Chapter 3 - What just happened?

Julian’s father was away most of the time and we have always had our make-out sessions at his house. We were in his living room after he had made me feel him and kissed me again, this time it was different and something happened, I let him lead me to his room.

My brain wasn’t thinking at all because all I knew was, we never went to his room and I saw him smirking as he turned back kissing me again pulling me into his room. When we went in he slipped out of his shirt in one swoop as he reached to kiss me before helping me out of my dress.

This was the moment I had waited for eighteen years was happening with Julian. Our breathing had shifted ten times as he took off his jeans and reached to kiss me again. My brain was numb while my body was in consent with whatever was about to happen. Julian let me lie on the bed, taking my unclipped bra off as he gave them a squeeze making me breathe deeply as he trailed down to my panties before taking them off throwing them aside and he pulled his boxers off after quickly.

I couldn’t look at him, so I looked at the ceiling as he moved closer spreading my legs, he brushed his right hand on my knees before he had his finger inside. He smirked as he had another hand on my chest.

“You are wet,” he moved his head, kissing my neck before he whispered in my ear. “You need to relax, can you do that, hmm?” He kissed me again pushing his finger further making me pant without responding and he slipped his hand out before kissing me on the lips.

I didn’t know what to do. I was as still as a rock as he reached for his pants taking out a condom and putting it on with ease. I was still staring at the ceiling and I squeezed my eye taking a deep breath. He crawled back on the bed his hands, taking my legs up on his shoulders pushing me closer to him. He slid inside me for a moment before pulling back again because I had flinched.

“Maya look at me, ” he moved to closer kiss me again, “Relax,” he whispered between our kiss before pulling away too soon and this time he pushed his whole length inside me.

I felt the pain as he slid in and out of my entrance and I gripped at the sheets with my eyes closed waiting for the pain to stop.

“Fuck, you feel good,” he said panting.

He was the one doing all the work as my legs were dangling on his shoulders while I lay on his bed as he started pumping into me with slow paces at first before going harder and faster. They say that once the pain has stopped this gets replaced by a good sensation or feeling but it never came for me. I lay on the bed for some time before I heard a roar like a sound from him before he stopped while still in me.

He waited for a few seconds and he slid out of me taking the rubber out as he reached out smiling at me. He went out of the room to dispose of it. The moment he walked back, I didn’t know what to do or expect so all I did was put on my clothes, fast in silence as he grabbed the stained sheets.

“I can do that,” I said He shook his head and he walked away and I followed.

He started to rinse it out before throwing it in the machine. I looked at him in silence as my mind started functioning again. At least I wasn’t walking funny like what I’ve heard other girls say.

He finally turned to look and he moved closer to smile and giving me a small peck on the lips. I felt different but he didn’t notice. I had given him my virginity, but he was distant the talkative person had gone silent.

Was he embarrassed by me was there more I needed to do?

I was about to say something before I saw Tiffany, Julian’s ex barged into the living room where we had moved to.

“Tiffany, what are you doing here?” I asked, puzzled. “Julian, what’s going on?” I asked, raising an eyebrow.

“Look, Maya,” he said, walking to Tiffany, “we never broke up that’s why she is here,”

“Did you do it? Did she finally let you swipe the v card?” She said in a high-pitched annoying voice laughing. Julian nodded smirking, looking at her and my eyes saw red and I started screaming at him.

“How could you? After all -” he interrupted me.

“After what hm, Maya? Do you know how long I had to entertain you so you could just open those legs? I wanted to prove a point to everyone that you are nothing special, ” he spoke not looking at me.

“What?” I looked at him in shock and anger blinking back close tears, but, I told myself not to cry and give them satisfaction.

“You are just like your sister pretending to be a saint to everyone and I just proved it,” Tiffany added.

“What did you say?” My hands were curled in a fist now

“Macy was a slut. Selling her body at Star Maya, you were too naïve and living in a bubble to notice. You have just proven that Strong women are weak just like your mother.”

“What did you just say?” I glared daggers at her.

“You heard me, bitch,” she folded her arms tilting her head at me smiling.

“Maya, listen,” Julian said, trying to reach for me.

“Not another step asshole,” I said, looking at him.

“Or what?” Tiffany chimed, with a laugh.

My tears were free-falling and I couldn’t stop them and the next thing I had kneed Julian and pushed Tiffany on the sofa as I grabbed bags and shoes.

“Take that for weakness, you two deserve each other,” I slammed the door hard letting the glass door shatter as I walked away.