ASTRID
I lowered myself onto the bottom step in a stairwell that was mostly deserted because classes were still going on. I'd made it to my lecture hall but I couldn't bring myself to enter. My encounter with Justin had left me too shaken and reminded of my station in the pack. I was a traitor. The worst of my kind. And I wouldn't be welcome anywhere as long as I was here.
I pulled the hoodie I'd used to cover my head off so I could take a breather. I sighed and buried my face in my hands. I'd been doing so well all morning, no one had noticed or recognised me – until Justin had cornered me – and I'd been getting into the idea that I actually could pull off schooling here without suffering too much. But no. Justin had rid me of that delusion.
My life would never improve with Justin as my… husband? Goddess. Was that really what he was to me now? I couldn't even utter it with my mouth.
The realisation was like cold water pouring on me. I was married to my best friend’s brother now. My dead best friend. I had to remind myself of that part because it was the only reason I was still here. The only reason I'd agreed to being a pariah, to being an emotional punching bag for Justin. I couldn't leave the pack without finding justice for myself and Kris. As much as I wanted to.
She'd been more than my best friend. She was my sister. If I ran away and tried to start over somewhere it wouldn't change the fact that the wrong person was being held accountable for her death, it wouldn't change the fact that Audrey was still seen as a hero or a victim – the exact opposite of what she truly was. The injustice would be like an open wound, one that I couldn't just allow to fester without a solution.
Justin leaving me out in the cold last night had lit sort of warning light in my head. All this time I'd thought that whatever he did, he had every right to and I could take it, if I were in his shoes afterall I'd do the same. In a weird twisted way, I'd been okay with being his emotional punching bag. But last night made me realise firsthand just how bad things could get. I mean, it wasn't the first time he'd been cruel— when was he not? But this was by far the most.
I’d stood in the cold, the chill seeping into my bones, as I concluded that I needed to avoid him. It was the smartest thing to do— for my sanity and preservation at least. What could I possibly gain from constantly putting myself in his space, hoping he would see the truth? He wouldn't. I needed concrete proof first. And I needed to be alive to produce it. If by some chance or accident on his part he killed me, it would have all been for nothing. So I'd sucked it up and decided to stay as out of his path as I could from then on. But it seemed I'd failed. He'd sought me out himself and now he'd made me take my ring off. I sucked in a deep breath, my body shuddering as I remembered how his eyes were cold and devoid of any emotion other than pure hatred, as he demanded I take off the ring.
"Get it together, Astrid..." Sometimes I would hear Kris' voice in my head, encouraging and edging me on.
Relief and hurt warred within me. But the hurt far superseded any relief I was capable of feeling. I wanted to do anything that would make him leave me alone as much as possible, but he was still my mate. I ached for him. I wanted him to see me the way I saw him… but I couldn't. Or I didn't know if I could.
But how could he still not know ny now? With Audrey gone, shouldn't the spell she cast on his have broken by now? How could he not feel the pull as strongly as I did, if not more? Have I truly lost him for good?
"You're nothing to me." he’d spat, disgust marring his features each time I'd try to get close to him.
I swear it cut deep. His words, the hateful emotions behind it, his treatment of me, everything.
I took a deep breath and shook my head, to get rid of the thoughts. I couldn't focus on the now. I had to focus on what I could get the future to be. I stood up, deciding to go to the library to at least get some reading done. I'd barely gotten up before I realised I was in trouble. I'd made the horrible mistake of not pulling my hoodie back over my head and below me at the bottom of the last flight of stairs, five girls stood, frozen, as they all immediately recognised me. They were all members of Audrey's cheerleading squad. How could I not know them? Audrey's constant attempts to pull Kris into her clique was noticed the most by me, her best friend.
I swallowed and stepped forward, breaking the standoff that had gone on few seconds too long in my opinion.
Camille, their leader, sneered, "If it isn't the little murderer. And where do you think you're going?”
“Hi guys.” I murmured, foolishly attempting to move past them. Camille pushed me back roughly. It had been a vain attempt, but it was worth trying. I guess.
“Look, she's deaf now too.” Another one spat.
Here we go again.
I sighed— more jabs, nothing new there. “Just let me go, Camille. I've got class.”
I tried to move past again but they all chimed in this time, pushing me back so hard that I fell over, scraping my knee and my side.
“You can't possibly be off in such a hurry, we just wanted to say hi. You know, see how you were holding up? After all, it's not every day a killer gets away with murder.” Camille sang sweetly and her minions laughed with her. But I didn't get away with it. I went to prison for a crime I didn't commit.
I clutched my side and prayed to the goddess for help. I didn't know what could possibly be on their minds but obviously it couldn't be anything remotely good.
“What do you say we show her just how murderers deserve to be treated, girls?”
Oh no..
“Camille,” I began frantically, “I might be a murderer but I'm still your Beta’s daughter. If you–”
A hard slap crossed my face immediately and my head jerked back. I blinked in shock as I stared up into Camille's face.
“Fucking bitch!” she snarled. “Take her!” She gestured to her minions.
The next thing I knew, I was being dragged into a bathroom, their fingers digging painfully into my arms and around my mouth to prevent me from screaming. A lump formed in my throat and I tried hard to struggle against their grip but I was overpowered. I was pushed into a stall, crowded by their presence, and fear immediately surged through me. Their snarling faces and sharp nails dug into me, forcing my head down the toilet bowl. I struggled against them, tears clouding my eyes as the disgusting water in the filthy bowl loomed nearer in my vision.
Suddenly, and to my utter shock, my usually silent wolf took over.
It was so unexpected, but there was no time to be surprised— I pushed them all off me with a roar, tossing two of the girls into the wall like they were ragdolls. I snarled and growled at the rest of them, daring them to touch me. Camille's eyes were round with fear as she whimpered, curled in a corner. It was obvious in her eyes that she was seeing the real murderer. The person who had murdered one of her best friends, the person who truly deserved every treatment she got. It hurt me to the marrow and I howled, pained. But there was nothing I could do. Once again an act of self defence would be misinterpreted as me being a rabid menace, a threat to the members of my pack.
I felt all my energy leave me. My so called strength had only lasted seconds and the effort left me exerted, my limbs shaky with exhaustion. It all just served as a painful reminder to me how my wolf was not as strong as it was supposed to be, despite my being a Beta's daughter.
I fled before they could realise how weak I'd gotten and hid in an empty classroom, my breath coming in ragged gasps.
This wasn’t high school, but it sure felt like it. Who the hell gets bullied in college? Not that I was bullied in high school either— but I guess then I hadn't been accused of murder.
When I was sure the girls wouldn't find me, I finally let myself relax. I sat, tears quietly streaming down my face. Only Kris had really known my secret.
Only she truly knew how wrong something was with my wolf; every time it took over, I grew very weak. And it's strength – vicious as it was when it appeared, never lasted more than a few minutes. Kris and I had been searching for some kind of remedy. Anything that could help, really— we'd pored over every boring ancient text we could find and everything else in between, but so far, our efforts had been in vain, and now she's… dead.
There was one time, before all of this obviously, when Audrey had overheard a conversation I'd been having with Kris about my secret. Ever since, she'd been persistent, very insistent on finding out more. Worming her way into whatever relationship I had with anyone, especially Kris.
I sighed as my tears flowed more freely as I also remember Kris finally succumbing and telling her what she'd been dying to know. The flashback struck a painful chord within me and I remembered my anger. I remember how it'd taken time to forgive Kris— I’d eventually did, but I never for once trusted Audrey. The snake's interest in my… condition had always seemed too intense, too probing, but I suppose she'd seemed like she could help, which was the most likely reason Kris had given in. To help me. Three heads are better than two, or some shit like that. But it had felt like a betrayal.
Despite Kris's insistence that Audrey could be trusted, I knew better. There was something off about her. And I was right.
Consumed by a mixture of grief and rage, I left the classroom and headed home. School was already over. I almost couldn't believe I'd spent the entire day rehashing the past.
I was on my way to my room when I passed by Justin's room – the room we were supposed to share. And that's when I heard it. He was on the phone, and I could overhear him speaking… sweetly? And not so subtly in a way he'd reserved only for Audrey. Well, before the bitch decided to die by my hands and ruin my life.
His tone was soft, almost tender, and it made my stomach churn with a mixture of incredulity, anger and something close to… jealousy?
I stood there for a second longer, hand hovering over the door handle before I decided against it and pressed my ear to the door instead. My mind was racing with possibilities.
Who was Justin speaking to? Curiosity got the better of me and I was almost prepared to go to any lengths to get answers. Just then,
“Eavesdropping now are we, Astrid?”
It was my mother-in-law. No, she wasn't my mother-in-law in that moment, not with that sharp and authoritative voice, cutting through the haze of my thoughts and causing me to stiffen. In that moment she was the Luna of the Nightfang pack, ready to do anything to defend her territory.
JUSTIN“Bro are you going to tell me what the hell is going on?” Jonah persisted as we both made our way to the locker room.He'd been pestering me since we left Astrid, demanding to know what I'd been doing with her. Honestly he was already getting on my nerves. It hurt me and made me hate myself enough that I'd married the evil bitch and couldn't tell my friends, but Jonah who was supposed to be my best friend and beta, refusing to understand when to drop something was making me feel all the more worse and annoyed.We arrived at the locker room and continuing to ignore him, I made my way to my locker and opened it against his face which he'd decided to plant on the other side.“The fuck?” He sputtered, punching my arm and coming to stand on my other side. The corner of my mouth rose in amusement. He'd deserved it anyway.“Fine. I don't care what you were doing with the traitor, why haven't you been picking up or returning my calls the past few days?”I bit down a sigh. I'd completely
JUSTIN“Asta…” I groaned, guilt washing over me.“I'd hoped it was a lie, hoped they hadn't gotten to you too –”“Asta, Asta please, it's not –”“It's not what I think? So I'm dreaming and you aren't really married to her?”“Asta I had to.” I began walking toward my room, sure I didn't want to have this conversation here, the walls had ears and eyes. “You have to believe me when I say I did this for Audrey, I –”“You married her murderer for her ?” Asta screeched. “Justin, have you lost your mind?”“Yes. Yes Asta I have lost my mind. I miss my mate so much it has driven me over the edge.” I settled onto my bed in slow motion.My words seemed to have shut her up and I decided to forge on. Asta would understand. She was one of the few people who actually understood my pain. She'd lost her sister too.“It's keep your friends close but your enemies closer, Asta.” I lowered my voice to a whisper. “The closer she is to me, the harder I know I can hurt her. And I want to hurt her Asta.” I sa
ASTRIDI shivered and trembled as I lay on the cold hardwood floor. Tears flowed freely from my eyes and I couldn't help but whimper in pain. Physical and emotional pain. I curled in on myself and wept and wept. I forgot to be scared of someone finding me lying in the hallway like that. When I'd cried enough for the fear to seep back into my bones, my heart collapsed at the cruel realisation that if anyone found me lying there in the pitiable state I was in, they would feel anything but pity. They might even try to inflict more pain on me.I’d started to pride myself on being strong of heart and logical about feelings since I returned from prison. Justin thought I killed his mate and sister, he believed I was evil, any action he carried out against me should be justified and I shouldn't take it to heart because he was acting on ignorance. I'd been acting on this principle all this time and I'd been impressed with myself for being able to bear all his harsh treatments so far with this
ASTRIDI should have trusted my gut. Coming to the basement was clearly a bad idea but I had nowhere else to go. If I hadn't been here, I wouldn't have been found. Being known as a killer was already hard as it is, I didn't want to be tagged a thief either. “I–.” I barely had time to explain why I was here to the Luna when she reached out and gave me a slap that sent me sprawling to the floor. My face stung and tears gathered in my eyes at the pain I felt from falling to the floor, crashing back on the boxes I had picked up a while ago.Before I could recover, I was dragged across the floor by my hair, for the second time today, and dumped at a corner of the room while she towered over me. For a woman her age, I couldn't fathom just how strong she was but she was Luna for a reason. Ordinarily, she shouldn't be able to move me but here she was, pulling me like I weighed nothing. Goddess.She crouched in front of me and I cowered, turning away, unable to look at her in the eyes, her bl
JUSTIN“If I have to search this place one more time, I am going to lose my mind.....” Alden groaned, exhaustion marred his face. He leaned gainst Ryder dramatically. The past three hours had been gruesome. Without rest we searched the woods for clues, anything at all that could tell us something about the victims, or the killer itself. But nothing.The sun was blaring as if it had a grudge on us. I stared at my friends, noticing the stress and I realized I may have pushed us past our limits today. It wasn't like we came here prepared for the search. But then again, this was Alden, the master complainer out of the three of us. He was a smart tracker but was the laziest guy I had ever met in my life."He's right man. I'm burnt. If we didn't find anything an hour ago, we wouldn't no matter how long we stay in these woods, especially being this tired." Jonah added as if reading my mind.A mix of disappointment and anger washed over me knowing we had to suspend our search for now and I d
JUSTINFuck, not again…“Report everything to me as soon as you're able to. I want every single detail until I get there. Do not let anyone near the body. I'll be on my way now.”I disconnected the mind link and started to leave. Asta reached for my arm dragging me back and I remembered I had actually been in a conversation with her earlier. “Wait, you're just going to leave me here?” She asked me and I paused for a moment. I debated whether or not to tell her the truth but I didn't know if it was something she would want to know or was she supposed to. “Something came up. I need to go.” That was all I could tell her without revealing too much information.“Can I come with you?” She asked and I shook my head immediately, my brows raising. There was no way I was going to drag her with me to a crime scene. Not when she wasn't involved in any way. “I'm sorry, but you can't. I have to go now.” I made to leave but she stopped me, again. And I swear I heard my wolf groan in annoyance. Ye
ASTRID I thought I knew what hatred was but this had to be next level. There was nothing else I could have done except comply with the instructions given by the Luna. The chores kept piling up like I hadn't done most of it the night before and I couldn't help but wonder if she got people to undo the ones I had done, overnight. I kept glancing at a nearby clock and each ticking hand made me later for class. There was no way I would have finished on time and I knew now that passing this year was going to be hard, not to mention taint my perfect grades. As soon as I finished up with the dishes, which were the last chore stated for me to do, I tried to hurry to get my books and contemplated whether or not to have a bath before leaving. A sniff at my clothes told me I needed to. Even though I had my bath the night before, the sweat from working all morning and the conditions I had worked in had caused a new buildup.I wasn't looking at where I was headed to and a wet spot on the floor h
ASTRIDPain hurts. It is excruciating and it burns but the pain is good. It had only been a few minutes since Justin's mother let me go after burning the flesh on my back. While the pain remained but my tears had started lessening, the memory of that first sizzle of my skin remained fresh. I sat on the floor, my back opened, and I could feel blood running down my back from the part that got burnt. Every little breeze made it sting and I sat there, wincing every second. After she had left, the maids trooped in, wanting to get a closer look at me. There was no doubt that they had all heard me screaming from where they were, wondering what I must have done this time to earn such a treatment. It was one mistake.No one made any moves to come to me. They all instead stood from afar, occasionally peeking to get a good look of what must seem like a burnt platter of meat to them. They gossipped amongst themselves, paying me no heed. “Poor thing. She must have really angere Luna…” One sai