With a deep breath, then an exhale, I stepped out of the house. It was sunny, but the air was cold and I was grateful for the coat I was putting on. I wore a white gown that stopped above my knees and a pair of white heels and a black colored coat that was just as long as the gown I was putting on. My makeup was heavy but the shade I was putting on did well to hide this. Then I packed my hair into an updo and wore jewelries and a matching bag.Lots of guards were outside of course and a car was ready for me. Jasmine was right beside me, and she was doing her job. Listing the names of people who I had specially invited and names of the artists whose art would also be exhibited. I was partly listening to her as she spoke and partly thinking about my mother-in-law and my father-in-law who I had spoken to earlier. I was about to step into the car that had the doors wide and open for me when my eyes caught sight of something sparkling and shining. I stopped in my tracks and turned to the e
“You look amazing,” Tiffany began and I smiled. I turned my eyes to Tiana and noticed she was staring at me. She had a very dark look on her face and pitying look in her eyes that I was beginning to hate. Everyone was looking at me that same way these days and it was no longer funny.“Is there something on my face?” I snapped, not meaning to. She lowered her gaze immediately, still not uttering a word.“Genesis,” Tiffany held my arm, probably trying to calm me down and it worked. I took a deep breath, exhaled and turned to her.“I think I should leave you two now,” I forced a smile her way, feeling the happiness that I had felt earlier disappear from my heart.“You must feel like shit with your husband,” Tiana immediately entered and I turned to her. She was looking at me now with a sad smile on her face.“I’m sorry,” she began.“I know I did wrong, I know you finally found happiness and I became the villain who was ready to take it away from you. I know you love him just as he loves
“What?” I pulled my hands away from her immediately.“I had returned to the Chase mansion and was made to continue my life with Liam Chase. The fake Liam Chase who I had come to know as my husband over the years. Jordan grew up knowing that man, loving that man and believing that he was his father just as the world believed that he was Liam Chase. No one ever knew of this, not even my sister. She had left and I had cut ties with her, never to see her again. Even when she got married or when she had a son, I had no clue till Jordan brought Nate to the company with the claim that he was his cousin.” She explained rapidly. For one, I understood why she didn’t like Nate at least. His mother betrayed her and the son brought him back. Under a very terrible situation, I got married and he wanted to take me away from that man who still brought him under his wings against all odds. It was more like a family thing. Sister betrayed sister and brother betrayed brother.But my husband was so cluel
A week after, I was back to staring at my lifeless eyes in the mirror. My face was made to look the most gorgeous and the most beautiful, yet I knew that I felt anything but beautiful. I was miserable, alone, tired and panicking.Every morning, I woke up, repeating the same words my mother-in-law told me. It was for the best, he is keeping you safe, he would come back to you, everything is fine and under control. Every morning, I tell myself that there is absolutely nothing to think about, that it was all good and nothing could go wrong. I tell myself that he would be back soon to give me an explanation for his disappearance. I tell myself that he would call and explain everything and tell he loves me. I woke up with a new faith, a new hope every morning while I tell myself, he was running back home to me.How stupid?Each day ended up with my hope falling apart. My faith was squashed and tossed aside, left in the gutter, never to be picked up again. Each passing day, I found myself dr
I WAS LISTENING TO THE SONG LISTENED BELOW WHILE WRITING THE EPISODE AND I CRIED A LOT BECAUSE OF HOW EMOTIONAL IT MADE ME. I HOPE YOU GET TO CONNECT WITH IT AS MUCH AS I DID. Lewis Capaldi…someone you love and bruisesPLEASE NOTE THAT I AM NOT A DOCTOR AND I KNOW LITTLE TO NOTHING ABOUT THE THINGS I WRITE. BUT I DID MY RESEARCH, TALKED TO A DOCTOR FRIEND FOR HOURS JUST TO START TALKING ABOUT THIS. HOWEVER, SINCE ITS NOT MY PROFESSION, I AM SURE THAT TERMS USED OR EXPLANATION MADE MIGHT NOT MEET UP TO YOUR STANDARDS AND FOR THAT I TRULY APOLOGIES. BEAR WITH ME AND TAKE THIS BOOK AS A STORY THAT IT IS. A TALE OF MY IMAGINATION.My world turned upside down within seconds and I plunged into darkness. Pain erupted from my entire being and nothing seemed to matter anymore. I could feel the hot sting of tears on my cheeks and everything turned blurry for me immediately. I didn’t know what was hurting, but breathing was more important. My chest became hot and uncomfortable, and darkness was
“How long would he be in this state then?” I asked the doctor in charge of Jordan as we walked the hallway towards his office.“His heart can’t hold on much longer, Mrs. Chase.” He sighed. Something sharp pierced my heart at those same words. He had been repeating them ever since Jordan got admitted and each time he says it, the pain only increased.“I won’t lose him,” I pushed out of my throat and pushed back the tears that were threatening to fall down my cheek.“We hope so. But we still don’t have a heart for him and I can’t say so much on this anymore,” he said with a grave tone. His words were stabbing my chest with a sharp tool and it was only confirming my fear. All the fight would be for nothing, all the things that my son had to go through, all the pain, loneliness and fear of death and even his money and love. It would all be for nothing and we would have lost the battle. My eyes became cloudy, however, I was refusing this feeling, I would not give in, I refused to lose the
My knees buckled and gave way for me to get to the ground. Hot tears came running down my cheek and guards immediately surrounded me. My heart burned like it was being charred with a hot steel. My life was over. My life was over. I could feel that cold hand of death stretching its filthy hands towards me. I could see darkness pulling me and I could hear it calling me. I had nothing left. And I was not going to fight anymore. My eyes went to the door in which I was just pulled out from. The doctors were still inside and no one had come out. My Jordan gave up after seeing the news.He had not woken up for a long time and when he did, that was what he saw first. Why would he live anymore? Was there a point when the woman who made him want to live was gone? I was so sure that he wouldn’t survive this? What was the purpose of my life? No husband, no son, no daughter in law. What was the need to live? It’s over and I was willing to accept it. I was willing to let go of everything that I had
LEONA“You should rest, you’ve been here all day,” Aiden suggested when I let out another yawn. I immediately shook my head at that idea and took the plate in his hands. How could I consider resting when Jordan was not awake yet and Genesis was still unconscious. The doctor had said that she was fine and would be up soon but for my son, I still had no idea.“Aiden is right, we can look after them while you rest,” Abigail, Genesis’ mother walked into the room just in time. I looked up at her and gave a faint smile. She had been coming to check on me every single minute and I could not be happier that I had her on my side.“I will, I just can’t see myself sleeping when Jordan is still unconscious and Genesis is still….”“Genesis would be fine. She is simply in shock and the doctor had assured us that she would wake up soon.” She interrupted and I sighed. Genesis must be through a lot and had collapse when Jordan died for that brief second. She had no idea that he was awake already even
My phone rang again and I smiled as I picked up my husband call this time. “Miss me yet, wife,” he teased immediately and I groaned. “No, but the kids want you home.” “Too bad. My flight got delayed.” He sighed. “What?” I jerked up from where I sat. He chuckled. “Easy their wife. I just got to town and would be home soon,” he entered and I sighed. “Bye…” I ended the call abruptly, feeling angry at such expensive joke. I had everything ready already. After two hours, I was perfectly ready and had stepped out of the room and back down only to find out that I was a late host. Everyone was present. My parents, my sister, Tiana, Nate, Tiffany and her fiancée, Jordan’s cousins, their girlfriends, his mom, my p.a and Margaret. Yes her. she was a huge part of Jordan’s life for long and we could not let her to keep being a staff here so we freed her with a lot of money, a house, something to keep her going and a family. “I told you that she might be painting,” Julian’s loud mouth entere
FOUR YEARS AFTERI ran down the stairs, feeling completely exhausted and disheveled, not to add, disorganized and slightly angry. With my robe on, I decided to check if everything was set and ready. I couldn’t help it, it had to be perfect, it all had to be or I might lose it. Anna strolled into the house at that particular moment, and she stared at me with a wary look as I made my way to the kitchen.“Is everything alright?” she asked in her very sweet voice.“Go change and rest up,” I reprimanded. She had only just returned from college and shouldn’t be concerned by things like that, yet she was ever so humble and would in fact start on chores the moment she returns from college which was slight annoying. We made her go to college for a good reason, to better her life and not to turn out like a staff her entire life, yet she looked so dedicated to being one.“I would the moment you tell me what is wrong,” she followed behind me with dedication and became a nag that I didn’t want at
GENESISEven in my unconsciousness, I could feel that emptiness inside of me. I could feel the hole, the empty, painful hole that was once filled with life, I could feel the vacuum there. I knew that something was different and I feared what it was. When I opened my eyes, the first sight I wanted to behold was my beloved husband. His scent was the first thing I wanted to caress my nostrils, his warmth the next feel I wanted to feel against my cold skin. But he wasn’t there as I had hoped. And that had shattered whatever was left inside of me. He had threatened to leave me, maybe he did.The fear of such possibility had made me fear and panic especially when I didn’t see him around me. It scared me but the familiar faces gave me a little bit of comfort. They were family and ones I loved. They had such effect on me. Not till I recalled what happened, how I fell. My hands had voluntarily found its way to my stomach where I wanted to feel the life inside of me. I was in a hospital for sur
I could hear my baby crying in my ears. Screaming in pain and asking me why I did what I did. I could imagine the judging, hateful look those blue eyes would give to me once she opens her eyes and the pain that would show itself in those eyes of hers. The pain was enough to consume me, to burn me, to torment me. With heaviness in my chest, I looked away from her unconscious body, lying on the bed with families around her. I could not bare to look at her, I could not dare to even think of going close to her, not what after I had done.I should have been more patient, more careful, more tolerant, I should have attempted to listen to her. But I didn’t. It was not her fault and I would have accepted my own child. She came at a time that our world was dark and I was about to lose my life, she came way before I decided that I didn’t want to have a baby, and like a miracle, she survived. How I snuffed the life out of her.I would forever live with this pain, wouldn’t I? This guilt, the memor
JORDANThe scream….The screams…The scream of my wife and the staff was what it took me to stop. Fear engulfed me and swallowed me whole, leaving every anger, betrayal and pain I felt earlier. I snapped my gaze back to the direction I had come from, knowing that her scream came from there.“No…” I screamed, seeing her rolling down the stairs. I could feel life leaving me at the sight of her. My legs started towards her as fast as I could just as everyone else. She came to a halt at the edge of the step and my heart died at her position. Then the blood.“Oh God! No…no…no….”“Get the car,” I screamed, feeling tears burn my eyes while I slowly placed her head on my thighs. She was bleeding and still fucking naked with just that robe.“Get the car,” I cried at the top of my lungs, fearing for the worse. I immediately checked for her pulse, praying, hoping, wishing that it would not come to that. I might as well die if it did.We rushed her to the hospital and the doctors immediately plac
GENESISI took a longer time in the bathroom this time around. The heat and steam of the shower had become my comfort and I was scared of leaving it. I would only return to our bedroom that had turned to a hunting ground for me. Each place and thing smelt of my husband and with the feel of him reminded me of the anger he had against me and the secret I had adamantly been keeping away from him.I missed him, each part of me missed him. It was almost like life was leaving me slowly and gently, yet I couldn’t stop it. Not that I couldn’t, I still didn’t know how to. I looked down on my tummy to notice the slight bump that showed the life growing inside of me. It was still so small and with my present choice of clothing, no one could notice. But how long? He deserved to know, I had to tell him and explain to him how it all happened. I had to before I completely ruin our marriage.I sighed heavily, feeling a familiar burn in my chest area while my hand ran in a circular motion around my s
JORDANI ended the meeting and shook the hands of the Russian investors. In a polite tone and a business manner, I thanked them and watched them leave the restaurant before I left. I got to the car and thought of what was left for me to do before I returned home.The thought of home made me smile, yet it made my heart ache. I had been away for five days and things had still not changed between Genesis and I. she was hiding something from me and I was losing my mind. I picked up my phone and stared at my wallpaper for a while. It was a picture of her, sleeping, and it was the most beautiful I had seen her. But again, she was beautiful in all ways, especially when she had her blue eyes opened. My heart ached and still longed for her.Just in the nick of time, she called and my heart leaped inside my chest. I picked it up quickly because I had missed her, I missed her voice, her face, her warmth, I missed being close to her. I simply missed her.“When are you coming home?” her whinny voi
“What happened?” Tiffany pulled me into a hug the moment I walked into the house and once again, I broke down before her. She took me to the sitting room where I sat down and cried my eyes out while she soothed my hair and simply allowed me cry.I recalled the pain in my husband’s eyes when I told him that I could not tell him the truth. I recalled the hurt, the pain, the fear I saw within those gazes, it burned my chest. I had looked him in the face and told him that I could not tell him the truth. What kind of wife was I? I was breaking all the promises we made to each other and keeping this, this preciousness away from him.“What happened to her?” I heard Tiana voice as her footsteps followed too.“She came in this way,” Tiffany answered and rubbed my back gently. None of them said a thing and simply comforted me while I cried till, I could no longer do that anymore.I drank a cup of water after which and I relaxed into the couch with the heaviness of the world on me.“I still can’
Days went by with nothing much happening. Jordan was constantly busy with work or simply being a loving husband while I grew lazier by the day. It was a good thing I had subordinates to handle my business, I would have totally been thrown into the dust with the rate at which my laziness grew. I slept more, ate more, slept more again, ate even more. My taste buds were also acting different, making me want something entirely different and hating things I love too. Margaret would usually get me what I want no matter how it got and she paid even closer attention to me now.I suspect she knew exactly what was going on with me, but had not said a thing, so I was happy about it and relaxed with her. However, I tried to sleep less and control myself when my beloved husband was available.It was burdening and aching my heart as the day goes by. But what was I supposed to do? I still hadn’t found a way to tell him what it was that was going on and I still didn’t have the boldness to speak out l