Prologue
Everything was ordinary and normal in my life until this moment. It occurred to me many times what kind of sin I had committed for this to happen to me when all I wanted was to have a normal and simple life. My dream of having my own family would've become real if that tragedy hadn't happened.
"Close your eyes," the make-up artist commanded while putting powder on my face.
As I closed my eyes, I silently wished this was all a dream. A nightmare to be exact. And when I open my eyes the light will greet me. I silently hoped that as I opened my eyes, my reality would go back to how it all used to be.
"There, it's done."
But it was still the same. I couldn't feel my own body and everything around me. I can hear voices but I don't really understand the words.
How did I end up in this situation? Why do I have to go through this nightmare?
Ah, right. As payment for a debt. I wonder if my decision in doing this for the damn debt is all worth it?
"Okay, we're done! Now it's time to wear the gown. Assist her, please!”
"Yes ma'am."
I looked at my own reflection in the mirror, still dumbfounded and lightheaded. I gently ran my hands over the white gown I was wearing. I didn't mind the staff doing adjustments to the dress, putting sequins, and other things. I fixed my gaze on my reflection.
Is this really me? It all felt like a dream even until now. Everything would've been perfect. If only I was getting married to my real fiance.
“Beautiful! Perfect!” The make-up artist exclaimed. But I couldn't get myself to be happy and smile at the compliments.
I tried to pull myself together to do one last thing. Maybe this time, he'll let me go. I have to try one last time. Because my freedom depends on it.
"Are we done?" I asked when they finished fixing the gown.
The make-up artist nodded confusedly. The other staff inside the room also stared at me. I took that as a chance and walked towards the door but the wedding organizer looked at me in surprise.
"We'll take some pictures before the wedding starts Miss Villareal," she smiled.
I scoffed at the back of my mind. What's the use of a photo shoot when clearly there is no wedding happening today? All I have to do is convince him with everything I got.
"Can we do it later? I have to talk to him," I begged calmly even though inside I was itching to go out. I can't afford to waste more time.
She took a glance at her wristwatch and looked at me hesitantly. I looked at her, almost pleading. I know Lideon will be angry with what I'm doing but I don't care anymore. I have to talk to him!
When she didn't speak, I hurried out and went to the room where I knew Lideon was. I didn't mind the ladies following me and trying to stop me from walking in haste.
"Miss Villareal, Mr. Martin is quite busy at the moment. It's best if you meet him later-”
I violently walk passed Lideon's assistant and entered the hotel room. Even his men outside were dumbfounded that I only stared at them coldly.
I managed to get inside the room without being dragged by someone away. I caught up with Raul inside sitting on a single sofa while the asshole was sitting comfortably on the long sofa. His massive arms spread wide on the backrest as his dark and menacing eyes bore into mine.
I clenched my fist to stop myself from trembling. I know he's pissed with my presence. Well, the same goes for me. Did he think I was happy to see the look on his face after he pressed me on like this? And he doesn't have to worry about seeing me every damn time. Because after this, I'll make sure he won't see a single strand of my hair.
I breathed hard to calm myself. I directed my gaze toward him without blinking. His gaze traveled down my body which only made me angrier.
"Leave us alone, Raul.” He said coldly while looking at me.
Raul stood up without saying a word and gave me a worried look. I can't help but appreciate his kindness for the past month. I will never forget all that.
I let out a silent sigh when I heard the door close and both of us are left alone. I tried not to channel my own anger toward the man in front of me. I am here to beg. Right, beg. I would kneel if I had to, just to stop this madness.
"What do you want?" He asked nonchalantly.
Calm down, Almene. You have to beg, right? Just ignore this man's arrogance and indolence. The important thing is that you get out of this situation.
"I can't do this," I said with difficulty.
His gaze went even darker and angrier.
"What nonsense are you trying to say?"
I bravely stared at him even though my heart was struggling. I shouldn't have agreed to do this in the first place. I should have thought of this before. I should have thought of another solution first.
"I can't marry you," I said boldly. “I will pay my dad's debt in another way, not this. Please! I can pay for that, just give me time!” I closed my eyes and screamed.
"No," he said firmly.
I couldn't believe that he immediately answered me like that. I took a step back when he suddenly stood up and took a step closer to me. Anger and frustration never left his eyes. But instead of being afraid, I gathered all my courage and looked back at him.
“I clearly told you I won't accept anything as payment except this. And you agreed. So don't give me this bullshit and go back to your room.”
"Why, huh? It's not as if you won't get a woman who's more than willing to marry you. Just choose from those. I-If you want I will help you find a wife. I-I won't run away from Dad's debt to you, I promise. J-just please...”
I didn't realize I was sobbing so hard until I almost ran out of breath. I just bowed down in despair. If I have to kneel, I will. I know this man doesn't have a heart in him. But I bet he has at least a little mercy left in him and will let me pay in some other way.
I held onto his sleeve and looked up at him. And I have never seen him this angry in the past month, just now. He looked insulted and extremely angry. So I concluded with my last resort. I'm throwing away my pride for doing this. I wouldn't mind throwing my dignity away. To think I could actually attain my freedom through doing this comforted me.
“Please...”
But even before I could completely kneel down, he promptly grabbed me. His expression remains hard and angry. I stared at him in shock, hoping that he would give in.
"Kneeling in front of me is of no use. You will be my wife before this day ends. And don't even try thinking of doing something funny again because I'll have your every move guarded," he whispered firmly. "Don't even think of running away. You clearly know what's at stake here. Now go back to your fucking room and wait 'til the ceremony starts."
Silly of me to forget how much of a demon this man is. I wanted to laugh because of anger. How could I have thought there was any mercy left in him? I must have been out of my mind for a moment to think that he actually has a heart. No, he doesn't. He's handsome and rich but his heart is dark and evil.
I pushed his arm away from me and stood properly. I violently wiped away the tears and gave him an evil look. I smiled sarcastically despite the tears.
"For a moment I actually forgot that you're eviler than a monster. You're a total asshole," I said firmly.
His anger intensified. The fire of anger in his eyes burned even more. But I don't care anymore. And it's funny that I don't even feel the slightest bit of fear.
"Oh? Are you angry? Come on, it's not like it's the first time someone labeled you as a despicable monster-”
He pulled me violently and held me firmly by both arms. His grip was so tight I'm sure it'll leave a mark. However, I did not show any pain. I smirked at him even more to insult him. At least this way I can get even for his shamelessness.
He glared at me even more and his grip tightened even more. I cried and looked away while feeling the pain. He let go after a few moments and looked away.
"Raul!" His loud growl almost made me jump.
I heard the door flung open and Raul's familiar footsteps behind me.
"Lock her in her room and make sure she doesn't go anywhere until the wedding!"
I stared at Lideon in shock. What the hell?! Am I a prisoner?!
"What?!"
"You heard me right. Annoy me once more and I will do more than that.”
"What the hell!" My eyes widened in disagreement.
Before I knew it. I was escorted back to my room. The only thing that consoled me was that the staff didn't drag me back to the room even when I was struggling.
I can't believe him! What a jerk!
My tears just won't stop falling no matter how many times I try to console myself. As if it will be alright. Oh god! What am I gonna do?
I was pacing back and forth panicking when the door opened. I was about to ask for help when I saw that it was my father. He greeted me with a big smile while I started crying out of spite.
"Almene," his smile faded when he saw my disposition.
I immediately looked away and took deep breaths again and again to stop the tears. I still blame him, I can't deny that. I should be living my life the way I want it to be but because of him...
I shook my head. I should stop myself from blaming him. It's no use if I continue to blame him.
"I'm sorry," he said in a raspy voice.
"Leave me alone. I want to be alone."
It hurts me to hear his voice asking for forgiveness. And I still can't find it in my heart to forgive him. I sat on the cold floor as I cried some more. Just for now, I want to cry and let it all out. Just now...
I fought the urge to cover my ears when the soft sound of the orchestra filled the hall. All eyes were on me as I walked to the pulpit. Flashes of cameras blinded me as I strode my way toward the altar. My grip tightened as I tried to walk straight toward the monster who was waiting for me.
I slowly looked around the entire venue. The red carpet is decorated with fresh flowers. The whole place is filled with white roses lined up beautifully toward the altar. The huge chandelier illuminated the hall, and the smell of the candles stung my nose along with the fragrance of the flowers. Everything about it speaks of elegance and wealth.
All I could see were unfamiliar faces. I bet most of them are Lideon's business partners. His parents welcomed me with warm smiles that I didn't know how to reciprocate them. They have no idea about this madness so I should treat them well.
"You're stunning, dear." Danice Martin, Lideon's mother smiled sweetly and hugged me.
If only you knew the truth, you wouldn't smile so sweetly, in my mind.
Her husband, Ysmael Martin, hugged me too. I hugged both of them and thanked them. I can't figure out where Lideon got his bad attitude since his parents were so good. Danice Martin is stunning and beautiful even with her age. The elegance and good bearing of her husband are also the same.
"Thank you, ma'am, sir."
"It's Mom and Dad now, Almene." They both smiled.
I faked a smile and nodded lightly. I wonder when all of these would end.
I wanted to take my hand back when Lideon reached for it. I couldn't look at him because I might explode with anger. I would rather get this shit over with and go home.
The whole ceremony bore me. I could've drifted off to sleep if it weren't for Lideon's intense glares every time I attempt to yawn. I just woke up when we were about to exchange vows. No matter how much I try to set aside the memory, it always gets to me.
On that day, I was also supposed to get married to the person I love. I made a promise that he is the only one I will love forever. I have been looking forward to this moment at our wedding. When we would exchange our vows and wear the rings which signify our promises.
I looked away and cleared my throat. No matter how hard I tried to ignore it, this scene kept reminding me of the pain I felt that day. It should've been him who's supposed to be with me right now, not this man.
"Do you, Althea Menesis Villareal, take Lideon Ambrose Martin to be your lawfully wedded husband, from this day onward, 'til death do you part?"
I lifted my gaze to Lideon. He has that warning look in his eyes. I slowly looked around at all the people there. My heart almost came out of my rib cage when it pounded hard. I looked at Lideon again when he squeezed my hand.
"I do,” I closed my eyes and whispered, holding back sobs.
"I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may now kiss your bride, Mr. Martin.”
The hall was filled with applause. Everyone seems happy and encouraging. Well, not me. I've been wanting to explode with anger and pain. Here I am getting married to another man when my fiance is lying in a hospital bed, comatose and with no assurance of waking up!
I glared at Lideon. He held my waist tight and pulled me closer to him. I held onto his chest to not get too close, but he wasn’t bothered by my resistance.
He lowered his face and I immediately averted my face. His lips landed on the side of mine. I felt him smirk then he lifted my chin up which made me look at him. His eyes are unreadable and mysteriously deep. My insides churned when his lips claimed mine, softly and slowly. All I could hear was the loud applause of the visitors as I slowly closed my eyes.
To be continued...
Rainbow What I had was something not perfect but I was content. Although the life I lived was not luxurious, it was happy. It's hard sometimes but it's also manageable. I got so used to the warmth that I wasn't able to brace myself for the cold and dark. That's what became of us when my mother died. She was our warmth and light. Now that she is gone, everything has become dark for me and my father. "Dad, that’s enough. You're drunk," I shook his shoulder. He only answered me with a weak grunt. It's been a few months since Mom died. Since then, this scene is what I always come across every time I come home from school. My drunk dad. The many times he had been like that, I eventually got used to it. I didn't complain every time I came home hungry and there was no food in the kitchen. Sometimes it's morning when he comes home from somewhere, drunk. Everything really turned upside down when my mom left us. "Dad, I'm hungry," I whined one day when I couldn't help it anymore. I really
Dark I already had a bad feeling about this a long time ago. But I ignored all that and focused on myself. I was too preoccupied with surviving alone that I neglected my duty as a daughter for all those times. Right, maybe it's my fault too. It's my fault that my father went down and got addicted to gambling. It's my fault that I didn't know the things he was doing when he wasn't coming home. With the various emotions I'm feeling, I don't know what to think anymore. I knew that the happiness I felt for the past few days wouldn't last. So it's scary to be happy. Because I know it wouldn't last long. "Almene, help me. They're going to put me in jail. That's a lot of money. I can't afford it. Where am I going to get that much money?" He sobbed as he fell to the floor. I couldn't help myself from crying. Oh damn, why does this have to happen now? "Please, help me. They're going to put me in jail-" "Why?!" I screamed senselessly. I heaved a deep breath and tried to calm myself down. "
Payment A loud ring deafened my ears. I don't fully understand what my friends are saying. I can see their mouth moving but I can't hear a word they're saying. I became aware of myself being supported by the three of them and from there, my hearing gradually became clearer. "Oh my god, Almene!" I heard Julienne scream. Julienne the Avery held both of my shoulders. The two's cheeks were full of tears. "W-What did you say?" I asked trembling. I can no longer fully balance myself. They both looked away while Nathan tightened his jaw staring at me. I can see pity in his eyes. I tried to get out of their grip and was about to leave the church to go to Francis' family. Avery held me back that's why I turned her hand away in annoyance. "What?!" "Almene..." they said with difficulty. "T-Tell me. W-What happened to F-Francis?" I glared at the three of them and didn't stop until someone broke the silence. "He had an accident on his way here," it was Nathan who managed to break the new
Punishment I stared at the man who had said that for a long time. My brain has not yet processed what I heard. His brows shot up giving me the 'that's the truth' look. I want to stop and speak but no voice comes out of my mouth. Debt payment? Are you fucking kidding me?! I turned to my father to look for explanations but he still looked the same, head down and unable to meet my anger. "Woah..." I exclaimed angrily. I took a step back when I couldn’t feel my strength. "What the fuck?" I cursed in the air. "Really, dad? You can do that to me?" I whispered full of resentment. "Almene, I-I’m so-" "Ha!" I couldn't stop crying in anger. My body is also shaking. "Almene, h-have mercy. T-They're going to put me in jail," he said, losing strength. "B-Believe it or not, it's also against my heart to do this... But where can I get ten million to pay-" "Why did you have such a big debt?!" I shouted at the top of my lungs. Another tear fell freely down my cheek. Here is the man I looked
Marry I wish I could deny the reality of the things happening right now. That's what I think about as we travel wherever we're going. While moving farther, I see fewer and fewer houses. Honestly, I want to tremble with fear. I don't know what these men are planning. Even though they don't look bad, I'm still not reassured. And who are we meeting by the way? Is it some old and grumpy billionaire? Oh god. "I just want to clarify something here..." I began. The man named Raul turned to me. While the man next to him just looked at me slightly and looked back outside. "Yes, what is it, Miss Villareal?" I breathe hard before giving Raul my full attention. "Just because I came now doesn't mean I'm willing to do whatever your boss wants. Or whatever he and my Dad talked about. I came with you to personally talk to your boss. That's all and nothing else. " After saying that, I looked back at the window. I heard Raul clear his throat and shifted in his seat. "Uhmm... He's well-informed
Perfect I stared at my feet on the tiled floor of the hospital. I was debating whether or not to continue entering. I'm not doing anything wrong but I'm ashamed to face Francis' family. I don't know what to think anymore. And how will I ever face him at times like these? I forced myself to walk towards the ICU, where I knew Francis was. I found Jade there. She looked up when she noticed my presence. "Almene..." I went near her and handed her a paper bag. She slightly smiled but I couldn't even lift the edge of my lips. "How's he?" I asked as I looked at the closed door of the room. The faint sound of the monitor filled my ears. "T-They said his condition is getting better. He will be moved to the private ward later." My eyes stung and my chest tightened with relief. I can't wait for him to wake up. I miss him so much. It wasn't long before the nurses took care of transferring Francis to the private ward. I couldn't take my eyes away from him. Silently hoping in between those mo
Yes I felt heavy the next morning. I haven't had a proper sleep these past few days. My breath is also hot and it looks like I have a fever. I closed my eyes again when my head hurt. "Oh damn." I woke up when I remembered what happened last night. I would like to think that there is a way out of the situation I am in now. But hearing that devil's threats left me hopeless. I forced myself to get up and prepare for work. I caught up with Dad preparing breakfast when I left the room. He turned to me and smiled awkwardly. I ignored him and went straight to the door. "A-Aren't you going to have breakfast first, Almene?" He chased. I was slightly stunned by what I heard. And the way he's acting like this pissed me off even more. I have many hurtful words to say. And I feel like I can finally be at peace if I let out all the anger I have because of what's happening. I finally faced him and stepped closer. I only stopped when I felt pain in my head. "How did you get into that casino?"
WarningI woke up feeling warm that morning. I gently felt the softness of the bed I was lying on. It was unusually soft to the point of unfamiliarity. I woke up in haste only to be dazzled by the sunlight coming from the window. "She's awake," said a woman's voice. There was a hint of joy in her voice. I tried looking for the one who spoke. I cringed at what I saw. I then roamed my eyes around the large room. It wasn't mine. Where am I? I got up only to feel dizzy and close my eyes because of a headache. "Oh, don't get up yet, dear. You're not fully recovered yet." I tried to see who was speaking. She's somewhat familiar. For a few moments, I remembered what happened the previous day. Right. I rushed to Lideon's hotel, and then I passed out. Does that mean I'm still in the hotel now? But how come their house help is here? "Where am I?" I manage to utter. "You are at Lideon's house, dear. How are you feeling? Do you still have a headache? Oh, I told him he should have taken yo
AccidentHis eyes looked like a black hole.That was the first thing I noticed when I saw him. His eyes emit no emotions and all it made me speechless. That's what I keep coming back to as I stare inside the hotel room I booked on my way here. Raul went back to Manila as per my instruction. He didn't even want to agree at first but eventually, he agreed too. Lideon bombarded me with calls all day asking if I was okay. He just finished calling so I have the chance to think now.I couldn't help but feel pity for that man now that I'd seen him. I was also very hurt when Francis died, while he lost his fiancee too in that accident. The article said that his fiancee died on the spot while he was rushed to the hospital and survived.I walked through the small balcony of the room. I was greeted by the cold wind which gave me comfort. My eyes were fixed on the sparkling lights of the different establishments. The road is also busy with passing vehicles.I wonder what it felt like living that
BurnMy tears fell before I knew it. My body trembled slightly from the sudden burst of emotion. I have never paid attention to what happened after the accident. The only thing I was concerned about during those times was Francis' condition. For once...it didn't occur to me that this could happen."Hey, hey."Lideon tried getting my attention by pulling me from my seat. I couldn't move my body in shock that he had to hold both of my arms to stand up. My tears poured down even more when he hugged me."I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I didn't know. I won't let you do this," he whispered over and over again while I cried into his chest.I couldn't talk properly until I got home. I always end up spacing out thinking about the article and the accident. And the fact that I have to face that man and talk to him bothers me even more."Do you want us to eat out or we'll head home straight?"I went back to my senses when Lideon held my hand. I almost forgot we were in the car going home. I stared at him,
Article I couldn't take my eyes off him even when he was busy with other things. I was never like this before we set sail on that honeymoon. Maybe because we became more intimate with each other? Or was it because he confessed? Even though I'm confused, I can't deny that I'm happy with what's happening. I hate to admit it but I can't deny either that I'm starting to develop something for him. Even when a lot of things are unclear between us, especially his sudden confession of feelings. He had always been straightforward, I'm aware of that. But, something else is bothering me. There was nothing else in my mind but that even in the middle of the presentation by Lideon's employees. They were presenting different designs of buildings. They were great. Even though I don't know much about Architecture, I know how to look at a good work of art. "I heard you personally wanted Mr. David Allen for this project, Mr. Webb?" Lideon's voice is controlled and stern. Only then did I come to my
Smitten They looked up at the same time as I slammed the door shut. Lindsay smirked at me and bent closer to Lideon. She even rested his chest on Lideon's shoulder a little before walking away. "Oops! I thought your 'wife' isn't coming?" She said mockingly emphasizing the word 'wife.' Although affected, I just looked at them with indifference. Lideon come to his senses just then and quickly stood up and walked towards me. "It's not what you think," he quickly held my arm when I was about to turn my back on him. Instead of looking back at him, I turned back to see Lindsay smiling. She's giving me the kind of look that she knows something I don't. And that made me feel even worse. "Looks like you're doing something important. Am I disturbing you?" There was an emphasis in my voice when I asked Lideon. I stared at his hand on me then at his face. There was confusion in his eyes. He clenched his jaw and let out an exasperated sigh. He looked sideways at Lindsay. "You can go now and
Torture "What are you thinking?" He whispered softly. I didn't say a word. It doesn't feel right to open up to him just because something happened between us. I can’t get used to this. And I don't even know if it's right to let myself like this. Even more so, until now I still can't get Francis out of my mind. It was only a few weeks since he was buried. And I don't think what I'm feeling is right. I don't know anymore. Maybe it's safer to keep my distance even after what happened. I don’t feel right about everything at all. He caressed my stomach lightly which tingled my insides. He gently brought me in front of him and peered into my face. "You're making me nervous," he said and touched my cheek. God, it would have been easier if he was not treating me like this. I roamed my eyes around and all I could ever see were unfamiliar faces. He couldn't be doing this for people to see, right? If so, why? I couldn't bring myself to ask him either. What are we now that something happene
FearIt's probably because I'm tipsy. Right. It's probably the alcohol. There's no way I'd be this affected by his gazes when I'm sober. It's just because of the alcohol. This heat is also because of the wine.But why can't I withdraw myself from staring back at him?I know I should gather my senses together. Because I know I'll regret it all when I wake up the next day. This heat, this tension... This desire. It's just for now."Almene," his hoarse voice tingled my skin.I blinked and stared at him properly. His eyes remained the same. The emotions I see in them are still the same. Desire, lust, and something else I couldn't name."O-Oh?" I manage to utter despite my dry throat.I don't understand myself anymore. I want him near, so near until I couldn't get hold of my sanity. I want him so close to me I feel like dying. What is happening to my body?His fingers trailed from the bed to the hem of my shirt. His hand lightly touched my skin which secretly startled me. His hand is so war
WantI stared at the blue sky reflecting on the waves as I tried to gather my thoughts. Why I felt that way I can't even figure out. These past days have been confusing, even though I know it shouldn't be.I shouldn't get curious about who that woman is. That wouldn't be right in any way. I have been scolding myself for thinking about it for a while now. Or is it because of what happened last night? Maybe.The deafening silence bore me and I decided to go out and explore the whole cruise. What else would I be doing on a ship like this? I still don't know where it's going and I forgot to ask Lideon. Not that it matters. It's all just a show. So might as well enjoy myself while this extravagance lasts.I went out to see if Lideon was around but he wasn't. I couldn't even catch his shadow from the guests entering the corridors. Most of the guests are foreigners. There are a few who look Filipino.I started walking to where Lideon and I went to eat. I didn't pay much attention to the row o
GreedyI don't know how he managed to convince me of this. But here I am, following him while dragging my small luggage. The cruise ship staff met us and took our suitcases. I turned to look at Lideon's bodyguards, the van that we rode in just left."Let's go," Lideon turned to me and held my waist.I followed him mindlessly, unable to take my eyes off the surroundings. His warm hand ignited my skin and I jolted a little with his touch. It didn't help that I couldn't forget what happened last night.It was my first time being intimate on that level with a man. Francis and I have been in a relationship for a long time, but our intimacy never reaches that level. Sure he kisses me and I do, too. But what I felt last night with Lideon's touch and kisses was different.I shook my head to clear my thoughts. But no matter what I do, what happened keeps peeking into my brain. And to this day, I'm still not sure if something happened between us or not. How do I know that without asking him? Oh
HoneymoonWhat I thought would ease my problem made it worse. Lideon held me firmly while eyeing the man in front of us. I went back to my senses when I realized what was happening."Back off," he said gritting his teeth."How will I know you're telling the truth?" The man replied cynically.Oh no, this is not good. Even if I want to speak, I just get dizzy and can't think straight. I held onto Lideon's suit and tried pulling him to get his attention. Because I know if this goes on, he will attack the man.The tension between the two only stopped when some of Lideon's bodyguards came in to come between the two, including Raul."Is there anything wrong? Mrs. Martin seems to be very drunk," he said looking at me for a moment. I couldn't even look back at him properly."Nothing, Raul. I'm taking her home now," Lideon said firmly, still giving the man a bad look.I closed my eyes when I couldn't take it anymore. I am very dizzy and sleepy. I just got distracted again and saw Lideon adjusti