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2024-10-29 19:42:56Amber
(Christmas day)
I could hear a commotion downstairs and strained my hearing to find out what was going on. It was yet another thing I regretted as I heard my father shouting, it didn’t take a genius to work out who was the recipient of that tirade and as frustrated as I felt he didn’t deserve to be on the receiving end of my Fathers anger.
I stood and paced my room, felling all kinds of anxious. Somehow, I had managed to make everything ten times worse with my outburst, but I just couldn’t help it. Somewhere over the last few months my infatuation with Roman had turned into full blown love and it was killing me. Seeing him every day, working with him, sleeping in the room next to him, when he clearly didn’t feel the same way.
God I really screwed everything up. I sat back on the bed, my hand on my stomach as the tears started to fall once again.
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