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Finding Strength From Loneliness
“It is when we are feeling alone, utterly alone, that we sometimes find the strength to stand on our own two feet. By learning to cherish ourselves and to be our own true friends, we learn that sometimes in life, when we are forced to walk alone, we can handle it. Friendship certainly illuminates our pathways, but even in the darkest moments, we can use our own lighter to find the way.”
https://www.huffpost.com/entry/sometimes-feeling-lonely-makes-you-stronger_b_59308d21e4b062a6ac0ace3a
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14 / 11 / 2021
I feel myself roll my eyes in the nightmare that I am currently in. It is a nightmare I have seen myself in over and over again. I am i
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