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CHAPTER 46

Author: Eaglewoman20
last update Last Updated: 2024-12-30 16:30:51

Alexa's POV

My head hurts but so does my heart.

I keep trying to ease off the pain I'm feeling by rubbing my chest repeatedly but it won't. It won't stop hurting, won't stop throbbing. And I wish, I wish I can take out my heart and hold it. I wish I could nurse it and heal the broken pieces. Glue the broken pieces and go back living my life like nothing happened.

But I can't because everytime I shut my eyes, Danielle's moans fill my mind.

I feel so stupid. Eva, Danielle and even Sofia have tried to warn me. She's his first love. She's always been his first love. He's always going to love.

Eva had mentioned it. She told me but I'd shrugged her off with a sly smile because I thought…Because I let myself think that what we both share is beautiful. Real. More than pretense. It didn't feel like pretense. It never did.

But now, it's all thrown in the bin, shards of my heart are all I have to hold on to.

“Alexa,” Sofia calls with worry as she moves from the door to where I'm sitting on the
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