Chapter 74: Lily

As easy as my pregnancy was, adjusting to having a baby has been difficult for me. It’s supposed to be easy, right? Everyone says it comes naturally. Well, I’m here to tell you, it doesn’t always come naturally. Like latching on to my breast. Cara is supposed to have some instinct to latch on and my body is supposed to be what she needs, but we struggled.

It took weeks for us to figure it out and countless tears on my part.

‘Don’t get frustrated, she’ll feel it.'

'Don’t give up, you can do this.'

'Don’t do this, don’t do that, try it this way, try it that way.’

Everyone has a damn opinion about how I should nurse my child or what I’m doing wrong. All it did was make me feel more like a failure that it wasn’t working.

After another bout of crying about being a worthless mother who can’t do the one thing my body is inherently meant to do, feed my child, Clint comes and takes her from me. He heats up a bottle, balancing our little girl while managing to heat up the bottle and test i