My brother Aiden and I have been runaways for as long as I could remember. It was never by choice but of forced situation, leading us to the life we now know.
We've moved to more places than I can count, and I've never bothered to get to know a place enough to consider it home.
But here we are, in the small town of Rivermead, a sought out refuge till we initially were here, with intention of settling down for at least more than 2 years.
I never fully understood why we ran until an incident happened, which jolted all blocked memories awake and I was facing my worst nightmare.
A time I don't long to remember and want no repeat of. I'm pretty sure my brother would agree with me on this. My brother Aiden has been the only family I know and have, since mom passed away when I was just 8 years old. He basically raised me and I love him so much. As for my father, well, that's a story for another day.
It's quite a complicated situation.
Like right now, as Aiden is totally complicating my life, wanting me to actually go out and start having fun. This must mean he is confident in our stay here being much longer, and the safety secured.
" Why do I need to go out again?" I ask , resting my cheek against my palm.
I watch him turn away from the dishes and look at me. " Because you need a breather, to actually go out like a normal teen. " He wipes his hands dry, folding his arms.
" Did Callie put you up to this?" Callie is a friend, who I'd met in one of the old towns I'd been at. She moved before I did and years later, we met again in this town.
" No she did not, but even if she would have spoken to me or not, I would still stand by what I'm saying."
She spoke to him.
" So you want to bring someone over? Because if that's the case I can --------- "
" What? No!" His eyes widen, taken a back by my question.
" Then I don't see why I should go out, I have a book to finish anyway." I tell him, getting off the stool.
" I don't want you living in hiding anymore." I stand still for a second, looking at him.
" We're trying to be careful." I remind him.
" You are almost 18 and soon you'll be going to college, you need to go out and socialize. Look." He sighs, coming over to lean close, standing on the opposite side. " I promised mom I'd protect you with my life, but not to the point of standing in the way of you actually living."
A tinge of guilt weighs on me, thinking of how much he's sacrificed for me. Now here I am, shoving his efforts of creating normalcy for me, in his face.
" I understand, and you know what? You're right, we've been careful till now and this time, it looks like this is it." I say, loosening up on my worries.
With a shaky smile, I add, to me convincing him, that I'm taking in his words. I don't want him stressing about me.
" So are you going then?" He asks.
" Yes I'm going out." I say with fake enthusiasm. " To a party." I laugh an awkward laugh, making him chuckle.
My first highschool party.
" I'm proud of you."
" You're proud that I'm going to a party, where there'll be drunk people, loud music, strangers making out, fights, guys feeling up every girl." I say in almost a singsong tone.
His demeanor changes in milli-seconds, a frown playing at his features.
" Maybe you shouldn't go."
" Nope, I'm going. "
" No, those parties can get out of hand and ----------- "
" It was your idea," I remind him.
" Yeah, but I change my mind, I don't think you should go." He shakes his head.
" Well I want to go now. " I shrug, slowly retreating.
" Well I say no, as the adult here, my word stands." He stands up straight, squaring his shoulders, shooting me a challenging glare.
" Ah yes, the same adult who gave me permission to go out, thanks by the way, and I'd better call Callie. Oh my gosh, maybe I'll meet a special someone." I say in a high pitched tone.
" Cloe Ann James, get back here!" He calls after me, while I laugh, rushing up stairs just in case he chases after me.
A high pitched scream almost blasts my ear drums off, if I didn't move the phone away from my ear.
Damn, this girl can scream.
" I can't believe it, I'm on my way." I don't even get the chance to say anything, when she hangs up on me.
I shake my head in amusement, getting off the bed and walking over to the window, to see her already peeking out of her room window.
Oh I forgot to mention, Callie and I are neighbours.
" I'm so excited. Okay, we only have about 30 minutes, so chop chop." She says with a big smile on her face.
" Wait, I don't have anything to wear." I mention.
Her face lits up at that.
" Oh I've got you covered girl, I'll be right over." She disappears from view, another squeal coming from her room.
I laugh at that, walking away to the bathroom to take a quick shower, before she storms in my room. While in the shower, I take the time to really think and ask myself if I'm really doing this.
I'm actually going out, to a highschool party. Make no mistake, it's not the excitement speaking but the disbelief.
I've never gone out and I've been totally fine, from a very young age I learnt to keep myself occupied while alone, until I got used to it. Now it comes off easy on me to not be bored, to be settled by just a book, ice cream , music or Netflix.
Now here I am, about to go to a party.
Shaking my head, I get out of the shower, wrapping a towel around my body and my hair, before heading back to my room.
Right when I'd just finished applying lotion on my body, and had my undergarments on, a knock comes.
" Come in." I say, quickly covering myself with my robe.
As promised, Callie comes in, hanged clothes in hand.
" Oh my gosh, it's really happening." She says in excitement, throwing the clothes on the bed.
" You sound way more excited than I am." I mutter, taking a seat on the bed and looking up at her.
Her smile slips off her face.
" You've changed your mind?"
" Oh I'm going, I'm just not as convinced that I'll have the same amount of fun, you usually have. "
" Of course you'd expect this, when your brother has kept you cooped up here for so long, but tonight we are about to change that thinking." She claps her hands together. " Now let's get you dressed. "
One by one, each option I turn down, not feeling it.
" Okay, you need to pick something," she huffs.
I glance at the options again, sighing then and randomly picking out a simple, black, long sleeved dress.
I hold it up for her to take a look.
" Okay, I think we can work with this, but put it on and let's see." I nod, disappearing to the bathroom to put it on.
Coming out a few minutes later, before I can ask , her eyes meet my frame and I frown a little, when her brows go up.
" Wish, you look hot!"
" Thanks?.....Isn't it a bit too short though?" I ask, looking myself over.
" Not at all, besides, when we get there and see all the other girls, you'll be thanking me. Okay, now I need to get dressed." She hurriedly gets into the bathroom to change, and I tidy up in the meantime.
She soon comes out in gold shorts and a black tank top, black heels, make-up done and hairdo on point.
Damn she's fast.
" So, ready to go?" I ask, taking my black and red sling bag.
" Well, let me fix you up a bit and then --------- "
" Nope, let's go." I tell her, already opening the door.
" But Chloe --------- "
" Callie." I warn.
She sighs in defeat and walks out, past me. I follow behind, a triumphant smile coming onto my face, only for it to slip off when I see Aiden, waiting for us at the bottom of the stairs, with arms crossed and a blank face on.
This can't be good.
I uneasily make my way down the stairs, standing just a step above him. I wait for just about anything to happen.
" Could you give us a minute, Callie." He says without even looking at her, his eyes on me.
" Sure. I'll be in the car." Callie says, before leaving us alone.
All he does is stare at me for a while before he sighs, his demeanor falling and concern filling his eyes.
" Please be careful."
" I will."
" Don't take any drinks from strangers or let anyone touch you inappropriately. "
" Got it."
" If anything happens or you feel that you can't handle it, just call me and I'll be right there."
" Okay."
He sighs." Okay good. Well have fun, but not too much fun." He really doesn't like the idea of me going out.
" I promise to not try pull my hair out when I see a drunk idiot, doing something stupid." A grin lits his face and I smile at him.
A car horn reminds me that I need to get going.
" I should go, bye." I peck his cheek and head out.
Getting into the car, the music is already blasting and attention seeking. Callie glances at me, her smile of excitement is contagious and I smile at her.
" You are so not going to regret this."
" I hope so." I close my eyes.
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I regret it.
I couldn't wait any longer, I had to get out of there.
So Callie and I went to the party and I couldn't believe how cramped it was, there just wasn't room. Like I'd predicted, there were couples messily making out, drunk dudes trying to feel me up, girls wearing none existent clothing and of course, obnoxious people who decided to play pranks on people.
Some were just mean, pushing even fully clothed people in the pool. I even felt sorry for anyone who spent more than an hour to prepare.
So I had to get out, because that was just not my scene, unfortunately.
Anyway, I ended up walking alone in the dark, because....
1) Callie just disappeared on me and I got tired looking for her.
2) I had no ride.
3)My battery died and I couldn't call Aiden.
I can't believe how my night just turned out, me walking alone in the night, on a deserted road. The party isn't very far from my house, from what I could tell. All I just need, is to keep on walking till I find something, anything to guide me back to my home street.
I've walked quite a distance, that's for sure, the loud blaring music has since disappeared and now I'm coated by silence. I do quick glances around every now and then, just to make sure I'm still alone, you never know what could jump at you from the dark.
What if I'm lost?
The thought alone pulls my feet to a stop.
Oh, no wonder my feet are killing me and it feels as if I've been walking in circles. Okay I'm lost.
What do I do now?
As if I'm given an answer, a scream or yell sounds from a distance.
I can't really tell the difference.
I frown when it sounds again and again. Without even thinking, I follow the sound. Crazy I know, but I'm doing it.
I find myself taking a side road from the main, which if I'm correct, it may take me to the old bridge. Many don't use it anymore while others can't resist the short cut.
Thank God for the street lights that I actually make it close to it. I stop before stepping my foot on it, there's no more sound and I feel stupid.
Shaking my head, I turn around to walk off, when I hear it again.
"Aah!!!!!" Okay, it's definitely a person and it sounds like a male.
Biting on my nail nervously, I turn back around and walk on, just to feed my curiosity on the person, screaming their lungs off. I make sure to walk carefully over a fallen branch, walking a distance, I notice a car left unattended and its lights on a certain figure,who with no doubt is standing leaned against the rails. Except on the other side.
Not only am I stunned, by the fact that I'm practically a witness to a suicide attempt, but that the guy, no doubt, is in his school basketball jacket. My school to be exact.
Number 14 is the number.
It belongs to none other than him. Wesley Adams.
Oh my gosh, Wesley Adams, the ex captain of the basketball team is attempting to commit suicide.
With careful steps I make it much closer, but still remaining a steps distance from him, where he's not sensed nor seen me. His focus, no doubt is on the bottom." Are you going to jump anytime soon?" He jumps at the sound of my voice, his head snapping to my direction so fast, I hope he doesn't get whiplash.I walk over to stand right next to him, I can feel his eyes intently watching my every move. Resting my arms on the rails, I look at him for a minute before looking down at the wild river below." Don't mind me, I'll just watch."" What?" He asks, sounding confused.I turn to him, to find him looking at me again, his blue eyes shining in the night." I'll watch you attempt to jump, though if you ask me, I don't see you doing it anytime soon." I shrug my shoulders as if I'm not bothered, when my heart is pounding against my chest." What makes you so s
When I first moved to this town, my initial thought was, okay, it's another small town to lay low till we move again, but how wrong was I?Months have passed and I'm starting to loosen up, on the high walls around me. It's hard to even think of making a life for myself, when being on the constant run. My brother and I have even become good at it, it's scary.But what does one do when it's a matter of life and death?We practically raised ourselves, and we always looked out for each other, we've ran and survived. Now here we are, trying to make something of our lives. We've longed for a sense of normal in our lives, without the constant looking over our shoulders, to walk freely and never have to worry about anything, more than everyday issues.It's sad really, but it is what it is.I snap out of my thoughts when Callie plops down next to me." Am hating my life right now." She groans.I don't say anything." Am so hating
The chair on the other side of the table is pulled back." So is this where you usually hide, when you're not in the company of your friend?" He's here again.What does he want?I lean back and sigh, just staring at him." You probably want to punch me, don't you?"" What gave you that idea?"" Well, you have that look, it says a lot."" Well I must be really ugly then." I mumble, getting back to my schoolwork." That's not ---------"The bell rings, cutting him off.I rise to my feet and pack everything into my bag. I make the mistake of glancing at him, where his eyes are focused on the table. He's in his hoodie today, but has revealed more of his face to the world." If you don't want anyone on your back, being late for detention isn't the way. " I say, before walking away.
" Oh come on."" No"" It won't even take that long."" I don't care."" I'll be the one doing it, so I don't understand what you're so worried about." He sighs." I'll still be a witness and that says a lot." I point my finger at him." I just feel bad."" Well get over it, now can we eat? I'm starving." I don't even wait for him to speak before I take a slice of pizza and start to eat.So I stopped him from breaking into school, to retrieve my phone, I'm a good girl, shoot me. Though it was nice of him to try and get it back for me, the how, was what I had a problem with the most." You're such a good girl, it hurts." He mentions, sinking his teeth in his own piece." And I wouldn't change a thing, you should take note, it'll help in the long run."" Yeah, no, I'm fine with the way I am.
Closing the door behind me, I start for the stairs, feeling quite exhausted after the night I've just had."Chloe Ann James, don't even think of taking another step." I stop in my tracks. " Where the hell have you been?!" I turn around to face him and damn, he looks angry.I open my mouth to speak but he beats me to it. " Do you know how worried I was? Not to mention, you haven't been picking up my calls.Where the heck ----------" I stop him from going on further, when I close the distance and hug him from around the waist." I forgot my keys in my room in the morning, my phone battery died." I lie, but he doesn't need to know that. " And I went out for pizza." I continue against his chest, just when his arms come around me.He tenses." You walked, in the night?"Oh shoot, I'm not saying anything about Wesley." No, Callie took me but we separated l
Suspended.I can't believe I almost got suspended, though I've been saved by my clean record and Wesley's defense.He literally defended me and yes, most of this was his fault, but him coming through for me, really surprised me. I couldn't help but sigh out of relief, the minute I stepped out of Mr Cain's office.Unfortunately, Wesley had to remain behind. I was curious of what would happen to him but I wouldn't let him know I was.The bell had rung and only a few people remained, who were still getting to class. Thank God I have two free lessons and then after school. I am still standing by my locker, exchanging books when Callie comes over to give me my back pack." Thanks, " I mutter, taking my bag from her." What happened to your hand?!" Her voice being loud, earns us a few curious eyes but I ignore them." It's nothing." I say, trying to
So Aiden thought he might have seen Luis. He started freaking out and just had to call Owen, whose always been our greatest help, in everything.Owen is my God-father and both mom's best friend and first love.Yep, the two were so in love that when a simple misunderstanding happened, the split caused them to make drastic decisions, leading to consequences.My mom soon married and had Aiden, who had a good childhood, until he lost his dad when he was just 5. Mom then found someone new, even though her love was still strong for Aiden's dad and her heart belonged to Owen, she still stuck by her decision of getting married again to Luis, therefore, producing me.At first, Luis seemed like a nice guy as I've been told the story, he was even good to all of us, raising me, but because mom gave him too much freedom, his whole attitude changed. He started yelling, being angry all the time until it all resulted to b
" I'm sorry, " he says.We've been sitting in long silence, none of us daring to speak since we already knew what happened. We just had a breakdown and now we are stuck in the middle of nowhere.What an afternoon.And I wanted to get away from him faster but now, I'm stuck with him, after he had my life hanging on the edge. A part of me was scared while the other heard him. He was living off guilt and was out of control, I still don't know what could be the cause.Maybe he feels guilty for his sister's death, I don't know.It is the first time seeing such a reaction, though I saw a peak of it when we were out eating pizza .He is dealing with something and the more I sit here, in the silence, thinking over what happened back there, I feel like there's more he's dealing with. Something else could have happened and that being reason for his outburst.My response to him is even a surprise to me, I pretty much put all my trust at th
" So, how do we do this?" I ask, turning around to face Aiden.I'm doing all I can to not let the tears fall." You know that this is not exactly goodbye."" It's not the same Aiden, and you know it....."He sighs, turning away from me and taking a seat at the edge of my bed. I join him after some time and we sit in silence for a few minutes." You really are pushing me to kick you out faster."" Wow, someone's eager to get rid of me." I say sarcastically." Yeah, I am, because it'll be much easier to watch you walk away."" Now, you're the one pushing me to run away." I say, looking away from him.I can feel my tears pushing to come out.He sighs. " So, how long will we keep doing this?""Until you tell me that you don't want me to go."" I want you to go."
" I love you." I say to a sleeping Wesley." You finally said it."Or not." You messed up my moment, Adams." I complain, flicking his nose.His eyes flutter open and I smile at him. I feel his hand reach under the covers to touch my waist." No, You cheated, you knew that I wanted to be awake when you finally said it."" I love you." He blinks at me.I see him lean close and I meet him halfway, to connect our lips. A small moan slips out when he lightly squeezes on my waist.I sigh in contentment, when he breaks the kiss and starts peppering kisses on my face. " My bluebear." He says against my forehead.I place my hand on his chest, right where his heart beats. He leans back to look at me, and we find ourselves simply staring at each other." So, nervous about today?" I ask.Tod
" Thank you." I hear Owen say, as he walks the doctor out.I touch on my bandaged middle, sighing in relief that it's not as painful anymore. When the doctor had touched and pressed the wound, the tingling was replaced by a shot of pain.Thankfully, he told us that I just need to take a better look after myself and not push too hard. I should not push too hard to fully recover, I should allow everything to take natural cause.I think Owen must be more relieved, when the doctor had said we didn't need to go to the hospital. I'm pretty sure that he has no desire to ever visit the hospital again. Not that I did.One of the things that the doctor was impressed by, was how well I've been doing, in terms of my walking pace and that I'm functioning okay, that the gunshot, didn't do any permanent damage.I get up off the couch, pulling down my shirt and heading to the kitchen. I take out a can of
Something soft touches my forehead, surely waking me up. I feel someone get in under the covers and wrap an arm around me, pulling me close. Knowing that it's no one else but Wesley, my response to him is snuggling into his chest." I thought I was being careful to not wake you up." He whispers above my head.I sigh, opening my eyes and tilting my head back, so I look up at him." I was wondering why you haven't snuck into my room yet, after....." I trail off, leaving the rest to hang in the air." I was waiting for the right moment."" What made today the right time?"" I don't know, maybe because I missed you a whole lot, and I just needed to be near you tonight."I reach out my hand to touch his face, letting my thumb to gently rub his skin. We spend some time just staring at each other, letting ourselves to get lost into each other's eyes.
~ Flashback~' I think she's warming up to me being her father.' I hear Owen say.I know that they think I'm still asleep, but I've long woken up now.' You've been waiting for the day she calls you dad.' Aiden says.'Yeah, but I know that I need to be patient, and wait for her to get comfortable around me again.''Owen, she knows that she has no reason to be uncomfortable around you. She's just getting used to the idea of being your daughter, don't ever mistake this for her being uncomfortable. I know my sister, and she'll come around. " ' Maybe I should give her some space.' Owen says after a while.' Owen ------------ ''She needs to let this sink in, without me sticking around. She
I shift on the bed, trying to sit up and do something, because I don't like the effect, that the silence seems to have on us. After what I said, Aiden hasn't been able to respond.He knows that what I said, is the truth.As I move, he is there to help me until I sit up, now being in eye level with him." I'm a ----------"" It was self defense." He cuts me off." He might have done the worst kind of things to us, but, it doesn't change the fact that I killed him. I killed someone's son."" It was self defence, Chloe! - He was ready to kill you, he'd been trying to do this for a long time and at the last moment....." He cuts himself short, rising to his feet and turning his back on me.I watch him run his fingers through his hair, releasing a sigh. " At the last moment, you put an end to it all. "My eyes drop to my lap when he turns around to face me. " You're a survivor, Chloe, that's why you are still
The light is shining so bright, almost blinding my eyes. I blink a couple of times until I can adjust to it. When I become familiar to the room, I recognize my surroundings and conclude, that I am in the hospital.Moving one of my arms because they feel a little numb right now, I frown when something restrains me. I glance down to my hand and feel my heart stop for a moment, when I realize that I'm actually handcuffed to the bed.What in the world?Why am I handcuffed?The door opens and my eyes snap to the person who enters. Two suspicious looking men, in leather jackets enter, and I feel very unsafe, just by being alone with them." Miss James, good day." One of the men speaks, he's tall with sandy blonde hair.I don't respond, but just look at them.I don't know who these men are, and they could very well be, Luis's friends.
Something is touching my hair and I've gone in and out of consciousness, fighting my way through waking up. I don't know how long I've gone through the same pattern, but one thing I know, is that I need to stay awake." Aah, look who's awake." I hear his voice.My body is exhausted and it feels heavy, I feel like I can't move because of where I've been shot. I know that this monster shot me.I feel numb almost, but I do all I can to resist letting myself fall unconscious again." I was getting bored here, good thing you woke up. Damn, you're stronger than I thought, you're still holding on." He chuckles.I want to punch him hard right now, so bad.I hear him shift, and by the squeaking sound, I know that he has me laid onto a bed. When he sits infront of me, I feel disgusted just by looking into his eyes." You're prettier than I remember, but I knew
My phone slips from my hand and drops to the floor. I'm too stunned and my feet are stuck in place.Heads whip in my direction and Aiden's eyes are the first I see, widening in shock. Chairs scrape at once, as they all rise to their feet, now facing me." Chloe?" I snap out of it and I stagger back, as my heart beats hard against my chest." Chloe, listen -----------"" S-stay away from me." I stutter, holding up my shaky hands in warning." What you just heard, you weren't meant to find out like this, look -------"I trip on my feet and land on my butt." Stay away from me, all of you. I-I don't want to hear anymore."Panic shoots at me when Aiden rushes over to help me." Stay away from me!" I scream, making him stop in his tracks.I quickly pull myself up onto my feet , facing them as angry tears fall d