AMBER.
“You’ve been quiet,” Cassidy asked me as she handed me a cocktail drink. I didn’t even check what it was and just sipped the straw. The burn hit my throat at once, and I began coughing.
“Hey! Are you trying to get drunk?” She chuckled and patted my back.
“Amara said Zach is arriving with his family.”
“Oh, I thought Nikka said…”
“That’s what I thought, too.” I gave the glass to the server who passed by before taking a glass of water to soothe the burn in my throat.
We were celebrating Catherine and Tyler’s union, and I wasn’t expecting him to attend. He had never attended any functions since the accident. He would rather stay in his territory and isolate himself.
Most of his Alpha friends kept visiting him at the beginning until they all just gave up. But I knew they would still extend invitations to him, like this one, but no one expected him to show up.
So I couldn’t believe he would show up here.
“Excuse me, my ladies. But the music had started, and Cassidy promised me a dance.” Kairo’s voice snapped me back to the present, and Cassidy began giggling.
I playfully rolled my eyes and motioned with my hand for him to take her. Kairo was already holding her hand, tugging her, but Cassidy leaned closer to me. “Will you be okay, best friend? I can drop Kairo and stay here with you.”
“No, go with him, or he’ll hang around and listen to us. Shoo!” I forced a chuckle and shooed her away. My eyes drifted to Kairo, who mouthed a “thank you” before he swirled her around until they reached the dance floor.
I was smiling. So broad that it was hurting my cheeks. My eyes blurred as tears pooled in them. Everyone looked happy—except me.
I took a deep breath and decided to enjoy the night. My misery is mine alone.
Tonight was all about Catherine and Tyler and the love of my friends.
Even if I would never get the happy-ever-after that Cathy and Amara got with Tyler and Jace, I would still consider their triumph as mine.
I smiled at the female server as she approached me, and I took one sparkling wine from her tray. I saw Amara on the other side, holding a glass. We raised our glasses and toasted in the air before tipping them into our lips.
I was still drinking mine when a commotion drew my attention. And Cassidy’s voice rang in the air.
“Zach!” Cassidy, for the life of me, could never control her voice. Instead of sounding happy, her voice sounded like, yes, you guessed it. It sounded like, “Why are you here?”
I swiftly turned my body around and watched Zach enter the ballroom with Beta Arlo pushing his chair and his whole family around him.
His face was stoic, so I was not sure if he wanted to be here or not.
But the moment his eyes found mine, his expression changed.
His face warped into a scowl, and as I had expected, the mighty Zach came down from his throne and decided to bring chaos and wrath with him.
He withdrew his gaze almost immediately while I remained stuck, just looking at him. Despite the dimmed lights of the ballroom, I could see him perfectly—the deep-set eyes, the chiseled nose, and his sharp jaws. I knew the physical aspect was the only thing left of the man I fell in love with.
I kept looking until the crowd blocked my view of him.
“Stop with the staring as if you’ve seen a ghost.” I heard him say to the crowd. I closed my eyes as his voice echoed in my ears despite the music around us.
While everyone tried to have a friendly conversation with him, he was shutting them off.
“I only agreed to be here, but I didn’t say I would attend the party. I want a room so I can rest.”
“There’s nothing interesting here.” His voice was filled with animosity, and with too many Alpha pheromones around us, I was sure as hell they were restraining themselves from snapping at him.
I took a deep breath as my hands curled into tight fists.
Relax, Amber. I told myself. But I couldn’t just stand here and let him ruin everyone’s night.
“Stop! I’m not a pup. I’m tired. I want to rest.” Zach snapped at his mother, and I couldn’t stop my rage this time. He could disrespect anyone but not Aunt Nadia, who had shown him nothing but understanding.
My feet move on their own as my hands gently push people out of the way until I end up in front of the crowd, but just around the side of him.
“I’ll show Zach the available room upstairs,” I said in my regular, sweet voice, smiling at everyone when, in reality, I wanted to squint my eyes at him.
Zach’s gaze fell on me, and I didn’t like how he raked my body up and down with that sarcastic grin plastered on his face. “I said I needed a room. I didn’t need anyone to get me there.”
Jace cleared his throat and walked toward Zach, probably to take him away, but I already had enough.
I moved faster and placed my arm in front of Jace to stop him from walking forward. I ended up in front of his wheelchair, and all the “good girl” in me had gone off the smoke.
“Shut it, Zachary Vernon!” My hand raised, and my finger pointed at him, something I rarely do. “I didn’t say you were not capable of going to that room on your own, but this is not your party to ruin! So stop snapping at anyone, and let’s get you out of here!”
AMBER.“I didn’t say you were not capable of going to that room on your own, but this is not your party to ruin! So stop snapping at anyone, and let’s get you out of here!” I didn’t even give him time to object, and my eyes avoided everyone as I was not sure if I could get away with snapping at an Alpha in a crowded room. I moved toward his back, and Beta Arlo stepped aside immediately. As soon as I grabbed the handles of his chair, I rolled him away from the ballroom, and I was glad no one had stopped me. Zach didn’t say a thing. I was not sure if he was surprised or if he felt ashamed of his actions. Everyone tiptoed around him like they were not allowed to reprimand him for being an ass, but I was so done with all this crap. There’s a place for coddling him, but definitely not here, not when we’re supposed to be celebrating Catherine and Tyler’s union. He remained quiet while we were inside the elevator, but I could see him looking at me through our reflections on the elevator
AMBER.“Everything is about you! I tried for so long, but this is where it all led me to! I regret that night! And I hate you!” Zach was growling, his hand continuously pounding on his thigh as blood soaked his pants. “Stop! Please…” I slowly sank to my knees. “Please, Zach…”“Get out! Or I won’t stop doing this!” His eyes dilated, and I knew he meant what he was saying. I scampered to my feet, tears rolling down my cheeks as I stepped outside his room, closing the door before I ran to the nearest balcony. I stood there, hands holding onto the railing as I looked up at the moon. She was the only witness to my misery tonight. I didn’t stop myself from crying to her. “How much more pain will you give me?” I couldn’t breathe. The pain in my heart was unbearable. I thought I had felt all the pain possible that Zach could give me, but nothing compared to how I felt tonight. I was hurting for myself, but I was hurting more for him. I just wanted the nightmare to end.When my tears fina
AMBER. ‘Amber?’ A voice dug into my head, waking me up from my sleep. ‘Hmmm…’ I mumbled, trying to wake my senses up. ‘Where are you?’ Eva asked before she continued talking in one breath. ‘They’re waiting for us at the packhouse for breakfast. I told them you were showering, and we were on the way there. I’ve been trying to wake you up for the last ten minutes.’ My eyes snapped open, and I stared at the ceiling when I remembered Zach and where I was. ‘And I don’t know where Cassidy is. I told Mom you both were here with me. So hurry up! We need to find her.’ ‘Okay,’ I mumbled my reply, and the mindlink disconnected. My hands moved and crawled to my sides. The bed was empty, and the sheets were cold. It meant I was alone for a long time. I sat up and let my eyes roam around the room. There was no more wheelchair or any signs of another presence beside me. He left. He saw me beside him, and he left. My eyes watered again as I pushed myself to stand until I rea
PRESENT TIME. This scene picks up from To Love The Female Alpha Chapter 163Zach - 23 years oldAmber - 20 years oldZACH.“So what’s stopping you?” I asked my father, Riley, the former Alpha of this pack. My eyes shifted between him and my mother, Luna Nadia.They just came back from the Dark Forest Pack, where they visited Nadine, my mother’s sister, who was around the same age as me. Also, at any moment, my Beta would be arriving with his fated mate, Mindy, who was also part of Nadine’s pack. He was taking her home to officially claim her as his mate. If there was anyone I wanted around me in the packhouse, it was my Beta, not my parents. At 23, I didn’t need them watching my every move. So, as soon as they returned to the territory, I asked to speak with them.Earlier, I got a call from Uncle Jake, the current Council Head. He informed me that Uncle Caspian and Aunt Andrea had moved to the Council territory yesterday, and he was also waiting for Dad and Mom to make their move
ZACH.“No, Dad! You listen! If you think I want to be stuck in this chair, I don’t, but I don’t have a choice. I have to live with that! But it’s supposed to be just me, and not you.”My eyes were stinging, but I did my best to blink back any tears forming. The last thing I wanted was for them to think I was still weak.“You need to be minding your own lives now. Just you and Mom! We’re all grown-ups here, maybe not Winter. Take her with you, but let me live as I see fit. I lost my ability to walk—just my feet. Don’t let me lose my confidence, too. You’re taking it away from me.”Mom’s eyes were watering, but she kept her tears at bay.“Don’t think like that. You are doing great these last two years. We don’t want you to feel we are abandoning you.”“I want you to abandon me... So I can grow from here.” I blurted out.“Did you remember in the hospital when they told you you wouldn’t be able to walk again? Dad said he’d be your feet…” Mom’s tears were already trickling down her face, an
AMBER.“I’m not sure why, at twenty years old, you are telling me that I can’t decide for myself while you, at the same age, can handle a whole pack! Am I that inferior to you that I can’t even make decisions for my own life?” I couldn’t stop my mouth from retorting. I went to my brother’s office and told him I had decided to take Nikka and Ara’s offer to stay with them for a couple of months. This was a day after our parents had relocated to the Council territory. “Amber, that’s not what I mean,” Cyrus grunted, brushing his palms against his face.“So what do you mean by your question asking if Mom agreed to this?”“I just don’t want to be the one blamed when they find out you’d left and gone to Zach.”“I’m of age, Cy. If they find out and become upset, it’s on me. Not you. I know you want to take care of everyone, but look at you. Do you even take care of yourself? Do you even sleep? You’ve been tracking her nonstop, plus managing all these pack-related problems. You have so many t
AMBER. I had no idea how the twins managed it, but I was granted entry to their territory without the men at the border needing to call Zach or anyone. But just looking at the expression of my grumpy but still handsome and sexy ex-fiancé, he didn’t like that I came here.“And here it goes…” I mumbled as I entered the driveway of their packhouse, preparing myself for the worst. I stopped the car and turned off the engine before removing the engagement ring I’d been wearing whenever I was out so men would stop hitting on me. I slid it to a secure spot in my handbag before taking out the golden bangle that Zach gave me when I was eight years old. Eva surprised me with it on my 20th birthday by having it adjusted. It was cut and connected with short gold chains so I could fit it around my wrist. I should have been upset that she had it altered, but I remembered how I could use it to my advantage against Zach, so I eventually forgave her. “Do not cry when he growls. Or do not run awa
ZACH.My heart thudded loudly as sweat formed on my palms and everywhere on my body. I didn’t like this. I didn’t like that at all. I kept myself from growling as I turned my chair around and rolled myself inside the house. I shut off everyone from my hearing because hearing my mother talk to Amber would make this harder for me. She had always liked her. She was the first to celebrate when I told them I wanted Amber as my Luna and would claim her at the Claiming. My mother surely knew how to play her game—either her or Amber. A tough choice because I wanted both of them out of this house.I slammed my office door closed and went to the biggest window overlooking our massive garden. I stared at nothing except the flowers and bushes. Everything on the other side was colorful and bright, unlike what I felt inside—dull, dark, and gray.I didn’t need a babysitter, and certainly not a female who thought she could tie up her life with me just because I saved her. Of course, she would. Amber
AMBER.“If there’s wolfsbane in it, it could only be traced within 24 hours in your bloodstream, but less time if it’s just a small dosage, so we cannot wait until tomorrow.” I tried to explain in one breath as I helped him into his clothes. “John would never…” He began, but he didn’t finish his words.“That’s why I’m asking you if you really know him well enough to trust him.”He said nothing this time, but I could feel his Alpha aura rising. Of course, if I were right, then he was betrayed by the man he trusted for the last two years. “I mindlinked Drake to drive us. I’m not letting you drive.” He said after a while.I nodded my head while I walked toward his desk and picked up all the cream canisters that I could grab.-----ZACH.“There’s a faint trace of wolfsbane in your bloodstream. It’s too faint that I cannot determine when it was absorbed by your body.” Paris explained as we sat in her office. We had been in this hospital for the last two hours. Nadine and Xander, together
AMBER.“I fucking love you, little rose.” Zach murmured between our kisses.“I love you too...” I tried to reply, but his aggressive mouth was drowning my voice. He then pulled away, but he kept holding my face. His eyes were twinkling, and it made my chest swell with pride. “You will sit on my face tonight, okay?”My pussy tingled at his words, and I felt my face burning. I was bold with my actions, but the thought of the position he suggested made me blush. “I might suffocate you.”“Being suffocated by your pussy is not a bad way to die...” He replied, his fingers wiping the wetness on my lips. “But I won’t die yet. I want to fuck you while I’m standing. I want to fuck you with my hips moving…” He spoke again, and this time, his eyes softened, revealing a hint of pain. I nodded my head and cupped his face. “And that will happen!” I said with conviction. Even if this were the only reason why he wanted to stand, I would hold to that and make sure he could walk. So, I knew I needed t
AMBER.After I had spoken with Sidney, we went down together, and I was able to talk with Nadine. I told her everything I knew but made her promise not to tell anyone, as we didn’t want John to be alerted if he was really up to something. After our conversation, I planned to check on Zach, but Mindy cornered me and asked me if I wanted to check the menu she made for the packhouse this week. She wanted to make sure everything was okay on my end and said I was free to make any changes. She didn’t say anything more than that, but I was overwhelmed. She was discreetly giving me back what the accident stole from me two years ago. Yes, even when I wasn’t residing here, whenever I was around, I was the one checking the meals for the house just to make sure it was according to Zach’s taste. And I always took pleasure in that. So I spent ample time with her and the main Omega of the kitchen deciding the meals and what needed to be ordered to make sure we had what we needed.After we were don
AMBER.“It’s not white or transparent. It’s green. The darker the green, the stronger it is. It’s herbs—special herbs, thus the color.” Paris explained. My heart thundered as I looked at the white or clear gel in my hand. “It looks like Vaseline cream to me.”“No way. Send me a picture. Does it smell like anything?”“It doesn’t smell at all.”“It has a repulsive smell. Not because it’s disgusting but because the mint scent is too much, and I don’t like mint, so I find it repulsive.”“I don’t smell anything at all. Not even a trace of mint.” I replied, still trying to sniff something, but I didn’t let it get too near my nose, just in case it was a dangerous substance. “Then it might be Vaseline in your hands.” She laughed heartily while I remained silent. My hands shook at the many thoughts running in my head. If this were a fake one, was this just stopping him from improving, or was the effect worse, like lowering his aura? Oh, Goddess, I hope it was not killing his wolf. “I sho
ZACH.“Uhm, Amber. The cream?” John extended his hand, ready to take the cream away. Amber clutched the canister and smiled at him. “I’ll keep it for now. Zach doesn’t need it at the moment, also to make sure he won’t misplace it.”“Ah, okay. Is that okay with you, Alpha?” He asked me.I heard him, but my gaze was focused on Amber, who looked at me with beaming eyes. How could I say no to that? “Yes, that’s fine.”Amber winked at me before walking out of the room, and in no time, John proceeded to assist me with the next exercise. Sitting on a flat surface allowed me to lift my ass, but getting up from the wheelchair proved to be more challenging. John moved me to the corner where a beam was, where I could hold on as he helped me stand on my feet. Most of the force still came from him, and I could only stand for a few seconds before my legs would tremble. But it was an improvement. I started doing a standing exercise when I stabbed my leg with a pen in front of Amber, and I felt a
ZACH.“You only lost your ability to walk, but it’s unfair that we… that we had to lose a brother because of it. It’s not fair.” I was staring at my sisters, at a loss for words. I was too blinded by my own misery that I failed to see the lives around me and how I was affecting them. But they were right; I was a doting brother before the accident. A day never ended without me squeezing them for a hug—either with affection or just to irritate them. But when was the last time I did that?I swallowed as guilt washed over me. I did this to my sisters, but I could move forward and do better. “Come here, Ara, Nikka.” I opened my arms and was not even done with my words when they rushed toward me. I was lower than them, so they bent over and threw their arms around me. I embraced them both, hugging them tightly as I pressed kisses on their heads. “I’m sorry.” My voice croaked. “I didn’t know I was hurting you both.”They didn’t say anything but continued to sob in my arms, and I just close
ZACH.Amber helped me prepare breakfast that we could find in the cabin, which meant home-cooked oatmeal and coffee, as I only kept grains or non-perishable food here. I would bring more if I planned to stay, or I would just let Apollo hunt to keep us full.I thought last night was the best I’ve ever had, but everything just kept getting better. Having Amber around was like an antidote to my depression. Despite the gloomy weather outside, inside the cabin was full of sunshine. She’s definitely my sun—my whole universe revolves around her. Why did I ever think I could survive without her sunlight? As much as we wanted to cocoon ourselves in the cabin, we needed to face life. John, my therapist, will arrive soon, as I was not able to cancel our session today as I had planned. After Amber and I fixed our makeshift bed and washed the dishes, she asked me if we could come back here another time, and I told her we would come back soon. I just needed to let Arlo and Drake know I would be a
Back to the present.ZACH. Amber was already fast asleep beside me. Her head was resting against my chest. I was not even sure if this was a comfortable position, but one thing was evident—she didn’t want to let go of her hold on me. I did this to her. She was clinging to me with the hope I would still be here when she woke up. I had no plans of leaving, but I knew I was still not absolved of my sins to her. In fact, I added a new one. I didn’t tell her about Estelle. Not yet. She just got out of her agony caused by me, and I didn’t want her to go back to that misery. I would find a way. After I told her about Alpha Grant and the blood contract I signed—omitting the part where Estelle was involved—she sat up and asked me the exact day the contract would take effect. We have 55 days. Rather than sulking or blaming me for keeping it all to myself, she came up with numerous ideas of how we could beat the contract. I listened to her, mesmerized by the confidence she was showing.
Continuation of Flashback from the previous chapter.ZACH's POV.“Step down as an Alpha so we don’t need to have further discussion. I’m sure your father will be willing to take back his pack. Or give it to your Beta.”“Can you hear yourself, Alpha Grant?” I scoffed. “It’s my pack. It is not a toy that I can simply hand to anyone because I can no longer play with it.” “Did you forget what’s on the list of what makes a shifter eligible to be an Alpha?”“Of course I do! And nothing states in there that any physical disability would prohibit anyone from being an Alpha!”“Section Three, line twenty-three. An Alpha must be physically capable of protecting his pack or any shifters in times of danger, through but not limited to physical combat, transporting, and eliminating the enemy, and I could go on and on in this section.”“I can protect my pack!”They laughed, and I was starting to think I would lose my pack by the time they dismissed me. I had already lost my ability to walk, and Amber