Dwight was wearing a blue longsleeve shirt. His hair was neatly brushed. Hindi naman halata sa kanyang nag-handa siya para rito. He brought two bouquet of flowers. He gave the other one to me which I gladly accepted. Dwight's really the type of guy you won't help but to fall in love with him each day.
"You don't need to do this," I said.
"I want to. Besides, I want to get to know your loved ones." Ngumitin siya.
He told me yesterday that he wanted to meet my parents. He wanted to formally introduced himself to them. Daddy went home yesterday so he's here. Minsan uuwi siya rito, minsan uuwi sa babae niya. And what infuriates me is my mommy's letting him do that.
"Are you nervous?" I asked when he held my hand. It was cold and sweat
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I stayed the night checking upon Mommy here in the hospital. Although we often fight, she's still my mother. Mothers are incomparable. I love my Mommy and I would never trade her for anything in this world.Dwight wanted to stay here with me but I told him not to. He messaged me a while ago that he'd visit tomorrow.I angrily rose to my feet when I saw my father walking towards me. He still had the guts despite of what he did. I was pretty sure that it was his fault."Why are you here, Dad? Don't tell me you're happy seeing Mommy's condition." I was taken aback when he slapped me. My cheeks stinged. I remained neutral. "Now you're hurting me...""Careful with you words," may pagbabantang sabi niya."Why would I be? With a person like you?" I scoffed. I knew I was being disrespectful but he deserved it after all the havoc he caused! I hate that his blood runs over my system."I hate you, Dad! I hate you!" I yelled. Mas mab
I called Dwight for several times but his phone was off. Hindi kasi ako sanay na hindi siya nagre-reply. He'll alway flood me messages in the morning. I felt my day incomplete. The male professor began writing the lesson for this day. Hindi ko maintindihan ang nasa harap. My thoughts are only filled with my boyfriend. I miss Dwight. "Ynares, Jezrel Tanya." Naputol ako sa aking pag-iisip nang marinig kong tinawag ang pangalan ko. My eyes shifted on him, wondering why she was calling me. "Is Ms. Ynares around?" Kunot noo akong tumingin kay Kiana. "Why is she calling me?" "You are being called in a recitation," she answered. I mentally rolled my eyes. Itinaas ko ang kamay ko.
My lips curled up in both corners when Dwight's name flashed on the screen. I answered the call right away."Hello, babe..." Masiglang bati ko."Babe." Malambing niyang bati sa kabilang linya."What happened to you, Dwight? Bakit hindi ka nagpaparamdam?" may pagtatampong tinig ko."I'm sorry... I got busy with stuffs." I heard him breathed. Napapikit ako nang mariin. Busy? What did he mean?"Saan ka busy?""Babe, kailangan kong mag-pa-good shot sa parents ko. I attended a fare and I wasn't able to bring my phone with me. Sobrang pagod ako." He explained."Maiinitindihan ko naman 'yon, Dwight. You could've atleast told me. Hindi 'yung nangangapa ako kung anong nangyayari sa'yo." I tried my best to muffle a sob. "Hindi ba dapat nag-uupdate ka sa akin? Communication, Dwight. Iyon lang naman ang hinihingi ko sa'yo.""I know, babe. I'm sorry. Kaya nga nakiusap ako kay Asher para sunduin kita."Nanatili akong tahimik par
The next day, I was busy with loads of works to do. Sunod sunod ang pinapaggawa ng mga professors sa iba't-ibang subjects. Hindi ko maatim tingnan 'yung bagong professor namin. He's still creeping me out! He's still giving me meaningful stares. I wanted to tear off his face. Gusto kong sabihin kay Dwight pero ayokong makadagdag ng alalahanin niya.Kiana didn't go to school so I spent my day alone. I would rather go alone rather than associate myself with my classmates.Dwight sent me a message a while ago which made me relieved. Balak ko rin sanang bisitahin siya sa practice niya. Malapit na rin ang championship game. He'll be busier but like what I told him, I'd be supporting him.Dumiretso ako sa cafeteria. After buying my lunch, I looked for an empty table. I was seated near the rowdy crowd of freshmen. They looked carefree. They had this vibrant energy which I envy. Ganyan din ako dati noong mga panahong hindi pa busy sa pag-aaral."OMG fr
Kinuha ko ang phone ko sa ibabaw ng drawer ko sa kwarto saka nagtipa ng mensahe.Ako:Thank you so much, Asher. Thank you. Drive safely.Hindi ko alam kung ano ang pumasok sa isipan ko. I was just so curious. That's it. I searched for Asher's account in the facebook but I don't know his surname. Hindi na ako nagtangka pang hanapin pa ang pangalan niya. I was about to log out when I saw my friend request. I blinked, trying to process what I've seen.Seryoso?It was a friend request from Asher. So, his full name's Asher Geoff Guevarra. I clicked his profile. His picture screams that he's a bad boy at first glance. Nakaupo siya sa may court suot ang kanyang basketball jeans. Ang kamay niya'y parehong nasa likuran. His arms were flexed and bulging. Any woman would be smitten by the facial features he holds. Right. He's got the face but the attitude, nakaka-turn off.Nakita ko pa ang number ng followers n'ya. They were thousands of them. Sikat di
The next day, I forwarded the photos to our dean and the school's president. She wanted the evidence. So, I gave her it.Paano kung ganoon din ang mangyari sa anak n'yang babae? Paano rin kung ibang kababaihan ay mas malala pa ang naranasan kaysa sa akin? Si Kiana na malapit sa akin ay nagawan ng kahayupan ng lalaking 'yon. Paano ang iba na paulit-ulit ding nakakaranas ng pang-aabuso mula sa kalalakihan? At, ang mas masahol pa rito ay kaya pa nilang magising araw-araw aninmo'y walang ginawang kasalanan.Hindi lang iisa ang biktima niya. At nakakalungkot isipin na kung sino pa ang tinitingalaan ng iba ay ganito kasahol. I was even thinking to post the photos anonymously in the facebook but I thought that would be too much.Sinama ko na rin si Sir Ramos. I posted on our school's freedom wall and there were a lot of students who also complained. The news sparked like a wild fire in the campus. Everyone wasn't expecting that to happen. Pagbabayaran niya ang gi
"I told you that you are not a bother. Stop opposing me and get in the car." He ordered. “Tsaka malabo na hindi tayo magkita, Jezrel. Girlfriend ka ng kaibigan ko. We will always bump to each other no matter what.”We were now at his car and nobody spoke. Napansin ko namang hindi kami patungo sa daan papunta sa amin."Where are we going?" Hindi siya sumagot. "Asher, I asked you, where are we heading to?""You'll see.” My forehead knitted in confusion. Hindi ko talaga maisip kung paano sila naging mag-kaibigan ni Dwight. One is playful, the other one is as cold as ice."You really don't want to stay with me, right?" Tumingin ako sa kanya."Hindi naman. I mean.. Uhh..–" The hell, Jezrel. Why can't you compose yourself?"I understand. I am not someone who's easy to deal with. But, you only see a part of me but not the whole me."&n
"Ako na." Pinigilan ko ang kamay ni Asher nang akma niyang babayaran ang iced coffee. I don't want to owe him another favor."No. Ako na. You went all the way here, ito na lang kahit papaano pambayad ko." Kontra niya pa."But I don't want you paying for me.""Then you'll pay next time. Okay na?"I pouted before I nodded. "Okay."After he found a seat for us, we settled there. Humigop ako ng iced coffee saka umiwas ng tingin. What would I be telling him of the reason why I was here? Hindi ko naman puwedeng sabihing naligaw din ako tulad ng parati niyang sinasabi. Gosh. Hindi ko rin maintindihan sarili ko."You okay?" he asked. Inangat ko ang ulo ko saka tumango. "You should've texted me that you'll go here.""Ano namang masama kung pumunta ako rito? Besides, I want to roam around your university, too. Saka, gusto kong makita ang mga iskolar ng bayan. I am not here for you." I almost scoffed with my words. Hindi ko alam kung kapani-pani
Asher and Jezrel were happy with their family. Jezrel was now pregnant with their second child. Saksi ako sa mga napagdaanan nila. The smile on their faces was vivid. They looked so madly in love with each other. I couldn't ask for more.I guess this is how it ends. My first love whom I offered the world before finally settled with someone she chose to keep with for lifetime.Marco and Samara on the other hand, was happy too. I heard from him that Samara was pregnant with their third child. Sobrang sipag ng mokong. Natawa ako sa isipan ko.Johnson also finally got married. Akala nga namin ay walang balak eh. Pa'no 'tong tropa namin kahit dati takot mag-commit. Parang tanga. Nasaktan kasi 'yan dati kaya takot magmahal. But now look at him, he's now building a family with the love of his life and someone who she chose to keep with.Napangiti ako kapag iniisip ang mga pinagdaanan
"How sure are you with me?" She asked when we got home. We were lying on the bed while her arms are wrapped around me."I felt it. Ikaw lang gusto kong makasama, Sandra. Wala na akong ibang maisip na makasama kung hindi ikaw."Napangiti siya nang malawak. "Yieeee, kilig yarn?" pang-aasar ko pa."Edi wow, Dwight. S'yempre sure ka na sa akin. Ako ba naman pakakasalanan mo eh. Malamang sa malamang," pagmamayabang niya pa. Pinisil ko ang kanyang pisngi."Confident, huh?""S'yempre." Ngumisi siya. "I don't regret talking to you that night."Bigla ko rin naalala kung paano kami nagkita nang gabing iyon. When everything was blurry but then she came and gave me the light I was once hindered of. No'ng mga panahon na 'yon halos nabaliw ako sa ginawa ni Jezrel sa akin, pero ngayon makilala ko si Sandra. Worth it lahat nang nangyari. H
We try to work things out kahit may mga pagkakataon na hindi talaga kami nakakapag-usap nang maayos. Tulad ngayon, binabaan niya ako ng telepono. I vented out my frustrations on her which I shouldn't. I would be starting another project and it was killing me. Hindi na lang ako basta manggagawa, my father appointed me as the new president since he retired. And everything was heavy these days. Alam ko namang mali ako sa ginawa ko and I already apologized her. But she was not talking to me. Ito na yata ang pinaka-matagal sa phase ng relasyon namin na hindi kami nakapag-usap.I went to bar for a drink. It has already been days since Asher had been released. Unang hinanap nito ay alak. Baliw talaga 'tong mokong na 'to. Niyaya ko siyang uminom. Good thing, he was available."Nakausap mo na ba?" He inquired holding the glass of whiskey in his hands. Inikot ikot niya pa ito habang pinagmamasdan ang mga tao. He might really have missed the air outside. Lalo na dahil malakas tal
The first two months of not being with each other was so difficult. I wonder how do couples with long distance relationship? Never have I ever thought I would be in this state. My woman was away with me pursuing her dream and I was left alone here.Our communication was okay. It was more than okay. I had difficulty adjusting with her time zone but I was trying hard for her and she also did the same.I've seen her fashion walks online and her name was starting to become quite popular. She was new on that field but she managed to fight all the hurdles on her own. I couldn't be more proud with her.I already took the bath and today was our schedule for video call in Face Time. I was too to reach her but there wasn't response. Nag-message na ako sa kanya pero wala pa rin. This was the hardest being in this situation. You cannot just go to her when you want to. I was also busy with several projects. Inis kong bingasak ang phone ko dahil hindi pa rin siya sumasagot.
One night when we were at her condo. Sandra broke a news that made my heart devastated."I'm going to work abroad," she said.My eyes widened and my muscles tensed. "Why?" I tried to remain calm even though my voice was about to betray me."Napag-isipan ko na 'to matagal na. I want to pursue my modeling career abroad.""Are you sure? Or baka nagmamadali ka lang?""Yes, Dwight. I have to do this. I was scouted for a fashion week in Paris.""What about us?" I asked with my voice broke. "What about me, Sandra?"She cupped my face. "We can still work our relationship naman. We won't lose our connection.""I can't... Sandra... Mababaliw ako 'pag hindi makita."Her eyes brimmed with years. "Dwight naman... Please allow me to go. This is for me. Kaya naman nating gawan ng paraan, e. LDR
Alessandra feels home. Whenever I'm tired from work, I would go straight into her condo and sleep there. Mas madalas na nga akong matulog sa kanila kaysa sa bahay ko. She was no on the kitchen cooking when I went to her. Sa tuwing nakikita ko siya ay palagi akong nakangiti. Maingat na naglakad ako papalapit sa likiran niya. I hugged her and planted little kisses on her neck. "Stop it," she mumbled. The grin on my face did not disappear as I continued giving her sweet kisses on her neck until it reached her earlobe which was her sensitive part. "Ano ba, Dwight, parang tanga." She turned around to face me. Nakuha niya pa akong irapan bago ibinalik ang tingin sa ginagaw
"Do I have another scheduled appointment?" I asked my secretary beside me."None for today, Sir," he replied."That's nice. Sa wakas." I massaged my temple. It's been an exhausting day. My eyes were tightly shut. When was the last time I had a proper rest?Kanina lamang bumisita kami sa site para sa bagong project. Some Engineers were also with me. Bumalik naman kami bago mag-lunch."So, magbabakasyon ka talaga?" Johnson asked me while we were at his pad. Pagkatapos kong mag-trabaho ay dumiretso ako sa kanila. There's nothing to anticipate life these days. It feels like I'm just floating in the air, waiting to die. This feeling sucks. Ang mga kaibigan ko masaya. Si Marco ay may bagong anak. Si Johnson naman ay may pinakilalang babae k
Just when I thought I won't be seeing this woman, I saw her again right in front of my eyes, still surprise of our another encounter. Funny how the destiny was playing with us.She sat down across me. I recalled how we ended up at her condo. We shared about each other's agony that time when we were in a bar drinking. I was grateful for her staying with me the whole time. That was the moment I had someone I shared my burdens with. That was nice, honestly. We were both each other's company. I thought I won't be seeing her again. She was a stranger and still a stranger. She looked frustrated though. Marahil ay dahil nahihiya rin siya sa mga naikuwento niya."I didn't expect this." Pinaypayan niya pa ang sarili. Kumuha siya ng isang basong tubig saka uminom. Ganoon din ako. "Do you like me?" I almost spitted the water on my mouth with how b
When you're cheated, what should be the first thing to do? To blame yourself over and over again, asking yourself what have gotten wrong? Or to hate those who cheated behind your back? To tell you honestly, I didn't know what to feel. My mind went blank and the first thing that popped out was to get my gun. When Jezrel told me she was pregnant. My body was numb. Asher, my best friend, my brother whom I trusted the most betrayed me. Gusto ko siyang saktan nang saktan! Pinaulanan ko siya ng suntok. Because the fuck, what did I even do to deserve this? Alam ko naman may kasalanan ako. Pero tangina bakit sa lahat ng tao kaibigan ko pa? I kept on punching him. I was livid! Paano nila