Laughter bubbled in my throat when her words registered in my head. “Hannah, what on earth would I need this for? Put it away before someone walks in and assumes the same thing.” I dropped the packet on the bench between us like it had burned my hand.
“I’m not kidding Myra. I know you wish I am, but I’m not. You’ve been sick for nearly a month, you stopped eating mango flavored chips even though they’re your second favorite food in the whole world, and your body, it’s changing…” “Jesus Christ Hannah, slow down with the sex talk. I’m not pregnant, okay? I can’t be. We’ve used protection every time we had sex.” “Every time?” “Yes!” I yelled and rose from the bench. The last thing both of us wanted was a child. I had an experience being raised in a dysfunctional family, and I would not do that to a kid. Plus my career had just started, what part of my life would a kid fit in. Pierce…well Pierce was Pierce. If he could be as cold and inconsiderate as he was to me, there was no doubt what would happen to a child I had with him. We were careful. Very careful…except at the premier of Gossip And Dreams, where he had bent me over in his private booth and fucked me senseless. I froze. No. it happened one time. That wasn’t enough. Even as I argued, I knew I was wrong. It dawned on me that I could not recall my last period. Hadn’t even thought of the thing since I was so busy with work. “You don’t look too confident.” Hannah said sympathetically and stretched the box out for me again. “Just get it over with. I might be wrong and this will be some funny misunderstanding to look back on.” “Or you could be right, and I’ll be hot water.” “Only one way to find out.” She nudged me toward the bathroom after I had taken the packet reluctantly. When I was locked securely in one of the stalls, with Hannah guarding my stall. I peed on the first one and waited for it to react. “What’s happening in there Myra, I hope you don’t plan on pouring water on the kit!” Now why hadn’t I thought of that? “I’m just waiting for the results to come in.” I yelled back through the door. “Its five minutes it should be done by now.” “Chill for chrissakes” I muttered under my breath and got up from the toilet seat to look at it in the sink. “What does it say…Myra? What does the test say?” she wriggled the handle of the door. “Give me a minute Hannah, it’s faulty-let me try it again.” I squeaked. “Oh Myra.” She sighed, but waited till I repeated the test again, and again, and one more time for good measure. “You can’t spend the rest of your day in there; you have to come out at some point.” I opened the door, looking white as a sheet. “It was one time, Hannah.” I said, walking past her in a daze. I was really pregnant. “We’ve always been safe.” Was this some kind of punishment from the universe? “Shit like this happens all the time babe, don’t beat yourself up about it. And hey! If Pierce accepts the pregnancy, your life will be on easy street. Look how much traffic Your career has gotten in two years. People want you to sign a contract while you’re working and that’s just from being a rumored girlfriend. A baby mama…” “Hannah, I swear sometimes you are the devil’s advocate.” “I’m just speaking from a manager’s perspective.” She shrugged. “From a kid’s perspective it would be hell. A father that will hate them and their mum, A mum who won’t have time for them either, plus, I can’t use a kid as leverage to forward my career, that’s low.” I scrunched my nose up. “Yeah, Sarah's level of low.” We sat in silent while I mulled my next decision. “I don’t know what to do, Hannah. I can’t be pregnant.” I said, fear creeping into my voice. “I don’t know the first thing about taking care of a child, I have my mum and sister to care for, this’ll be an extra mouth to feed. How do I keep it a secret from Pierce?” “Relax love, don’t you want to tell him?” “I would rather not see his face now after those pictures with that woman. You see the resemblance, don’t you? He’s not going to want me or my child now that she’s back.” my voice lowered to a whisper, “what if he asks me to get rid of it?” “Don’t let your mind fly Myra, For all we know she could be a family friend or long lost cousin or something-“ “That cousin looked like she wanted to bone him.” “I think you should tell him.” She continued, ignoring my comment. “But for now, go for an actual test, determine how far along you are with the pregnancy and the health of the baby. I would come with you for moral support, but I need to speak with Lindsay and her team, and I don’t want you delaying this any further.” “That’s okay. I’ll let you know how it goes” I said quietly. All I could think of was the fact that I had a mini Pierce growing in me. Hannah wrapped her arm around my shoulder. “You got this.” * * * It did not feel like I had anything when I was spread out on the table, getting a physical exam from my gynecologist. Or when she told me that I would get the gestational age of my baby the following week when they compile my blood test and ultrasound. There was no ‘oh you’re not pregnant’ or ‘sweetheart, it’s just your hormones.’ No,I was really carrying a child. Pierce’s child. As I walked out of the OB-GYN I fired a call to Hannah. She picked on the first ring. “So?” “The results will be in by next week, I was told I would get a call when they’re ready.” “How are you feeling?” she sounded like she was having a meal. “Nervous…confused…” I would have added more words to describe my mushy feelings, but the words died in my mouth when I spotted Pierce a few steps away, with a blonde woman clinging to his hand as a doctor spoke to them.I was happy to just slip away quietly but as if he had sensed my presence he turned and looked directly at him Like moth to flame, I approached the pair of them. The doctor took his leave just as I reached their side, thwarting any secret hopes of finding out what they were doing there. The first thing I noticed was how similar to his mystery woman I looked. I might have glossed over her features when I first saw their photos, but Sarah had been right. The woman standing before me was blonde, had a beautiful sweetheart face, pointed nose and pouty lips. An overwhelming sense of longing filled me as I stopped opposite them. I wanted to bury my face in Pierce’s shirt like I did whenever I felt stressed. I’d inhale his warm woodsy smell and feel like all was right with the world. I needed to feel like that now more than ever. Instead I squared my shoulders and forced a confidence I didn’t feel onto my face. I refuse to cower in front of them. “What are you doing here?” He asked, con
My fingers hovered over my screen after I typed his name out. Saying goodbye to Pierce was not an easy feat to accomplish. I wished I could wave a hand and make everything right for the three of us. I placed my hand on my flat stomach and sighed. I hated myself for all the times I let myself dream of a perfect life with Pierce. The life we could have with the child I was carrying if only he gave us a chance. Maybe it was best if we didn’t end things. I could wait for him to show up, we would talk it out and come to an agreement. I could not erase Pierce from my life completely. Even if I tried, and with the baby, and my finances…why did things have to get so complicated? I had to be brave. If not for me, then for the child I carried. They deserved to have a life filled with love and staying with Pierce would create a rift in its life. With shaky fingers I typed out the rest of my text and hit send before I gave myself a chance to overanalyze or change my mind about ending things
“Look this way Myra.” “Miss Myra can you smile this way!” “I love your dress, was it made by a popular designer?” “Please, one more photo Myra!” the photographers shouted as we walked the red carpet. Camera lights flashed repeatedly but I was used to it by now. My sister tugged at my arm and I looked beside me. “Is it always like this?” Lily asked, awe written on her face. I was glad I had decided to make her my plus one for the party that night. The house was falling apart and we both needed a break. The past two days had been one roller coaster ride after another, moving from one problem to the next. I didn’t know things were this awful at home. “Not always, but this is a double event. We’re celebrating the birthday of the CEO of the label and the success of our new TV series.” I explained to her, forcing thoughts of leaking roofs and busted pipes out of my head. “Look at the camera Myra.” A photographer called. “What’s the name of your friend?” someone else asked. “Her n
“What on earth are you doing, Pierce?” I whispered as I tried to tug my arm from his tight grasp. I smiled at CEO’s wife who watched us curiously. Fear filled my body as he pulled me along with unwavering resolve, Ignoring Lancaster’s wife as she tried to exchange pleasantries. I did not want to be alone with him, I could not. “Pierce stop.” I pleaded. He was always keen on keeping our public appearance to near zero. Acting like this would certainly stoke the rumors. I was sure I heard a camera click as we walked past a table. Oh god. I turned back for a second to find my sister grinning mischievously at our retreating figures. Tami’s glaring face was the last thing I saw before we rounded a corner. The wide hallway was empty. “Pierce, for chrissakes, you’re hurting my arm! Can you let go?” My voice betrayed my panic. I needed to reason with him. “Enough people have seen us together, it’s going to take hell explaining this stunt.“ He pulled me into a room and shut the door behi
“Is this seat taken?” she said with a smile as she drew an empty seat back and slipped into it. I was glad she wasn’t directly beside me. We had Adam between us. “It’s My-ra” Lily spoke up smiling at her. My innocent sister thought it was an honest mistake. “Oh.” Tami responded, while giving her a once over. Then she continued like no one had interrupted her. “I was just so alone at my table, and the only one of Pookie…I mean Pierce’s friends.” She corrected with a sly smile ”Is you. I hope you don’t mind that I’m here.” I pressed a hand into my thigh, and forced a smile in her direction. “No, not at all miss Tami.” Lily frowned at me. “So you do know him?” she whispered. “Doesn’t he look amazing up there?” Tami continued, her eyes glued to the stage, then she turned to the rest of us at the table. “Sometimes I can’t believe how close we are. And that handsome face comes with the most selfless person on earth.“ I wished she would go quiet about it already. God I thought break
I cleared my throat and smiled at Lily to assure her I was alright. “Is everything okay? You scared us for a minute.” Tami said sweetly. I nodded, avoiding Pierce’s eyes. If I looked at him I would crack. “I think I had the wrong drink.” I answered. Lily frownwed and pointed at the glass in front of Tami. “That’s your glass.” “What on earth are you talking about?” Tami asked, the irritation in her voice obvious. “Myra’s the only one wearing red lipstick tonight.” I looked at the cup in front of Tami and it was the only glass at the table with a red lipstick stain. She had switched out my cup. “Oh,” Tami chuckled, “I must have picked it up during your speech. My eyes were glued to the pair of you and that happened. My mistake.” I could tell Tami had her suspicions, which meant she could reveal them to Pierce and push him to insist that I got rid of my baby. Fear coursed through my veins and wrestled the impulse to reach for my glass of water. There was nothing strange ab
My heart dropped into my stomach. “Pierce?” “His assistant.” She mouthed as she extended the phone to me. Relief washed over me. “Trevor.” I said in greeting “Miss Myra. I was hoping Hannah would pass on this message, but I guess it’s my lucky day.” He said flatly. Always with the sass. ”Mr. Blackwood wants me to let you know of an appointment with him tomorrow.” “I don’t have any.” “Well you do now. Be in his office by 10 am-and Myra? Let’s try not to get on his nerves by refusing to show up. we both know how he gets.” The phone went dead in my hand. Trevor was well suited to Pierce. “Well?” Hannah asked: “Pierce ‘ordered’ me to show up at his office tomorrow.” Hannah whistled. “We both knew this was coming. Cutting Pierce Blackwood out of your life is going to be near impossible. He practically owns the studio you’re working in. I won’t be of much help but do you want me to come with you?” I sighed. “No, it’s fine. it’s not like he’s going to do anything to me
I tried to pull away, but his grip on me only tightened. He pressed my body into his, as his lips swallowed my moan of protest, coaxing me to give in to him. It would be so easy to yield, to let Pierce have control and lead into the world of pleasure that he had introduced me to, but I had come here for a reason. He would not take me seriously if I kept kissing him back. Panic stricken I bit down on his lip. Hard, till he hissed and let go of me. “What the fuck!” He yelled as I wiped my mouth. We watched each other breathing heavily. “I told you already Pierce, we’re done.” “And I told you Myra it’s not your place to decide. Maybe I wasn’t clear before, Cut your bullshit act.” “Why are you being so difficult?” “Watch your tone.” He warned. and maybe I should have listened. “What do you want with me?” Why was he insistent on having me when he had Tami unless he was trying to hurt me, but why would he do that, i had done nothing wrong to him. Then it occurred to me. h