I wasn’t so sure if this was a date. Perhaps, he really wants to make it up with me. Even though I’m not sure if he really did something to me. It’s more like, I’m doing something to him and I should be the one who’s sorry.
It wasn’t a bad idea. Actually I liked it. It brings out the child in me. Since it’s almost evening, the fair lights everywhere give enough vibes in the theme park. There are a lot of different people. May it be kids, family, teens and couples. Name it all. Some rides are breathtaking because of how high they are. Some are just enough to give a light thump in my heart.We held each other’s hands while we walked inside. I don’t know what we’re supposed to do here because it feels like he doesn't have any plans of doing any activities. It didn’t pass my eye how some women of any age linger their eyes on him. And when they are seeing how my hands are clasped to his, their expressI once saw a movie. You know those scenes when the protagonist's view becomes blurry and only focuses on a person? For a time I saw him that way. It’s like other things got more blurry and useless. The only one that’s clear is him.The only amusement ride we rode is the ferris wheel, because that’s the only ride that doesn’t have much line. I got a bit scared when we reached the top but Elijah’s hands were there to steal my attention every time I felt nervous.”I’m sorry about that night.”I glanced at him. For a while I didn’t know what he’s talking about but soon I got what he’s saying.”You know that-””It’s not a good idea to talk about it now, Ej. I’m hella freaking out.” I groaned.He chuckled and pressed me to his body more. I shrieked because the gondola swayed while it’s still going.
I can’t contain my excitement the next morning. I woke up early to send Elijah off to work. He questioned why I woke up so early. I’m just curious about the conditions he’s saying.I quietly listened to him and Sibal talked about some reminders that he gave. It might be not exactly the way I wanted, but at least he let me. He’s true to his words. He’s letting me go out without him but with Sibal. At least, I’m not locked up here."Message me when you're going out." he said before leaving."But you're busy."”Just message me. I’ll find time to reply. ”I nodded. He kissed my forehead before leaving.After fixing some things in his penthouse I busied myself preparing to leave. I wore simple coordinates. Before telling Sibal we’re going, I message Elijah that I’ll be going to a library. I&rs
I thought her words would affect me. For the first time I got so mad at her words. Not with her but with her words. I just thought that people may see it that way. But for me, all I want is for them to pay.It’s just people would not understand. People will not get it unless we’re in the same shoe. So what if I’ll be evil? Wasn’t I valid to be this way after all the evilness they did to me? Just like in the court, when the victim says he or she did that as self defense and pleaded not guilty. That’s me.I’m doing this for myself. And the fact that this is a long overdue self defense is something. I suffered for how many years, thinking that this is fine, but it’s not. This is enough. I’ve had enough.”Sibal,” I called him while he’s driving. I saw him looking at me through the rear view mirror.”Can you stop by an ice cr
I left the ice cream store in such a rush. I couldn’t talk to Sibal because I didn't feel like talking to him after he told Elijah about Angelo. Well, I couldn’t blame him though, it’s his job to do that. Maybe I just need to get used to it. This is my life now.”Sibal, can we go to Anderson’s?”He clenched his jaw and didn’t answer me. He might be thinking that Elijah doesn’t want me there, which is what I kind of thought as well. But what can I do? I need to tame that beast now and explain why I was with Angelo. And another thing, I might get some information if I’m inside his company.I didn’t reply to Elijah’s message. I didn’t tell him as well that I’ll be visiting him. Though, Sibal might have told him already.I looked at myself when I saw that we’re arriving at our destination. If only I knew I’m gonna end up here today, I might have worn much more formal clothes. The last time I was here, I looked so out of place because of what I’m wearing, the
“Uh-hmm, that won’t work.” he shook his head and stood again.He walked to his table’s direction. He leaned on it while crossing his arms on his chest. Sulking like a kid. I bit my lip to stop myself from smiling. He looks so handsome with that kind of face. I stood too and went into his direction. It's my first time encountering such an attitude. The past years that my father would sell me to men had nothing to compare with this man right here. Those set ups are jut plain sex and abuse. Now, this man in front of me needs this kind of fooling. No sex but too much affection needed? What’s wrong with this man, really.His jaw protruded when I snaked my arms to his waist, hugging him. I kissed his chin and smiled playfully. My fingers crawled to his skin as I tried to tickle him. My giggles enveloped the room while doing that but his face remained the same, he’s not even affected by the tickle
I know this is not easy but I never thought it would be this hard. Damn. I knew it. I fucking knew it! I feel like I’m slapped by cold ice. It’s shameful. He knows. He knows what I’m trying to do but he didn’t make it clear. For sure he doesn’t know the purpose of it all. He just knew that I’m trying to hold him on the neck so I can do whatever that I want, right? Or does he know all along? I palmed my face while I’m at my room. Now I’m torn. The child-like attitude didn’t take effect. The bitchy attitude isn’t effective as well. The sweet and submissive attitude is something I can’t stomach, not to say that he’s sometimes acting like a sulky boyfriend. Now what should I do? ”He knows now.” I whispered to myself while seeking every cell of my brain to think of plan B’s and C’s or even until Z’s. Should I just pretend that I like
That gave me something to think about for days. Who might be the reason why they’re all charged at the same time and same case. For sure that is not a coincidence, like Lulu has said.One dinner, Elijah and I were both seated at his dining table while I ate and he seemed to be really busy with his phone the entire time of dinner. While I can’t even eat my food because of the thoughts that’s clouding my mind.His call ended. He continued to touch his food again.”Emma,”I lift my eyes to him with questioning eyes.”Is everything alright?””Yes.”No. I wanna say.”What did you do the entire day?”I sighed because he asked that question again for the second time. I played with my food more using my fork.“I told you, I came to the library again. “ I said with a slight tone of annoyance.
I didn’t have a choice but to bring him with me, or else he’ll be suspicious of me again. It’s almost like watching a sitcom. Entering Lulu’s library, I saw how her eyes widened like an owl and her jaw dropping. If I didn’t call her name, she would have embarrassed herself. I introduced them to each other and I would not explain how awkward that is for me and Lulu.Now, we’re seated on the same table while Elijah is scanning some book on the aisle. We couldn’t even speak to each other because Lulu is eyeing Elijah from time to time. ”Lulu, stop gawking. He might notice you.” I hissed at her. She glared at me. “No shit. Why the hell did you bring him here?” I sighed. “Don’t ask me. As if I want him here as well.” I whispered and pretended to read the book I’m holding. ”What is he? Some sort of body guard?” I didn&