If you’ll ask me if I meant it. Yes.
I’ve been denying it all this time. Maybe it’s myself that I’ve been fooling all along. But this time I couldn’t bear to hide it anymore. If it’s the guilt that triggered me then I would say it’s a blessing in disguise.I glanced at him while he’s silently driving. This is the most nervous I’ve been since I’ve known him. Not when he’s mad. Not when I first met him but right now, at this moment.I’m too nervous. When I said that I liked him he didn’t say anything. He walked back and forth for minutes and then after, he commanded me to get inside his car. And now, for the whole trip, he’s muted.”A-are you gonna stay in your penthouse?” I asked nervously.His jaw moved. “Do you want me to?”I pressed my lips and sighed. He knows what’s the answer for that. He just wFuck this guilty pleasure. I’m here, acting like a complete thirsty woman who begs for his kisses and touch without actually saying it. By my actions, it seems like I’m initiating it all.I can feel our body heating up. My hands couldn’t find whatever it was looking for. My naughty hands just managed to grasp his hair because of too much tension going on.”Please,”I’m not sure if that’s supposed to be a moan or a pleading. He’s drunk, I know. But he’s acting sane while I was the one who’s acting more drunk than him.I reached for my cardigan and tried to remove it from my body without breaking our kiss. When I was half way there I felt him stop. I opened my eyes and stared at him confusedly while he rested his forehead into mine.”W-why…” I couldn’t continue.He’s panting heavily. He touched my cardigan and fixed it properly. My brows raised to that.”This is not it- This is…” He shook his head while rubbing my shoulders and ar
I woke up feeling light. Far from what I expected it to be. I thought I’ll wake up having mixed and confusing emotions. But for some reason, it seems like a slight twitch in my life happened.I opened my eyes and the first thing that I saw was the gray sheets covering my body. Though it gives me enough warmth, the body that’s wrapping over me couldn’t be more comfortable and cozy.My cheeks flushed when I saw his handsome face. His hair is a mess and you can’t see any hint of imperfections in his sleeping face. My eyes twinkled with so much amusement and fondness. How can he be this handsome while sleeping?I bit my lip, trying not to make any sound and being so careful with my movements because he might wake up. I checked myself under the sheets and saw that I’m wearing underwear already.I gulped when his naked body passed by mine. I sighed heavily and fixed the blanket again. I stared at his face again, and that’s when it registered to me that it
We celebrated his birthday after that. We went into a fancy restaurant and had our dinner. The mall is different from the mall we went to last time. The people are less and the surroundings are kind of calm and serene. I’m way more comfortable with this mall. Until Elijah told me that it’s not a mall. It’s a resort and casino.But why does it look like a mall, though? At least, I know now.Days flew like a whirlwind. I didn’t realize that the days with him became weeks and months. It’s great. He made me feel different. Like I’m special - something I never experienced before.”Holy shit-”I continued pumping myself on top of him. His palm is molding my breasts like a toy. I’m looking down on him and just by seeing his pleased face, I’m so thrilled.He just got home from work. We don’t do this often. I don’t know what triggered us to do this. The last thing I
“It’s been a while, Lulu. I’m sorry, I’ve been so busy with stuff lately.” I said to Lulu.She narrowed her eyes on me while she sipped on the frappe she ordered for us. Unlike the usual, we are not in the library. We met up in the first mall Elijah and I went to.I just had my classes done. We texted and agreed to meet here.”Yeah. I know right. It’s been quite a while.”She put emphasis on each word she uttered. I can’t help but to raise a brow. I’m still panting a bit because I just arrived.I checked my phone while removing my blazer and trying to put my curiosity on Lulu. I’m so stressed!Elijah doesn’t know I met with Lulu. But that’s fine. Sibal is with me. For sure he’ll know.”So, what are you up to these days? You told me you’re busy. Except for studies.” she signed her hands intimidatin
”Are you okay?” My doziness stopped when Elijah asked me. I looked at his face . He touched my hand that’s touching the ladle that’s mixing the soup I’m making for our dinner. I look at my hand that’s being caressed by him. ”You’re shaking.” he uttered under his breath. I chuckled awkwardly and let go of the ladle. He did the honor to do it. But I can still feel him glancing at me. Maybe wondering why I’m acting like this. ”Are you good? You’re hungry or tired?” I smiled lightly and shook my head. He narrowed his eyes on me. ”Something happened while you’re out?” I shook my head half-heartedly. I’m amazed by how he managed to sense that there’s something wrong with me. ”I guess you’re tired.” he smiled sincerely. I smiled back at him.He
If I have a memory about my mother, I vaguely remember. I was so young when my mother and father had their own strokes of life. All I can remember is her face, and that’s because of the single photo she has with me.I was shaking when I held the tiny photo beside the magazine that Angelo had given me. The woman at the magazine looks a bit different than my mother. She’s well dressed and her hair is up to her shoulders. She’s a bit slim as well compared to mom. But seeing her laugh lines and how her eyes spark as she looks at Elijah who’s the center of attention, my senses just came strongly to me saying that this is my mother.“She’s still alive?” I asked myself, alone in my room. “But why would Angelo give this to me?”He said I’m lacking research. For sure he won’t give this to me if this has nothing to do with Elijah. He wants to pursue me to help him have our re
It took us a while to get into the place we’re going to. At first I thought we’ll be going to the Lounge since that’s the only thing I knew. But Elijah told me that one of his friends just got back from the navy and their group of friends threw a party for that friend. .That’s one of the things I realized from Elijah. He has this extensive range of people around him. Aside from his friends and colleagues, he knows a lot of people, maybe because of business. And that’s the reason why I am so nervous right now that I’m with him.He is well known. You try to type his name in the search bar and you’ll see a lot of results. Of course, people would wonder how a person like me would be with someone as high as him.”Don’t be nervous. You’ve met some of them before.” he whispered as he brushed his lips to my ears.The house is almost above the hill. I saw cars parked at the extended
“Stop drinking baby. Your liquor tolerance is not that good.””Hmm-Hmm,” I hummed and shook my head.This should be a good night. After hearing all of that from Molly, I started to get a bit too overwhelmed. I just want to enjoy the moment. Every single drop of what’s right now and not about the future.The group became lesser and lesser as the night went deeper, since some had gone home already while some came out and partied with the people outside.”Should we go home now? You need to rest.”I shook my head again because of Elijah’s unending suggestions.”It’s Saturday tomorrow. We’re fine.” I said and sipped the lemon after a tequila shot.He hissed and groaned lightly watching me being a pain in his ass. I giggled and pinched his cheeks.”You’re drunk.” he said more to himself and not to me.&
”I can’t believe we’re back here again.” she said with wandering eyes, gracefully seated on the passenger seat.My lips protruded. I played with my lips as I stopped myself from pulling up the car and making out with her. God. How can she manage to be so goddamn beautiful without even trying? Is she purposely doing it to bewitch me more? Cause no need. I’m hell obsessed with her and even if she does nothing, I’m still gonna be head over heels with her. Gladly, we arrived at Long Beach without any delays. I mean, the sense of control that I had to possess. Phew~ “God. It’s been a while. I feel like so much has happened. This brings back the old days.” she spoke when she got out of the car.I encircled my arms to her waist because I’ve been dying to put my hands on her. Nothing, I just want to claim what’s mine. I just want her all the time.
”So you mean, you got back together without telling us?” Zoey asked me with her famous bitch face look. The three of us were left here after the ‘caught’ incident. Elijah greeted them and they were casual with each other. Well, Lulu is casual. Zoey’s a bit aloof and rugged in treating him. I gulped. Because I didn’t know the right answer. Half of it is true and half is not. ”See? You can’t answer.” she crossed her arms and rolled her eyes at me. Lulu is quick to butt in. “Let’s hear her first, Zoey.” ”What’s to hear if she had nothing to say?” I understand Zoey. I’m used to this kind of attitude of hers.“You’re right,” I started. I even heard Zoey say ‘See’ again. “I wasn’t able to tell you guys because things happened so fast. But no, we d-don’t ge
Because of Elijah’s little games, I can’t help but to feel awkward around Ms. Madrigal all day. It’s not that I have something against her, it’s just that I’m shy as we all have this little pretending thing that went on these past two days. We hadn’t talked about it since, so when the time of the day went, I started to step forward and background, whether I talk to her or not. I’m having second thoughts. ”Yes, Ms. Madrigal. That’s all you have for tomorrow.” I said as I reviewed her schedule. She nodded. “Great. That’s good to hear.” I smiled. Usually, after she acknowledges my review of her schedules, I would bid my goodbye already. But since I have these things going on inside my head, I stood on her side looking like a fool. When she sensed that, she glanced at me. My cheeks immediately flushed because of that.I bowed my head, feeling her intent
“Ah!” I screamed. Panting, I looked at my surroundings and saw that I’m in a car. Right. We’re on our way to buy some groceries.”What’s wrong? Everything’s okay?” Elijah curiously asked. Although I’m not sure with myself, I still nodded and smiled raw.Wait. Nothing bad happened to me these past few days. Why do my nightmares suddenly come back? ”Had a bad dream?” he asked. I didn’t answer and just concentrated on adjusting myself. I felt him eyeing me even when his eyes should be on the road. ”Eyes on the road, Elijah.” I said with a warning tone. ”I am asking you.” he answered with his more intimidating warning tone as well. I sighed heavily. The persistent Elijah as always. ”I’m used to it. Don’t worry.” I said. ”You’re used to it?”
Nothing happened. Elijah called a plumber who fixed the water pipes that night. He then went home late at night with his sulked face. We parted awkwardly and I overthought that whole night thinking I did something wrong. I didn’t do anything right? Not until he came inside the bathroom.“Ugh,” I groaned when I woke up. Sunday is supposed to be the day where I woke up with lots of sleep. But now, my head hurts because of thinking the whole night. Still can’t believe it. Am I just dreaming last night? No way.I checked my phone. No message from anybody. I went to the bathroom and looked at the new faucet. I sighed unconsciously. That is not a dream. I took a bath since it’s already late.I’m thinking of running some errands today, like doing grocery shopping because last night was just so embarrassing. For sure Elijah is not used to places like this. But I wasn’t able to think about
“E-Ej, I think, we still have a lot to talk about.” He nodded while his eyes re focused on the road. He’s driving and we’re both on our way to my apartment. Like what he said, he’s gonna take me home. The events are like whirlwind. Everything was just so fast and I can’t cope up with how things are going. It’s like I’m dreaming and I’m loosing some parts of that dream.“We’ll talk tomorrow. For now, you need to rest. I don’t want you depriving your sleep.” he uttered seriously. My lips parted as I look at him. I look at him with so much adoration. I can’t help but to feel so amuse and overwhelmed with what he just said. For a year, nobody told me that. I almost forgot the feeling of having someone to take care of you, to look after you. I fell into this pit of limitations and barriers, thinking that I don’t deserve all that. But here he is.
We stayed in that position for God knows how long. Him, holding my face while our forehead touched each other. My hands are on his chest and I’m just making the most out of the time. I feel at home. I feel like for the whole year I’ve deprived myself from the pain and aches, this is the only time I let myself down like this. At this moment, my pains are so sure; the reasons are clear, and I felt so free. In this world, there are these people that are home for you. Those people that are not just meant to stay for a short period of time but in the long term. And for that I think because those people are meant to give you lessons. You are meant to look for their purpose in your life. And I think his purpose is this. To make me feel safe, always. ”I-I… I don’t understand.” I said with a hoarse voice. ”You don’t have to. I just need your answer. Is one year enough? Or do I have to give you more?”
“I am not kidding, Elijah. I respect Ms. Madrigal as much as I respect your relationship. So please! Even if this doesn’t mean anything to you or you’re just trying to be casual to me, or whatever it is that’s inside your head, stop! Alright? “ I exclaimed. I just went all the way without actually thinking much of my words and just following what’s inside my mind.“How?” he asked.My brows shot up. “What?””How?” he asked again. “How can you say those words when your actions say otherwise?”I gulped and avoided his eyes. He knows.“You’re asking for me to go back but was that what you really wanted me to do?”I shut my eyes tight and shook my head. No, Emma. He’s just trying to get inside your head. You’re better than that. .“Elijah, please-”
That whole dinner is a pain in the ass. Who would stay sane when your ex is beside you while his recent girlfriend is on the other side. I was so doomed. He noticed that I’m gawking at his scent so much and that’s so embarrassing. What could he possibly think with those actions I gave him? He might think that I’m still crazy for him. I managed to hold myself until the second course of the menu. That conversation didn’t happen again, gladly. I tried to just focus on whatever it is that’s in front of me while I hear the small talks of the people around me. ”No, you’re allergic to that.” I heard Elijah.I pursed my lips. Even though my eyes are focused on the main dish that was served, my ears are fully indulged in the conversation of the two people on my right side. ”Oh, yeah. I forgot.” Ms. Madrigal laughed. I sniffed and used my fork to remove the vegetabl