"Can you make it to soccer practice tomorrow? I could really use your help Araya."
I give my dad a blank stare. My dad has been calling football soccer, lifts elevators and our flat an apartment for sometime now. It has started to really get on my nerves. How long before crisps become chips and chips become fries? How long before he forgets all about them? Based on the extreme progress he has made within just a year of us moving here, not very long.
"Araya?"Dad prods gently, "You know at one point you are going to have to get yourself back to the pitch, don't you?"
"I go to the pitch plenty Dad, don't worry about me."
He sighs, a sigh that tells me he worries about me anyway, probably more than I will ever know.
"I meant back to the field to coach."
"I am not a coach."
"You used to be. A pretty good one too, if I may say so myself."
"Now I don't."
Dad looks down at his coffee mug and swirls the contents before he takes a tentative sip. For a guy in his late forties, dad really looks great. There is no hint of grey in his brown mane of hair, and it's still a full head. His eyes are a muddy brown, complexion neither too pale nor too tan. No sign of wrinkles, except the laugh lines that can only be seen if he smiles. Dressed in his usual dark jeans and white shirt, he could pass for an average American dad, and that's what he aims for.
If you googled my dad's name, you will find a list of accolades, photos and videos under his name. He used to be a famous footballer. He played in the premier league, Serie A and represented England twice at the world cup. He has a total of 102 caps for his country and over 400 for for the clubs he represented. One of the top scorers of his time, he is considered a football legend by the fans of the game. In fact, the 'Turner' number 10 jersey is still on sale, several years after he retired.
However, if you passed my dad on the street, you will never look at him twice. You will never imagine that he and Michael Turner are the same person. He is a master at blending in and hiding in plane sight. It has been a year since we moved to Texas, and no one has even made the connection despite the fact that he uses his real name.
I think the blending in was a survival mechanism against the intense media scrutiny he used to receive as a player. Dad had to learn to cope, and he did it by making himself invisible, average, someone who is not worth a second glance.
I inherited the blending in gene fully. I like to keep the attention away from myself. As a result, I try to look average, act average, just fly under the radar. I keep my hair straight, in a simple ponytail, and it helps draw attention away from my slightly darker skin tone. If I kept it in it's natural state, I will become the 'curly haired girl' and everyone will know me. I dress like an average teenager and live like one too.
My sister, Sky, had been the opposite. She had loved attention, always soaking it in like a sponge. Happy to bask in the moment and be the centre of attention. She had kept her hair curly, her clothes stylish and her make up on point. Maybe our opposing personalities were the reason we always got along so well. She was happy to take the attention away from my hands, and I was happy to let her.
Before we moved to Texas, my dad had worked as a premier league coach assistant in England. As always, he was happy to stay behind the scenes and coach as a tactician while the head coach took all the glory during the match. Sky and I grew up on the pitch. Name for me a player and I will tell you if he is right footed or left footed, his total caps for his club, and how much he is worth.
While Sky had hoped to grow up to be a commentetor, a referee, or a player,my career path had always been very clear, I wanted to be a player's agent. I wanted to be that person who worked the little details behind the scenes so that the players could shine. To support me, dad helped register and start an agency when I turned sixteen. It has now been in operation for almost two years, and I already had five players signed up and a completed transfer under my belt, not bad at all.
When we moved to Texas, dad took up a job as the coach of my school's football team, or soccer team as they call it here. I really don't understand Americans, I think they just do some things to be controversial. Football should be just football, it's a ball played by the feet for heaven's sake. I am still arguing with my grammar teacher about color and colour, the way they spell words is just weird.
For a long time, dad has been asking me to come help him coach the team, and always refuse. I am done coaching. All want to do is focus on growing my agency, finish my senior year and get myself into a good college. The worst thing I can ever do for my blending in act is to show up at a boys' soccer practice and try to talk tactics. They won't even listen to me if I tried. So I politely decline my dad's request.
He stands up and runs a smooths back my hair, placing a kiss at the top of my head, "Okay then," he says, "have a great first day at school."
"Thanks dad."
A car hoots in the distance and I grab my back and rush out. Paige's car is parked right in front of the building. I smile as I descend the stairs to join her.
I do not know what I would have done without Paige. Paige was out neighbor's daughter, and to say she had helped me settle in would be a huge understatement. We had moved here in August. Paige and I became instant friends in that last month of summer. It was Paige who talked to me constantly and helped draw me out of my pain. It was Paige who introduced me to people and made me interesting on the first day of school. Hell, it was only because of Paige that I was even semi-popular now. Paige has always seen me, no matter how invisible I tried to be.As we walked the hallway leading to the lockers, I could sense the jealous glances that were being thrown my way by other girls. I am sure most of them wish to be in my place, sidekick to the most popular senior.Paige has been popular her whole life I guess. Surprisingly, she isn't mean, nei
Okay, I am not some weird online stalker, I swear it. I am not one of those girls who creates a fake account just to stalk the guy they like. I had created the online account in Sky's name to deal with the pain of losing her. Sky and I had been identical twins. We had once upon a time looked alike, but when we started to grow up, our personalities became too different that the resemblance always went unnoticed.Sky passed away a year ago. After weeks in therapy, hours of crying myself to sleep and several cowardly attempts to end my own life, I finally found a way to cope. I decided to keep Sky alive online. So I created an account, enrolled her in online classes that I took for her and made friends for her. It was a good way to live one life for the two of us. I gave online Sky our mother's surname to avoid confusion with her former account, which was quite popular when she was alive.As long as Sky lived online, I could at least put away some guilt at being the twin
I hate to admit it, but Raven is right, it is awkward not having a boyfriend. By the end of the day, Pierce and Raven are kind of official so it is just me and Henry, and I am sure Henry is going to get a girlfriend soon.Cory sits on the luxurious couch at Pierce's house, absently twirling a lock of Paige's hair in his hand. Paige's head is in his lap, her long tan legs spread out on the couch, she is reading a novel. Raven is in the kitchen, already thinking of herself as Mrs Son and fetching our snacks. I sit at the breakfast table with both my homework and Pierce's history homework spread before me. Pierce sits opposite me, his homework is a lot more than mine because he is taking extra classes, all of them advanced. Henry has excused himself on pretext of lacrosse practice, but I have a feeling he is avoiding me."Homework on the first day of school? AP classes are the freaking worst," Paige comments, turning a page."Why do you even take them?" Raven asks
I can't believe the nerve of that girl Raven. She goes to home, runs to mummy and accuses me of bullying her. I haven't told my dad about the incidence, so when Raven's mum waltzes into our apartment, looking furious, dad it a little startled."Your daughter has been bullying my daughter," Raven's mom says angrily, "Did you know that?"Dad gives her a confused look and turns to me with a frown, "What?""Your daughter has been bullying my daughter Raven.""Okay. Weird," dad mumbles under his breath, "I do not understand you very well Mrs...""Furlough. Call me Cassy. We have met several times now."It is clear from the way she is saying it that she thinks my dad is an irresponsible parent."Right. Sorry, I am not good with names or faces.""That's okay. What do you have to say for your daughter?"Dad gives me a quick look before he turns back to Raven's mom, "Did you say she is bullying Raven?""Yes. She forced Rav
Gunther tells me a little about the Saturday game's tactics and what he is doing to get better and I tell him about the incidence with Raven.He doubles over in laughter when I tell her about spitting on her because he is the one who taught me that tactic."I hope you made a nice generous gob and spit it like you are tired after an exhausting game.""Oh, trust me, I did."Then suddenly, his face grows serious, "Was she right?""About what?""You know, about you being too pretty for us poor black boys?""That's the stupidest thing. You know I like black boys plenty. Just not Henry."
Gunther tells me a little about the Saturday game's tactics and what he is doing to get better and I tell him about the incidence with Raven.He doubles over in laughter when I tell her about spitting on her because he is the one who taught me that tactic."I hope you made a nice generous gob and spit it like you are tired after an exhausting game.""Oh, trust me, I did."Then suddenly, his face grows serious, "Was she right?""About what?""You know, about you being too pretty for us poor black boys?""That's the stupidest thing. You know I like black boys plenty. Just not Henry."
I can't believe the nerve of that girl Raven. She goes to home, runs to mummy and accuses me of bullying her. I haven't told my dad about the incidence, so when Raven's mum waltzes into our apartment, looking furious, dad it a little startled."Your daughter has been bullying my daughter," Raven's mom says angrily, "Did you know that?"Dad gives her a confused look and turns to me with a frown, "What?""Your daughter has been bullying my daughter Raven.""Okay. Weird," dad mumbles under his breath, "I do not understand you very well Mrs...""Furlough. Call me Cassy. We have met several times now."It is clear from the way she is saying it that she thinks my dad is an irresponsible parent."Right. Sorry, I am not good with names or faces.""That's okay. What do you have to say for your daughter?"Dad gives me a quick look before he turns back to Raven's mom, "Did you say she is bullying Raven?""Yes. She forced Rav
I hate to admit it, but Raven is right, it is awkward not having a boyfriend. By the end of the day, Pierce and Raven are kind of official so it is just me and Henry, and I am sure Henry is going to get a girlfriend soon.Cory sits on the luxurious couch at Pierce's house, absently twirling a lock of Paige's hair in his hand. Paige's head is in his lap, her long tan legs spread out on the couch, she is reading a novel. Raven is in the kitchen, already thinking of herself as Mrs Son and fetching our snacks. I sit at the breakfast table with both my homework and Pierce's history homework spread before me. Pierce sits opposite me, his homework is a lot more than mine because he is taking extra classes, all of them advanced. Henry has excused himself on pretext of lacrosse practice, but I have a feeling he is avoiding me."Homework on the first day of school? AP classes are the freaking worst," Paige comments, turning a page."Why do you even take them?" Raven asks
Okay, I am not some weird online stalker, I swear it. I am not one of those girls who creates a fake account just to stalk the guy they like. I had created the online account in Sky's name to deal with the pain of losing her. Sky and I had been identical twins. We had once upon a time looked alike, but when we started to grow up, our personalities became too different that the resemblance always went unnoticed.Sky passed away a year ago. After weeks in therapy, hours of crying myself to sleep and several cowardly attempts to end my own life, I finally found a way to cope. I decided to keep Sky alive online. So I created an account, enrolled her in online classes that I took for her and made friends for her. It was a good way to live one life for the two of us. I gave online Sky our mother's surname to avoid confusion with her former account, which was quite popular when she was alive.As long as Sky lived online, I could at least put away some guilt at being the twin
I do not know what I would have done without Paige. Paige was out neighbor's daughter, and to say she had helped me settle in would be a huge understatement. We had moved here in August. Paige and I became instant friends in that last month of summer. It was Paige who talked to me constantly and helped draw me out of my pain. It was Paige who introduced me to people and made me interesting on the first day of school. Hell, it was only because of Paige that I was even semi-popular now. Paige has always seen me, no matter how invisible I tried to be.As we walked the hallway leading to the lockers, I could sense the jealous glances that were being thrown my way by other girls. I am sure most of them wish to be in my place, sidekick to the most popular senior.Paige has been popular her whole life I guess. Surprisingly, she isn't mean, nei
"Can you make it to soccer practice tomorrow? I could really use your help Araya."I give my dad a blank stare. My dad has been calling football soccer, lifts elevators and our flat an apartment for sometime now. It has started to really get on my nerves. How long before crisps become chips and chips become fries? How long before he forgets all about them? Based on the extreme progress he has made within just a year of us moving here, not very long."Araya?"Dad prods gently, "You know at one point you are going to have to get yourself back to the pitch, don't you?""I go to the pitch plenty Dad, don't worry about me."He sighs, a sigh that tells me he worries about me anyway, probably more than I will ever know.