AMBER.
“Take me to him!” I said as my chest heaved.
“That’s my plan, but I need to find out how to attach this dextrose to the stand…” She was not able to finish her words, and her eyes grew bigger when I clutched the tube attached to me and peeled it off my skin. I felt a tinge of pain, but it was nothing compared to the pain in my heart.
I couldn’t understand anything. My head refused to think why Zach would not visit me or why I was not allowed to visit him.
Was Dad or Mom upset with him? Are they blaming him for the accident? I have to tell them it was an accident and no one wanted it.
“Are you sure you’ll be okay? I don’t have shoes for you…”
“Just take me there,” I replied as Eva helped me get into the wheelchair.
“We need to be careful, as you’re not allowed to leave the room,” Eva said, and I nodded in response. I was grateful she was the exact opposite of me.
While I followed all the rules to a T, Eva was more adventurous. She broke curfews and rules but never complained when she got disciplined or grounded. She always owned up to her act. Not that I was jealous because I had no reason to break the rules—I was happy just being me. And Zach had always played by the rules, too.
After Eva made sure no one was in the corridor, she pushed my chair out, and we headed for the elevator—all the while, my heart was thumping loudly, praying no one would catch us.
I glanced at myself as we passed by the glass windows of another suite, and I could see my face was too pale. My hair was a mess from the ponytail I had, and I still have a bandage on my ear.
They said a metal cut a portion of my ear, but I was lucky it missed my head. I raised my hand and looked at my arms. I had bruises and scratches—nothing major. Mom said those were from debris from the broken window and some metal that hit me.
What made me unconscious was the big piece of glass that struck the back of my head. I was lucky the glass remained there until they were able to take me out and able to stop the bleeding, or I would have bled profusely.
After what felt like forever, the elevator finally pinged, and Eva rolled me out. Instead of going to the main entrance, she took the side exit. Someone was about to stop her, but she glared at the security. We were let out, but I heard him radioing someone that I went out of the building. So I was sure that at any moment, someone would come for us.
“Do you know exactly..:” I was about to ask her if she knew where Zach was parked when she cut me off.
“In that ambulance.”
“Is he still not okay?” I asked, and I realized my voice was trembling.
Why did he need to leave if he was still not one hundred percent okay?
“You need to see it for yourself, but I can explain later.” She said as we rushed forward until we finally reached the vehicle.
Eva maneuvered my chair to go to the back, and Zach finally came into view.
He was inside the ambulance, in its bed. His upper body was slightly raised up, and a blanket was covering the lower part of him. He had a full bandage on his right arm, and it finally hit me that it was the arm that was around my head where my earlobe was cut.
Zach protected me. If he hadn’t, my head would have been hit by that metal.
My tears kept rolling down my cheeks as I looked at him. Trying to take it all in.
I looked worse than him. He had bandages on his arm and a few bruises on his face, but he looked like he had gone to shower and had shaved his beard. They cut his hair. His long hair was gone.
But he was still my Zach. And I was so happy he was alive. We were both alive.
“Are you done appraising me?” He asked in a cold tone, but I didn’t immediately realize that.
“I miss you…” I blurted out as a smile slowly cracked my face.
But the smile was gone in an instant.
“I’m ready, let’s go.” He said to the nurse standing beside his bed, adjusting the paraphernalia attached to him and completely ignoring me.
“Alpha, we need to wait for your parents, as they are waiting for your release papers,” the man answered politely.
“I said, let’s go!” Zach growled at him, and it made me jerk back in my seat. His eyes dilated, and on the way the man beside him flinched, I could tell he rolled off an Alpha command.
Zach never used his Alpha command unless necessary to make people admit crimes but never to order anyone like this. He was too good to abuse his power.
“Zach… Wait,” I said as I pressed my hands on the armrest of the wheelchair and pushed my body to stand up. Eva immediately went to my side and assisted me as the man inside the ambulance hopped off and was about to close the backdoor.
“Wait!” I shouted. “I want to talk to him!”
The nurse looked at Zach, but he was looking at me. “We don’t need to talk about anything. You did this to me. Fuck off!” He said it in a low voice, but I heard it loud and clear.
My eyes blurred as more tears rolled down my cheeks. I couldn’t believe the words he used on me.
I remained staring at him, watching as the nurse closed the door until all I saw was the white color of the door. My mind was running at full speed, trying to make sense of everything he said.
But the moment the ambulance drove away, it snapped me back to the present.
“NO!” I screamed as I pushed Eva away from me and began running after the ambulance. I could hear Eva calling for me, but I ignored her.
“Zach!” I yelled as I pushed myself to run after him, but the ambulance didn’t stop. Instead, it sped away.
“Please!” I cried as I continued to run. I couldn’t see anything anymore because my eyes were blurred with tears, but I kept going.
Until I stumbled and fell to the ground, my face almost hitting the ground if I was not able to anchor my hands. My whole body was trembling as pain shot everywhere. I cried harder as I pushed myself up, but I was restrained by warm arms that wrapped around my body.
“Let me go!” I yelled, pushing away the arms that had always been my solitude since I was a little girl.
“Amber, baby, please, calm down.” Mom’s voice was so soft as she whispered in my ear. Her arms wrapped around me as she cradled me while I kept struggling to break free.
“Mom… What did I do wrong?”
I couldn’t understand why he was acting like that. So many thoughts were running in my head. Did he lose his memory? Couldn’t he recognize me anymore?
“Nothing, baby… Nothing.” She kept kissing my head.
“He hates me.”
I tilted my head and looked at her. She was crying, too. Her eyes were closed as she kept whispering consoling words to me. “You’ll be okay, Amber. You’ll be okay. I promise, one day, everything will be okay.”
A YEAR AFTER THE ACCIDENT.AMBER.That day never came. It had been exactly a year since the accident, and I had rarely encountered Zach. I tried visiting him multiple times, but I was not allowed to pass through their borders. I tried reaching out to his parents, and they let me in one time, only for me to leave feeling more heartbroken than I was.Zach was no longer the man I fell in love with. It was replaced with a monster who had no regard for anyone around him, even for me. I tried to understand him. He lost his capability to walk in that accident, while I was able to come out without any damage except for a small portion of my earlobe that was cut. And we both knew it was my fault. He made sure I remembered that. “If you weren’t a fucking whore and tried to get laid that night, I could have seen what was going on on the road.” He said those words to me many moons ago, but I still hear it as if he just said it earlier.I knew after that we could never have what we used to hav
AMBER.“You’ve been quiet,” Cassidy asked me as she handed me a cocktail drink. I didn’t even check what it was and just sipped the straw. The burn hit my throat at once, and I began coughing. “Hey! Are you trying to get drunk?” She chuckled and patted my back.“Amara said Zach is arriving with his family.”“Oh, I thought Nikka said…”“That’s what I thought, too.” I gave the glass to the server who passed by before taking a glass of water to soothe the burn in my throat. We were celebrating Catherine and Tyler’s union, and I wasn’t expecting him to attend. He had never attended any functions since the accident. He would rather stay in his territory and isolate himself. Most of his Alpha friends kept visiting him at the beginning until they all just gave up. But I knew they would still extend invitations to him, like this one, but no one expected him to show up. So I couldn’t believe he would show up here.“Excuse me, my ladies. But the music had started, and Cassidy promised me a
AMBER.“I didn’t say you were not capable of going to that room on your own, but this is not your party to ruin! So stop snapping at anyone, and let’s get you out of here!” I didn’t even give him time to object, and my eyes avoided everyone as I was not sure if I could get away with snapping at an Alpha in a crowded room. I moved toward his back, and Beta Arlo stepped aside immediately. As soon as I grabbed the handles of his chair, I rolled him away from the ballroom, and I was glad no one had stopped me. Zach didn’t say a thing. I was not sure if he was surprised or if he felt ashamed of his actions. Everyone tiptoed around him like they were not allowed to reprimand him for being an ass, but I was so done with all this crap. There’s a place for coddling him, but definitely not here, not when we’re supposed to be celebrating Catherine and Tyler’s union. He remained quiet while we were inside the elevator, but I could see him looking at me through our reflections on the elevator
AMBER.“Everything is about you! I tried for so long, but this is where it all led me to! I regret that night! And I hate you!” Zach was growling, his hand continuously pounding on his thigh as blood soaked his pants. “Stop! Please…” I slowly sank to my knees. “Please, Zach…”“Get out! Or I won’t stop doing this!” His eyes dilated, and I knew he meant what he was saying. I scampered to my feet, tears rolling down my cheeks as I stepped outside his room, closing the door before I ran to the nearest balcony. I stood there, hands holding onto the railing as I looked up at the moon. She was the only witness to my misery tonight. I didn’t stop myself from crying to her. “How much more pain will you give me?” I couldn’t breathe. The pain in my heart was unbearable. I thought I had felt all the pain possible that Zach could give me, but nothing compared to how I felt tonight. I was hurting for myself, but I was hurting more for him. I just wanted the nightmare to end.When my tears fina
AMBER. ‘Amber?’ A voice dug into my head, waking me up from my sleep. ‘Hmmm…’ I mumbled, trying to wake my senses up. ‘Where are you?’ Eva asked before she continued talking in one breath. ‘They’re waiting for us at the packhouse for breakfast. I told them you were showering, and we were on the way there. I’ve been trying to wake you up for the last ten minutes.’ My eyes snapped open, and I stared at the ceiling when I remembered Zach and where I was. ‘And I don’t know where Cassidy is. I told Mom you both were here with me. So hurry up! We need to find her.’ ‘Okay,’ I mumbled my reply, and the mindlink disconnected. My hands moved and crawled to my sides. The bed was empty, and the sheets were cold. It meant I was alone for a long time. I sat up and let my eyes roam around the room. There was no more wheelchair or any signs of another presence beside me. He left. He saw me beside him, and he left. My eyes watered again as I pushed myself to stand until I rea
PRESENT TIME. This scene picks up from To Love The Female Alpha Chapter 163Zach - 23 years oldAmber - 20 years oldZACH.“So what’s stopping you?” I asked my father, Riley, the former Alpha of this pack. My eyes shifted between him and my mother, Luna Nadia.They just came back from the Dark Forest Pack, where they visited Nadine, my mother’s sister, who was around the same age as me. Also, at any moment, my Beta would be arriving with his fated mate, Mindy, who was also part of Nadine’s pack. He was taking her home to officially claim her as his mate. If there was anyone I wanted around me in the packhouse, it was my Beta, not my parents. At 23, I didn’t need them watching my every move. So, as soon as they returned to the territory, I asked to speak with them.Earlier, I got a call from Uncle Jake, the current Council Head. He informed me that Uncle Caspian and Aunt Andrea had moved to the Council territory yesterday, and he was also waiting for Dad and Mom to make their move
ZACH.“No, Dad! You listen! If you think I want to be stuck in this chair, I don’t, but I don’t have a choice. I have to live with that! But it’s supposed to be just me, and not you.”My eyes were stinging, but I did my best to blink back any tears forming. The last thing I wanted was for them to think I was still weak.“You need to be minding your own lives now. Just you and Mom! We’re all grown-ups here, maybe not Winter. Take her with you, but let me live as I see fit. I lost my ability to walk—just my feet. Don’t let me lose my confidence, too. You’re taking it away from me.”Mom’s eyes were watering, but she kept her tears at bay.“Don’t think like that. You are doing great these last two years. We don’t want you to feel we are abandoning you.”“I want you to abandon me... So I can grow from here.” I blurted out.“Did you remember in the hospital when they told you you wouldn’t be able to walk again? Dad said he’d be your feet…” Mom’s tears were already trickling down her face, an
AMBER.“I’m not sure why, at twenty years old, you are telling me that I can’t decide for myself while you, at the same age, can handle a whole pack! Am I that inferior to you that I can’t even make decisions for my own life?” I couldn’t stop my mouth from retorting. I went to my brother’s office and told him I had decided to take Nikka and Ara’s offer to stay with them for a couple of months. This was a day after our parents had relocated to the Council territory. “Amber, that’s not what I mean,” Cyrus grunted, brushing his palms against his face.“So what do you mean by your question asking if Mom agreed to this?”“I just don’t want to be the one blamed when they find out you’d left and gone to Zach.”“I’m of age, Cy. If they find out and become upset, it’s on me. Not you. I know you want to take care of everyone, but look at you. Do you even take care of yourself? Do you even sleep? You’ve been tracking her nonstop, plus managing all these pack-related problems. You have so many t
AMBER.“If there’s wolfsbane in it, it could only be traced within 24 hours in your bloodstream, but less time if it’s just a small dosage, so we cannot wait until tomorrow.” I tried to explain in one breath as I helped him into his clothes. “John would never…” He began, but he didn’t finish his words.“That’s why I’m asking you if you really know him well enough to trust him.”He said nothing this time, but I could feel his Alpha aura rising. Of course, if I were right, then he was betrayed by the man he trusted for the last two years. “I mindlinked Drake to drive us. I’m not letting you drive.” He said after a while.I nodded my head while I walked toward his desk and picked up all the cream canisters that I could grab.-----ZACH.“There’s a faint trace of wolfsbane in your bloodstream. It’s too faint that I cannot determine when it was absorbed by your body.” Paris explained as we sat in her office. We had been in this hospital for the last two hours. Nadine and Xander, together
AMBER.“I fucking love you, little rose.” Zach murmured between our kisses.“I love you too...” I tried to reply, but his aggressive mouth was drowning my voice. He then pulled away, but he kept holding my face. His eyes were twinkling, and it made my chest swell with pride. “You will sit on my face tonight, okay?”My pussy tingled at his words, and I felt my face burning. I was bold with my actions, but the thought of the position he suggested made me blush. “I might suffocate you.”“Being suffocated by your pussy is not a bad way to die...” He replied, his fingers wiping the wetness on my lips. “But I won’t die yet. I want to fuck you while I’m standing. I want to fuck you with my hips moving…” He spoke again, and this time, his eyes softened, revealing a hint of pain. I nodded my head and cupped his face. “And that will happen!” I said with conviction. Even if this were the only reason why he wanted to stand, I would hold to that and make sure he could walk. So, I knew I needed t
AMBER.After I had spoken with Sidney, we went down together, and I was able to talk with Nadine. I told her everything I knew but made her promise not to tell anyone, as we didn’t want John to be alerted if he was really up to something. After our conversation, I planned to check on Zach, but Mindy cornered me and asked me if I wanted to check the menu she made for the packhouse this week. She wanted to make sure everything was okay on my end and said I was free to make any changes. She didn’t say anything more than that, but I was overwhelmed. She was discreetly giving me back what the accident stole from me two years ago. Yes, even when I wasn’t residing here, whenever I was around, I was the one checking the meals for the house just to make sure it was according to Zach’s taste. And I always took pleasure in that. So I spent ample time with her and the main Omega of the kitchen deciding the meals and what needed to be ordered to make sure we had what we needed.After we were don
AMBER.“It’s not white or transparent. It’s green. The darker the green, the stronger it is. It’s herbs—special herbs, thus the color.” Paris explained. My heart thundered as I looked at the white or clear gel in my hand. “It looks like Vaseline cream to me.”“No way. Send me a picture. Does it smell like anything?”“It doesn’t smell at all.”“It has a repulsive smell. Not because it’s disgusting but because the mint scent is too much, and I don’t like mint, so I find it repulsive.”“I don’t smell anything at all. Not even a trace of mint.” I replied, still trying to sniff something, but I didn’t let it get too near my nose, just in case it was a dangerous substance. “Then it might be Vaseline in your hands.” She laughed heartily while I remained silent. My hands shook at the many thoughts running in my head. If this were a fake one, was this just stopping him from improving, or was the effect worse, like lowering his aura? Oh, Goddess, I hope it was not killing his wolf. “I sho
ZACH.“Uhm, Amber. The cream?” John extended his hand, ready to take the cream away. Amber clutched the canister and smiled at him. “I’ll keep it for now. Zach doesn’t need it at the moment, also to make sure he won’t misplace it.”“Ah, okay. Is that okay with you, Alpha?” He asked me.I heard him, but my gaze was focused on Amber, who looked at me with beaming eyes. How could I say no to that? “Yes, that’s fine.”Amber winked at me before walking out of the room, and in no time, John proceeded to assist me with the next exercise. Sitting on a flat surface allowed me to lift my ass, but getting up from the wheelchair proved to be more challenging. John moved me to the corner where a beam was, where I could hold on as he helped me stand on my feet. Most of the force still came from him, and I could only stand for a few seconds before my legs would tremble. But it was an improvement. I started doing a standing exercise when I stabbed my leg with a pen in front of Amber, and I felt a
ZACH.“You only lost your ability to walk, but it’s unfair that we… that we had to lose a brother because of it. It’s not fair.” I was staring at my sisters, at a loss for words. I was too blinded by my own misery that I failed to see the lives around me and how I was affecting them. But they were right; I was a doting brother before the accident. A day never ended without me squeezing them for a hug—either with affection or just to irritate them. But when was the last time I did that?I swallowed as guilt washed over me. I did this to my sisters, but I could move forward and do better. “Come here, Ara, Nikka.” I opened my arms and was not even done with my words when they rushed toward me. I was lower than them, so they bent over and threw their arms around me. I embraced them both, hugging them tightly as I pressed kisses on their heads. “I’m sorry.” My voice croaked. “I didn’t know I was hurting you both.”They didn’t say anything but continued to sob in my arms, and I just close
ZACH.Amber helped me prepare breakfast that we could find in the cabin, which meant home-cooked oatmeal and coffee, as I only kept grains or non-perishable food here. I would bring more if I planned to stay, or I would just let Apollo hunt to keep us full.I thought last night was the best I’ve ever had, but everything just kept getting better. Having Amber around was like an antidote to my depression. Despite the gloomy weather outside, inside the cabin was full of sunshine. She’s definitely my sun—my whole universe revolves around her. Why did I ever think I could survive without her sunlight? As much as we wanted to cocoon ourselves in the cabin, we needed to face life. John, my therapist, will arrive soon, as I was not able to cancel our session today as I had planned. After Amber and I fixed our makeshift bed and washed the dishes, she asked me if we could come back here another time, and I told her we would come back soon. I just needed to let Arlo and Drake know I would be a
Back to the present.ZACH. Amber was already fast asleep beside me. Her head was resting against my chest. I was not even sure if this was a comfortable position, but one thing was evident—she didn’t want to let go of her hold on me. I did this to her. She was clinging to me with the hope I would still be here when she woke up. I had no plans of leaving, but I knew I was still not absolved of my sins to her. In fact, I added a new one. I didn’t tell her about Estelle. Not yet. She just got out of her agony caused by me, and I didn’t want her to go back to that misery. I would find a way. After I told her about Alpha Grant and the blood contract I signed—omitting the part where Estelle was involved—she sat up and asked me the exact day the contract would take effect. We have 55 days. Rather than sulking or blaming me for keeping it all to myself, she came up with numerous ideas of how we could beat the contract. I listened to her, mesmerized by the confidence she was showing.
Continuation of Flashback from the previous chapter.ZACH's POV.“Step down as an Alpha so we don’t need to have further discussion. I’m sure your father will be willing to take back his pack. Or give it to your Beta.”“Can you hear yourself, Alpha Grant?” I scoffed. “It’s my pack. It is not a toy that I can simply hand to anyone because I can no longer play with it.” “Did you forget what’s on the list of what makes a shifter eligible to be an Alpha?”“Of course I do! And nothing states in there that any physical disability would prohibit anyone from being an Alpha!”“Section Three, line twenty-three. An Alpha must be physically capable of protecting his pack or any shifters in times of danger, through but not limited to physical combat, transporting, and eliminating the enemy, and I could go on and on in this section.”“I can protect my pack!”They laughed, and I was starting to think I would lose my pack by the time they dismissed me. I had already lost my ability to walk, and Amber