“Alpha we need to get Kelly and bring him back here” Henry said staring at me intently.“No. He doesn’t want me in his life and how can I blame him” I sighed sitting up.Its been a month since Kelly left, since he called me and said that he hated me.A month of hell. The moment the words left his mouth I could feel my wolf start to wither.He may not have formally rejected us but, it was enough.“Yeah well he thought that leaving would keep you safe.That he could walk away and not put you at risk.He needs to know how wrong he was. You don’t have much time” Henry argued.“Enough! Kelly stays where he is. We have no right,….I have no right to drag him back here.Not after everything. It wouldn’t be real” I stated.“I’m sorry Alpha. I didn’t mean to overstep” he muttered bowing his head in obedience.“It’s fine. I know your worried but, there isn’t anything we can do.I brought this on myself” I exhaled laying back against the pillows.The day Kelly left was the first among the days of
Pain. It had grown more intense with each passing day.I had tried to hide it but, then I reached my breaking point.Waking up from night sweats in body wrenching agony was too much.I needed help whether, I wanted it or not.“Mr.Salvatore we have you hooked up to a small morphine drip.It should make you more comfortable as we wait for the test results to come back” the nurse told me as she fixed the IV in my arm.“Thank you” I mumbled.“Your welcome.Try and get some rest” she sighed before leaving the room.Staring at the ceiling I thought about all the events that led up to this point.Mainly the look on my mothers face when she found me on my sofa crying in agony.I had never seen her so scared. My whole family was on edge worrying about me.Therefore, I had no say in the matter when she decided to call an ambulance and have me taken to the closest hospital.I imagined pulling the needle out of my arm and leaving but,I knew it would only be a matter of time before the physical p
A month. I had bed sentenced to bed rest because the pain was so bad.There wasn’t any medicine strong enough for my Alpha metabolism, which meant I was on my own.My wolf was barely there and I knew it was only a matter of days before she disappeared for good.I wouldn’t be able to survive without her so, I would perish as well.I didn’t regret my decision, even after all this. I did what I had to.I needed to protect my pack. My only regret was how I had hurt Kelly.I should have left him to his life. Bringing him here was a mistake.I had survived 23 years without a mate. I didn’t need to involve him but, I was selfish.The one thing an Alpha couldn’t be.My family and friends were all pressuring me to call Kelly and have him take back the rejection, but I couldn’t.I had no right to barge into his life again and ask that of him.Honestly, part of me was scared. Terrified that he wouldn’t want to take it back, that he’d take pleasure in seeing me wither and die.That my death could
“Until we have seen someone’s darkness, we don’t know who they really are.Until we have forgiveness someone’s darkness, we don’t really know what love is”–Making the decision to come back wasn’t easy. It was actually kind one of the hardest choices I’ve ever had to make.I love Anita. I would be lying if I said otherwise. The thought of her death made me physically sick.I couldn’t lose anyone else. I made the decision to try and put what happened in the past.I wanted to move forward and when I pictured my life she was there, even after everything she still was my future.“Are you okay?” Anita asked.I have been back for about two weeks and things were still awkward between us.We barely talked about anything and I mostly stayed to myself.I wasn’t comfortable interacting with the pack members yet so, I mainly stay in the apartment and worked.At the moment we were spending lunch together.Though if someone would have come in they’d probably think were complete strangers to one an
“Are you happy?” Caroline asked.She decided to take me out to lunch since we haven’t spent much time together.She’s been with Henry and I have the pack and Kelly.We’ve spent time together trying to reconnect and get back what we lost.“I am” I answered playing with my glass of water.“Anita you are my best friend. I’ve known you all my life. What’s wrong?” she hummed.“Kelly and I have been working to move forward.He says he forgives me and I want to believe him.I do but, there is this doubt that I’m going to wake up and he’ll be gone.That he will come to some sort of revelation and leave for good.I wish I could just let it go because I hate feeling this way” I sighed.“What do you mean?” she asked.“He makes me weak and vulnerable. Two things I haven’t felt since I was a child.I’m an Alpha, therefore, I need to be strong and fearless.Other emotions just cloud my judgment. It’s difficult though because Kelly makes me feel everything” I confessed.“Well, you love him, sweethea
“Do you want me to go with you this time?” Anita asked as I fixed my tie in the mirror.“You have a meeting with Henry and your father” I muttered.“Not till later this afternoon,” she said.“I can go by myself. I prefer it actually” I replied.“Okay. I just thought this year might be different” she hummed.I sighed before turning around to look at her. She looked beautiful and it made me proud to know she was my mate…“It isn’t. It won’t ever be. You can’t come with me.I’m sorry but, that is how it has to be” I breathed.Anita’s eyes flashed florescent green telling me she was angry at my defiance but, she didn’t say anything else on the subject.“Alright,” she murmured leaving our bedroom.Grabbing my keys, I headed downstairs. I was about to walk out the door when I heard the patter of small feet behind me.Smiling I turned around picked up my son before he ran into my legs.”Daddy!” Joseph giggled.“Good morning. I will be back, okay? Love you” I spoke kissing his forehead.Goin
Loneliness. It has been proven time and again that most human beings can’t handle being alone well. They need to be around their peers to be able to develop normally. As werewolves, this was never supposed to be a problem for us. It was known that from the moment you are born, the moon goddess selects you a soulmate. Your mate is the one person in the world that is perfect for you. They are your other half. My grandmother told me when I was five years old that the first time you lay your eyes on your mate, the feeling is kinda electric. It’s a moment that you’ll remember for the rest of your life. She spoke of how it’s like a piece of you has been missing but, you never noticed until then; that I’d know when it happened, for the feelings hit you like a ton of bricks. Since then I’ve dreamed of the day I turned of age and met my mate, unfortunately my dreams were crushed on my eighteenth birthday.
Before I went out with Caroline I had to do a couple of things first. I had already completed some paper work and now I was on my way to visit my parents. After my father stepped down from his Alpha position, he and my mother moved out of the pack house. They now stayed in a cabin out in the woods, next to the lake. I followed the stone pathway up to their door and knocked. “Anita. What are you doing here?” my mom asked welcoming me inside. Laura was a gorgeous woman. The pack was proud to have her as their Luna, and my father as his wife. Everyone respected her and praised about how she was a caring mother and strong woman. My dad used to tell me that beside every strong Alpha is an even stronger Luna, and he was right. I looked up to my mother as much as my father and for good reason. “I wanted to check up on you guys. Where’s da
“Do you want me to go with you this time?” Anita asked as I fixed my tie in the mirror.“You have a meeting with Henry and your father” I muttered.“Not till later this afternoon,” she said.“I can go by myself. I prefer it actually” I replied.“Okay. I just thought this year might be different” she hummed.I sighed before turning around to look at her. She looked beautiful and it made me proud to know she was my mate…“It isn’t. It won’t ever be. You can’t come with me.I’m sorry but, that is how it has to be” I breathed.Anita’s eyes flashed florescent green telling me she was angry at my defiance but, she didn’t say anything else on the subject.“Alright,” she murmured leaving our bedroom.Grabbing my keys, I headed downstairs. I was about to walk out the door when I heard the patter of small feet behind me.Smiling I turned around picked up my son before he ran into my legs.”Daddy!” Joseph giggled.“Good morning. I will be back, okay? Love you” I spoke kissing his forehead.Goin
“Are you happy?” Caroline asked.She decided to take me out to lunch since we haven’t spent much time together.She’s been with Henry and I have the pack and Kelly.We’ve spent time together trying to reconnect and get back what we lost.“I am” I answered playing with my glass of water.“Anita you are my best friend. I’ve known you all my life. What’s wrong?” she hummed.“Kelly and I have been working to move forward.He says he forgives me and I want to believe him.I do but, there is this doubt that I’m going to wake up and he’ll be gone.That he will come to some sort of revelation and leave for good.I wish I could just let it go because I hate feeling this way” I sighed.“What do you mean?” she asked.“He makes me weak and vulnerable. Two things I haven’t felt since I was a child.I’m an Alpha, therefore, I need to be strong and fearless.Other emotions just cloud my judgment. It’s difficult though because Kelly makes me feel everything” I confessed.“Well, you love him, sweethea
“Until we have seen someone’s darkness, we don’t know who they really are.Until we have forgiveness someone’s darkness, we don’t really know what love is”–Making the decision to come back wasn’t easy. It was actually kind one of the hardest choices I’ve ever had to make.I love Anita. I would be lying if I said otherwise. The thought of her death made me physically sick.I couldn’t lose anyone else. I made the decision to try and put what happened in the past.I wanted to move forward and when I pictured my life she was there, even after everything she still was my future.“Are you okay?” Anita asked.I have been back for about two weeks and things were still awkward between us.We barely talked about anything and I mostly stayed to myself.I wasn’t comfortable interacting with the pack members yet so, I mainly stay in the apartment and worked.At the moment we were spending lunch together.Though if someone would have come in they’d probably think were complete strangers to one an
A month. I had bed sentenced to bed rest because the pain was so bad.There wasn’t any medicine strong enough for my Alpha metabolism, which meant I was on my own.My wolf was barely there and I knew it was only a matter of days before she disappeared for good.I wouldn’t be able to survive without her so, I would perish as well.I didn’t regret my decision, even after all this. I did what I had to.I needed to protect my pack. My only regret was how I had hurt Kelly.I should have left him to his life. Bringing him here was a mistake.I had survived 23 years without a mate. I didn’t need to involve him but, I was selfish.The one thing an Alpha couldn’t be.My family and friends were all pressuring me to call Kelly and have him take back the rejection, but I couldn’t.I had no right to barge into his life again and ask that of him.Honestly, part of me was scared. Terrified that he wouldn’t want to take it back, that he’d take pleasure in seeing me wither and die.That my death could
Pain. It had grown more intense with each passing day.I had tried to hide it but, then I reached my breaking point.Waking up from night sweats in body wrenching agony was too much.I needed help whether, I wanted it or not.“Mr.Salvatore we have you hooked up to a small morphine drip.It should make you more comfortable as we wait for the test results to come back” the nurse told me as she fixed the IV in my arm.“Thank you” I mumbled.“Your welcome.Try and get some rest” she sighed before leaving the room.Staring at the ceiling I thought about all the events that led up to this point.Mainly the look on my mothers face when she found me on my sofa crying in agony.I had never seen her so scared. My whole family was on edge worrying about me.Therefore, I had no say in the matter when she decided to call an ambulance and have me taken to the closest hospital.I imagined pulling the needle out of my arm and leaving but,I knew it would only be a matter of time before the physical p
“Alpha we need to get Kelly and bring him back here” Henry said staring at me intently.“No. He doesn’t want me in his life and how can I blame him” I sighed sitting up.Its been a month since Kelly left, since he called me and said that he hated me.A month of hell. The moment the words left his mouth I could feel my wolf start to wither.He may not have formally rejected us but, it was enough.“Yeah well he thought that leaving would keep you safe.That he could walk away and not put you at risk.He needs to know how wrong he was. You don’t have much time” Henry argued.“Enough! Kelly stays where he is. We have no right,….I have no right to drag him back here.Not after everything. It wouldn’t be real” I stated.“I’m sorry Alpha. I didn’t mean to overstep” he muttered bowing his head in obedience.“It’s fine. I know your worried but, there isn’t anything we can do.I brought this on myself” I exhaled laying back against the pillows.The day Kelly left was the first among the days of
I couldn’t focus as I jogged downstairs. Every thought that seemed to pass through my head at the moment was incoherent.I didn’t understand it.The only thing I really knew at that moment was I wanted to get as far away from here as I could.Grabbing my keys from my pocket I walked out the pack house and proceeded across the grounds.I needed to get to my car and drive. Where? I had no damn clue.“Kelly!” I heard someone yell but, I just ignored them and kept going.That was until they ran in front of me and pressed there hands on my shoulders causing me to stop.“I need to leave” I sighed not looking at Henry. I knew what he was to Anita the Alpha.“You shouldn’t, not like this. You can at least try and talk things out” he suggested.“No” I muttered shaking off his hands.“Kelly-” he started but, I quickly cut him off.“I said no! She killed Rose! Anita murder my friend and that’s something I will never forget!So no, I don’t want to fucking talk!” I snapped before storming off.Rea
Weak. It was one word I refused to be associated with.Growing up, I knew I had to be strong, not just physically but, mentally.As an Alpha you had people depend on you for their safety.They looked to you for console and decisions that were in their best interest.I knew the moment, I was told there was a hunter on pack grounds they would have to be taken care of.I couldn’t risk the safety of my people. It was my job to protect them.1 life for the survival of hundreds. This wouldn’t be the first time I killed and surely not the last.“Alpha, we’re ready. Leila has her strapped down ” Henry said.“Okay, let’s get this done” I said standing up from my desk.I lead the way out of my office and over to the dungeons.When I entered the cell to see Rose hooked up and secured to the bed I knew it was something I’d never forget.“Hello Alpha” Leila greeted.“Hi. Are we ready?” I asked glancing to Rose. Her face was one of stone and it just showed her character.She was a woman that wouldn
“Are you sure about this? I mean talking to her alone”Anita asked as we stood outside the entrance to the dungeon where they were keeping Rose.“Yes. I’ll be fine” I told her before placing a kiss on her forehead.She still looked worried but, nodded her head to the guards.They opened the door and let me in. As I descended the stairs I was kind of nervous.Rose was my friend, one of the first ones I ever truly had.Part of me didn’t want to come in here, to see what kind of state she was in but,a bigger part needed answers and to see if she was ok.When I came upon her cell, the first thing I noticed were the iron chains around her ankle that was hooked to the ground.Anita had told me that this was were they usually kept rogue werewolves.It took her a while to notice my presence.“Kelly” she gasped standing up. She went to walk toward the bars but, was stopped by the chain only allowing her so far.“Are you okay?” I asked letting the worry leak through my voice.“I’ve been better