I know this is not easy but I never thought it would be this hard. Damn. I knew it. I fucking knew it! I feel like I’m slapped by cold ice. It’s shameful. He knows. He knows what I’m trying to do but he didn’t make it clear.
For sure he doesn’t know the purpose of it all. He just knew that I’m trying to hold him on the neck so I can do whatever that I want, right? Or does he know all along?I palmed my face while I’m at my room. Now I’m torn. The child-like attitude didn’t take effect. The bitchy attitude isn’t effective as well. The sweet and submissive attitude is something I can’t stomach, not to say that he’s sometimes acting like a sulky boyfriend. Now what should I do?”He knows now.” I whispered to myself while seeking every cell of my brain to think of plan B’s and C’s or even until Z’s.Should I just pretend that I likeThat gave me something to think about for days. Who might be the reason why they’re all charged at the same time and same case. For sure that is not a coincidence, like Lulu has said.One dinner, Elijah and I were both seated at his dining table while I ate and he seemed to be really busy with his phone the entire time of dinner. While I can’t even eat my food because of the thoughts that’s clouding my mind.His call ended. He continued to touch his food again.”Emma,”I lift my eyes to him with questioning eyes.”Is everything alright?””Yes.”No. I wanna say.”What did you do the entire day?”I sighed because he asked that question again for the second time. I played with my food more using my fork.“I told you, I came to the library again. “ I said with a slight tone of annoyance.
I didn’t have a choice but to bring him with me, or else he’ll be suspicious of me again. It’s almost like watching a sitcom. Entering Lulu’s library, I saw how her eyes widened like an owl and her jaw dropping. If I didn’t call her name, she would have embarrassed herself. I introduced them to each other and I would not explain how awkward that is for me and Lulu.Now, we’re seated on the same table while Elijah is scanning some book on the aisle. We couldn’t even speak to each other because Lulu is eyeing Elijah from time to time. ”Lulu, stop gawking. He might notice you.” I hissed at her. She glared at me. “No shit. Why the hell did you bring him here?” I sighed. “Don’t ask me. As if I want him here as well.” I whispered and pretended to read the book I’m holding. ”What is he? Some sort of body guard?” I didn&
”Open this.” he handed me a box.It’s a quiet early dinner for us. He went home early and didn’t have calls. Actually it’s been weeks since he’d been so delicate when it comes to accepting calls. No calls during the meals and when he’s around me. ”What’s this?” I asked curiously.It’s a white box with a pantone shade of pink ribbon. It’s not that heavy. He just suddenly put that box on the table after dinner.I glanced at him with questioning eyes. “It’s not my birthday.”He smirked a little. He’s just touching his lips while looking at me. I sighed and untied the ribbon. He’s spoiling it that much huh?”A piece of clothing?” I asked. I looked at him again. He shrugged his shoulders.I pursed my lips. There’s a folded white cloth inside and above it is a small envelope. I raised my eyebrows and got it. I read the paper inside it.There’s the name and the logo of a university, I think? Below it is the list of some
I thought it’s really impossible. I made it. I got through almost all of the exams that I did. I failed in some minor examinations but the university took it into consideration. Fortunately, I passed as a senior high school student. It’s more than I expected to achieve. But I can’t also imagine if I’m gonna go to school with kids. Elijah is their contact all along. So I don’t know if Elijah’s trying to use his power or if I was just lucky. But as far I know, I really passed those exams. I’m quite confident. After all, reading books has been my saving grace while I’m locked up in the house for my whole life. No wonder that even though I'm uneducated, I still get to know a lot of things because of the books that I owned and the books in Lulu’s library. Things happened like a flash. The last time I checked I’m still at Elijah’s penthouse, dozing off. Or I’m in the library with Lu
Well I thought he’s still not home. But when I walked in the kitchen. I hear silent curses and some noises.Barefoot and a bit sleepy I entered the kitchen and saw Elijah’s back. I saw him putting back the lid of the pot where I cooked the stew. When he sensed my presence his head turned to me.I look at him with blank eyes. His chest is red and showing because the first three buttons of his dress shirt are open. His eyes look guilty and weary.He came into my direction with fast steps. He held my shoulders right away and I didn’t react to that. I smelled the strong scent of liquor from him. He’s drunk?”I’m sorry,” his first words. “I’m sorry.” he hugged meMy eyes widened. He hugged me but more like he’s weighing on me. His tongue is also twirling that I almost can’t understand what he’s saying.”I didn’t know… I ‘
I became so cold to him after that. Of course he tried reaching out, but I had no time for his shits. Adding the fact that I’m busy with school helps me to get away from him. Starting that day I didn’t dare to wait for him for dinner. In the morning, I purposely wake up early or wake up late just so we will not have any encounters.But not today. I woke up late but when I got out to prepare, I saw him in the living room casually standing there busy on his phone, wearing casual clothes and not his usual formal attire. He immediately hid his phone when he saw me.I saw him scan me from head to toe. I was already in my uniform and I’m about to eat my breakfast. Uh-oh, I guess I’ll just eat at school.I stared at him with blank eyes. The hint of nervousness and attentiveness is embedded in his eyes.”Breakfast is ready.” he said with a crooked smile.”I need to go. I’m late.” I said even though that’s not my original plan. And I’m not even late.
Elijah stopped just where that car is usually parked. He can just drop me in the gates but I know Zoey is waiting for me here because we’ll be going to the library to continue our project. I saw her standing on the spot where we usually wait for each other. ”I’ll pick you up later. What time will you finish your class?” Elijah asked me. ”At two. But I’m not yet sure because we’re still working on a project.” He nodded when the car stopped fully. He immediately got out of the car. Before I could even open the door on my side, he already did it. I went out and his hands that guided me didn’t leave my consciousness. ”Message me then.” I nodded and bowed a little because I didn't want to stare at his handsome face. The wind is a bit strong and the way his hair gets blown by the wind makes him even more good looking.”I’ll go now.” I s
“So you’re telling me that he initiated that sexual tension for the first time?” Lulu curiously asked me, confirming what I just told her.Since it’s Saturday, I went to the library and helped her fix and dust some books. Because later, I’ll be going to Zoey’s house to finish our project.”Yes, I think so.” I answered Lulu.”And you both made up just the next morning?””No, days after.” I spat bitterly. “I don’t even know if that’s called made up. I didn’t agree to anything. He just wants to get everything in his own way.”She didn’t answer me, so I looked to her only to find out that she’s smiling ridiculously. I raised a brow at her.”What?”She chuckled and shook her head. “You know from the very start, based on your stories… Mr. Anderson seems to be a good man.