I placed my hand on his already pale one and held it. It filled my heart with warmth, and tears started rolling down my cheeks again. I thought of every touch, every feeling, every hold, every kiss he had ever given and shut my eyes tight. The beeping sound grew in my ears and so did the sound of his heart beat.“I won’t leave,” I entered boldly. He was so scared that I might leave him, probably just the same way Samantha did. She had known that he had a disease that was why she refused to marry him and had left him alone for years, never loving him truly, even after her return. He had his mother and cousin but he was alone, fighting a silent battle of life and death and no one to truly comfort him, not even me. I remained in the dark because he was scared, I would be like Samantha, he was scared that I would be like any other person. Who knew how many had left him, the moment they found out? The tears against my eyes did not stop and the pain in my heart also didn’t. I thought of wha
Samantha’s jaw dropped immediately, then she scoffed.“Jordan must really love you,” she entered and once again I was back to that place.“How is he doing?” she asked, dropping all the pomposity in her voice that she sounded like she really cared.“Do you really care?” I asked, hating her guts to even stop and speak to me. How could I easily forget what she had done, all she did to me and Jordan.“I was his childhood friend,”“Though I might had turned to the Villain of his life and love, I care.” She answered sadly and I frowned. Trusting her was definitely not my aim and would rather she remain her distance and talked.“What do you want?”“I couldn’t just pass by when I saw you sitting here.” She answered.“Your mother-in-law made sure that I was never allowed into that hospital premises. I have been there a couple of times to see you and him.”“How are you doing?” she really sounded like she cared.“Don’t you want me dead?” I couldn’t help but asked. A pained look suddenly appeared
LEONAKatherine held my hands tightly and squeezed it in other to comfort me and remind me that she was there. She looked strong, like a pillar that I would fall to at that particular moment, but life was hitting me so hard, my heart was tired, my body was tired yet I didn’t know if I should fall to her and simply become weak or if I should simply be strong, and take whatever I get. The last seemed to be a better option since I still had Jordan to look after, I still had Genesis to hold and a world that was waiting for an explanation from me. Could I truly afford to be tired and weak? No, I could not afford to feel any of that emotion. Life was feeding me with thorns and it would only beat me down more. I had to keep fighting, because I still had something to fight for, I still had my son to be strong for.We followed the cops to a place we didn’t know. It looked like a laboratory of some kind but it was hidden and kept secret. I had no idea where we were going to. They had only infor
For a long time, I simply held that letter in my hand. Tears refused to fall down my eyes anymore and my heart stilled. I recalled the last conversation we had, when he suddenly appeared for the art exhibition at Genesis.“You look lovely,” he had smiled at me, genuinely this time and it creeped me out. It’s been so long I saw him smile at me that way and it felt different, strange, yet my heart had missed that man who had turned into a stranger to me so suddenly. The loving father who had turned to a hateful and cold one and a husband who had turned to a cheat and an abuser later on.“What are you doing?” I replied, simply because I could not trust him. I had let go of our marriage after the last time he hit me and had not returned to the house ever since Jordan took me away. I was not planning to do that now, especially because I could not trust him.“I won’t return to you, so stop the pretense. And what are you doing here? Do you want to ruin the day for your daughter in law?” I pu
GENESISWe stopped in front of the church and I stepped down immediately. But the moment I stepped down from the car, another feeling of dread settled at the pit of my stomach and I immediately turned to the direction we came from. My heart was hurting and my guts were telling me that something terrible was happening. Should I return?“If you are not feeling alright, we can go back,” Samantha suggested as she stepped down from the car. For a moment, I thought about going back, to be with Jordan, to know what was happening, to make sure that he wouldn’t leave me. But what could I do? It was not like I could keep him away from death and that was where God came in. I turned back to the church and shook my head.“No…” I turned to the guards that stepped out from the car that followed that of Samantha. I was shocked to see that a car was there speedily and with it were more than ten of them.“You’ve gotten pale, ma’am,” the one who entered the same car as I did enter.“I think we should re
“Hey…” someone yelled beside me. I snapped my gaze to the voice and found Samantha looking at me with a frown on her face and worry in her eyes. I blinked and looked around, wondering if I was in the same place and if I was seeing right. She definitely could not be worried about me. I shook my head and tried to move but my knees and butt was hurting so bad, I groaned.“Why would you sleep, I thought you were praying?” she began chiding and I frowned.“What are you doing in here?”“You were not replying to any of my calls, I was thinking you died before I could kill you,” she replied and I glared at her.“Really?” I looked around.“What? He knows I’m a bad person even when I am not in the church,” she responded so casually. I sighed and shook my head, knowing that I was just going to waste my time arguing with her.“My guards could have woken me up. You didn’t have to come in, I’m not planning to die anytime soon,” I responded, remembering the voice of Jordan in my head. My heart was a
“He confided on his friend who helped him with his suicide mission. The coroner still hasn’t let go of the case since he was never terminally ill before he was euthanized. And the doctor might lose his license or go to jail for what he did to my husband,” mom Leona explained what happened from the beginning and how it was kept a secret from me and Jordan alone to what was happening as of recent.“But Liam wanted to die.”“That doesn’t mean that he should have assisted him,” Mom Leona cried. I shut my mouth and thought of what she might be feeling as of that moment. She was going through so much and I had no idea.“It turned out that he had a favor to repay to my husband and that was why he did it. Moreover, he was paid a very huge amount to do it and he does not feel scared of anything, not even losing his license.” She continued.“He knew what might happen and was prepared to pay the price,” I put in and she nodded her head in agreement.“We found some files, letters and flash drives
When I came out from the bathroom, Jordan was no longer in the bedroom and it made me feel worse. I changed quickly into a simple gown and flats and went downstairs. He was downstairs of course and they were all sitting at the table, waiting for me. I sighed and put on a smile on my face as I went down. Jordan got up from where he was sitting and pulled out a chair for me. It lifted my spirit and I smiled at him, but he looked away the moment our eyes met and my heart fell again.He sat back down and chatters rose around us. My entire family and friends were present and it was one of the rare moments of life that we should always cherish. It made me think of Liam and how we never actually had a decent meal with him, and now he was gone. I turned to Jordan who had a stoic expression on his face, no different on how he always did. Whenever something funny was said, he would smile with his eyes but he didn’t change his facial expression. I sighed and looked away, feeling guilty that he w
My phone rang again and I smiled as I picked up my husband call this time. “Miss me yet, wife,” he teased immediately and I groaned. “No, but the kids want you home.” “Too bad. My flight got delayed.” He sighed. “What?” I jerked up from where I sat. He chuckled. “Easy their wife. I just got to town and would be home soon,” he entered and I sighed. “Bye…” I ended the call abruptly, feeling angry at such expensive joke. I had everything ready already. After two hours, I was perfectly ready and had stepped out of the room and back down only to find out that I was a late host. Everyone was present. My parents, my sister, Tiana, Nate, Tiffany and her fiancée, Jordan’s cousins, their girlfriends, his mom, my p.a and Margaret. Yes her. she was a huge part of Jordan’s life for long and we could not let her to keep being a staff here so we freed her with a lot of money, a house, something to keep her going and a family. “I told you that she might be painting,” Julian’s loud mouth entere
FOUR YEARS AFTERI ran down the stairs, feeling completely exhausted and disheveled, not to add, disorganized and slightly angry. With my robe on, I decided to check if everything was set and ready. I couldn’t help it, it had to be perfect, it all had to be or I might lose it. Anna strolled into the house at that particular moment, and she stared at me with a wary look as I made my way to the kitchen.“Is everything alright?” she asked in her very sweet voice.“Go change and rest up,” I reprimanded. She had only just returned from college and shouldn’t be concerned by things like that, yet she was ever so humble and would in fact start on chores the moment she returns from college which was slight annoying. We made her go to college for a good reason, to better her life and not to turn out like a staff her entire life, yet she looked so dedicated to being one.“I would the moment you tell me what is wrong,” she followed behind me with dedication and became a nag that I didn’t want at
GENESISEven in my unconsciousness, I could feel that emptiness inside of me. I could feel the hole, the empty, painful hole that was once filled with life, I could feel the vacuum there. I knew that something was different and I feared what it was. When I opened my eyes, the first sight I wanted to behold was my beloved husband. His scent was the first thing I wanted to caress my nostrils, his warmth the next feel I wanted to feel against my cold skin. But he wasn’t there as I had hoped. And that had shattered whatever was left inside of me. He had threatened to leave me, maybe he did.The fear of such possibility had made me fear and panic especially when I didn’t see him around me. It scared me but the familiar faces gave me a little bit of comfort. They were family and ones I loved. They had such effect on me. Not till I recalled what happened, how I fell. My hands had voluntarily found its way to my stomach where I wanted to feel the life inside of me. I was in a hospital for sur
I could hear my baby crying in my ears. Screaming in pain and asking me why I did what I did. I could imagine the judging, hateful look those blue eyes would give to me once she opens her eyes and the pain that would show itself in those eyes of hers. The pain was enough to consume me, to burn me, to torment me. With heaviness in my chest, I looked away from her unconscious body, lying on the bed with families around her. I could not bare to look at her, I could not dare to even think of going close to her, not what after I had done.I should have been more patient, more careful, more tolerant, I should have attempted to listen to her. But I didn’t. It was not her fault and I would have accepted my own child. She came at a time that our world was dark and I was about to lose my life, she came way before I decided that I didn’t want to have a baby, and like a miracle, she survived. How I snuffed the life out of her.I would forever live with this pain, wouldn’t I? This guilt, the memor
JORDANThe scream….The screams…The scream of my wife and the staff was what it took me to stop. Fear engulfed me and swallowed me whole, leaving every anger, betrayal and pain I felt earlier. I snapped my gaze back to the direction I had come from, knowing that her scream came from there.“No…” I screamed, seeing her rolling down the stairs. I could feel life leaving me at the sight of her. My legs started towards her as fast as I could just as everyone else. She came to a halt at the edge of the step and my heart died at her position. Then the blood.“Oh God! No…no…no….”“Get the car,” I screamed, feeling tears burn my eyes while I slowly placed her head on my thighs. She was bleeding and still fucking naked with just that robe.“Get the car,” I cried at the top of my lungs, fearing for the worse. I immediately checked for her pulse, praying, hoping, wishing that it would not come to that. I might as well die if it did.We rushed her to the hospital and the doctors immediately plac
GENESISI took a longer time in the bathroom this time around. The heat and steam of the shower had become my comfort and I was scared of leaving it. I would only return to our bedroom that had turned to a hunting ground for me. Each place and thing smelt of my husband and with the feel of him reminded me of the anger he had against me and the secret I had adamantly been keeping away from him.I missed him, each part of me missed him. It was almost like life was leaving me slowly and gently, yet I couldn’t stop it. Not that I couldn’t, I still didn’t know how to. I looked down on my tummy to notice the slight bump that showed the life growing inside of me. It was still so small and with my present choice of clothing, no one could notice. But how long? He deserved to know, I had to tell him and explain to him how it all happened. I had to before I completely ruin our marriage.I sighed heavily, feeling a familiar burn in my chest area while my hand ran in a circular motion around my s
JORDANI ended the meeting and shook the hands of the Russian investors. In a polite tone and a business manner, I thanked them and watched them leave the restaurant before I left. I got to the car and thought of what was left for me to do before I returned home.The thought of home made me smile, yet it made my heart ache. I had been away for five days and things had still not changed between Genesis and I. she was hiding something from me and I was losing my mind. I picked up my phone and stared at my wallpaper for a while. It was a picture of her, sleeping, and it was the most beautiful I had seen her. But again, she was beautiful in all ways, especially when she had her blue eyes opened. My heart ached and still longed for her.Just in the nick of time, she called and my heart leaped inside my chest. I picked it up quickly because I had missed her, I missed her voice, her face, her warmth, I missed being close to her. I simply missed her.“When are you coming home?” her whinny voi
“What happened?” Tiffany pulled me into a hug the moment I walked into the house and once again, I broke down before her. She took me to the sitting room where I sat down and cried my eyes out while she soothed my hair and simply allowed me cry.I recalled the pain in my husband’s eyes when I told him that I could not tell him the truth. I recalled the hurt, the pain, the fear I saw within those gazes, it burned my chest. I had looked him in the face and told him that I could not tell him the truth. What kind of wife was I? I was breaking all the promises we made to each other and keeping this, this preciousness away from him.“What happened to her?” I heard Tiana voice as her footsteps followed too.“She came in this way,” Tiffany answered and rubbed my back gently. None of them said a thing and simply comforted me while I cried till, I could no longer do that anymore.I drank a cup of water after which and I relaxed into the couch with the heaviness of the world on me.“I still can’
Days went by with nothing much happening. Jordan was constantly busy with work or simply being a loving husband while I grew lazier by the day. It was a good thing I had subordinates to handle my business, I would have totally been thrown into the dust with the rate at which my laziness grew. I slept more, ate more, slept more again, ate even more. My taste buds were also acting different, making me want something entirely different and hating things I love too. Margaret would usually get me what I want no matter how it got and she paid even closer attention to me now.I suspect she knew exactly what was going on with me, but had not said a thing, so I was happy about it and relaxed with her. However, I tried to sleep less and control myself when my beloved husband was available.It was burdening and aching my heart as the day goes by. But what was I supposed to do? I still hadn’t found a way to tell him what it was that was going on and I still didn’t have the boldness to speak out l