Feelings

Raina~

I applied khol in my eyes, making my hazel green eyes look electric. There is a thing about makeup of married woman, it makes you look powerful and beautiful.

I touched my bare neck, red rashes were still looking as if I have dusted pink blush. I sighed and pick the diamond necklace adorned with ruby beads and wore it. It was the wedding gift from Tara.

I glance at my reflection in the mirror. My brown hair was tied into a neat sleek bun and the flower clip was securely pinned on the bun. My khol-clad eyes looked more electric and prominent. My lips were tainted with a maroon lipstick.

I pick out the black kitty heels in contrast to the color of my blush pink silk gown with a modest neck line. I look good, I can rock my reception, and I can face people. I chanted these words like a mantra, until I heard the car honk.

I hurriedly walked out of my room and stopped dead on track as I watched my husband talking to someone on the phone. There was an angry frown on his face. His jaw clenched.

I gulped as my gaze roamed over his body. He is wearing a black tuxedo pairing it with a pink tie. He raked his fingers through his hair messing up the style, but damn he looks gorgeous.

"I want the accurate report of Mr. Jalani, by midnight". He says to, someone over the phone. He is such a workaholic man. Sensing my gaze on him he rolled his head to the side and his eyes clashed with mine.

My cheeks heat up as his gaze traveled on my body, after giving me a silent treatment he says" Driver is waiting outside. Come fast" and walked away.

My chest tightens and tears formed in my eyes. I fanned my face trying to blink back tears because I can't ruin my makeup.

How unfortunate I am that I had my first fight with my husband on my wedding night. I know I was wrong but his behavior wasn't justified either.

My hands reached up under my necklace where he gave big purple bruise. It wasn't a love bite it was his anger, he let out a day before yesterday. And now he is giving me cold shoulder.

But I am accustomed to people giving me cold shoulder. My family has been doing this for two years and now my husband has joined the group too.

And, I understand their behaviors. And I am not gonna shy away from this anymore. I have to make things better between me and my husband.

Although I am still not ready to share a room with him, but one day I will do that too.

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"Are you and your husband not on talking terms, Raina? Don't you think this is too soon to fight and show your true colors to your husband". I clutched the glass in my hand tightly as the bitch in front of me dared to talk to me.

"What happens between me and my husband is none of your business, Anna." I gritted out and glared at my ex-best friend who is now my sister-in-law.

She rolls her eyes, smirking and walked away. It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend. Because they had broken the key of a friendship and that is trust.

Anna and Paul, they both are three years older than me. We all met through dance competition in middle school. Since then we were inseparable. They were my seniors three class. Our friendship didn't break even after they went to college.

They were my best mates, I have done everything for them, even let down and insulted the boy who loved me. And in favor, they gave me the biggest gift in the form of betrayal. Which ruined my life.

And Anna wasn't done that she married my dear brother and turned him against me. The same brother for whom I was his everything, now loathes me to the core.

I saw all my siblings Tara, Jason and Trupti standing there talking and laughing. There was a time when none of them would leave me and now they have all left me. Leaving me all alone.

I sighed and sipped on my drink at least I can enjoy my fruit punch. "We will have to leave early". I heard my husband's voice and tilt my head to look at him. He looked distressed. "Is everything fine?" I ask.

"I have to study my patient's file as soon as I can". He says. "It's our reception". I whisper yelled.

"Who cares, it's not that the guest hasn't seen us. Our work is done now. Just say goodbye to your family." I gritted my teeth in anger. Why does he have to be so angry and rude all the time?

I placed the empty glass on the table and wiped the corner of my mouth. A fake smile was plastered on my face as I watched an old man around my dad's age walking towards us.

"Dr. Raichand". Agastya nodded and shake his hand with him. Agastya wrapped his arm around the bare curve of my stomach. I shivered as I felt his fingers grazing on my bare skin. There was certain possessiveness in his hold.

Dr. Raichand look at me and a wolfish grin took over his mouth. He took my hand in his and kissed the back of it. I flinch as Agastya's hold tightens on my waist.

"I see your young wife is very beautiful, Dr. Agastya you are lucky to have her". He says and I couldn't help but feel slight disgust at his emphasis on 'young'.

"She is indeed" my heart beats fastened as Agastya says and looks at me lovingly. I can't tell if it's the act or a genuine saying but it feels good.

"Raina, Dr. Raichand is the head director of Kind, our hospital." Raghav introduced Dr.Raichand, to me. He indeed looks experienced enough to be a head director.

" Mrs. Murad, will you honor me with a dance, so that my old soul can live peacefully". I cringed at his words even though there was nothing wrong in it. But I didn't like the way he is looking at me. But he is Agastya's senior and I can't disrespect him. And a little dance won't hurt.

I smiled and nodded. He took my hand in his and lead me to the middle of the floor where other couples were dancing.

I placed my hand on his shoulder, leaving an appropriate distance between us and he put his hand on my covered waist. I smiled nervously and we swayed our bodies.

I tilt my head and searched for my husband. I bit my lip as I saw him looking back at me with burning intensity. His eyes hold possesiveness and anger.

My breath hitched as a hand traveled on the exposed skin of the side of my stomach. I look at the doctor and he just smirked.

I glared at him and tried to remove his hold. But his hand tightens on my skin. He leaned down to my ear his breath fanned on my neck. What is he doing?

"When can we meet alone?" he whispers. My eyes widened, what does he mean by that? I tried to step away but he was still holding my hand.

"Oh, C'mon kitten don't behave as if you are not interested in taking cocks in your cunt. People know what a slut you are. Just tell me when can we meet so, I can devour this young body of yours".

Tears brimmed in my eyes and my chest started to contract to gasp for air. I was too stunned to speak. How did he know? why would he say something like this?

"I think I should have my wife back, Mr. Raichand". I heard the voice. "Sure, see you soon Mrs. Murad". I flinched. He will not leave me. He will tell everyone. He will ruin my life.

"Raina". I look up at the man as he wiped the tears that I didn't know were, falling from my eyes. I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face in the crook of his neck.

My whole body trembles, I opened my mouth trying to catch air. "I can't breathe". I whispered and gasped for air. Agastya pulls away and looks at me. Worry flashed across his face. He holds my trembling hands and leads us out of the banquet hall.

He closed the restroom door. "Raina, where is your inhaler ". Tears blurred my vision as black dots started to appear in my eyes. But I forwarded my purse in front of him.

"Goddamnit, Raina where the fuck it is". I clutched the bathroom stall. I am going to die. "Here" Agastya, brings the inhaler to my mouth and I drag a long intake making the capsule to burst inside. I take one more drag giving air to my lungs, which are burning.

I closed my eyes and rested my head on the wall. Taking slow and steady breaths. "Sorry, to bother you". I whispered.

"What happened there, Raina?" I felt my eyes start to water again. As I recalled those disgusting words he said to me. A loud sob escapes from my throat.

"Raina..." I bit my lips. "Agastya, he is a disgusting man, he said when can I meet him alone, so ...so he can ..." my voice choked. I couldn't even let out words.

"Maybe it was my mistake, I was the one who agreed to dance with him. Maybe I have given him this hint. I am sorry, Agastya. I once again failed you. I swear I will not do this again. Please forgive me". I say, letting tears fall from my eyes freely.

I glance at Agastya, his eyes burned with anger. I waited for a curse, strike or a hit to come but nothing. He just stayed there quietly.

"I will fucking kill that bastard". He said and moved towards the door. But I was fast enough to hold his hand. "Raina, leave my hand."

I stood in front of him and cupped his face feeling his jaw twitching in my palms. "Leave it Agastya, it was my mistake, if I wouldn't have agreed, none of this would have happened."

He pulled himself away and stared at me."Stop blaming yourself , Raina and move away. I will kill that fucker, he dared to hurt you". He gritted out .

My heart thudded in my chest. He does not think it's my fault. He will fight for me. Tears rolled down from eyes. I wrap my arms around him and sobbed .

"I won't let you jeopardize your job , for me. Agastya, I won't let you". I say.

"I can jeopardize my life for you , Raina... " He say and stepped me aside before walking out.

I sat on the floor. I forget everything happened the only thing echoed are his words , they did things to me, i hold my tummy as butterflies flapped their wings inside me. I can jeopardize my life for you these words rang in my head, making my heart flutter.

Could it be possible that he still has feelings for me?

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