Chapter 58

Chapter 58

“Are you sure you're okay there? The lights are out already,” Brian said when he called me again a few minutes after the lights went out. I was in the living room as there are not enough flashlights that can be brought in our rooms.

“Yeah. I'll go back tomorrow, I promise.” I was not in my proper mind yet. What happened earlier was still stuck in my head.

“No. If you still can't, just stay there. What about food? How do you eat? Have you eaten?” I smirked when he showered me with all those questions, worried about me.

“I am ordering in the hotel, don't worry.”

“Alright. I'll see what I can do, too. Take care and update me, okay?”

“Yeah, bye. Be safe,” I ended the call right after that. The typhoon is still going around. The light is out as well and there's no hope that it would come back easily. I don't even know what's happening outside already.

“Is that Brian?” My eyes shifted at Marie who suddenly appeared while holding a flashlight.

“Yeah, he's worried. I'm kinda embarrassed. He told me not to leave and yet I didn't listen,” my face crumpled a bit with my reckless decisions. I should have really listened to him. Look at me, stranded to the house I never dreamed of coming back.

“What's the thing between the two of you if he is not your man yet?” I heaved a sigh when she eyed me with her playful eyes. Those eyes are twinkling strongly beyond the darkness.

“He's courting me,” I revealed. “I mean, he professed his feelings to me before when we were in Siargao…” I paused and bit my lower lip when I mentioned that. In one snap, I remember every scene that happened there again. It's like a wave of the ocean, waving in my head all the time.

“”For four years?” Her eyes widened and I just nodded.

“You should give him an answer already. He has been waiting for damn four years,” it was the first time I heard her cussing. It seems like the Marie I know changed a bit as well.

“I don't want to be reckless, Marie. Besides, I don't want love yet,” I knew that she knew exactly what I meant by that. She got that easily and just nodded at me. With the last experience I had, I would not dare to enter another freakin’ relationship again. Love doesn't satisfy me anymore, but revenge? That's what my heart wants right now. Perhaps, if I make them pay with everything they did, the wounds they engraved on my chest will be erased.

“But do you love him?” Before I could even answer, I saw Elijah coming towards us with a pillow in his hand. He was using his phone as a flashlight.

“I do,” I quickly said. His eyes remained on me, too tough just like earlier.

“You love him but you can't give him an answer yet?” A small arrogant smirk drew beside his lips—and I swear, I was annoyed immediately that I wanted to erase that fucking smirk.

“I bet you can't even kiss him,” he chuckled as he sat on the long sofa, threw his pillow and layed down there.

“Want me to kiss him in front of you? Or perhaps we can fuck each other while you're watching,” I saw how Marie's jaw dropped when I said that blatantly. Elijah's eyes were widened and glued at me, didn't expect me to say that thing.

Why? What's wrong with that? Has he forgotten how he fucked ton of women almost right in front of me?

“No, thanks.” He replied and shut his eyes.

“Are you going to sleep here, Sir Elijah?” Marie asked.

“Yeah,” he shortly replied.

“Good night, Marie. You should choose the right man in the future. Someone who will not cheat on you and a man who wouldn't dare to hit you,” I winked at her before I marched out away from them. I knew that it made Elijah open his eyes and that was why I intentionally said that.

That night, I slept with silence and darkness. There was no light in my room but I could hear the typhoon outside. I couldn't absorb everything yet. How can I be here again, right? Fuck that.

The next morning, I thought the typhoon was gone when I went to the balcony and it was silent already. There was no glimpse of sun yet nor chirping of the birds around, but there was no lightning, rain and wind anymore. The sky was still dark, but not as dark as yesterday. So, I quickly took a bath and prepared to go home immediately. I can't stay here any longer, it's suffocating me.

“Where are you going?” Elijah quickly asked when I went downstairs in a hurry. They were in the dining room, just like what I was expecting. I found Elijah serving the food while looking at me with tons of questions.

“Leaving? The weather looks fine. I have no reason to stay here,” I can't wait to leave this goddamn place already. Spending a night on the safe roof as him was already a torture to me.

“You should eat before leaving, then. You're being stubborn again,”

“No, thanks.” I said firmly.

“Skipping a meal isn't good, Faith.” I raised my brow at him before I chuckled.

“Don't act like a man because you were never a man to me, Elijah.” I threw my cold stares at him before I turned my back.

“Faith?”

My lips parted when I saw them. It seems like my entire body froze all of a sudden. They are the ones that I never anticipated to see here. Why now when I am here? Shit.

“Is that you already?” She went towards me, memorizing each part of my face. She even combed my short hair a bit.

“You cut your hair,” she commented and I had no single word to utter. I was too stunned to speak.

“I didn't expect to see you here…again,” his father uttered, wearing that soft smile on his lips.

“I hired your son as my architect and it just happened that I was stranded here. I never wanted to be here, trust me.” I explained immediately. I didn't need to explain why I never wanted to be in this house. They are all aware why.

“You look beautiful, but different.” His mother commented.

I don't know if I should be glad that our paths crossed again. I told her everything that her son did to me when I had no parents to tell it to.

“I’m really different,” I clarified. This is not the old Faith they met. This is how all the pain they invested and threw at me turned me to.

“How have you been? Elijah has been looking for you. We tried everything to search for yo—”

“We're divorced, why look for me?” I glanced at Elijah with my blank eyes and he remained silent there.

Regret. That's what I saw from those eyes of his. Regrets that he should have felt before when I was still holding on to the bridge.

“We should eat,” Elijah said, breaking the ice that covered all of us.

“Yeah. You should join us, Faith. I missed you so much. We have a lot of things to talk about,” his mother was really trying to make me stay, but I cannot do that. Turning down an invitation from her is the hardest because she had been so good to me and even treated me like her real daughter.

“I'm sorry,” I said. “But I have to go home. My boyfriend will be worried if I don't come home,” I said that intentionally to kill the highest hope they are probably having between me and Elijah. It won't happen. It wouldn't happen ever again.

“You have a boyfriend?” She was surprised to hear that. Her eyes widened a bit, not expecting that.

“It's been four years, Mam. Of course, I do have a man.” I faked a tiny smile to the two of them, still trying to pay my respect.

“I should go no—”

“Who's the guy? What's the name?” Elijah's father asked.

We were all covered with silence again. They will not really let me end this damn conversation. Why do I have to see them here?

“Dad, that's enough. Let her go,” Elijah said. I felt like he was not comfortable with the topic anymore.

“Brian, the model?” An in-depth sadness invaded the two of them. That moment, I don't know why I felt my chest aching as if I was saddened to see them looking disappointed. Why are they still hoping for me and their son when they both know our past?

“I have to go. It's nice seeing you again,” I had to force a small smile before I marched away from there, crumpling my hands and refraining myself to look back.

“Faith, hold on!” I paused when I heard Elijah. I turned around to face him and waited for him to come closer to me.

“Thanks for letting me stay,” I uttered.

I waited for a few seconds for what he was about to say. However, he just stood there with her soft eyes at me.

“If you don't have anything to say, I should leav—”

“I'll get you back,” I froze in one snap. His jaw clenched and I saw how determined he was.

“I know I've done wrong things before and I am here to make it alright, Faith…” a tiny smile flashed on his lips as he held my hand.

“I will get you back whatever happens,” he swore.

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