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Painful memories
Painful Memories are any thoughts about the past that cause anxiety, sadness, or other unpleasant emotions. Examples include thinking about a past disappointment, argument, or loss of loved one. Painful memories may be caused by traumatic experiences such as a serious accident, repeated abuse, or a natural disaster.
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17 / 11 / 2021
I wake up from a deep sleep – my muscle throughout my body aches and cramps from sleeping in an uncomfortable position the entire night …well , almost the entire night. From what I see – actually not see - I notice that it is still early hours of the day. The stars still shine brightly , and the sun is still no where to be seen. I stretch like a cat after napping f
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___________________________________________________________________________ Lucid dreaming Lucid dreaming is a fascinating phenomenon in which a person is aware that they are asleep and dreaming. Those who are more adept at lucid dreaming are able to control the action and content of their dreams to varying degrees. https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/lucid-dreaming-study-explains-how-to-take-control-of-our-dreams#The-two-most-effective-techniques ___________________________________________________________________________ 19 / 11 / 2021 I can not help my roll my eyes as I realize where I have found my self to be. I hear and feel my self sigh a sigh full of irritation and annoyance. The place I am in is blurry yet clear at the same time – I am able to see yet also not able to see , if that makes any sense. My surroundings has this white blurry filter that m
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___________________________________________________________________________ Enough is enough idiom Definition ofenough is enough —used to say that one wants something to stop because one can no longer accept or deal with it ___________________________________________________________________________ 19 / 11 / 2021 – Part 2 It is funny how we never see our wrong , un less we look at ourselves from an outsiders point of view. I look at the way I behave while trying to get his attention , and I honestly can not believe this is what other people have to watch when Captain and I are at the gym. I feel embarrassed for my self as I watch the way I constantly hang around him, some times skipping certain exercises to be next to him. What really makes me annoyed at my self is that
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___________________________________________________________________________ Overcome You can also beovercomewith emotions, or overwhelmed by your feelings. Many people feel so overcome with sadness at a movie — or happiness at a wedding — that they regret not bringing a pile of tissues with them. The verbovercomealso means to win or surpass. If you are going to win the marathon, you are going to have to overcome the five runners still ahead of you. https://www.vocabulary.com/dictionary/overcome ___________________________________________________________________________ 21 / 11 / 2021 Through out the entire day , I find my self joyful and filled with happiness. I have been happy before – I am generally a bubbly person. However , the kind of happiness I feel now is one of triumph. It is like the feeling you get as a ch
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___________________________________________________________________________ (Be) careful what you wish for idiom Definition of(be) careful what you wish for —used to tell people to think before they say that they want something and to suggest that they may not actually want it. “You think having twins would be fun?Be careful what you wish for, you may just get it” ___________________________________________________________________________ 22 / 11 / 2021 I watch as the various colour vehicles zoom pass by me – there was some thing soothing about the way there always seemed to have people who were busier than my family , it gave me a please of mind that we were normal. Does it make sense? I truly do not know. I always had a habit of looking out the window on
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___________________________________________________________________________ Revenge is a Dish Best Served Cold Meaning Definition:It is better to deliver retribution for an injustice after time has passed, and it can be done dispassionately. ___________________________________________________________________________ 23 / 11 / 2021 Revenge has never been one of my best suits , or some thing I have ever been good at. I guess growing up , I never felt the need to act out in revenge – as I knew that God would take care of it. My heart had been too pure , too naïve …and too stupid to show people that I mean business and that I am more than what they thought I was. My mum tells every one that I am humble , and I will show my colours at my own pace – it was one of the comforting things she had said that made me relax. I knew I had some one who was patient enough t
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__________________________________________________________________________ Invisible /ɪnˈvɪzɪb(ə)l/ adjective 1. unable to be seen "this invisible gas is present to some extent in every home" ___________________________________________________________________________ 24 / 11 / 2021 Underwear…Pants…Shirts…Socks… I pack each item in my suit case , one by one. I am not very happy that I will be leaving my home and staying some place else for a while. Due to my grand father’s health , the family is coming together to stay for while in one single home – which only has 2 bedrooms. This means we are to crash on the floor , or any available place. Although , I do not like the idea of leaving my home and staying in a nother place – I agreed to it because of my grand father’s health.
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