AMBER.
“Take me to him!” I said as my chest heaved.
“That’s my plan, but I need to find out how to attach this dextrose to the stand…” She was not able to finish her words, and her eyes grew bigger when I clutched the tube attached to me and peeled it off my skin. I felt a tinge of pain, but it was nothing compared to the pain in my heart.
I couldn’t understand anything. My head refused to think why Zach would not visit me or why I was not allowed to visit him.
Was Dad or Mom upset with him? Are they blaming him for the accident? I have to tell them it was an accident and no one wanted it.
“Are you sure you’ll be okay? I don’t have shoes for you…”
“Just take me there,” I replied as Eva helped me get into the wheelchair.
“We need to be careful, as you’re not allowed to leave the room,” Eva said, and I nodded in response. I was grateful she was the exact opposite of me.
While I followed all the rules to a T, Eva was more adventurous. She broke curfews and rules but never complained when she got disciplined or grounded. She always owned up to her act. Not that I was jealous because I had no reason to break the rules—I was happy just being me. And Zach had always played by the rules, too.
After Eva made sure no one was in the corridor, she pushed my chair out, and we headed for the elevator—all the while, my heart was thumping loudly, praying no one would catch us.
I glanced at myself as we passed by the glass windows of another suite, and I could see my face was too pale. My hair was a mess from the ponytail I had, and I still have a bandage on my ear.
They said a metal cut a portion of my ear, but I was lucky it missed my head. I raised my hand and looked at my arms. I had bruises and scratches—nothing major. Mom said those were from debris from the broken window and some metal that hit me.
What made me unconscious was the big piece of glass that struck the back of my head. I was lucky the glass remained there until they were able to take me out and able to stop the bleeding, or I would have bled profusely.
After what felt like forever, the elevator finally pinged, and Eva rolled me out. Instead of going to the main entrance, she took the side exit. Someone was about to stop her, but she glared at the security. We were let out, but I heard him radioing someone that I went out of the building. So I was sure that at any moment, someone would come for us.
“Do you know exactly..:” I was about to ask her if she knew where Zach was parked when she cut me off.
“In that ambulance.”
“Is he still not okay?” I asked, and I realized my voice was trembling.
Why did he need to leave if he was still not one hundred percent okay?
“You need to see it for yourself, but I can explain later.” She said as we rushed forward until we finally reached the vehicle.
Eva maneuvered my chair to go to the back, and Zach finally came into view.
He was inside the ambulance, in its bed. His upper body was slightly raised up, and a blanket was covering the lower part of him. He had a full bandage on his right arm, and it finally hit me that it was the arm that was around my head where my earlobe was cut.
Zach protected me. If he hadn’t, my head would have been hit by that metal.
My tears kept rolling down my cheeks as I looked at him. Trying to take it all in.
I looked worse than him. He had bandages on his arm and a few bruises on his face, but he looked like he had gone to shower and had shaved his beard. They cut his hair. His long hair was gone.
But he was still my Zach. And I was so happy he was alive. We were both alive.
“Are you done appraising me?” He asked in a cold tone, but I didn’t immediately realize that.
“I miss you…” I blurted out as a smile slowly cracked my face.
But the smile was gone in an instant.
“I’m ready, let’s go.” He said to the nurse standing beside his bed, adjusting the paraphernalia attached to him and completely ignoring me.
“Alpha, we need to wait for your parents, as they are waiting for your release papers,” the man answered politely.
“I said, let’s go!” Zach growled at him, and it made me jerk back in my seat. His eyes dilated, and on the way the man beside him flinched, I could tell he rolled off an Alpha command.
Zach never used his Alpha command unless necessary to make people admit crimes but never to order anyone like this. He was too good to abuse his power.
“Zach… Wait,” I said as I pressed my hands on the armrest of the wheelchair and pushed my body to stand up. Eva immediately went to my side and assisted me as the man inside the ambulance hopped off and was about to close the backdoor.
“Wait!” I shouted. “I want to talk to him!”
The nurse looked at Zach, but he was looking at me. “We don’t need to talk about anything. You did this to me. Fuck off!” He said it in a low voice, but I heard it loud and clear.
My eyes blurred as more tears rolled down my cheeks. I couldn’t believe the words he used on me.
I remained staring at him, watching as the nurse closed the door until all I saw was the white color of the door. My mind was running at full speed, trying to make sense of everything he said.
But the moment the ambulance drove away, it snapped me back to the present.
“NO!” I screamed as I pushed Eva away from me and began running after the ambulance. I could hear Eva calling for me, but I ignored her.
“Zach!” I yelled as I pushed myself to run after him, but the ambulance didn’t stop. Instead, it sped away.
“Please!” I cried as I continued to run. I couldn’t see anything anymore because my eyes were blurred with tears, but I kept going.
Until I stumbled and fell to the ground, my face almost hitting the ground if I was not able to anchor my hands. My whole body was trembling as pain shot everywhere. I cried harder as I pushed myself up, but I was restrained by warm arms that wrapped around my body.
“Let me go!” I yelled, pushing away the arms that had always been my solitude since I was a little girl.
“Amber, baby, please, calm down.” Mom’s voice was so soft as she whispered in my ear. Her arms wrapped around me as she cradled me while I kept struggling to break free.
“Mom… What did I do wrong?”
I couldn’t understand why he was acting like that. So many thoughts were running in my head. Did he lose his memory? Couldn’t he recognize me anymore?
“Nothing, baby… Nothing.” She kept kissing my head.
“He hates me.”
I tilted my head and looked at her. She was crying, too. Her eyes were closed as she kept whispering consoling words to me. “You’ll be okay, Amber. You’ll be okay. I promise, one day, everything will be okay.”
A YEAR AFTER THE ACCIDENT.AMBER.That day never came. It had been exactly a year since the accident, and I had rarely encountered Zach. I tried visiting him multiple times, but I was not allowed to pass through their borders. I tried reaching out to his parents, and they let me in one time, only for me to leave feeling more heartbroken than I was.Zach was no longer the man I fell in love with. It was replaced with a monster who had no regard for anyone around him, even for me. I tried to understand him. He lost his capability to walk in that accident, while I was able to come out without any damage except for a small portion of my earlobe that was cut. And we both knew it was my fault. He made sure I remembered that. “If you weren’t a fucking whore and tried to get laid that night, I could have seen what was going on on the road.” He said those words to me many moons ago, but I still hear it as if he just said it earlier.I knew after that we could never have what we used to hav
AMBER.“You’ve been quiet,” Cassidy asked me as she handed me a cocktail drink. I didn’t even check what it was and just sipped the straw. The burn hit my throat at once, and I began coughing. “Hey! Are you trying to get drunk?” She chuckled and patted my back.“Zach is arriving with his family,” I told her. I was at a friend’s union, and I didn’t expect him to attend. He had never attended any functions since the accident. He would rather stay in his territory and isolate himself. Most of his Alpha friends kept visiting him at the beginning until they all just gave up. But I knew they would still extend invitations to him, like this one, but no one expected him to show up. So I couldn’t believe he would show up here.“Really?” She asked.I nodded and gave the glass to the server who passed by before taking a glass of water to soothe the burn in my throat. Cassidy was still talking but my attention was already elsewhere. My eyes swept around the ballroom, looking at everyone. I smi
AMBER.“I didn’t say you were not capable of going to that room on your own, but this is not your party to ruin! So stop snapping at anyone, and let’s get you out of here!” I didn’t even give him time to object, and my eyes avoided everyone as I was not sure if I could get away with snapping at an Alpha in a crowded room. I moved toward his back, and Beta Arlo stepped aside immediately. As soon as I grabbed the handles of his chair, I rolled him away from the ballroom, and I was glad no one had stopped me. Zach didn’t say a thing. I was not sure if he was surprised or if he felt ashamed of his actions. Everyone tiptoed around him like they were not allowed to reprimand him for being an ass, but I was so done with all this crap. There’s a place for coddling him, but definitely not here, not when we’re supposed to be celebrating Catherine and Tyler’s union. He remained quiet while we were inside the elevator, but I could see him looking at me through our reflections on the elevator
AMBER.“Everything is about you! I tried for so long, but this is where it all led me to! I regret that night! And I hate you!” Zach was growling, his hand continuously pounding on his thigh as blood soaked his pants. “Stop! Please…” I slowly sank to my knees. “Please, Zach…”“Get out! Or I won’t stop doing this!” His eyes dilated, and I knew he meant what he was saying. I scampered to my feet, tears rolling down my cheeks as I stepped outside his room, closing the door before I ran to the nearest balcony. I stood there, hands holding onto the railing as I looked up at the moon. She was the only witness to my misery tonight. I didn’t stop myself from crying to her. “How much more pain will you give me?” I couldn’t breathe. The pain in my heart was unbearable. I thought I had felt all the pain possible that Zach could give me, but nothing compared to how I felt tonight. I was hurting for myself, but I was hurting more for him. I just wanted the nightmare to end.When my tears fina
AMBER.‘Amber?’ A voice dug into my head, waking me up from my sleep. ‘Hmmm…’ I mumbled, trying to wake my senses up. ‘Where are you?’ Eva asked before she continued talking in one breath. ‘They’re waiting for us at the packhouse for breakfast. I told them you were showering, and we were on the way there. I’ve been trying to wake you up for the last ten minutes.’ My eyes snapped open, and I stared at the ceiling when I remembered Zach and where I was. ‘I told Mom you were here with me. So hurry up!’ ‘Okay,’ I mumbled my reply, and the mindlink disconnected. My hands moved and crawled to my sides. The bed was empty, and the sheets were cold. It meant I was alone for a long time. I sat up and let my eyes roam around the room. There was no more wheelchair or any signs of another presence beside me. He left. He saw me beside him, and he left. My eyes watered again as I pushed myself to stand until I realized my shoes were nicely placed just beside the bed and that I had a bla
PRESENT TIME. This scene picks up from To Love The Female Alpha Chapter 163Zach - 23 years oldAmber - 20 years oldZACH.“So what’s stopping you?” I asked my father, Riley, the former Alpha of this pack. My eyes shifted between him and my mother, Luna Nadia.They just came back from the Dark Forest Pack, where they visited Nadine, my mother’s sister, who was around the same age as me. Also, at any moment, my Beta would be arriving with his fated mate, Mindy, who was also part of Nadine’s pack. He was taking her home to officially claim her as his mate. If there was anyone I wanted around me in the packhouse, it was my Beta, not my parents. At 23, I didn’t need them watching my every move. So, as soon as they returned to the territory, I asked to speak with them.Earlier, I got a call from Uncle Jake, the current Council Head. He informed me that Uncle Caspian and Aunt Andrea had moved to the Council territory yesterday, and he was also waiting for Dad and Mom to make their move
ZACH.“No, Dad! You listen! If you think I want to be stuck in this chair, I don’t, but I don’t have a choice. I have to live with that! But it’s supposed to be just me, and not you.”My eyes were stinging, but I did my best to blink back any tears forming. The last thing I wanted was for them to think I was still weak.“You need to be minding your own lives now. Just you and Mom! We’re all grown-ups here, maybe not Winter. Take her with you, but let me live as I see fit. I lost my ability to walk—just my feet. Don’t let me lose my confidence, too. You’re taking it away from me.”Mom’s eyes were watering, but she kept her tears at bay.“Don’t think like that. You are doing great these last two years. We don’t want you to feel we are abandoning you.”“I want you to abandon me... So I can grow from here.” I blurted out.“Did you remember in the hospital when they told you you wouldn’t be able to walk again? Dad said he’d be your feet…” Mom’s tears were already trickling down her face, an
AMBER.“I’m not sure why, at twenty years old, you are telling me that I can’t decide for myself while you, at the same age, can handle a whole pack! Am I that inferior to you that I can’t even make decisions for my own life?” I couldn’t stop my mouth from retorting. I went to my brother’s office and told him I had decided to take Nikka and Ara’s offer to stay with them for a couple of months. This was a day after our parents had relocated to the Council territory. “Amber, that’s not what I mean,” Cyrus grunted, brushing his palms against his face.“So what do you mean by your question asking if Mom agreed to this?”“I just don’t want to be the one blamed when they find out you’d left and gone to Zach.”“I’m of age, Cy. If they find out and become upset, it’s on me. Not you. I know you want to take care of everyone, but look at you. Do you even take care of yourself? Do you even sleep? You’ve been tracking her nonstop, plus managing all these pack-related problems. You have so many t
AMBER. He couldn’t bend yet, but if he wanted me in his mouth, he would get it. I withdrew my pussy off him and used his armrests as my leverage to move my butt back until it landed on his desk. I inched backward until I was already on top of it. I was sure this sturdy table could hold me. I turned around and got onto all fours, causing the papers on the table to scatter, with some dropping onto the floor. But we didn’t mind them. I hiked my ass, positioning it directly on his face. And when I turned to look at him, his expression was worth all this aggressiveness and the mess I created. I bit my bottom lip and closed my eyes as his wet and warm mouth sucked and lapped at my wetness before his fingers penetrated me, finger-fucking me hard and deep.“This pussy is mine…” He groaned, sending a vibration within me, as the sound of my pussy squeaking for every thrust resonated around me. I couldn’t help but moan wantonly, reveling in the ecstasy and knowing that soon, I would be tremb
AMBER. With the arrival of Estelle in Zach’s office, I only had two options. Either I would be pissed off or completely ignore her and continue to play with “my cock.” I decided to do the latter even if I wasn’t sure how Zach would react. What if he got upset? I should stop. But I couldn’t. His manly scent and the sight of his erection, plus the adrenaline of being caught, were making my pussy throb. So I threw all decency away and grabbed him.Maybe the stubborn part of me also wanted to see how far Zach would go for me. “I only want to explain why I want my phone back… If this is about my attitude with your Betas, I apologize…”I tuned out her voice and leaned my head closer, opening my mouth wide before taking in half of his massive erection. His hand on his thigh crawled to my face and up to my nape, gripping it tightly. I expected him to pull me off his shaft, but he did the opposite. He pushed forward before letting out a low, vibrating growl. “I don’t want to talk right no
AMBER.“Hello, sexy Alpha…” I said as I kicked the door closed when I came to his office. Zach tilted his head up, and I eased into a more relaxed position, but the moment his eyes fell on my clothes, his forehead creased.“Did you walk back from the training ground to here just in your sports bra?”“I didn’t have time to shower, as I thought we would shower together,” I replied, placing my tea on his table as I stood beside it. He pushed his chair back, and I knew it was my signal that he wanted me on his lap. I didn’t waste time and sat on him, straddling his legs. “You can’t go around like that. It’s not immodest, but until my mark sits on you, I hate that someone might still think they have a chance with you.”“I love you…” I cut him and cupped his face. “I won’t do it again. Until your mark sits on my neck.”He chuckled and cupped my face. “Maybe by that time, I have to set another alibi… That until you carry our child, you can’t walk around in that.”I giggled, but my heart wa
BETA FEMALE MINDY.“Until you wear that badge on your shoulders, you are considered like any of the females visiting this pack. If letting us do our work is an annoyance to you, feel free to leave. You can come back when you are already in your right frame of mind.” I motioned with my hand, laying it out toward the door. She was about to swat my raised hand, but Arlo caught hers and lowered it. She hissed and stepped back. I was sure Arlo’s grip on her pained her. “I don’t like you…” She mumbled, still looking at me. “The feeling is mutual, Estelle.” I dropped the Lady in her name. She didn’t deserve it. Her mouth hung open, but she didn’t say anything this time. Arlo then nodded at the two men, and they took her things and walked out of the packhouse. Arlo told her she could follow them and they would drive her back here once it was done, but she refused. She wanted to speak with Alpha Zach.“As I mentioned, the Alpha is busy. You can wait for your things in the receiving room, or
BETA FEMALE MINDY. Lately, I haven’t been able to get enough of my mate and the kisses he has given me. I wanted more of them until we remembered we had things to do. We were laughing as we ran down the stairs to meet our new guest.‘She’s here, Lady Amber.’ I mindlinked my future Luna when we were already by the stairs and almost on the ground floor. ‘Don’t worry, I will be with her until she’s in her room. I also made Arlo promise not to leave the Alpha alone until you’re back to accompany him.’I was glad to do this for her. We both trusted our males but not the females around them, and since Lady Amber had been building my confidence to face those females who flirted with Arlo, I wanted to do the same thing for her. I would keep an eye on the Alpha with Arlo’s help when she couldn’t. ‘Thank you. I appreciate this.’ She replied. ‘I’ll be there soon.’ After we ended our conversation, I prepared myself to face the half-sibling of the man who had done me wrong. I only had a few hou
AMBER. “Marry me, Amber.” He said out of nowhere, and my mouth hung open. My eyes welled with tears, and so did his as we stared at each other. “Whatever happens after the 48 days, marry me.”I nodded my head as my tears fell. I felt his chair move forward, and his hand reached behind me, opening his desk drawer. I clung closer to him and turned my head to look at what he was doing. He pulled out a small box, and I already knew what it was—our engagement ring. I sent it back to him months after the accident in the hope it would stir emotion in him and that he would call me. He didn’t, and I regretted that move as I lost the last precious gift he gave me. “You kept it,” I mumbled as he slowly opened the box, and we both looked at the amber ring that I was only able to wear for a month. “I did, like all the other things that remind me of you.” He said as he tilted his head to meet my gaze. “I always looked at it when I was alone. Some days, I wanted to call you and get back with you
AMBER.“I will convince Zach to let Estelle live with us inside this packhouse,” I said straight to the point.“Are you sure about this, Lady Amber?” Arlo asked me. I nodded. “I would rather keep an eye on her than for us to be surprised by whatever her next plan is.”“This will be hard with both of you here,” Drake said. “I’m not asking you to choose.” I smiled at them. “I’m not asking you to choose me. But I want you to respect whatever Zach’s decisions are. Right now, he is choosing me. I will remain here as long as that’s the case. If ever there comes a time that he decides to turn his back on me and choose… choose someone else. I will respect his decision this time.”I saw how Drake’s and Arlo’s shoulders dropped at my words while Mindy bit her bottom lip as she crossed her arms across her chest. Their reaction made me teary-eyed. These three had shown me nothing but support. “But until then… I will do my best to help Zach get out of this mess. I don’t want your Alpha to step
AMBER. Zach was still asleep when I rose from the bed and left the bedroom. There were many things to prepare and do before that cunning snake appeared today. We were not able to sleep early. We talked. A lot.We poured out all our emotions—our disappointment and fears. Despite the uncertainties, I was more confident that Zach was mine. He was more determined not to let Anna or Estelle get between us. He told me he had never been attracted to anyone except me, so he knew that the chaos she brought would not affect his feelings for me, only his future. And I believed him because I felt the same way. There was no one I had ever been attracted to aside from him. For some people, the attraction wanes as they grow older, but for me, it only grows stronger. I loved Zach when we were younger, loved him at his peak when he was my strength and protector, and loved him still at his lowest and most vulnerable state. My love for him keeps growing more in every stage of his life—of our lives. I
ZACH.In my rush to confront her and take Amber away from there, I didn’t consider that she might turn out to be my fated mate, but I was lucky that she wasn’t. Or this would be a bigger mess than it already was. Estelle left with a threat that she would come back. I was left baffled by the contract she showed me. I was sure I didn’t sign anything, but was it because, in my hurry to get out of that room, I signed it without noticing and thought it was part of the original contract?Did I fucking sign another blood contract without my knowing?A sudden movement snapped me back to the present. I found Amber bent over the bushes at the side of the steps, retching uncontrollably, but nothing was coming out. I slammed my coiled fist on the armrest of my chair. Moments like this were when I wished I could fucking walk. I could do nothing but watch her while Mindy rushed out of the packhouse and went to her.“Amber…” My voice came out so low as I rolled toward the edge, nearer. I pulled o