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25 - Just Breathe
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2021-04-15 06:48:19Tuesday was finally here and I was a nervous wreck. I was dressed in my most “adult” looking outfit, which Fletch said looked like a job interview suit so I was feeling pretty good.
I had already emailed some of my latest work to the professor. I didn’t even notice I was shaking until Chris snatched my hand and held it in his.
“Calm down Rae, he’s just a person like anyone else,” he said with a smile.
“Yeah yeah sure, easy for you to say,” I whispered.
The call started up and the Swedish translator was going on and on, I had no idea what they were saying. Suddenly, there he was, Dr. Karlsson, looking like Einstein. He basically was Einstein to me, and to so many.
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