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17: What are you scared of?
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I can't sleep.
Not because Eric is right beside me, but because my latest revelation won't stop taunting me. It makes me feel stupid. No wonder Eric will never like me. I'll only be weighing him down.
This thought has had me up for a long while, only staring at Eric when he takes a deep breath. Why in the world did I think a guy like Eric will like someone like me? My brain cells aren't even complete, neither are my facial features something to write about.
If I'm a guy and I have to choose between myself and Mariam, I'll definitely go for Mariam. Not only is she beautiful, but her brain cells aren't as dormant as mine.
“You can't sleep?” Eric's voice startles me.
He inhales deeply as he turns over to lay on his side, his fist under his cheek.
“I
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