Camille's POVIt's been three weeks since that fateful night...The night I saw heaven for the first time and convulsed with pleasure at its gates.And as I stared at the test kit before me in the little space James and I have occupied for the past two months and two weeks, my heart pierced with the realization of what I have done.Shame and excitement threatened my sanity as i pondered on what the result meant for both of us – James and I.It could either be the beginning or the end of our wonderful union. All this years we spent working on each other and building the safest nest around ourselves even without children.Now a storm threatened the hold of this nest, and I wondered just how far our love for each other could hold us together.I wanted to scream with excitement at the prospect of finally holding my own baby, but at the same time I remember whose it is and my body quaked with shame.I AM PREGNANT!Pregnant for a stranger I do not know after just one night of mind blowing s
SCOTTYou have to be shitting me.Someone please smack my ass out of this weird dream.But the anxious rubbing of my hands confirms that this is no damn dream. This is one hundred percent reality.This is real! This is so fucking real! And I definitely do not want to wake up from it if it was a dream anyway.I am standing in the same room with the same woman who has haunted my mind and senses since the fateful night she took me on the ride to pleasure island – one I have never been to.For a moment I forget what really brought me here until the silence in the room makes the humming noise and beep of machines very obvious.JACKPOT!What a lucky guy I must be.I finally found my runaway cousin and my one night stand angel.'Ma'am this is Mr. Liam Scott, and Mr Scott this is Mrs Parker' the nurse introduces us briefly, snapping me out of my state of shock into a whole new one.Mrs what now?As in married Parker? I am sure I didn't get that right.When a couple of seconds pass and we – ma
CAMILLEI am not sure which, but it is either my sex starved pussy or my throbbing heart which doesn't seem to know how to control blood flow in the presence of this new man that is making decisions for me now.My sane mind has nothing to do with initiating a date – that is what this is right? - with this man.Or maybe it does but I am too flushed to even think straight.More embarrassed was I by the knowing smile that slipped up the corner of his beautiful face when I shamelessly asked for more of his time, before he said,'Tomorrow evening, same address as the first time. I do not know a lot of places around here you know' he adds with an anxious chuckle.Gosh, that smile does things to my insides.I just want us to discuss this business deal he had with James, heaven knows we desperately need the financial aid that might come with.Stop fooling yourself Camille, you know you want more of that d.I cover my face with my hands and sink back into the chair Scott recently vacated.Here
CAMILLEHe is not here.It's been an hour and he's not here. Okay probably just a couple of minutes but who the hell makes a woman wait after that look he gave me at the hospital like a man who couldn't wait to have his eyes feasting on me again?Am I imagining things now too?What were you thinking Cam? That you will just meet a guy and after one hell of an amazing night of spell bounding sex you will become important to him?I just want to discuss business...I just want to discuss the goddamn business he had with James. I keep repeating over and over again in my mind until my muscles relax.I take a look around the room and gawk at the entrance for a while, hoping to see him walk past those bouncers before I change my already freaked mind.'Looking for someone?'The rich domineering voice unsettles me and relaxes my nerves at the same time.I want to be like any woman and show my annoyance at being kept waiting like some street girl, but I couldn't help it while my eyes feasted on
SCOTTI know who she is now.I shouldn't mind but the jeering reality is something I have blocked my mind from accepting since from the hospital.She is Jame's wife.My cousin's wife.I came to this conclusion when she reached for a strawberry coated doughnut and I noticed the fresh skin around her wedding finger.I mean that also explains the “Mrs Parker” and the fact that she is stuck to his bedside in the absence of no one else.This should change the way I feel and every dirty fantasy I have pictured with her in it, but the way she looked at me when I licked my fingers made fucking my cousin's wife feel so normal.Now she wants to know about her husband's business deals. Seems like there is some secret business going on between husband and wife after all.One I am not going to spill.'Why? It might be confidential' I reply matter of factly, daring her to tell me why she really wants to know.‘Confidential? What? Is it like some undercover thing or illegal business' she asked with
CAMILLEWhat was I thinking?Was I even thinking at all?Since the first time I set my eyes on him in that club, I have long given up cull control of my brain. The lustful fellow below my abdomen has been making every decision involving Scott for me.But after this night, I am taking back full responsibility of my brain and whole body.Shame, guilt and rage were my only companions as I ordered a ride home through tear glistening eyes.I should have been beside my husband like the loyal and dutiful wife Pastor Jerry spoke about some weeks ago in church, but here I am feeling disappointed because a man I just threw myself at like a cheap doll just sent me back to where I belong.Does he know who I am? Is that why he moved away from me like I was carrying a contagious disease?He knows James, he might also know James has a wife.Or did James forget to tell him he had a wife just as he forgot to tell me about some secret business.As I sat in the car six minutes later on my way home, my m
CAMILLEThe silence between us is all the comfort Helen needs.Being friends for the past seventeen years has built something between us that is beyond sisterhood. Twins? - that's the only word that comes close.'You know I caught him cheating right?' she pauses to give a painful chuckle, I am not surprised with the revelation. I have always known she was better off without Tyler as much as she thought the same about James and I.'Right before Emma was born. I was working my ass off to pay the bills and save up for our son and the baby on the way and he was in there with another woman in the living room. She sniffled and I wrapped my palms around hers.'I gave birth to Emma that same day and when I held my baby in my arms, nothing else mattered. It was easy to forget what he had done while I held that miracle in my arms' She turned to look at me then and maybe the tears in my eyes gave her the wrong impression.'I am so sorry Cam, I shouldn't be saying this to you right now' she says
SCOTTI thought I had gone past this.But here I am falling into the same abyss that caused me my sanity a few years ago.How could I have known that this little fun will get here, will bring back memories of Lucile.My Belle, My Lucille.I get off the bed and cork my head to the side to look at the two girls sleeping soundly on the bed, and I cannot wait to get rid of them.I needed to get her off my mind, but it didn't work.It's been two days since that night by the pond.Now here I am battling between the thoughts of two women, not sure whose memory I want to erase.I didn't bargain for this, it was just supposed to be a one night fling.Walking to the bathroom, I turn on the shower and let the cold icy splash caress my skin.Long hours with the girls doing all they could do best but still didn't get the release I desperately needed. I still felt heavy with unquenched lust, and I knew I couldn't sleep better if I didn't remedy that.Who am I kidding? I know for sure that I would n
CAMILLEI could do nothing else but stare back at James face while he laid down rules I was to follow, like I was not the same woman whose love and forgiveness he had been begging for not long ago.The love in them was long buried and replaced by the cold and menacing, only commanding and not leaving any room for my feelings or thoughts, and I couldn't dare leave or just run away.Where will I run to and how?If I was not so worried about James' threats, then Martha's annoyance was more than enough to command my obedience.She had been sitting behind me the whole time and her small frame had clearly missed my quick scan of the room when Scott had come to sit with me. At least I couldn't blame James for ratting me out, I could only blame him for not telling her the real truth and letting her return to New York with the notion that I was the problem and he had no hand in the mess our family had turned into.If it had not been in the presence of a couple people who suddenly appeared bac
SCOTTThere was no other way to make things right but this way – even if it meant walking in father's path and principles.I had to be a man.Not just a smart ass with extensive knowledge on how to run a company and a big business like ours, but also a man who can control the course of his life and the things that happen around him instead of just floating with each tide.I didn't just have to sit back and watch a woman stir me in any direction she dimmed fit, or as her emotions spurn her. I was to be the one doing the spurning.But even as much as I tried to convince myself, the more I felt like I was still doing all the wrong things, like I was really letting go of the most things that mattered more to me.No day passed by that didn't remind me of Lucille's words the last time I saw her in my dreams and heard her voice whisper all the good and bad things my life could become in the coming days if I threaded the right path. I still remember the chubby and pretty face of that little b
CAMILLEI was so foolish to believe that every other human had a breaking point but James.I was really so foolish to even think that he was not like other men or that he was just such a special and quiet man to ever think of hurting a lady, especially me.How could I have believed that of a man who I had just found out lied to me for more than eleven years and still had the guts to look at me as though he was also sympathetic about the whole situation?His new attitude for the next two days we spent in the hotel was a new one of which I would have sworn he could never do, but there he was, being a total prick to m in private and maintaining the normal charming face everyone thought him to be while we were among people – something else he controlled and made sure was less frequent until we left the hotel.Even his mom didn't seem to notice his change in attitude, or maybe she just kept pretending not to notice it.But all that did not break me as much as Scott's words did when we fina
SCOTTIt was winter, and the coldest one I had ever witnessed.Although Dad had agreed to let me spend the short break in the Thompson's villa because he had hoped it will strengthen the bond he had assumed was already growing between Maya and I. He was forced to cancel the arrangement went he learned that Mr Thompson's second daughter was already pregnant for me, and was even five months gone already.I remember how furious Dad was, I remember how we also lost the best of the china wares and most of the figurines and paintings in the living room and his study as well. I remember it so clearly because I am standing there in the room again, watching him destroy almost everything in it.Mom was quick to tug me away with her to her room upstairs where she made me sit and wait until she returned.I sat there all morning in my suit and nicely cut hair, not sure why dad was made and wondering when I get to leave for the villa.I sat there in her bed, waiting for her to return, or for someon
SCOTTI was more than surprised when I found her sitting in the hall with Martha for the reception.With the way she had run off earlier, I had assumed she had packed up her things and left immediately, but there she was, sitting in one of the best seats closest to the stage.Why will she even do that? Is she out to torment me with guilt or just to threaten me? Because it feels like she knows what a fucked up situation I am in and wants to make me feel as uneasy as possible.If that is it, then she is definitely doing a really good job.For the rest of the event, I tried as much as possible to avoid looking at her, but it was just a useless effort.My eyes were on her each time I saw James walk up to her to whisper something into her ears, my eyes were on her each time she adjusted in her seat or when Martha bent towards her to say something to her while rubbing her belly or just staring at it.And each time I looked at her, she looked so distraught and uncomfortable, it looked like s
SCOTTIt's my wedding day, but it sure as hell doesn't feel like it.Unlike most men who only feel excited, anxious and in love on their day, I am quite in an opposite mood – confused, lost and broken.The whole situation with Camille had left me tongue tied all through the night, even while Maya paced up and down my room steaming threats.I had expected her to tell dad about the whole thing, and maybe call the wedding off. But there she was in front of the reverend, in a gown I would have found lovely and perfect if only it was on a woman I really loved and wanted to marry, and at that moment, with my mind still in its plagued state, I could think of no better fit.I bent my head to wipe a tear that had escaped from the mass that blocked my vision, and suddenly the small but beautifully decorated room warmed up with people “awning”. I wish they knew what my tears really meant, maybe one of them would take me far far away from these people and put me through intensive therapy.As I st
CAMILLEWas this some sort of a joke?I looked at the guy I had assumed was a receptionist but he just looked back at me with confusion written all over his face.I had spent the past few days since the meeting with Katherine waiting for that moment when I could see him again and tell him everything I had in mind to share with him. But finally seeing him stand across the room from me seized every speech I had planned in my head.'I could just excuse you guys and come back some other time' he said and I wasn't sure if he meant that or not, because he could have just left when he asked the first time if it was a good time and got no response.'No, no, it's fine,' I replied quickly before he could change his mind. 'I don't think the room was intended to be private by the way' I shot the tour guy another glance but he was now looking at both of us with curiosity bubbling in his eyes even though he tried to keep it low.'Fine,' he said and looked around the room clumsily, like he was tryin
SCOTTI haven't been to a lot of weddings, but I am convinced not all grooms wind up in bad states as I was.Sometimes I needed a reminder from a guest congratulating me or the mere sight of Maya to recall that I was actually getting married – and she was always within eye shots, I made sure of that.Sometimes I wondered why every woman I came in close contact to just turned out to be pregnant. It was just one afternoon of heartbreak and unconscious actions and now she is pregnant?Is that how it goes?I had not been able to talk to her since she told me about the pregnancy, but I was still very conscious about her and anything she was doing. I might hate her but not the baby she was carrying.I wasn't ready for one, the thought of it alone terrified me, but each time I remembered the pretty little bundle Lucille had showed me that night, I couldn't help but just feel drawn to the child she was carrying.It was the only reason why I went after her and begged her like a crazed man to n
CAMILLEI wasn't sure which to worry about more.Martha's hovering presence or the mere thought of finally meeting Scott again.There was this exhilarating feeling that came with the anxiety of seeing him again. What it would be like, and how he would react.Not for a moment did I forget that I kicked him out on several occasions, but I still nursed the feeling that he would still come back for me – or maybe it was just my damn emotions getting in the way of my common sense.This dude is getting married, Camille, and for god's sake he is Jame's cousin who is way younger than you are, I reminded myself, why do you keep forgetting that?But even as I stepped into the hallway, all my mind was focused on was running into him.I had not seen Maya since the small exchange in the bathroom, and I was forced to assume that she had gone back home to continue preparations, and maybe Scott had returned with her too.It was already getting dark, and James was away with the other groomsmen for wha