After closing that door, I walked very slowly towards the stairs that led to the top floor where my room was located. I looked to the corner of the room where Julian and I had just kissed. I felt hot right away, I remembered him touching my body, the way he touched, the way he took my lips in a delicious kiss. I felt moisture gather between my legs, a cold wind came through the window and I felt a shiver as if he was breathing on me.I went up to my room and tried to forget that little moment. I laid down on my bed and stayed quiet not wanting to think about anything. Minutes later I ended up falling asleep. When I woke up later, I heard a conversation downstairs, I knew that voice well. Olivia. I got up quickly and ran down the stairs, when I got there she looked at me and opened a huge smile, we hugged as if we hadn't seen each other for a year."Look who decided to show up!" I said happy to see her."I can explain." She said in a joking tone. "How are you?" she asked."More or less
I walked all over my room without being able to sleep, I put on some series to watch but I couldn't concentrate on any, so I took them off. I took out my cell phone several times to see if I had any calls from Julian, any messages. But nothing, there was nothing. I was so attached to him in such a short time that it scared the shit out of me. Sometimes I stopped to think about what was going on and it was just too weird.My window was the one I visited the most that morning, I even spent a few minutes hugging him with the towel he dried himself with the other day, it still had his unique smell. When I realized it, I threw it into the laundry basket and looked at myself in the mirror. Furious with myself I stopped to analyze the truth. I was obsessed.When I finally managed to sleep a wink, guess who was there, dominating my dreams? Exactly him, Julian.In that dream, he was coming towards me, walking slowly like a predator about to catch its prey. His intense blue eyes were burning in
shock state. I was in shock. You know that denial inside your brain and heart, which says no, it's not what they say and you need to hear from the person's mouth that it's all a misunderstanding? I was like this. I don't know how long I stayed that way, I just know that when I realized I was lying on my bed with my grandmother and João talking in a corner of the room.I must have passed out from the wave of nervousness I felt, when I remember again I could feel immense agony, I couldn't be normal, a normal person would call the police, tell them what they knew. But I wasn't normal, I wasn't going to do that, I needed to find him again, even if I was his next victim, I didn't believe he would have the courage to hurt me. In fact, that's why he didn't stay with me when I asked. I needed to hear from his beautiful mouth that he had done it all."Daughter, you woke up!" Exclaimed my grandmother with a look of relief coming towards me. "How are you feeling?" She asked caressing my face. I
I went back to where I was, when a few seconds later Harry left. I suppose he lied to me when he said he was João's neighbor. The last time he saw me with Harry, Julian had such a meltdown that I still didn't understand what had happened. That's when I had a stupidly brilliant idea; would kiss Harry. At that moment I didn't know what I was doing, it was wrong, Harry didn't deserve it, nobody deserved to be used. But only I would know.My heart was still racing and my hands were sweating, adrenaline coursing through my veins. Since when had I become that? Desperate for a man's attention, Julian's exactly. Even willing to kiss Harry Barriere to awaken in him the rage he felt the other day. But from the moment I laid eyes on that man, those eyes, that smile, it got worse after we kissed intensely in my house. I could disregard myself as a normal person."Let's go?" Harry said smiling and only then did I notice how handsome he was too, of course he couldn't compare to Julian but his smile
The clothes I was wearing were completely wrinkled, my hair messed up as if I had just gotten out of a fight, my lips swollen and my breathing labored. Julian was no different, his nice suit and shirt were wrinkled and a few buttons undone on his pants. Her hair was also messed up and her mouth wet for me.Both paralyzed looking at each other, and I had no idea what I would say to my grandmother if she asked me what happened to me in there. Another beat had me breathing again and coming to my senses. I pushed Julian into the bathroom and closed the door. I looked at the mirror that was glued behind the door and quickly fixed my hair, covered myself with a sheet and opened the door."Hi Grandma." I said smiling nervously."Are you well?" She asked examining me with her eyes."Yes, I was watching a movie on my phone and fell asleep." I responded hurriedly and faked a sneeze. "I think I'm catching a cold.""I see, your lips are very red. I'll get you some syrup my love." She said with a
After Julian had said that, an internal conflict began within me, my subconscious, still normal, told me to go back home, ask him to take me back and never see him again, leave him together with his baggage of suffering and obscurity. for there. But on the other side, there was the part that was winning the war, my heart wanted him, that damn handsome man, my body wanted it, and my heart too. He asked me to listen to him and help him with whatever it was."We're here." Said Julian after driving for about fifty minutes."What place is this?" I asked looking around. Julian still silently got me out of the car.The place was surrounded by several trees, in the distance you could see a house, looking more like a chalet. It was perfect, all dark wood and very well maintained. In its upper part there was a small balcony in the shape of a triangle, the lower part had its glass windows with white curtains that could be seen from the outside. In front of the small house or cottage, there was a
We were there, sitting on that couch in silence for a few seconds before he started talking. At that moment I didn't know if I really wanted to know everything, if that by chance could keep us apart. But it was important to know, I needed to hear him and he needed to talk too. Julian took a long breath and began:"Have you heard of arranged marriages?" He asked me and I nodded. "That's how it all started, it was two families, the Vicenzo's and the Roman's. Listen to me carefully, now I'm going to tell you a story.""I'm listening…" I replied quietly and gave him a steady look, he had to know I was willing to listen to him."On the 19th of February 1980 in Billericay, UK, two babies were born, a boy into the Vicenzo family and a girl into the Roman family. That boy was me and the girl was Brenda Roman. Our parents in agreement years before We were born ordained a wedding for both of us. As we were totally manipulated by them, we turned eighteen and got married in a huge and unnecessary
I don't know at what point, but after making out with Julian on the couch, I fell asleep. I realized when I slowly opened my eyes and felt his big, warm body next to mine, it was one of the best sensations I've ever felt before. I lifted my head slowly and quickly felt the muscles in his chest tighten."I woke you up?" he asked hoarsely."No... You didn't sleep?" I asked sitting down on the couch."No, today you didn't sing Julian's friends song." He said and gave a slight smile."Want me to sing?" I asked smiling."If you want, yes. But I wanted to take advantage of your waking up." He said getting up too and coming to me."Oh yeah? And for what?" I asked in a teasing tone."For that." He spoke and pulled me in giving me a kiss. An intense and hot kiss."If that was it, why didn't you wake me up right away?" I answered and kissed him again with heavy breathing. I mentally thanked Julian for showing me what it was like to kiss, it was very good, with him it was very good.We stopped a
"It turned out really good!" I exclaimed admiring our model of the Eiffel Tower assembled just the way we wanted it."It turned out much better than I imagined." Harry agreed smiling."Glad we got this done." I sighed mentally. I looked at my fingers and they were all covered in ink and colored glue."Was it torturous like that?" he asked."What?" I asked confused by being distracted."Doing the job with me. Was it that bad, being in my company?" He asked, I thought the face he made was so cute that all I did was laugh."Of course not Harry. At first you were quite grumpy, let's be honest. But now you're reasonable..." I admitted."So... Will you agree to go out with me?" I widened my eyes, totally taken back by his proposal. Harry scratched his head, and looked to the side, looking nervous."Harry…" I started to speak but he cut me off."I get it! You don't want to go out with a troubled guy like me. Let me take this model to class tomorrow, I'll take you home now." He exclaimed pick
I arrived home with heavy breathing. The day was cloudy but I felt hot because of the fast pedaling I did. What took me fifteen minutes every day, I took eleven that day. I was strangely eager to get into that house and find out more about Harry's family.I really intended to be friends with him, I didn't know much about him but he seemed emotionally unstable, I could tell by some things he said without meaning to. Perhaps he lacked the attention of his parents or his family."Is anyone home?" I asked as soon as I walked in after putting my bike away."I'm here, honey." My grandmother screamed from the kitchen. I went there and came across a gentleman, apparently the same age as grandma."Hello." I greeted."Hello everything is fine?" he asked."All yes." I replied."Daughter, this is Arthur Mollina. Arthur, this is my granddaughter Eloise." She introduced us."Pleased to meet you, miss. I want you to know that your grandmother is very important to me, right now." He said smiling at m
After the breakthrough Julian and I had, nothing but that happened. We went back to his small but perfect cabin."I think I'm going to turn on my cell phone, I need to know what's going on. If my grandmother called, if João said something... It's already dawn and I have to go back home, I have class and work I do." I spoke while Julian was in the kitchen making coffee."I think it's okay." Julian said, but I was still worried.I grabbed my cell phone off the table and turned it on. After a few minutes it only vibrated twice. It was a message from each one, Florence and João.Grandma: It's okay, I'm sorry I can't come home today. But your grandmother deserves a treat. I'm sure you'll be fine with your friends. Kiss, I love you.How could my grandmother be so wonderful? I didn't know how she existed, she was the best woman and grandmother in the whole world, she was always so dedicated to me that she deserved a lot of leisure, dating, going out and having fun, throughout my childhood I
I don't know at what point, but after making out with Julian on the couch, I fell asleep. I realized when I slowly opened my eyes and felt his big, warm body next to mine, it was one of the best sensations I've ever felt before. I lifted my head slowly and quickly felt the muscles in his chest tighten."I woke you up?" he asked hoarsely."No... You didn't sleep?" I asked sitting down on the couch."No, today you didn't sing Julian's friends song." He said and gave a slight smile."Want me to sing?" I asked smiling."If you want, yes. But I wanted to take advantage of your waking up." He said getting up too and coming to me."Oh yeah? And for what?" I asked in a teasing tone."For that." He spoke and pulled me in giving me a kiss. An intense and hot kiss."If that was it, why didn't you wake me up right away?" I answered and kissed him again with heavy breathing. I mentally thanked Julian for showing me what it was like to kiss, it was very good, with him it was very good.We stopped a
We were there, sitting on that couch in silence for a few seconds before he started talking. At that moment I didn't know if I really wanted to know everything, if that by chance could keep us apart. But it was important to know, I needed to hear him and he needed to talk too. Julian took a long breath and began:"Have you heard of arranged marriages?" He asked me and I nodded. "That's how it all started, it was two families, the Vicenzo's and the Roman's. Listen to me carefully, now I'm going to tell you a story.""I'm listening…" I replied quietly and gave him a steady look, he had to know I was willing to listen to him."On the 19th of February 1980 in Billericay, UK, two babies were born, a boy into the Vicenzo family and a girl into the Roman family. That boy was me and the girl was Brenda Roman. Our parents in agreement years before We were born ordained a wedding for both of us. As we were totally manipulated by them, we turned eighteen and got married in a huge and unnecessary
After Julian had said that, an internal conflict began within me, my subconscious, still normal, told me to go back home, ask him to take me back and never see him again, leave him together with his baggage of suffering and obscurity. for there. But on the other side, there was the part that was winning the war, my heart wanted him, that damn handsome man, my body wanted it, and my heart too. He asked me to listen to him and help him with whatever it was."We're here." Said Julian after driving for about fifty minutes."What place is this?" I asked looking around. Julian still silently got me out of the car.The place was surrounded by several trees, in the distance you could see a house, looking more like a chalet. It was perfect, all dark wood and very well maintained. In its upper part there was a small balcony in the shape of a triangle, the lower part had its glass windows with white curtains that could be seen from the outside. In front of the small house or cottage, there was a
The clothes I was wearing were completely wrinkled, my hair messed up as if I had just gotten out of a fight, my lips swollen and my breathing labored. Julian was no different, his nice suit and shirt were wrinkled and a few buttons undone on his pants. Her hair was also messed up and her mouth wet for me.Both paralyzed looking at each other, and I had no idea what I would say to my grandmother if she asked me what happened to me in there. Another beat had me breathing again and coming to my senses. I pushed Julian into the bathroom and closed the door. I looked at the mirror that was glued behind the door and quickly fixed my hair, covered myself with a sheet and opened the door."Hi Grandma." I said smiling nervously."Are you well?" She asked examining me with her eyes."Yes, I was watching a movie on my phone and fell asleep." I responded hurriedly and faked a sneeze. "I think I'm catching a cold.""I see, your lips are very red. I'll get you some syrup my love." She said with a
I went back to where I was, when a few seconds later Harry left. I suppose he lied to me when he said he was João's neighbor. The last time he saw me with Harry, Julian had such a meltdown that I still didn't understand what had happened. That's when I had a stupidly brilliant idea; would kiss Harry. At that moment I didn't know what I was doing, it was wrong, Harry didn't deserve it, nobody deserved to be used. But only I would know.My heart was still racing and my hands were sweating, adrenaline coursing through my veins. Since when had I become that? Desperate for a man's attention, Julian's exactly. Even willing to kiss Harry Barriere to awaken in him the rage he felt the other day. But from the moment I laid eyes on that man, those eyes, that smile, it got worse after we kissed intensely in my house. I could disregard myself as a normal person."Let's go?" Harry said smiling and only then did I notice how handsome he was too, of course he couldn't compare to Julian but his smile
shock state. I was in shock. You know that denial inside your brain and heart, which says no, it's not what they say and you need to hear from the person's mouth that it's all a misunderstanding? I was like this. I don't know how long I stayed that way, I just know that when I realized I was lying on my bed with my grandmother and João talking in a corner of the room.I must have passed out from the wave of nervousness I felt, when I remember again I could feel immense agony, I couldn't be normal, a normal person would call the police, tell them what they knew. But I wasn't normal, I wasn't going to do that, I needed to find him again, even if I was his next victim, I didn't believe he would have the courage to hurt me. In fact, that's why he didn't stay with me when I asked. I needed to hear from his beautiful mouth that he had done it all."Daughter, you woke up!" Exclaimed my grandmother with a look of relief coming towards me. "How are you feeling?" She asked caressing my face. I