I have thought for so long that anger and madness are slowly filling me. Even if I’m not sold to him, I would still believe that I would act the same. I would always stick to my words. All my life, I’ve been abused and exploited that I wasn’t aware of my own well being. Then one day, I woke up and thought that I want to get even.
I never thought being bad would be this hard and confusing. Is it because I’m not actually that kind of person? Or is it because it’s him and he’s got a point?While we were both walking, I could feel his tensed shoulders. I can feel that he’s mad, or probably just annoyed with me. I don’t know what’s with me too, I shut my mouth and felt vexed.When we arrived at the stone formation, without a word he held my wrist and guided me to step onto it. I just did it without questioning him. I almost forgot the reason why we’re here.The rock formationLulu: Done with that Mr. Anderson. Check your email.I hid my phone as soon as I read that. I saw Elijah glanced at me and I pretended not to mind. We’re going back to Seattle. He's been driving for a couple of hours now. I also can’t remember how many times I had a nap. ”You can watch movies if you want. I’m sorry I’m a boring company.” he chuckled. I smiled lightly and shook my head. ”My chopper is not available since there’s no helipad in Long Beach. I’ll work on that next time.” I don’t know how many times I could be more amazed about his wealth. It’s like he’s just blurting out those things as if it’s nothing. In fact, a month ago I’m using my body to make a living. ”We’ll stop by to have lunch.” Then we stopped at one of the fast food restaurants on the road. I
His parents are the late owners of famous business chains, but their strong point is their steel company who paved the way for them to enter several chains of business. They died. That’s all that’s been told in some of the articles. No reason and seems like it’s intentionally fabricated so that it will be private. But I already know the truth. His parents had been killed, that’s what he told me at the Lighthouse. Surprisingly, Lulu seems to be so good at her job of undercover ‘stalking’. Because she gave me a lot of information about this. She gave me some links to articles stated by a tabloid. It was years ago when the so-called ‘rival’ of Anderson Steel Corporation and Skytouch Company; a much successful contractual company for constructions of skyscrapers, had been the talk of the town. A steel supplier company and a contractual company for an issue of rivalry? That’s oddly to happen. For su
He stared at my eyes for so long. He eyed every corner of my face as if he’s looking for something on it. His jaw clenched repeatedly. ”I’ll order our food.” He stood up.My jaw dropped, shock by his action. Did he just…”E-Elijah,” Hr ran his fingers to his hair and came to the door’s direction, but walked back to the bed again. He wet his lips as he watched me sit on his bed. ”Didn’t you hear me?” I can’t help but to feel bitter. He wet his lips again. He can’t even look me in the eye. ”I said I want you.” My voice cracked. He turned his back and both of his hands went into his head. He’s really looking so frustrated by what he’s seeing and hearing. ”Why? Do I not attract you? Am I disgusting?” ”No!” ”Then why?” I ra
I sat silently at the dining area, my seat opposite to his. Food was served on the table that was delivered by his men. I can’t look into his eyes but I still made sure that he would know that any of his opinions won’t matter. ”Aren’t you gonna eat?” I raised a brow. He clenched his jaw and glared at me darkly. I just rolled my eyes and grabbed every food that I could eat. Just like the first time we ate dinner. I acted like I hadn't eaten for years and didn’t know table manners, because he hates that. And I love things that he hates, no scratch that. I love seeing him hate and fuming mad. The last thing I ate was the crème brulée. And in my last bite, I looked at him sensually, licking the spoon. His neck is getting red, a sign of his restraint of emotion. He’s just watching me with his dark sharp eyes that I almost thought that it would actually scar me.&rdqu
I have no idea where we’re going.Sibal won’t say anything and I don’t want to text Elijah just for that. I just wore casual coordinates. A high waist jeans and a cropped ribbed tank top, I paired it with white sneakers which are new clothing for me. I usually don’t mind the clothes that I wear but since Elijah bought me lots of clothes might as well use it. ”Where is he, Sibal?” I asked him because I’m so bored. ”At the Anderson’s ma’am.” I pouted and nodded. We’re going to his company? Actually I don’t know how I would be after days that I avoided him. Did he even forget what happened? Cause to be honest I’m still so embarrassed. ”This way ma’am.” Sibal paved the way to the entrance.I can’t help but feel anxious about entering his building. Some eyes were on me and the guards gr
I wasn’t so sure if this was a date. Perhaps, he really wants to make it up with me. Even though I’m not sure if he really did something to me. It’s more like, I’m doing something to him and I should be the one who’s sorry.It wasn’t a bad idea. Actually I liked it. It brings out the child in me. Since it’s almost evening, the fair lights everywhere give enough vibes in the theme park. There are a lot of different people. May it be kids, family, teens and couples. Name it all. Some rides are breathtaking because of how high they are. Some are just enough to give a light thump in my heart.We held each other’s hands while we walked inside. I don’t know what we’re supposed to do here because it feels like he doesn't have any plans of doing any activities. It didn’t pass my eye how some women of any age linger their eyes on him. And when they are seeing how my hands are clasped to his, their express
I once saw a movie. You know those scenes when the protagonist's view becomes blurry and only focuses on a person? For a time I saw him that way. It’s like other things got more blurry and useless. The only one that’s clear is him.The only amusement ride we rode is the ferris wheel, because that’s the only ride that doesn’t have much line. I got a bit scared when we reached the top but Elijah’s hands were there to steal my attention every time I felt nervous.”I’m sorry about that night.”I glanced at him. For a while I didn’t know what he’s talking about but soon I got what he’s saying.”You know that-””It’s not a good idea to talk about it now, Ej. I’m hella freaking out.” I groaned.He chuckled and pressed me to his body more. I shrieked because the gondola swayed while it’s still going.
I can’t contain my excitement the next morning. I woke up early to send Elijah off to work. He questioned why I woke up so early. I’m just curious about the conditions he’s saying.I quietly listened to him and Sibal talked about some reminders that he gave. It might be not exactly the way I wanted, but at least he let me. He’s true to his words. He’s letting me go out without him but with Sibal. At least, I’m not locked up here."Message me when you're going out." he said before leaving."But you're busy."”Just message me. I’ll find time to reply. ”I nodded. He kissed my forehead before leaving.After fixing some things in his penthouse I busied myself preparing to leave. I wore simple coordinates. Before telling Sibal we’re going, I message Elijah that I’ll be going to a library. I&rs
”I can’t believe we’re back here again.” she said with wandering eyes, gracefully seated on the passenger seat.My lips protruded. I played with my lips as I stopped myself from pulling up the car and making out with her. God. How can she manage to be so goddamn beautiful without even trying? Is she purposely doing it to bewitch me more? Cause no need. I’m hell obsessed with her and even if she does nothing, I’m still gonna be head over heels with her. Gladly, we arrived at Long Beach without any delays. I mean, the sense of control that I had to possess. Phew~ “God. It’s been a while. I feel like so much has happened. This brings back the old days.” she spoke when she got out of the car.I encircled my arms to her waist because I’ve been dying to put my hands on her. Nothing, I just want to claim what’s mine. I just want her all the time.
”So you mean, you got back together without telling us?” Zoey asked me with her famous bitch face look. The three of us were left here after the ‘caught’ incident. Elijah greeted them and they were casual with each other. Well, Lulu is casual. Zoey’s a bit aloof and rugged in treating him. I gulped. Because I didn’t know the right answer. Half of it is true and half is not. ”See? You can’t answer.” she crossed her arms and rolled her eyes at me. Lulu is quick to butt in. “Let’s hear her first, Zoey.” ”What’s to hear if she had nothing to say?” I understand Zoey. I’m used to this kind of attitude of hers.“You’re right,” I started. I even heard Zoey say ‘See’ again. “I wasn’t able to tell you guys because things happened so fast. But no, we d-don’t ge
Because of Elijah’s little games, I can’t help but to feel awkward around Ms. Madrigal all day. It’s not that I have something against her, it’s just that I’m shy as we all have this little pretending thing that went on these past two days. We hadn’t talked about it since, so when the time of the day went, I started to step forward and background, whether I talk to her or not. I’m having second thoughts. ”Yes, Ms. Madrigal. That’s all you have for tomorrow.” I said as I reviewed her schedule. She nodded. “Great. That’s good to hear.” I smiled. Usually, after she acknowledges my review of her schedules, I would bid my goodbye already. But since I have these things going on inside my head, I stood on her side looking like a fool. When she sensed that, she glanced at me. My cheeks immediately flushed because of that.I bowed my head, feeling her intent
“Ah!” I screamed. Panting, I looked at my surroundings and saw that I’m in a car. Right. We’re on our way to buy some groceries.”What’s wrong? Everything’s okay?” Elijah curiously asked. Although I’m not sure with myself, I still nodded and smiled raw.Wait. Nothing bad happened to me these past few days. Why do my nightmares suddenly come back? ”Had a bad dream?” he asked. I didn’t answer and just concentrated on adjusting myself. I felt him eyeing me even when his eyes should be on the road. ”Eyes on the road, Elijah.” I said with a warning tone. ”I am asking you.” he answered with his more intimidating warning tone as well. I sighed heavily. The persistent Elijah as always. ”I’m used to it. Don’t worry.” I said. ”You’re used to it?”
Nothing happened. Elijah called a plumber who fixed the water pipes that night. He then went home late at night with his sulked face. We parted awkwardly and I overthought that whole night thinking I did something wrong. I didn’t do anything right? Not until he came inside the bathroom.“Ugh,” I groaned when I woke up. Sunday is supposed to be the day where I woke up with lots of sleep. But now, my head hurts because of thinking the whole night. Still can’t believe it. Am I just dreaming last night? No way.I checked my phone. No message from anybody. I went to the bathroom and looked at the new faucet. I sighed unconsciously. That is not a dream. I took a bath since it’s already late.I’m thinking of running some errands today, like doing grocery shopping because last night was just so embarrassing. For sure Elijah is not used to places like this. But I wasn’t able to think about
“E-Ej, I think, we still have a lot to talk about.” He nodded while his eyes re focused on the road. He’s driving and we’re both on our way to my apartment. Like what he said, he’s gonna take me home. The events are like whirlwind. Everything was just so fast and I can’t cope up with how things are going. It’s like I’m dreaming and I’m loosing some parts of that dream.“We’ll talk tomorrow. For now, you need to rest. I don’t want you depriving your sleep.” he uttered seriously. My lips parted as I look at him. I look at him with so much adoration. I can’t help but to feel so amuse and overwhelmed with what he just said. For a year, nobody told me that. I almost forgot the feeling of having someone to take care of you, to look after you. I fell into this pit of limitations and barriers, thinking that I don’t deserve all that. But here he is.
We stayed in that position for God knows how long. Him, holding my face while our forehead touched each other. My hands are on his chest and I’m just making the most out of the time. I feel at home. I feel like for the whole year I’ve deprived myself from the pain and aches, this is the only time I let myself down like this. At this moment, my pains are so sure; the reasons are clear, and I felt so free. In this world, there are these people that are home for you. Those people that are not just meant to stay for a short period of time but in the long term. And for that I think because those people are meant to give you lessons. You are meant to look for their purpose in your life. And I think his purpose is this. To make me feel safe, always. ”I-I… I don’t understand.” I said with a hoarse voice. ”You don’t have to. I just need your answer. Is one year enough? Or do I have to give you more?”
“I am not kidding, Elijah. I respect Ms. Madrigal as much as I respect your relationship. So please! Even if this doesn’t mean anything to you or you’re just trying to be casual to me, or whatever it is that’s inside your head, stop! Alright? “ I exclaimed. I just went all the way without actually thinking much of my words and just following what’s inside my mind.“How?” he asked.My brows shot up. “What?””How?” he asked again. “How can you say those words when your actions say otherwise?”I gulped and avoided his eyes. He knows.“You’re asking for me to go back but was that what you really wanted me to do?”I shut my eyes tight and shook my head. No, Emma. He’s just trying to get inside your head. You’re better than that. .“Elijah, please-”
That whole dinner is a pain in the ass. Who would stay sane when your ex is beside you while his recent girlfriend is on the other side. I was so doomed. He noticed that I’m gawking at his scent so much and that’s so embarrassing. What could he possibly think with those actions I gave him? He might think that I’m still crazy for him. I managed to hold myself until the second course of the menu. That conversation didn’t happen again, gladly. I tried to just focus on whatever it is that’s in front of me while I hear the small talks of the people around me. ”No, you’re allergic to that.” I heard Elijah.I pursed my lips. Even though my eyes are focused on the main dish that was served, my ears are fully indulged in the conversation of the two people on my right side. ”Oh, yeah. I forgot.” Ms. Madrigal laughed. I sniffed and used my fork to remove the vegetabl