AMBER.
“Take me to him!” I said as my chest heaved.
“That’s my plan, but I need to find out how to attach this dextrose to the stand…” She was not able to finish her words, and her eyes grew bigger when I clutched the tube attached to me and peeled it off my skin. I felt a tinge of pain, but it was nothing compared to the pain in my heart.
I couldn’t understand anything. My head refused to think why Zach would not visit me or why I was not allowed to visit him.
Was Dad or Mom upset with him? Are they blaming him for the accident? I have to tell them it was an accident and no one wanted it.
“Are you sure you’ll be okay? I don’t have shoes for you…”
“Just take me there,” I replied as Eva helped me get into the wheelchair.
“We need to be careful, as you’re not allowed to leave the room,” Eva said, and I nodded in response. I was grateful she was the exact opposite of me.
While I followed all the rules to a T, Eva was more adventurous. She broke curfews and rules but never complained when she got disciplined or grounded. She always owned up to her act. Not that I was jealous because I had no reason to break the rules—I was happy just being me. And Zach had always played by the rules, too.
After Eva made sure no one was in the corridor, she pushed my chair out, and we headed for the elevator—all the while, my heart was thumping loudly, praying no one would catch us.
I glanced at myself as we passed by the glass windows of another suite, and I could see my face was too pale. My hair was a mess from the ponytail I had, and I still have a bandage on my ear.
They said a metal cut a portion of my ear, but I was lucky it missed my head. I raised my hand and looked at my arms. I had bruises and scratches—nothing major. Mom said those were from debris from the broken window and some metal that hit me.
What made me unconscious was the big piece of glass that struck the back of my head. I was lucky the glass remained there until they were able to take me out and able to stop the bleeding, or I would have bled profusely.
After what felt like forever, the elevator finally pinged, and Eva rolled me out. Instead of going to the main entrance, she took the side exit. Someone was about to stop her, but she glared at the security. We were let out, but I heard him radioing someone that I went out of the building. So I was sure that at any moment, someone would come for us.
“Do you know exactly..:” I was about to ask her if she knew where Zach was parked when she cut me off.
“In that ambulance.”
“Is he still not okay?” I asked, and I realized my voice was trembling.
Why did he need to leave if he was still not one hundred percent okay?
“You need to see it for yourself, but I can explain later.” She said as we rushed forward until we finally reached the vehicle.
Eva maneuvered my chair to go to the back, and Zach finally came into view.
He was inside the ambulance, in its bed. His upper body was slightly raised up, and a blanket was covering the lower part of him. He had a full bandage on his right arm, and it finally hit me that it was the arm that was around my head where my earlobe was cut.
Zach protected me. If he hadn’t, my head would have been hit by that metal.
My tears kept rolling down my cheeks as I looked at him. Trying to take it all in.
I looked worse than him. He had bandages on his arm and a few bruises on his face, but he looked like he had gone to shower and had shaved his beard. They cut his hair. His long hair was gone.
But he was still my Zach. And I was so happy he was alive. We were both alive.
“Are you done appraising me?” He asked in a cold tone, but I didn’t immediately realize that.
“I miss you…” I blurted out as a smile slowly cracked my face.
But the smile was gone in an instant.
“I’m ready, let’s go.” He said to the nurse standing beside his bed, adjusting the paraphernalia attached to him and completely ignoring me.
“Alpha, we need to wait for your parents, as they are waiting for your release papers,” the man answered politely.
“I said, let’s go!” Zach growled at him, and it made me jerk back in my seat. His eyes dilated, and on the way the man beside him flinched, I could tell he rolled off an Alpha command.
Zach never used his Alpha command unless necessary to make people admit crimes but never to order anyone like this. He was too good to abuse his power.
“Zach… Wait,” I said as I pressed my hands on the armrest of the wheelchair and pushed my body to stand up. Eva immediately went to my side and assisted me as the man inside the ambulance hopped off and was about to close the backdoor.
“Wait!” I shouted. “I want to talk to him!”
The nurse looked at Zach, but he was looking at me. “We don’t need to talk about anything. You did this to me. Fuck off!” He said it in a low voice, but I heard it loud and clear.
My eyes blurred as more tears rolled down my cheeks. I couldn’t believe the words he used on me.
I remained staring at him, watching as the nurse closed the door until all I saw was the white color of the door. My mind was running at full speed, trying to make sense of everything he said.
But the moment the ambulance drove away, it snapped me back to the present.
“NO!” I screamed as I pushed Eva away from me and began running after the ambulance. I could hear Eva calling for me, but I ignored her.
“Zach!” I yelled as I pushed myself to run after him, but the ambulance didn’t stop. Instead, it sped away.
“Please!” I cried as I continued to run. I couldn’t see anything anymore because my eyes were blurred with tears, but I kept going.
Until I stumbled and fell to the ground, my face almost hitting the ground if I was not able to anchor my hands. My whole body was trembling as pain shot everywhere. I cried harder as I pushed myself up, but I was restrained by warm arms that wrapped around my body.
“Let me go!” I yelled, pushing away the arms that had always been my solitude since I was a little girl.
“Amber, baby, please, calm down.” Mom’s voice was so soft as she whispered in my ear. Her arms wrapped around me as she cradled me while I kept struggling to break free.
“Mom… What did I do wrong?”
I couldn’t understand why he was acting like that. So many thoughts were running in my head. Did he lose his memory? Couldn’t he recognize me anymore?
“Nothing, baby… Nothing.” She kept kissing my head.
“He hates me.”
I tilted my head and looked at her. She was crying, too. Her eyes were closed as she kept whispering consoling words to me. “You’ll be okay, Amber. You’ll be okay. I promise, one day, everything will be okay.”
A YEAR AFTER THE ACCIDENT.AMBER.That day never came. It had been exactly a year since the accident, and I had rarely encountered Zach. I tried visiting him multiple times, but I was not allowed to pass through their borders. I tried reaching out to his parents, and they let me in one time, only for me to leave feeling more heartbroken than I was.Zach was no longer the man I fell in love with. It was replaced with a monster who had no regard for anyone around him, even for me. I tried to understand him. He lost his capability to walk in that accident, while I was able to come out without any damage except for a small portion of my earlobe that was cut. And we both knew it was my fault. He made sure I remembered that. “If you weren’t a fucking whore and tried to get laid that night, I could have seen what was going on on the road.” He said those words to me many moons ago, but I still hear it as if he just said it earlier.I knew after that we could never have what we used to hav
AMBER.“You’ve been quiet,” Cassidy asked me as she handed me a cocktail drink. I didn’t even check what it was and just sipped the straw. The burn hit my throat at once, and I began coughing. “Hey! Are you trying to get drunk?” She chuckled and patted my back.“Amara said Zach is arriving with his family.”“Oh, I thought Nikka said…”“That’s what I thought, too.” I gave the glass to the server who passed by before taking a glass of water to soothe the burn in my throat. We were celebrating Catherine and Tyler’s union, and I wasn’t expecting him to attend. He had never attended any functions since the accident. He would rather stay in his territory and isolate himself. Most of his Alpha friends kept visiting him at the beginning until they all just gave up. But I knew they would still extend invitations to him, like this one, but no one expected him to show up. So I couldn’t believe he would show up here.“Excuse me, my ladies. But the music had started, and Cassidy promised me a
AMBER.“I didn’t say you were not capable of going to that room on your own, but this is not your party to ruin! So stop snapping at anyone, and let’s get you out of here!” I didn’t even give him time to object, and my eyes avoided everyone as I was not sure if I could get away with snapping at an Alpha in a crowded room. I moved toward his back, and Beta Arlo stepped aside immediately. As soon as I grabbed the handles of his chair, I rolled him away from the ballroom, and I was glad no one had stopped me. Zach didn’t say a thing. I was not sure if he was surprised or if he felt ashamed of his actions. Everyone tiptoed around him like they were not allowed to reprimand him for being an ass, but I was so done with all this crap. There’s a place for coddling him, but definitely not here, not when we’re supposed to be celebrating Catherine and Tyler’s union. He remained quiet while we were inside the elevator, but I could see him looking at me through our reflections on the elevator
AMBER.“Everything is about you! I tried for so long, but this is where it all led me to! I regret that night! And I hate you!” Zach was growling, his hand continuously pounding on his thigh as blood soaked his pants. “Stop! Please…” I slowly sank to my knees. “Please, Zach…”“Get out! Or I won’t stop doing this!” His eyes dilated, and I knew he meant what he was saying. I scampered to my feet, tears rolling down my cheeks as I stepped outside his room, closing the door before I ran to the nearest balcony. I stood there, hands holding onto the railing as I looked up at the moon. She was the only witness to my misery tonight. I didn’t stop myself from crying to her. “How much more pain will you give me?” I couldn’t breathe. The pain in my heart was unbearable. I thought I had felt all the pain possible that Zach could give me, but nothing compared to how I felt tonight. I was hurting for myself, but I was hurting more for him. I just wanted the nightmare to end.When my tears fina
AMBER. ‘Amber?’ A voice dug into my head, waking me up from my sleep. ‘Hmmm…’ I mumbled, trying to wake my senses up. ‘Where are you?’ Eva asked before she continued talking in one breath. ‘They’re waiting for us at the packhouse for breakfast. I told them you were showering, and we were on the way there. I’ve been trying to wake you up for the last ten minutes.’ My eyes snapped open, and I stared at the ceiling when I remembered Zach and where I was. ‘And I don’t know where Cassidy is. I told Mom you both were here with me. So hurry up! We need to find her.’ ‘Okay,’ I mumbled my reply, and the mindlink disconnected. My hands moved and crawled to my sides. The bed was empty, and the sheets were cold. It meant I was alone for a long time. I sat up and let my eyes roam around the room. There was no more wheelchair or any signs of another presence beside me. He left. He saw me beside him, and he left. My eyes watered again as I pushed myself to stand until I rea
PRESENT TIME. This scene picks up from To Love The Female Alpha Chapter 163Zach - 23 years oldAmber - 20 years oldZACH.“So what’s stopping you?” I asked my father, Riley, the former Alpha of this pack. My eyes shifted between him and my mother, Luna Nadia.They just came back from the Dark Forest Pack, where they visited Nadine, my mother’s sister, who was around the same age as me. Also, at any moment, my Beta would be arriving with his fated mate, Mindy, who was also part of Nadine’s pack. He was taking her home to officially claim her as his mate. If there was anyone I wanted around me in the packhouse, it was my Beta, not my parents. At 23, I didn’t need them watching my every move. So, as soon as they returned to the territory, I asked to speak with them.Earlier, I got a call from Uncle Jake, the current Council Head. He informed me that Uncle Caspian and Aunt Andrea had moved to the Council territory yesterday, and he was also waiting for Dad and Mom to make their move
ZACH.“No, Dad! You listen! If you think I want to be stuck in this chair, I don’t, but I don’t have a choice. I have to live with that! But it’s supposed to be just me, and not you.”My eyes were stinging, but I did my best to blink back any tears forming. The last thing I wanted was for them to think I was still weak.“You need to be minding your own lives now. Just you and Mom! We’re all grown-ups here, maybe not Winter. Take her with you, but let me live as I see fit. I lost my ability to walk—just my feet. Don’t let me lose my confidence, too. You’re taking it away from me.”Mom’s eyes were watering, but she kept her tears at bay.“Don’t think like that. You are doing great these last two years. We don’t want you to feel we are abandoning you.”“I want you to abandon me... So I can grow from here.” I blurted out.“Did you remember in the hospital when they told you you wouldn’t be able to walk again? Dad said he’d be your feet…” Mom’s tears were already trickling down her face, an
AMBER.“I’m not sure why, at twenty years old, you are telling me that I can’t decide for myself while you, at the same age, can handle a whole pack! Am I that inferior to you that I can’t even make decisions for my own life?” I couldn’t stop my mouth from retorting. I went to my brother’s office and told him I had decided to take Nikka and Ara’s offer to stay with them for a couple of months. This was a day after our parents had relocated to the Council territory. “Amber, that’s not what I mean,” Cyrus grunted, brushing his palms against his face.“So what do you mean by your question asking if Mom agreed to this?”“I just don’t want to be the one blamed when they find out you’d left and gone to Zach.”“I’m of age, Cy. If they find out and become upset, it’s on me. Not you. I know you want to take care of everyone, but look at you. Do you even take care of yourself? Do you even sleep? You’ve been tracking her nonstop, plus managing all these pack-related problems. You have so many t
ZACH. “I’m not going to kill her!” I snapped at Arlo. “Please…” Amber mumbled, and my head turned in her direction. “Let Beta Arlo stay.”She looked scared, and I didn’t like it. She was terrified of me. I let out a sigh before rolling my chair in front of my desk. I wanted to be able to see both of them.“Talk…” I began. “I’m sorry. I just wanted to know if you were mates or not. I still didn’t want to believe you found your mate.” Her lips quivered, and my heart crushed again at the pain in her face as her body continued to shake from her sobs. “Up to the last minute, I was holding on to the belief that you were lying. That she was not your mate. I still couldn’t accept that you just forgot about me when I still think about you every day.”My hands coiled into tight fists as I struggled for my eyes not to water. “I’m sorry, Zach. I kissed Sidney to see if you felt the pain. I could have kissed you, but I knew if I did, I would cry more because I would miss you afterward. I also
ZACH.I listened to Nadine’s litany, and although everything she said made sense, I did not bend.I told her that instead of taking Sidney away, she should talk to Amber instead and convince her to leave my territory. If she could do that, I would send Sidney home and admit to my sisters, as well as Arlo and Drake, about the fake mate bond.I didn’t want Sidney out of here while I could still see Amber.In the end, Nadine had no choice but to agree. She would do her best to convince her to leave and move on. I didn’t ask her to talk about the last part, but she must have felt it was the right thing to do.And yes, it hurt. It fucking hurt. But it was for the best.“Stay for dinner. I’m sure the food is ready.” I told them when we finally came to an agreement. She also said she would not say anything to my mother and I promised I would do it myself.Of course, I will, but only if one of my sisters tells her about it.“We might stay overnight then. Because I need time to talk to Amber,”
AMBER.I felt like I was just floating, waiting for the waves to take me where they wanted me to go. My mind told me to leave this place, but my heart kept betraying me. I had been staring at my packed luggage for many hours, but I couldn’t seem to have the strength to pick up the phone and call Cyrus.Zach had been rude to me from day one, and it had only been a few days, but he was already shaking what was left of my determination. The only thing I was holding on to was that Sidney was still unmarked. I wanted to ask the twins if they had asked why she wasn’t marked yet, but I didn’t want to pressure them as well. I knew it was already hard for them to balance their friendship with me and accept Sidney as their brother’s mate. Making them choose between us was never my goal. So, yes, I should leave. Any decent female would. I am not wanted here.But I promised Cassidy I would do what she suggested that I do before leaving everything behind. But I was still not one hundred percent
ZACH.I was about to roll my chair when I heard running steps from the outside, and I smelled my sister.Shit!“Let’s go!” I cocked my head in the direction of my office, hoping they would fucking move faster. “Nadine!” Nikka shrieked, and I grimaced. She acted as if they hadn’t seen each other in a year when they had just come from her territory a few days back.“Hello there, sweet pea!” Nadine swiftly moved to approach and hug her. “Enough of that. We have a business to deal with. Let’s go.”“Business, ew.” Nikka scrunched her nose and let her go. I thought I was off the hook until her eyes landed on Sidney. “Oh, so you met Zach’s mate.”“Excuse me?” Nadine stopped in her tracks a few feet away from Xander. “Zach’s mate?”Nikka wriggled her eyebrows before pointing her finger at Sidney. She had a wide smile on her lips, so I had no idea if the smile was because she liked Sidney or if she knew something else. “Yes, Sidney.” Nadine’s head turned to look at Sidney while Xander looke
ZACH.What the fuck is Nadine doing here?My heart thundered as I rolled my chair, heading for the main hallway while I mindlinked Arlo. ‘Where is Sidney?’I was aware Sidney had met Nadine, and if they recognized each other, there would be more questions. ‘I don’t know, Alpha. She’s probably at home.’ Arlo answered. ‘Where are you?’‘Training building. Is there something wrong?’ ‘And Mindy? Where is she? Can you mindlink her to find Sidney? She needs to tell her not to go out of her room.’ ‘Mindy is here with me.’ Arlo replied. Fuck! I internally growled and mind-linked with an Omega, ordering her to find Sidney while I ignored Arlo when he asked more questions as to what was wrong. I met the Omega I mindlinked along the corridor. She bobbed her head in respect before hurrying up the stairs while I continued to the front door. I was right—Nadine was there, and with him was a man I could only assume was Xander. They were talking to one of our Omegas, who Nadine had been close w
ZACH.The hours moved slowly. I hadn’t seen Amber and Sidney for the rest of the day. I had no idea where Amber was, but Sidney was here in the packhouse because, aside from the first day, I didn’t allow her to go out.Drake told me the warriors were asking about her. It was nothing unusual because she was someone they hadn’t seen before. But I didn’t want to tell anyone she was my mate, so I told Drake he could tell them she was a family friend visiting us. I was sure the rest of the Omegas in the house, as well as Arlo and Mindy, would never try to defy me. My only problems were my sisters and Amber. These females could not be told, especially if they were upset, and with me not knowing what they were up to, I knew sooner or later I would have to face more inquiries about Sidney. I had to devise a plan if my mother heard of it. I was sure I could ignore Dad but not Mom. Maybe I should tell the border patrol not to allow entrance to my parents. Honestly, I had no idea what the n
ZACH.“Give me the phone!” My voice was louder this time, and I was about to growl again when Amber’s scent hit me, and I heard small footsteps approaching.My chest heaved as I tried to breathe in more, wanting to smell if I could scent Edmond. Because if I did, heaven forbid, I had no idea what would happen next.“What’s going on?” Amber asked as she stopped in the entryway before her eyes turned to me while Mindy continued walking and sat back in her seat. “Why are you shouting so early in the morning?” Amber asked me.“Where have you been?” Ara asked her before a soft chuckle escaped her throat. I tore my eyes off her. She looked so fucking beautiful in her jeans shorts and off-shoulder blouse. She looked like she just got out of the shower. “In my room.” She then smiled apologetically before she sat on the chair beside Drake. “I’m sorry I’m late. I enjoyed my bubble bath. I forgot the time.”Nikka sat back in her chair as well, and I didn’t even hear what happened to her conve
ZACH.“Then fuck them! Keep pushing her away. You’ll wake up one day, and she’ll be married to Drake, and you’ll get to see that every day of your life.” Sidney said, and it made me swallow hard. She was right. But it only meant I needed Amber away from here before Drake could make his move, and she fell for it. “I’m right. You want her.” She added.I remained in silence. She entered the room, her hand holding onto the wall. “But hey, you promised I’d get my money no matter the outcome, right? My mother needs that for her operation…” She let out a sigh before she continued. “I promise, no matter what I say to you in private, I will never divulge anything or sabotage you. I’ll do exactly what you want.”“Even if you sabotage me, I will still pay for her operation,” I told her, taking my gaze off her and continuing to massage my leg. I asked her why she needed the money, and she told me her mother was sick and needed a bypass operation. She’d been working part-time on Xander’s farm
AMBER.I should move on. I should call Cyrus to pick me up.I had no idea how long I was seated on the floor until I finally decided to call my brother. I crawled to where my handbag was and pulled out my phone. But just when I was about to press his number, I remembered Cassidy’s words.“If Sidney appears with a mark on her neck tomorrow, you’ll go home. But if she’s not marked—call Mom.”I closed my eyes and contemplated what I should do next. My rational mind told me to call my brother. But, like always, I let my heart rule over me. The phone rang on the other side, and it didn’t take long before someone answered the phone. “Moon Stone Pack, this is Alpha Darvin.”“Uncle, good evening,” I answered timidly.“Who’s this?” He asked, and I couldn’t blame him. I rarely called his office, as I would usually contact Cassidy directly, and he might not be familiar with my number. “This is Amber, Uncle. Can I speak with Aunt Celeste?”“Yes, of course. She’s here. Is everything alright, swe