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2024-10-29 19:42:56I wish I never answered the call that came in a few hours later.
Eric left to submit his assignment to his course rep., so I had to go to the canteen alone. I'd just bought my food and taken two spoons when my phone rang.
The number was unknown. Unfamiliar. I assumed it was someone I knew. Someone I shouldn't miss their call. I should've known better.
“Hello.” I swallowed my food before saying.
“My beautiful.”
I froze. My heartbeat progressed to an erratic state as I struggled to believe what I heard. My heart pounded so hard, it desired a quick escape.
Mr Victor has been showing up for his classes these past few days, but I've always been abl
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