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Serena - Blinded By Pain
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I watch as the blood mixes with the water, before disappearing down the drain. I want to say I feel better, but I don’t. How can I? Jake is out there somewhere, and I will find him. I am now simply waiting for Dwayne, I need to know Jessie is okay. She was with Jake, and I hate to think about what he has done.
Climbing from the shower I get myself dried and dressed before going back to my office. Everyone is back to their usual jobs except for a few people who are searching for Jake.
“Hey.”
I look up hearing Dwayne’s voice.
“Well?” I hope she is okay.
“She is fine. She was out with Jake apparently, and they met up with Rob, and came back here to her apartment.”
“Dwayne, that doesn’t tell me shit, what happened in her apartment as it was trashed.” If she willingly brought two men back fine, but what happened after? Did she agree and set it up to make Diesel Jealous?
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