A YEAR AFTER THE ACCIDENT.
AMBER.
That day never came. It had been exactly a year since the accident, and I had rarely encountered Zach. I tried visiting him multiple times, but I was not allowed to pass through their borders.
I tried reaching out to his parents, and they let me in one time, only for me to leave feeling more heartbroken than I was.
Zach was no longer the man I fell in love with. It was replaced with a monster who had no regard for anyone around him, even for me.
I tried to understand him. He lost his capability to walk in that accident, while I was able to come out without any damage except for a small portion of my earlobe that was cut.
And we both knew it was my fault. He made sure I remembered that.
“If you weren’t a fucking whore and tried to get laid that night, I could have seen what was going on on the road.” He said those words to me many moons ago, but I still hear it as if he just said it earlier.
I knew after that we could never have what we used to have. The accident broke him, and in return, he was breaking me.
But as absurd as this might be, I couldn’t lie to myself. I knew despite all the heartaches and the tears I shed for him, he was still the only one my heart was craving for.
It had been almost a full year of me trying to move on. I tried to go on dates, but I would always cancel at the last minute. I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t look at any other man and not compare them to Zach—the old Zach—the one who never gets upset regardless of what I do.
FLASHBACK.
Amber - 10 years old.
Zach - 12 years old (almost 13)
10-YEAR-OLD AMBER’S POV.
I locked myself up in my bedroom. Yesterday was my 10th birthday, but it was the worst day of my life. I didn’t want to face anyone. Not even my siblings. I was sure Cyrus and Eva would laugh at me.
I would never forgive Zachary Vernon. Ever again.
We were playing, and I was having fun. I thought Zach did, too. He teased me, and I fought back. Until I got pissed off because he said I walked like a duck with my ass up and my feet inward.
I saw the ice bucket. The ice already melted, so I just added more water.
I discreetly made my way to where he was seated, where he was tying up sticks together for Eva, Abegail, and Sheridan. The sight just added to my annoyance. He was fixing their sticks first before mine.
So I dumped the cold water onto his head.
He growled. Really loud. The kind of growl I had never heard before. Not even from Dad.
I dropped the bucket, and the metal sounded so loud against the tiled floor that my eyes widened. Zach turned to face me. His face was as red as a tomato, and he was dripping wet.
Then he began yelling at me.
I didn’t understand what he was shouting because I started crying. Aunt Nadia came and told Zach to lower his voice.
Then everybody came. Everybody heard him shouting at me.
So I ran away and locked myself in my room. Dad came and spoke with me, and I told him I was okay. A few minutes later, Zach and Aunt Nadia were outside my room. Zach apologized, and I told them I was okay.
I lied. I wasn’t okay. I still hated him.
“Amber, sweetheart. Open the door. You didn’t eat breakfast and lunch.” Mom’s voice came again for the nth time today.
“I’m okay, Mommy. I’m just playing.”
“Can Mommy play with you?”
“You’re too old to be playing with dolls,” I answered before pulling my blanket over my head.
I lied again. I wasn’t playing anything. I was still in bed. I still have my party dress on. I also lied when I told Mommy last night that I was already in my pajamas.
“Can we talk? I need to tell you something.”
“You can tell it now.”
“Amber Rose, I have a key to your door, and I will open this. Don’t let me take Daddy here, or he’ll be more persistent than me.”
I let out a breath before climbing out of bed. The moment the door opened, Mom’s shoulders sagged. “You’re still in your dress.”
“I fell asleep in it.”
“Oh, sweetheart.” She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me. “I asked you to let me in so I could help you.”
“I’m a big girl, Mommy,” I said as I hugged her back, only for my eyes to widen because I saw Zach on the other side of the corridor, leaning his back against the wall.
“What are you doing here?”
“He wants to talk, sweetheart,” Mommy answered.
I wanted to shake my head as I was still upset with him, but I didn’t. Instead, I threw deadly glares at him.
“I will let you two talk if you promise not to shout or hurt each other.”
“I would never hurt Amber, Aunt Andrea.”
“But you shouted at me!” I told him accusingly. “And that hurts too!”
“I’m sorry.” Zach dropped his gaze to the floor.
“Well, I’m not going to tell who’s at fault about yesterday. I believe your fathers have already spoken to you. And I know you’re both smart, and you have figured that out yourselves. Now, I will only allow you here if Amber agrees to speak with you.” She was already looking at Zach, who was looking at her and meeting her eyes. “But if she doesn’t, you need to go home.”
I swallowed. I had to decide. Fast.
“Five minutes. Only five minutes.” I said almost immediately.
“Great! Now promise me, no shouting.” Mom shifted her gaze between us.
“Promise,” I said curtly as I stared at Zach, who kept his eyes on Mom.
“I promise, Aunt Andrea. I won’t shout or harm Amber.” He replied.
“Good. If either of you decides you don’t want to talk anymore, feel free to walk out and talk another day.”
We both nodded our heads. Mom kissed my forehead, and she hugged Zach before walking away.
I pressed my back against the wall, my hands behind me as I looked at Zach.
“You’re really pretty in your dress, Amber.” He spoke when Mom was already out of sight.
“Thank you.”
“Can I sit down here?” He asked.
I nodded. He sat down where he was, which was a little to my right on the opposite wall. I let out a breath and walked toward him, slumping my little frame beside his bigger bulk.
“Are you still upset with me?” He asked.
“Yes,” I said, crossing my arms across my chest.
“I bet you don’t want anyone dumping cold water on you without your knowledge. I put on my best clothes yesterday for your birthday, and I had to take them off because they were totally wet.”
I didn’t say anything and kept my mouth shut, biting my inner cheek to stop myself from crying, but my eyes were watering.
“Are you mad at me?” I asked, my lips quivering.
“I’m not. I just got caught off guard. Sometimes, I can’t control my outburst.”
“But you never shouted at me like that. It was terrifying, like thunder was in my ears.”
“I always tell myself to have control around you. That no matter what you do, it is not a big deal. I just didn’t expect to get soaked with water. I’m sorry, Amber.”
I tilted my head to look at him and found him staring at me. His eyes looked sad, and they were a little misty. Was he crying too?
“I’m sorry I ruined your birthday.” He mumbled before he placed his hands inside his pocket and pulled out something. It was a small, golden-colored velvet pouch. He handed it to me without saying anything.
“Is it for me?”
He nodded.
“But you already gave me a gift.”
“Take it. It’s my apology. I asked Dad to stop by somewhere so I could buy you something. From my own money.” He continued to talk as I carefully drew the strings that held it together.
My mouth opened, and I must have let out a soft gasp because I could see Zach smiling in my side peripherals. I wanted to look at him, but my eyes were drawn to the golden bangle in my hand with detailed carvings. It was a bangle bracelet.
“Is this expensive? It’s gold.”
“Just enough that my savings allowed me to buy. But I can buy you more expensive things when I’m older, and I’m earning.”
“This is beautiful, Zach! I will wear it every day!” I exclaimed and looked at him. I had totally forgotten I was upset just a moment ago.
He nodded and smiled broadly at me. “Make sure you will raise your wrist and show me that whenever I begin to raise my voice. So I can be reminded that I promise I will never shout at you again.”
I giggled and threw my arms around Zach, hugging him tightly. I knew even without the bracelet, I would still end up forgiving him. I also knew that even if we both knew part of what happened was my fault, Zach would never point that out, and I would never admit it. The important thing was we were back to being best friends.
The five minutes turned into ten and then thirty until Zach stayed and spent the whole day with me, helping me build the diorama I needed for my school project.
I couldn’t exactly remember the whole conversation of that day, but I knew he told me he could get upset, but he wouldn’t be forever mad at me. That he was still learning to control his emotions, but he promised he would never shout at me again.
He kept true to his words. He never did, regardless of the many times I threw tantrums or annoyed him—until the accident happened.
END OF FLASHBACK.
AMBER.“You’ve been quiet,” Cassidy asked me as she handed me a cocktail drink. I didn’t even check what it was and just sipped the straw. The burn hit my throat at once, and I began coughing. “Hey! Are you trying to get drunk?” She chuckled and patted my back.“Zach is arriving with his family,” I told her. I was at a friend’s union, and I didn’t expect him to attend. He had never attended any functions since the accident. He would rather stay in his territory and isolate himself. Most of his Alpha friends kept visiting him at the beginning until they all just gave up. But I knew they would still extend invitations to him, like this one, but no one expected him to show up. So I couldn’t believe he would show up here.“Really?” She asked.I nodded and gave the glass to the server who passed by before taking a glass of water to soothe the burn in my throat. Cassidy was still talking but my attention was already elsewhere. My eyes swept around the ballroom, looking at everyone. I smi
AMBER.“I didn’t say you were not capable of going to that room on your own, but this is not your party to ruin! So stop snapping at anyone, and let’s get you out of here!” I didn’t even give him time to object, and my eyes avoided everyone as I was not sure if I could get away with snapping at an Alpha in a crowded room. I moved toward his back, and Beta Arlo stepped aside immediately. As soon as I grabbed the handles of his chair, I rolled him away from the ballroom, and I was glad no one had stopped me. Zach didn’t say a thing. I was not sure if he was surprised or if he felt ashamed of his actions. Everyone tiptoed around him like they were not allowed to reprimand him for being an ass, but I was so done with all this crap. There’s a place for coddling him, but definitely not here, not when we’re supposed to be celebrating Catherine and Tyler’s union. He remained quiet while we were inside the elevator, but I could see him looking at me through our reflections on the elevator
AMBER.“Everything is about you! I tried for so long, but this is where it all led me to! I regret that night! And I hate you!” Zach was growling, his hand continuously pounding on his thigh as blood soaked his pants. “Stop! Please…” I slowly sank to my knees. “Please, Zach…”“Get out! Or I won’t stop doing this!” His eyes dilated, and I knew he meant what he was saying. I scampered to my feet, tears rolling down my cheeks as I stepped outside his room, closing the door before I ran to the nearest balcony. I stood there, hands holding onto the railing as I looked up at the moon. She was the only witness to my misery tonight. I didn’t stop myself from crying to her. “How much more pain will you give me?” I couldn’t breathe. The pain in my heart was unbearable. I thought I had felt all the pain possible that Zach could give me, but nothing compared to how I felt tonight. I was hurting for myself, but I was hurting more for him. I just wanted the nightmare to end.When my tears fina
AMBER.‘Amber?’ A voice dug into my head, waking me up from my sleep. ‘Hmmm…’ I mumbled, trying to wake my senses up. ‘Where are you?’ Eva asked before she continued talking in one breath. ‘They’re waiting for us at the packhouse for breakfast. I told them you were showering, and we were on the way there. I’ve been trying to wake you up for the last ten minutes.’ My eyes snapped open, and I stared at the ceiling when I remembered Zach and where I was. ‘I told Mom you were here with me. So hurry up!’ ‘Okay,’ I mumbled my reply, and the mindlink disconnected. My hands moved and crawled to my sides. The bed was empty, and the sheets were cold. It meant I was alone for a long time. I sat up and let my eyes roam around the room. There was no more wheelchair or any signs of another presence beside me. He left. He saw me beside him, and he left. My eyes watered again as I pushed myself to stand until I realized my shoes were nicely placed just beside the bed and that I had a bla
PRESENT TIME. This scene picks up from To Love The Female Alpha Chapter 163Zach - 23 years oldAmber - 20 years oldZACH.“So what’s stopping you?” I asked my father, Riley, the former Alpha of this pack. My eyes shifted between him and my mother, Luna Nadia.They just came back from the Dark Forest Pack, where they visited Nadine, my mother’s sister, who was around the same age as me. Also, at any moment, my Beta would be arriving with his fated mate, Mindy, who was also part of Nadine’s pack. He was taking her home to officially claim her as his mate. If there was anyone I wanted around me in the packhouse, it was my Beta, not my parents. At 23, I didn’t need them watching my every move. So, as soon as they returned to the territory, I asked to speak with them.Earlier, I got a call from Uncle Jake, the current Council Head. He informed me that Uncle Caspian and Aunt Andrea had moved to the Council territory yesterday, and he was also waiting for Dad and Mom to make their move
ZACH.“No, Dad! You listen! If you think I want to be stuck in this chair, I don’t, but I don’t have a choice. I have to live with that! But it’s supposed to be just me, and not you.”My eyes were stinging, but I did my best to blink back any tears forming. The last thing I wanted was for them to think I was still weak.“You need to be minding your own lives now. Just you and Mom! We’re all grown-ups here, maybe not Winter. Take her with you, but let me live as I see fit. I lost my ability to walk—just my feet. Don’t let me lose my confidence, too. You’re taking it away from me.”Mom’s eyes were watering, but she kept her tears at bay.“Don’t think like that. You are doing great these last two years. We don’t want you to feel we are abandoning you.”“I want you to abandon me... So I can grow from here.” I blurted out.“Did you remember in the hospital when they told you you wouldn’t be able to walk again? Dad said he’d be your feet…” Mom’s tears were already trickling down her face, an
AMBER.“I’m not sure why, at twenty years old, you are telling me that I can’t decide for myself while you, at the same age, can handle a whole pack! Am I that inferior to you that I can’t even make decisions for my own life?” I couldn’t stop my mouth from retorting. I went to my brother’s office and told him I had decided to take Nikka and Ara’s offer to stay with them for a couple of months. This was a day after our parents had relocated to the Council territory. “Amber, that’s not what I mean,” Cyrus grunted, brushing his palms against his face.“So what do you mean by your question asking if Mom agreed to this?”“I just don’t want to be the one blamed when they find out you’d left and gone to Zach.”“I’m of age, Cy. If they find out and become upset, it’s on me. Not you. I know you want to take care of everyone, but look at you. Do you even take care of yourself? Do you even sleep? You’ve been tracking her nonstop, plus managing all these pack-related problems. You have so many t
AMBER. I had no idea how the twins managed it, but I was granted entry to their territory without the men at the border needing to call Zach or anyone. But just looking at the expression of my grumpy but still handsome and sexy ex-fiancé, he didn’t like that I came here.“And here it goes…” I mumbled as I entered the driveway of their packhouse, preparing myself for the worst. I stopped the car and turned off the engine before removing the engagement ring I’d been wearing whenever I was out so men would stop hitting on me. I slid it to a secure spot in my handbag before taking out the golden bangle that Zach gave me when I was eight years old. Eva surprised me with it on my 20th birthday by having it adjusted. It was cut and connected with short gold chains so I could fit it around my wrist. I should have been upset that she had it altered, but I remembered how I could use it to my advantage against Zach, so I eventually forgave her. “Do not cry when he growls. Or do not run awa
BETA ARLO.“Are you friends with him, Alpha?” Mindy asked in a broken voice.“No. No.” Zach answered. “Why, Mindy?”“He… He…” She began. Even without completing her words, I felt like someone punched me in my chest, and it was getting harder to breathe. I didn’t even realize she had wriggled free from my hold and had run away until I heard a door closing.“Arlo, go after her,” Alpha Jake told me, and I nodded before I exited the office. I felt lost. My tears trickled down my cheeks with the many thoughts running through my head. One thing was certain—she was terrified of him. Maddox was dead, but maybe Mindy’s nightmare was not yet over.I found her in our bedroom. She locked herself in the bathroom, and no matter how I pleaded, she refused to come out. She said she needed time to compose herself and told me I should go back downstairs and apologize on her behalf. But there was no way I would leave her. So I kept talking to her while trying to think if there were any dangerous ite
BETA ARLO. I was already done with my training for the day when I got a mindlink that I was needed at the Alpha’s office. So I hurriedly finished my shower and changed into my clothes before heading out to pick up my mate. I was delayed for a few minutes by some females who stopped me and asked about some things, but after that, Mindy and I walked home. This might be ordinary for some, but walking home with her at the end of the day’s duties and training would be one of the highlights of my day. This signals that I would spend the rest of my time with or near her until it was time for bed. I used to just let the days go by doing my daily routine, but since she came home with me in this pack, the days have been more pleasant. I had a beautiful female who only needed to smile, and all my tiredness would slip away. The Mindy I was with had changed significantly from the Mindy I had met over two months ago. She was smiling more often and would throw jokes from time to time. She was st
AMBER.“Does it bother you?”She shook her head. “No, not that part, but I don’t like that after their training, they would go and talk to him. At first, I didn’t notice until they made some nasty remarks to me some days ago, and I started noticing their routine.”“Maybe start showing those females to whom Arlo belongs. Go to him once in a while when you’re here at the training grounds—hug him, or simply smile at him.”“Do you think that’s okay with him?”“I’m positive. I always notice him looking at you. He also checks on you from time to time.”“I noticed that too. I just don’t know how to react around him, especially when those girls are looking.”“Have you told Arlo what you feel about those girls visiting him?” She shook her head. “What should I tell him? He wasn’t doing anything wrong. He talks to them in a civil manner, and he keeps his distance. It’s the one with black hair that keeps moving closer to him.” She explained, sounding defeated. “I don’t think Arlo is interested
AMBER.Three days ago, I thought I would be caught with my phone call to Uncle Jake.Luckily, it was one of the Omegas Zach asked to check on me because he heard movement on the fourth floor. When she didn’t hear any response in his room, she checked into mine. Zach surely had great Alpha hearing if he wanted to, so I needed to be more careful. I didn’t call Uncle Jake after that. However, I sent him a message requesting that he not tell anyone that I was the one who told him, including my own parents. He didn’t reply, and I have not received anything from him, but I was hoping he was doing his own research or had found it already. However, time was rapidly passing. I wanted to know about the contract. All Zach told me was that he was not allowed to claim a wolfless Luna. I was wondering if I had my wolf out, then maybe I would be enough to step up as Alpha. We would be co-Alphas. Seeing Nadine as Alpha gave me this idea. It was better than him stepping down. Of course, I knew I
AMBER. He was giving up. But I wasn’t. I would never give up. I walked toward him, locking his seat before sitting on his lap. I flashed him a warm smile as I cupped his cheek. My other hand brushed the hair off his face while my eyes soaked in his handsome features. “I think your facial hair needs shaving…”“Hmmm, you think so? I think all I need is a kiss.” He said before he smiled, but his eyes were still sad.I forced a wide smile to curl on my lips before I leaned forward and kissed him. Only then did his shoulders relax, and he began kissing me back while his hands on my sides slipped inside my shirt and gently rubbed my waist. I would let him relax and enjoy what we had, but I wouldn’t stop finding solutions whether he wanted to or not. I wouldn’t let him step down from being an Alpha. I would not let Alpha Grant win this. ☙☙☙☙☙I woke up naked and alone in bed. It was already almost seven in the morning, and Zach was no longer in the room. I could have slept more, but I ha
AMBER.My heart thundered when I heard Alpha Gray’s name. He’s the son of Alpha Grant, the one who forced Zach into the blood contract. “We have him in custody. That’s why we couldn’t come home earlier. The proof of his involvement in Maddox’s illegal activities was enough to warrant an arrest for him.” Uncle Riley explained. “He will be asked to step down as Alpha tomorrow while the case against him is ongoing.”“Who will be the Alpha of Crescent Moon then?” Zach asked, cutting me off from asking if Alpha Grant was also arrested.I heard that Alpha Gray and Maddox were friends, but could it be possible that Alpha Grant was also involved in their activity?Uncle Riley let out a sigh before he answered. “Jake is pushing to have the youngest Newman as the new Alpha. He’s only fifteen but already has a wolf. So it’s not a problem, but their camp seems to want Grant to be Alpha again.”“Alpha Grant as Alpha?” I felt my knees weakening. I didn’t expect that. “Isn’t there a case filed agai
Lovelies,This part was missing between 57 and 59. I will have this as a free chapter until I can add this either on Chapter 57 or 59 (which is supposed to be Chapter 58). You should not be paying any coins for this. Sorry for the mix-up. CONTINUATION FROM 57: SABOTAGEI found out that Estelle was Alpha Grant’s illegitimate child. His Luna refused to acknowledge her, so she had never set foot into their territory. But according to my trackers, she was Alpha Grant’s only daughter. All others—Gray and Gabriel, as well as other illegitimate children—were all males. And even if she didn’t carry his last name, the Alpha had provided for her all these years.I could only conclude he wanted to put his daughter on a pedestal, into a rank, and he saw my condition as the perfect fit. Estelle was not yet eighteen when I signed the contract. No wonder he was okay with waiting two years for it to take effect. He wanted her to be of mating age before I claimed her. And while waiting, he sent so
AMBER.“What are you both doing here? It’s late.” Zach questioned as soon as we entered the packhouse.Aunt Nadia and Uncle Riley knew we had arrived and were waiting by the main hall. Before they could answer, Winter came rushing to us out of nowhere. My eyes widened in surprise, but my hand moved on its own and locked his chair before gripping the handles tightly. I was sure she would jump at him, and I didn’t want all of us to tumble over.“Zach!” Her face was beaming with happiness as she locked eyes with her brother before throwing her whole weight onto him. I saw Aunt Nadia hold her breath as if she was terrified Zach would not take it positively. But with everything that happened in the last 24 hours, I was more than sure that Zach would not scold his sister. “Aren’t you too hyper, little chipmunk? It’s almost midnight.” Zach snickered as he hugged her tightly, burying her face into his chest. Winter said something, but it was barely audible because Zach’s hug was muffling he
AMBER.“If there’s wolfsbane in it, it could only be traced within 24 hours in your bloodstream, but less time if it’s just a small dosage, so we cannot wait until tomorrow.” I tried to explain in one breath as I helped him into his clothes. “John would never…” He began, but he didn’t finish his words.“That’s why I’m asking you if you really know him well enough to trust him.”He said nothing this time, but I could feel his Alpha aura rising. Of course, if I were right, then he was betrayed by the man he trusted for the last two years. “I mindlinked Drake to drive us. I’m not letting you drive.” He said after a while.I nodded my head while I walked toward his desk and picked up all the cream canisters that I could grab.-----ZACH.“There’s a faint trace of wolfsbane in your bloodstream. It’s too faint that I cannot determine when it was absorbed by your body.” Paris explained as we sat in her office. We had been in this hospital for the last two hours. Nadine and Xander, together