“How long would he be in this state then?” I asked the doctor in charge of Jordan as we walked the hallway towards his office.“His heart can’t hold on much longer, Mrs. Chase.” He sighed. Something sharp pierced my heart at those same words. He had been repeating them ever since Jordan got admitted and each time he says it, the pain only increased.“I won’t lose him,” I pushed out of my throat and pushed back the tears that were threatening to fall down my cheek.“We hope so. But we still don’t have a heart for him and I can’t say so much on this anymore,” he said with a grave tone. His words were stabbing my chest with a sharp tool and it was only confirming my fear. All the fight would be for nothing, all the things that my son had to go through, all the pain, loneliness and fear of death and even his money and love. It would all be for nothing and we would have lost the battle. My eyes became cloudy, however, I was refusing this feeling, I would not give in, I refused to lose the
My knees buckled and gave way for me to get to the ground. Hot tears came running down my cheek and guards immediately surrounded me. My heart burned like it was being charred with a hot steel. My life was over. My life was over. I could feel that cold hand of death stretching its filthy hands towards me. I could see darkness pulling me and I could hear it calling me. I had nothing left. And I was not going to fight anymore. My eyes went to the door in which I was just pulled out from. The doctors were still inside and no one had come out. My Jordan gave up after seeing the news.He had not woken up for a long time and when he did, that was what he saw first. Why would he live anymore? Was there a point when the woman who made him want to live was gone? I was so sure that he wouldn’t survive this? What was the purpose of my life? No husband, no son, no daughter in law. What was the need to live? It’s over and I was willing to accept it. I was willing to let go of everything that I had
LEONA“You should rest, you’ve been here all day,” Aiden suggested when I let out another yawn. I immediately shook my head at that idea and took the plate in his hands. How could I consider resting when Jordan was not awake yet and Genesis was still unconscious. The doctor had said that she was fine and would be up soon but for my son, I still had no idea.“Aiden is right, we can look after them while you rest,” Abigail, Genesis’ mother walked into the room just in time. I looked up at her and gave a faint smile. She had been coming to check on me every single minute and I could not be happier that I had her on my side.“I will, I just can’t see myself sleeping when Jordan is still unconscious and Genesis is still….”“Genesis would be fine. She is simply in shock and the doctor had assured us that she would wake up soon.” She interrupted and I sighed. Genesis must be through a lot and had collapse when Jordan died for that brief second. She had no idea that he was awake already even
GENESISI opened my eyes and looked around to find that I was alone and since I had been in the hospital a couple of times, recently, I knew that pungent smell anywhere and knew just exactly where I was. Not to add that the I.V drips also added to that knowledge.Tears swelled up in my eyes and the last memory I had of Jordan resurfaced in my thought. Tears and pain choked me and something clogged my chest, making it hard for me to cry out. I recalled seeing him in that hospital bed and wanted to scream. I wanted to scream, yell and call out to him, but my voice seems to have disappeared and the pain in my chest was making it hard to even breathe.“Blue eyes….” Someone called out to me and Ava soon appeared at my blurry vision. She disappeared within a second and when she returned, she was with my dad, Tiana, Tiffany and Nate. They surrounded me and were speaking all at once. But just as Jordan disappeared before my eyes, like a dream, a beautiful dream, he made a very short night a p
I placed my hand on his already pale one and held it. It filled my heart with warmth, and tears started rolling down my cheeks again. I thought of every touch, every feeling, every hold, every kiss he had ever given and shut my eyes tight. The beeping sound grew in my ears and so did the sound of his heart beat.“I won’t leave,” I entered boldly. He was so scared that I might leave him, probably just the same way Samantha did. She had known that he had a disease that was why she refused to marry him and had left him alone for years, never loving him truly, even after her return. He had his mother and cousin but he was alone, fighting a silent battle of life and death and no one to truly comfort him, not even me. I remained in the dark because he was scared, I would be like Samantha, he was scared that I would be like any other person. Who knew how many had left him, the moment they found out? The tears against my eyes did not stop and the pain in my heart also didn’t. I thought of wha
Samantha’s jaw dropped immediately, then she scoffed.“Jordan must really love you,” she entered and once again I was back to that place.“How is he doing?” she asked, dropping all the pomposity in her voice that she sounded like she really cared.“Do you really care?” I asked, hating her guts to even stop and speak to me. How could I easily forget what she had done, all she did to me and Jordan.“I was his childhood friend,”“Though I might had turned to the Villain of his life and love, I care.” She answered sadly and I frowned. Trusting her was definitely not my aim and would rather she remain her distance and talked.“What do you want?”“I couldn’t just pass by when I saw you sitting here.” She answered.“Your mother-in-law made sure that I was never allowed into that hospital premises. I have been there a couple of times to see you and him.”“How are you doing?” she really sounded like she cared.“Don’t you want me dead?” I couldn’t help but asked. A pained look suddenly appeared
LEONAKatherine held my hands tightly and squeezed it in other to comfort me and remind me that she was there. She looked strong, like a pillar that I would fall to at that particular moment, but life was hitting me so hard, my heart was tired, my body was tired yet I didn’t know if I should fall to her and simply become weak or if I should simply be strong, and take whatever I get. The last seemed to be a better option since I still had Jordan to look after, I still had Genesis to hold and a world that was waiting for an explanation from me. Could I truly afford to be tired and weak? No, I could not afford to feel any of that emotion. Life was feeding me with thorns and it would only beat me down more. I had to keep fighting, because I still had something to fight for, I still had my son to be strong for.We followed the cops to a place we didn’t know. It looked like a laboratory of some kind but it was hidden and kept secret. I had no idea where we were going to. They had only infor
For a long time, I simply held that letter in my hand. Tears refused to fall down my eyes anymore and my heart stilled. I recalled the last conversation we had, when he suddenly appeared for the art exhibition at Genesis.“You look lovely,” he had smiled at me, genuinely this time and it creeped me out. It’s been so long I saw him smile at me that way and it felt different, strange, yet my heart had missed that man who had turned into a stranger to me so suddenly. The loving father who had turned to a hateful and cold one and a husband who had turned to a cheat and an abuser later on.“What are you doing?” I replied, simply because I could not trust him. I had let go of our marriage after the last time he hit me and had not returned to the house ever since Jordan took me away. I was not planning to do that now, especially because I could not trust him.“I won’t return to you, so stop the pretense. And what are you doing here? Do you want to ruin the day for your daughter in law?” I pu
My phone rang again and I smiled as I picked up my husband call this time. “Miss me yet, wife,” he teased immediately and I groaned. “No, but the kids want you home.” “Too bad. My flight got delayed.” He sighed. “What?” I jerked up from where I sat. He chuckled. “Easy their wife. I just got to town and would be home soon,” he entered and I sighed. “Bye…” I ended the call abruptly, feeling angry at such expensive joke. I had everything ready already. After two hours, I was perfectly ready and had stepped out of the room and back down only to find out that I was a late host. Everyone was present. My parents, my sister, Tiana, Nate, Tiffany and her fiancée, Jordan’s cousins, their girlfriends, his mom, my p.a and Margaret. Yes her. she was a huge part of Jordan’s life for long and we could not let her to keep being a staff here so we freed her with a lot of money, a house, something to keep her going and a family. “I told you that she might be painting,” Julian’s loud mouth entere
FOUR YEARS AFTERI ran down the stairs, feeling completely exhausted and disheveled, not to add, disorganized and slightly angry. With my robe on, I decided to check if everything was set and ready. I couldn’t help it, it had to be perfect, it all had to be or I might lose it. Anna strolled into the house at that particular moment, and she stared at me with a wary look as I made my way to the kitchen.“Is everything alright?” she asked in her very sweet voice.“Go change and rest up,” I reprimanded. She had only just returned from college and shouldn’t be concerned by things like that, yet she was ever so humble and would in fact start on chores the moment she returns from college which was slight annoying. We made her go to college for a good reason, to better her life and not to turn out like a staff her entire life, yet she looked so dedicated to being one.“I would the moment you tell me what is wrong,” she followed behind me with dedication and became a nag that I didn’t want at
GENESISEven in my unconsciousness, I could feel that emptiness inside of me. I could feel the hole, the empty, painful hole that was once filled with life, I could feel the vacuum there. I knew that something was different and I feared what it was. When I opened my eyes, the first sight I wanted to behold was my beloved husband. His scent was the first thing I wanted to caress my nostrils, his warmth the next feel I wanted to feel against my cold skin. But he wasn’t there as I had hoped. And that had shattered whatever was left inside of me. He had threatened to leave me, maybe he did.The fear of such possibility had made me fear and panic especially when I didn’t see him around me. It scared me but the familiar faces gave me a little bit of comfort. They were family and ones I loved. They had such effect on me. Not till I recalled what happened, how I fell. My hands had voluntarily found its way to my stomach where I wanted to feel the life inside of me. I was in a hospital for sur
I could hear my baby crying in my ears. Screaming in pain and asking me why I did what I did. I could imagine the judging, hateful look those blue eyes would give to me once she opens her eyes and the pain that would show itself in those eyes of hers. The pain was enough to consume me, to burn me, to torment me. With heaviness in my chest, I looked away from her unconscious body, lying on the bed with families around her. I could not bare to look at her, I could not dare to even think of going close to her, not what after I had done.I should have been more patient, more careful, more tolerant, I should have attempted to listen to her. But I didn’t. It was not her fault and I would have accepted my own child. She came at a time that our world was dark and I was about to lose my life, she came way before I decided that I didn’t want to have a baby, and like a miracle, she survived. How I snuffed the life out of her.I would forever live with this pain, wouldn’t I? This guilt, the memor
JORDANThe scream….The screams…The scream of my wife and the staff was what it took me to stop. Fear engulfed me and swallowed me whole, leaving every anger, betrayal and pain I felt earlier. I snapped my gaze back to the direction I had come from, knowing that her scream came from there.“No…” I screamed, seeing her rolling down the stairs. I could feel life leaving me at the sight of her. My legs started towards her as fast as I could just as everyone else. She came to a halt at the edge of the step and my heart died at her position. Then the blood.“Oh God! No…no…no….”“Get the car,” I screamed, feeling tears burn my eyes while I slowly placed her head on my thighs. She was bleeding and still fucking naked with just that robe.“Get the car,” I cried at the top of my lungs, fearing for the worse. I immediately checked for her pulse, praying, hoping, wishing that it would not come to that. I might as well die if it did.We rushed her to the hospital and the doctors immediately plac
GENESISI took a longer time in the bathroom this time around. The heat and steam of the shower had become my comfort and I was scared of leaving it. I would only return to our bedroom that had turned to a hunting ground for me. Each place and thing smelt of my husband and with the feel of him reminded me of the anger he had against me and the secret I had adamantly been keeping away from him.I missed him, each part of me missed him. It was almost like life was leaving me slowly and gently, yet I couldn’t stop it. Not that I couldn’t, I still didn’t know how to. I looked down on my tummy to notice the slight bump that showed the life growing inside of me. It was still so small and with my present choice of clothing, no one could notice. But how long? He deserved to know, I had to tell him and explain to him how it all happened. I had to before I completely ruin our marriage.I sighed heavily, feeling a familiar burn in my chest area while my hand ran in a circular motion around my s
JORDANI ended the meeting and shook the hands of the Russian investors. In a polite tone and a business manner, I thanked them and watched them leave the restaurant before I left. I got to the car and thought of what was left for me to do before I returned home.The thought of home made me smile, yet it made my heart ache. I had been away for five days and things had still not changed between Genesis and I. she was hiding something from me and I was losing my mind. I picked up my phone and stared at my wallpaper for a while. It was a picture of her, sleeping, and it was the most beautiful I had seen her. But again, she was beautiful in all ways, especially when she had her blue eyes opened. My heart ached and still longed for her.Just in the nick of time, she called and my heart leaped inside my chest. I picked it up quickly because I had missed her, I missed her voice, her face, her warmth, I missed being close to her. I simply missed her.“When are you coming home?” her whinny voi
“What happened?” Tiffany pulled me into a hug the moment I walked into the house and once again, I broke down before her. She took me to the sitting room where I sat down and cried my eyes out while she soothed my hair and simply allowed me cry.I recalled the pain in my husband’s eyes when I told him that I could not tell him the truth. I recalled the hurt, the pain, the fear I saw within those gazes, it burned my chest. I had looked him in the face and told him that I could not tell him the truth. What kind of wife was I? I was breaking all the promises we made to each other and keeping this, this preciousness away from him.“What happened to her?” I heard Tiana voice as her footsteps followed too.“She came in this way,” Tiffany answered and rubbed my back gently. None of them said a thing and simply comforted me while I cried till, I could no longer do that anymore.I drank a cup of water after which and I relaxed into the couch with the heaviness of the world on me.“I still can’
Days went by with nothing much happening. Jordan was constantly busy with work or simply being a loving husband while I grew lazier by the day. It was a good thing I had subordinates to handle my business, I would have totally been thrown into the dust with the rate at which my laziness grew. I slept more, ate more, slept more again, ate even more. My taste buds were also acting different, making me want something entirely different and hating things I love too. Margaret would usually get me what I want no matter how it got and she paid even closer attention to me now.I suspect she knew exactly what was going on with me, but had not said a thing, so I was happy about it and relaxed with her. However, I tried to sleep less and control myself when my beloved husband was available.It was burdening and aching my heart as the day goes by. But what was I supposed to do? I still hadn’t found a way to tell him what it was that was going on and I still didn’t have the boldness to speak out l