Novels by Chi Chi

CAMILLEI need to get out of here.I need to get away from all this mess.But where do I go, that his memory won't go with me. What privacy will I get if he is stuck in my mind like this?I even carry him in my womb, how about that?It's a good thing Charlotte is here, she can decide to take care of her brother or bail on him again, but for me I need to leave this place.I ignore her calls as I get up to leave as I have no valid explanation to give.What will I say?I have been having sex outside my marriage with no other person but your cousin. Not only that I happen to also be pregnant for him.If I had not earned enough name in their book then “brother fucker” seems like a good name.How do I even say that the pain I feel right now is partly because I wish he was here with me, that I didn't kick him out the way I did.Gosh, this is so fucked up.I take in a long breath once I am outside the hospital, filling my empty lungs with breath, trying to remind them just how to inhale and e

SCOTTShe had no right to do that.I understand that she is tense at the moment but shrugging me off like that was very uncalled for.It hurt me pretty bad.I was already dealing with the jealousy and envy brewing in me as I watched her go crazy over another man. I can not stand her giving me the cold treatment too like it is my fault.No matter how much she wants to blame someone for the turn of events it should not be this way.She made up her mind to go out with me, to keep seeing me, and irrespective of my past track records I never for one moment forced her into anything at all she didn't want.By the way I should be the one who is mad at her after that outburst about her husband. I should be pissed that she did not tell me earlier until she said it out loud to the nurse out of frustration.But I guess I was not so surprised considering that I already knew a long time ago.So where is this coming from?I should be heading home, at least I have driven her here as I had planned an

CAMILLE I would be grateful if he left. It has been more than an hour of moving from one room to another to run blood tests and not once did I catch sight of Scott. He must have taken the hint when I shrugged him off and left. But his absence disturbs me and every once in a while I will look around to see if he is somewhere in the corner. Maybe if Helen is here with me I would not be so concerned about Scott. Right now I just need company, someone to assure me that everything will be alright and pretty soon too. The results do not take long to come out and just as I had feared, it turned out negative. I had already placed a call to Charlotte - one of James' sisters – to come in urgently and she had ended the call with a promise to be here in twenty minutes. Thirty-five minutes gone and I wish I had never called her in the first place. While I scroll aimlessly through my phone, I catch a familiar scent I have come to know so swell and my heart registered his presence

CAMILLEI tried to steady my hands as I scurried towards the restroom, but it shook so badly that I could not open the door.A hand covered mine on the door knob and opened the door, and the relief that gave me was short-lived once I opened the door and peered in only to find it empty.I run into the hallway towards the nurses unit, my mind so occupied with several thoughts that I actually run past a nurse until she calls me back.I hurry back towards her and hold her arms firmly while I barrage her with questions, not sure how firmly until Scott puts his hands on mine again and looks at me, his eyes instructing me to stay calm.'Where is he, is he okay?' My voice trembled so badly that I wondered if it really did belong to me.'I was wondering where you went and when you will be back Mrs Parker'. She cast a suspicious stare between Scott and I but I did not let my mind dwell on that for long.'I just went out to grab a couple of things, my bad''You were gone since last-' 'Are you g

CAMILLESleep for the first time eludes me.I stayed awake instead to admire that prince charming in front of me until it got too late and I remembered my husband.Shit! I have been away for more than twenty-four hours. I need to head back now.I scuffle from his hold and search for new clothes in my wardrobe.I have not done laundry in a while and everything stinks.SHIT!'Where are you going?' Scott's sleepy husky voice calms my nerves and disturbs me as well, making me remember the dream I had – too bad that it qualifies for a nightmare.His voice calls to me and I wish I could hurdle back in his arms as long as I can, and enjoy this abominable thing we share.It is hard to tell why I am really attracted to him, why I feel the way I do with him in a way I have not felt with anyone else. Not even James.Maybe I am just drawn to him because he is my baby daddy, or because he is just so damn cute and irresistible.'I have to get to the hospital' he groans in response and I feel a litt

CAMILLEnever come across a man who is so jealous and scared to lose me.Maybe James would be if he finds out another man is making his wife feel things in a way she has not felt with him.Maybe we were just so focused on ourselves and our family, and never thought about what it would look like if someone else came between us.But this man knows me for less than two months and he can't stand the thought of another man close to me.It makes me want him in ways I have never wanted anyone else. It makes me want to surrender myself to him and assure him that I am all his, and his alone.But I can't.His eyes widened in curiosity of what I want to do as I straddle him, this is not the reply he expected.I can't tell him what he wants to hear because I am sealed to someone else in holy matrimony, but I will show him what could have been if I was not.Damn it Camille, there is nothing holy about what you have been doing since you met this guy or what you are about to do.I slowly roll up his