Eira It had been days since I told Sebastian to leave. Since I've last seen him. Liam was no longer bubbly and full of sunshine. He was reserved, preferred to be with only his teddy bear and Maybe I imagined but there was a certain look in his eyes that he regarded me with. Maybe he was disappointed. I was disappointed in myself too. Somehow, all I managed to do was just end up making things worse than they already were. Liam didn't even come down for dinner today. There was this empty look in his eyes each time I saw him, it held a sort of similarity to the hollow feeling that I felt in my chest. Sometimes when Liam thought I couldn't hear him, he would cry in his bedroom. I would cry too because I knew all I ever did now was cause the two men that I loved so much, pain. Things were just beginning to get better. Sebastian was willing to make an effort and I ruined it, because that's all I ever do. Ruin things. Tonight is a painful reminder of how empty I'm feeling, I can barely thi
Eira "You need to get it together, Eira. If you continue like this, you won't be able to make it to Sebastian." Laura chided as she stood at the doorway. It's been four days and I still haven't heard from Liam, from Sebastian. Two days since Laura arrived at the inn. She gathered some information that gave us a clue to where we Sebastian lived. And yet I couldn't even find it in me to take any action. With each day that passed by, I felt absolutely nothing but misery and pain. I bursted into another round of sobs. That's all I've been doing these days. I've been crying and letting my misery get the better of me. I've allowed myself to be shrouded in my self hate and regrets. I deserved every bit of what was happening to me. Maybe this was how Sebastian felt when I said those hurtful Words to him, perhaps karma was paying me back in my own coin and I couldn't do anything about it. "I don't know how to fix it Laura" I said, I whispered brokenly. I still laid in my bed lifeless. "You
Eira I didn’t know how long it must have been now. I felt groggy as my eyes flickered open and I met an unfamiliar white ceiling. When I tried to move, my muscles protested slightly, meaning that I must have been unconscious for a very long time. I held my hand over my head. The pounding seemed to have reduced, the thudding in my head could pass for almost non-existent. Something about how groggy I felt gave me an inkling that I had been sedated. I felt drowsy and almost tempted to go back to sleep. I forced myself to keep my eyes open, my eyes traveled along the expanse of the grand bedroom, I looked down at the massive king size bed that I was in. It was half the size of my bed back at the inn. My eyes traveled to the vanity mirror, to the couch and then to the mini bar. I spotted the little door which gave me an idea that it might be a walk in closet. My brows furrowed into a frown as I looked at my surroundings. Where the hell was I ? And why wasn't I out there looking for my s
Eira I couldn't say that I was entirely ready to face the day. I wasn't sure I was. Thankfully Sebastian had moved my luggage into my room. Last night I had panicked and I had cried again and Sebastian had to spend the rest of the night assuring and consoling me until I drifted Into sleep once more. Now how was i to get over the anxiety that was clawing up at me. How was I supposed to face Sebastian's family? Especially when he was going to break the news to them that he had a son especially with a member of their rivaling pack. I didn't even think that I was going to see Sebastian's family. I didn't think I would be this nervous. I still felt really tense. I haven't even been able to eat anything all morning. I stared at the reflection in the mirror. The girl staring back at me seemed exhausted and terrified out of her mind. Any moment from now and she was going to spiral and have a panic attack. I felt the need to burst into tears but settled for breathing in and out to calm my r
Eira I don't know how long I've been sedated but the next time I awoke, it was evening and I was back to Sebastian's room. I cringed at the bright lights and winced as I tried to open my eyes. I was unaware of how long I had been unconscious. "Do you think she's alright?" I heard a voice that I wasn't sure I was able to recognize,say. I was now aware that I wasn't the only one in the room. I was finally able to get myself to open my eyes and I almost panicked when I saw Sebastian, his father and his brothers standing over me. Laura stood at the side. I frowned and pressed my hand against my head. Sebastian looked down at me worriedly. "Are you alright?" He said and I nodded slowly because I wasn't sure that I had enough energy to talk yet. "You gave us a fright back there. Now what's this I hear about my grandson missing?" Hunter said calmly. I was surprised that he was speaking to me. I was expecting him to hate me. His brothers didn't hesitate to express how they felt about me
Eira Deep, wracking sobs could be heard coming from the living room of the quaint little house. Even a deaf person could sense that it was filled with pain, agony and sadness. I was curled up on the ground in a ball-like shape, my body rocking forward and backward in a haze of pain and sadness."How could I have been so stupid? What is really going on with me?" I sobbed, running my fingers through my hair.I was in a disheveled state with wrinkled clothes, large, puffy eyes and running nose. That was when I realized that this was the first time in a very long while I had been in this state and I hated knowing that it could potentially get worse. This was not how I had envisioned my life to be and I hated knowing that there might not be anything I could do about it. This was now my life, my destiny and I knew that the earlier I accepted that fact, the better for me."You are a disgrace, a stupid disgrace," I hissed at myself.My body wracked some more and I knew if I didn't stop soon,
Eira"Really? What's the good news?" I asked, failing to hide my surprise.I wasn't expecting anything good after everything I had been through and hearing this from them just lifted up my mood to a whole new level. I wanted to be a part of whatever was going on and I needed to know what they had in mind."Just guess?" Giana said, slumping on the couch.I had noticed that she was the first person to always slump on the couch as soon as they walked in which just told me that she easily got tired."Oh snap! I don't think I told you girls, but I'm very bad at guessing. I'm not really good at it." "Okay, there's going to be a very big party at the bar where we work," Diana said, excitedly.She pulled her shoes, walking towards the bar to grab a drink which was what she always did after a long day at work."Anyone care for a drink?" she asked, walking back with a bottle."I'll pass," I murmured.The idea of a party freaked me out. I wasn't the party type. In fact I completely hated it and
EiraSlowly, I turned around and the first thing I noticed was his chest. It was wide and solid, a testament to the fact that he was a regular person at whatever gym he owned. The man I was currently staring at was a demigod, a lord on his own and it showed in his various exploits both far and wide."He...llo," I stammered.I hated the way my voice sounded, and hated the way I appeared weak even when I had no intention of doing that. It just felt like I was pathetic which was very far from what I actually was. Sebastian had that effect on me and I hated knowing that he knew what kind of effect he had on me."Hi, little one,"I stared at his chest before finding the courage to look up at his sinfully handsome face that was even more handsome than the last time I saw him. Even though I tried to resist, there was this pull he had on me that I couldn't quite understand. I hated knowing that he affected me this much when he shouldn't have. It wasn't fair on my part at all."It's really fun
Eira I don't know how long I've been sedated but the next time I awoke, it was evening and I was back to Sebastian's room. I cringed at the bright lights and winced as I tried to open my eyes. I was unaware of how long I had been unconscious. "Do you think she's alright?" I heard a voice that I wasn't sure I was able to recognize,say. I was now aware that I wasn't the only one in the room. I was finally able to get myself to open my eyes and I almost panicked when I saw Sebastian, his father and his brothers standing over me. Laura stood at the side. I frowned and pressed my hand against my head. Sebastian looked down at me worriedly. "Are you alright?" He said and I nodded slowly because I wasn't sure that I had enough energy to talk yet. "You gave us a fright back there. Now what's this I hear about my grandson missing?" Hunter said calmly. I was surprised that he was speaking to me. I was expecting him to hate me. His brothers didn't hesitate to express how they felt about me
Eira I couldn't say that I was entirely ready to face the day. I wasn't sure I was. Thankfully Sebastian had moved my luggage into my room. Last night I had panicked and I had cried again and Sebastian had to spend the rest of the night assuring and consoling me until I drifted Into sleep once more. Now how was i to get over the anxiety that was clawing up at me. How was I supposed to face Sebastian's family? Especially when he was going to break the news to them that he had a son especially with a member of their rivaling pack. I didn't even think that I was going to see Sebastian's family. I didn't think I would be this nervous. I still felt really tense. I haven't even been able to eat anything all morning. I stared at the reflection in the mirror. The girl staring back at me seemed exhausted and terrified out of her mind. Any moment from now and she was going to spiral and have a panic attack. I felt the need to burst into tears but settled for breathing in and out to calm my r
Eira I didn’t know how long it must have been now. I felt groggy as my eyes flickered open and I met an unfamiliar white ceiling. When I tried to move, my muscles protested slightly, meaning that I must have been unconscious for a very long time. I held my hand over my head. The pounding seemed to have reduced, the thudding in my head could pass for almost non-existent. Something about how groggy I felt gave me an inkling that I had been sedated. I felt drowsy and almost tempted to go back to sleep. I forced myself to keep my eyes open, my eyes traveled along the expanse of the grand bedroom, I looked down at the massive king size bed that I was in. It was half the size of my bed back at the inn. My eyes traveled to the vanity mirror, to the couch and then to the mini bar. I spotted the little door which gave me an idea that it might be a walk in closet. My brows furrowed into a frown as I looked at my surroundings. Where the hell was I ? And why wasn't I out there looking for my s
Eira "You need to get it together, Eira. If you continue like this, you won't be able to make it to Sebastian." Laura chided as she stood at the doorway. It's been four days and I still haven't heard from Liam, from Sebastian. Two days since Laura arrived at the inn. She gathered some information that gave us a clue to where we Sebastian lived. And yet I couldn't even find it in me to take any action. With each day that passed by, I felt absolutely nothing but misery and pain. I bursted into another round of sobs. That's all I've been doing these days. I've been crying and letting my misery get the better of me. I've allowed myself to be shrouded in my self hate and regrets. I deserved every bit of what was happening to me. Maybe this was how Sebastian felt when I said those hurtful Words to him, perhaps karma was paying me back in my own coin and I couldn't do anything about it. "I don't know how to fix it Laura" I said, I whispered brokenly. I still laid in my bed lifeless. "You
Eira It had been days since I told Sebastian to leave. Since I've last seen him. Liam was no longer bubbly and full of sunshine. He was reserved, preferred to be with only his teddy bear and Maybe I imagined but there was a certain look in his eyes that he regarded me with. Maybe he was disappointed. I was disappointed in myself too. Somehow, all I managed to do was just end up making things worse than they already were. Liam didn't even come down for dinner today. There was this empty look in his eyes each time I saw him, it held a sort of similarity to the hollow feeling that I felt in my chest. Sometimes when Liam thought I couldn't hear him, he would cry in his bedroom. I would cry too because I knew all I ever did now was cause the two men that I loved so much, pain. Things were just beginning to get better. Sebastian was willing to make an effort and I ruined it, because that's all I ever do. Ruin things. Tonight is a painful reminder of how empty I'm feeling, I can barely thi
Eira The bed felt so warm and cozy. I stretched, feeling satisfied but at the same time tired. It took me a long minute to be able to register the grip Sebastian's arm had over my waist. We were both bare under the sheets. I wasn't able to move because he held me to himself in a iron clad grip. The thought of him not wanting me out of his sight, brought a very bright smile to my face. The corners of my lips lifted up in a wild smile and I couldn't stop admiring his sleeping face. I traced an idle hand over his face and intently admired him as we slept. We'd barely gotten enough sleep especially after our conversation yesterday night and by the time we had woken up again, we were more interested in one another's bodies than we were in having a conversation until we were tired and drifted into short sleep shortly. "You know it's rude to stare at people when you think they're not sleeping" he murmured sleepily, his voice was still heavy lidded with sleep. "How do you always end up ca
Eira I spent the rest of the day in my bedroom. The house eventually became quiet and I knew that Sebastian had taken his son on a walk like Liam usually requested. So apparently I was left alone with my thoughts and I was left alone with my misery. I spent all day crying and eventually I became exhausted and I fell asleep. By the time I awoke, hours had rolled by. It was evening already. I wondered how long I had been asleep. Maybe Liam would be looking for me all day, who knows. I decided that it was time that I stopped wallowing in my misery and I had a shower. So I did, the hot water was something I was certain I needed. I spent long hours in the shower, lost in thought and eventually I came out of the bathroom and dressed in another set of comfortable clothes. I left my hair, hanging past my shoulders, leaving it to air dry and then I headed down the stairs into the kitchen where Sebastian was preparing dinner. Him and Liam were having a conversation, bickering to each other
Eira I finally succeeded in falling into a restless sleep but by the time I woke up. I didn't feel any better. I only felt worse. The memories of our argument last night rushed through me and I couldn't seem to get it out of my head. Somehow, I ended up feeling even worse than before. I was almost tempted not to get out of bed but I also knew that I couldn't stay in here all day. If I did, Liam was going to come looking for me and he was going to ask me all sorts of questions. He was a child but he observed the most little details and you wouldn't even know. He was very inquisitive. Finally after long moments of deliberation, I finally decided that it would be a good idea to get out of bed. I quickly caught a glance of myself in the reflection in the mirror. I looked like a mess. I winced under my breath. I can't go outside looking like a mess, even though I was very tempted to. I settled for brushing my teeth and packing up my hair into a neater bun and then I headed down the sta
Eira It was a nice walk back to the inn. Sebastian held Liam against his chest. He had exhausted all his energy playing with the squirrels and in the flower Field. Comfortable silence passed between us. Strangely, the air between us was lighter. There was no tension between us as we headed home. We arrived home in between twenty to thirty minutes. Sebastian headed up with Liam upstairs to his room to settle him in bed. Maybe when Liam was hungry later, Sebastian would make him dinner. But for now, we agreed not to wake him. I decided it would be a better idea to head to the kitchen and make dinner.I started to bring out the ingredients from the fridge. Maybe today, I would bake a pie, just because I haven't in a long time and because I was in a good mood. It took me a while before I was ready to register the footsteps behind me and the corners of my lips tilted up into a smile when I felt Sebastian lean into me wrapping his arms against me as I poured flour into a bowl. I relaxed