto the pillow underneath my head digs deeper into the soft foam as I try to control my own breathing.My heart is beating so fast just by staring at him like this, with the gentle rise and fall of his shoulder as he breath
CARAI return.Gently, I bend and start to clean up the mess.It takes a while, but I finally get all the glass shards and the remaining unmelted pills into the trash bag.Then, I go back and retrieve the cleaning mop from the open box to use it in wiping off the pool of whiskey on the floor.The door of the bathroom opens, and I turn around. Dane comes out, fully clothed in a light sleeveless gray shirt and deep burgundy jogger pants.His hair is damp, with some water droplets falling onto his shirt from the strands. Like sugar moths helplessly drawn to sweet honey, my eyes follow the trails of the droplets.They soak their paths down and down towards his chest….“Give me the mop.” His deep voice startles me back to my senses. I tear my eyes away from him and pin them on the mopstick in my hand.Dear Selene, thank you for not letting him catch me trying to gawk at him—“Cara?” He calls again. “The mop?”Oh yeah! He told me to give him the mop….I stride towards him and hand over the
CARAThe silence in the room is thick. Very thick. Almost palpable.Dane rubs his hand down his face, clearly frustrated with me.I do not bloody care.“Damn Cara,” he groans into his palm, “you just don't know when to let things go—”“No I don't!” I yell, finally fed up with him and his evasive lies. “When it comes to you, I start to think and behave like a total freak! I lose all my control! My sanity! Everything! You really know how to scare the shit out of me, and I hate it! I hate how I could not stop myself from crashing apart when I stumbled in here and saw you lying on this bloody, miserable floor! I hate you! I fucking hate you! I hate how you still make me feel so attached and so hooked up on you like some fucking parasite!”“Cara—”“Fuck you!” I know I am just rambling, but I can't seem to stop. “Fuck you Dane! because I can't believe that you just had the nerve to wave me off so casually like nothing happened in here. Am I some kind of joke to you!?“Cara you are taking t
CARA.The bowl fills up to the middle, and I quickly turn off the rushing water.I sniff as I wipe my tears away from my face. I need to get a grip over myself. I need to be strong now and act fast.My hands fly to the medicine cabinet, opening it. I grab the medicine kit in there. Next, I drape the white towel over my shoulder, carry the water filled bowl and the medicine kit, and then, I exit the bathroom.Immediately I enter the room, I see Dane trying to crawl his way up to the bed.“Stop. You are going to stain the sheets with your bloody mess!” My voice increases as I hurry over to him.He stops moving and groans as he relaxes back on the floor.Getting to him, I kneel by his side and keep the water bowl and the kit on a clean spot on the ground near me. I take a moment to check out his healed wounds.They are pretty closed up now, but judging from how grisly they were before, I am sure they will ache his body internally if they are not massaged with rose oil.“Stay still,” I sa
CARAA very loud noise startles me awake.I sit up straight in an instant, my body going completely still. I listen, trying to make out what the hell just disturbed my peaceful sleep.For a moment, I hear nothing.The second I choose to succumb to the idea that the sound must have been my imagination, I hear another loud crash.The noise is coming from the room next door.Dane’s room.“Seriously?” I huff in annoyance, wiping my eyes before turning to look at the low beeping digital clock on my nightstand.It is just a couple minutes past 2am in the morning!“Ugh!” I can't believe Dane is already messing with my sleep just hours after moving in here.I am really going to be so fucked up if this is any indication that my future night rests will always be meddled with.Right now, I am really tempted by my sleepy muscles to lie back on my bed, to ignore the crashes and continue enjoying my peaceful sleep.But those crashes were loud, too jarring, and they happened twice.Twice. At fucking
DANEI also want… I also want to scream that despite how much I try to stop myself, that I still want to be close to her.Even if it is just once or twice a day.But we do not always get everything we want in life, do we?I sigh, my hands disappearing into my pockets. I am suddenly tired, weak, but I also think that my aim to distract her from crying for a while has been achieved.“I know you hate me Cara, and you have every reason to. But your dad allowed me to live here. Your mum too. I promise not to get in your way, and I will try as much as I can to stay away from you, since that is all you need from me, right?”“Absolutely.” She says back emotionlessly. And it hurts. It hurts to hear her agree so fast, so nonchalantly. Like she is really dying with the need to get rid of me.It also hurts to even think that there is an existence of the possibility of staying away from her, despite living just a door away from her.But clearly, she does not want me, and I have to keep the promise
DANEI am still a fucking coward.That night two years ago. This night two years after.I am right here, standing at her door with my fist raised towards it to knock. I keep trying to connect my fist to the door, to fucking knock, but the more I hear her sobs, the harder and clearer the truth keeps hitting down on me.A truth that keeps stabbing me like a cruel knife to the chest.It is all my fault. I am the cause of the pain she is going through. And I must be really stupid to think that I can take that pain away by coming here and… and trying to know if I can….“Damn you Dane,” I curse to myself as I step away from the door and lean on the wall near it, closing my eyes.What the hell am I fucking doing? I think I am going mad. Was I expecting her to just open the door for me after I knock?Even if she does open the door, what then? What the fucking hell I am going to say?Sorry?I chuckle sadly at my miserable, stupid self. I might not even get the chance to even say that pathetic